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an odd fascinantion for vampires as well,and it is a tinglely thought :), I
am slowly working on the rest as that annoying thing called real life
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In Deep
I awoke with something silken over me, I was groggy,how long had I been asleep, was the room a dream ,had I even been to Orthanc? all these questions assaulted me as my eyes struggled to focus on the surrounding around me. I half expected to fing myself in my rooms in Meduseld.
I was weak, not that I had been strong before and I was looking at a beautiful ivy swirrled bed post. "Thats new" I murmured in my half- awake state only to have hands again touch me, soft silken hands that smelled of Lilys of the Valley rested to my brow,as a mother would tend a sick child, I had no mother she had been lost to me when my father had taken me from her, Galmod was not a kind man.
"You are better?" a sweet musical voice asked me and I froze, I went cold then hot then cold again. My eyes widened as they settled on the woman leaning across the other side of the bed.It was that same magnificant creature I had dreamed, but apparently not dreamed and it was her hand that with drew from my brow. "I was concerned.." she said low " you seemed so lost, no one has ever gotten that lost when I took from them" she said quietly, she disturbed me but apparently I had disturbed her more.
"What do you mean?" I asked from parched lips that cracked and into the pocket of my robe my hand went for my handdkerchief.I dabbed lightly at the corner of my lips,the pale lace returned speckled with blood for my eyes to behold as I glanced between proof of my of fragileness and the girl who seemed equally as fragile.
"My ...bite...my gift is to allow a person to experience there hearts desires while I feed, it is in a way payment for what I take." she said in measured accented tones,she was looking to her hands, delicate with long sharp nails on them. Yet, as she was watching them I was watching her."You , you were unusual you curled into my arms and slept afterwards, usually afterwards most flee me,calling me a monster and or trying to destroy me for my shortcomings."
"Shortcomings?" I had to ask she was the single most lovely creature I had seen, her beauty was akin to that of the Sorceress of the Woods, and even then she seemed to exceed it, but prehaps it was the magic of her touch that caused me to feel impartial to her. "What short comings could one such as you possiably have?" I inquired.
"I did not always need to do this." she said as she stood and dragged the sheet with her, she had been by my side the whole time awaiting my awakening. She moved across the floor to pace. " I aided Luthien and I was punished for this, I lost alot of my powers and I became what you see before you now" she held out her hands again ,her arms holding the sheet to her. "Some beautiful creature, though I was not always so." she continued. "Prehaps the Valar smiled on me for my betrayal in the end or for saveing there beautiful Morning Star." she shook her head and added softly "One does not betray Melkor lightly."
All of this was before my time but like any student of the odd I had studied such things and I nodded. Though I asked before I thought,"How did you come to be here,beneath Orthanc?" once my curiosity is peeked I must have my answers.She gave me a rather irritable look and I felt fear but held my ground,amazeing for me,as I reflected on it.
"I had those who worshipped me " she said with a slight smile to ruby lips as hair slipped into her eyes as she continued. " I charmed one of the Istari to build me a room where no one would find me,and then they built Orthanc ontop of that, apparently." she explained as she opened the hallway door to peer out, "I smell orc." she stated flatly a dangerous look coming over her features.
"Master Saurman breed them Mi'lady Thuringwethil" I hurriedly said and managed to get myself from the reclined postion on the bed,in a flutter of robes I went to her,to touch her arm, I feared for her I realized and it was a startling revelation."Saurman is not a kind man when his will is thwarted.." I whispered,I had been beat before for some imagined fault in something he was doing and I couldn't bear this fair creature to fall under his wrath.
"Why don't you let me bring you something to eat?" I offered in a hurry wanting to keep her secret from him, prehaps I felt she was mine. I was obessing over another woman this one was so much older then I was and the other was younger,I sighed I could not help the way that I was and I wanted to please her to make her happy,Eowyn had never given me the time of day, this woman was -something else.
"I think " she said and my heart sank."I would like to go out for a bit." saying this she turned to reguard me with those flashing golden eyes,though what ever powers they held,she did not use to sway me, instead there was general warmth within them and she waited for me,when I started past she took my arm, like I was someone important and that caused me to blush brightly,thankfully she pretended not to notice.
The meeting with Saurman went far diffrently then I had expected it to, I feared she would be dominated by his will and just another of his pawns, yet deep down I knew I feared she would fancy his power and turn those beautiful eyes away from me, my sun burning in the night.
I had given her a spare set of robes, the black material clung and fell in a beautiful way,a way it never did on me. Her red hair I had braided back for her in a multi strand braid, she had teased me about being good with my hands and I had blushed even brighter and said nothing only finshed helping her. It was nothing I had not done before, my mother had taught me how to run a house it was her skills that I inherited not my father's.
His crystaline eyes settled over her form, he found her fair as well I could tell. "Who have you brought here Worm?" he demanded in an indignant voice,though he never once looked to me his attention captured by her, as mine had been as well.I was about to answer when she spoke up.
"His name is Grima.." she said softly "Not Worm..." I now looked to her as well, there was a faint glow to her cheeks and her head was tilted lightly to the side, swan like and graceful. "he whom the elves call Curunir!" she said with a slight sneer to her lips and she moved foward gracefully herhand motioning about her slightly. "So you believe Orthanc to be yours, you are right but I was here before this was built I think you know that as well don't you my fallen companion?" she inquired.
Saurman had an in-take of breath and then a slow smile spread over his face. "Mi'lady how could I possiablely forget you, you have changed you are far lovelier then the books give you credit for." he said with a smirk.
She didn't seemed swayed by this and I didn't want harm to come to her, I moved foward prehaps intending to cause him distraction,but either way I found myself between my..what could I call her,I realized in my mind I labeled her as my own and thought Saurman had a way with words, so to did I. "Prehaps my lady, would like something to eat, Master Saurman...it would be rude not to show your guest kindness." I managed,though I felt small with both of these powerful being's watching me like a hawk, I felt like a little mouse.
"I see that Curumo forgets himself." she called him by a name I had never heard aligned to him and he seemed to shrink before that and nodded his head as though in acknowledgement."Flinging insults is not for the likes of us" she said as she reach foward to touch his white sleeve. "Old though you are, you hold but a candles flame to my age,"Angband was once my area " she said this was a mystery to me and I listened intently until sent to fetch food and wine, surpriseingly it was not Saurman I looked to for premission but Thurinwethil.
She nodded her head to me and caressed a cheek,it lit a fire and memories of her biteing me came back,left me breathless all I could do was nod my head and hurry to do as I was bidden. "You have charmed my Worm" came the cross voice of Saurman followed by a low murmur of "He was never yours to begin with!" then I was out of rang to hear anything.
For hours they talked though she never once ignored me,includeing me in the conversations and was impressed by my intellectual capability. Saurman was surpriseingly giveing to her,as though he held a grudgeing respect for her,though I could also read hatred in his eyes. When she pleaded off rest, Saurman gave me a evil glance and offered me to her. " Then for your comfort if you would like Grima,he may be useful to you." she glared I was stunned.
"He is his own person..." she began with a angry shake of her head and started to say more but Saurman held up his hand and looked into her eyes.
"He is bewitched by you, as you can not bewitch me, do not try to deny it Lady, for it is written over his face how he despises me for even looking at you, that is the effects of a charmed person." he stated matter of factually.
Was I looking at him as though I would kill him and if so why? I glanced down to find my hand had indeed slid into where I kept my hidden blade, I blanched at the thought I would attack Saurman. Quickly I placed that hand under my arm before it could do anything.
Thruingwethil turned to me and said in a rather clipped voice "If you wish to stay you may" she nodding her head and my heart pounded in my chest, how could she do that to me, I thought only Eowyn could make my heart ache like that, Eowyn who was so far away in Rohan, and would give me narry a kind word or look, and here I was in my master's home with one of the loveliest creatures who seemed so kind and wanting me to be happy, it was unreal and I felt as though I was going through a dream.
I bowed slightly and for once this honeyed tongue actually worked in her presence,"I would be honored of the company my lady for you sure have bewitched me, and who is to say it is not a willingly accepted one?" I murmured hopeing to ease her concerns of what Saurman had said, and it was a small triumph to see the look on Saurman's face as I departed with Thuringwethil, for once I had something not him, it felt good, though I knew I should wary that feeling of power being near her gave me.
"What did you speak of with Saurman?" I asked once she was in my own chambers, the room was done in darks I can not stand the light of day, it burns my sensitive eyes a bit,though not to the point I can not stand it, I also found her fearful of the light, she hid behind me her arms slideing around my thin waist and her face was buried in my hair as I accidently unwittingly opened the window,feeling prehaps she would enjoy the breeze.
"Saruman plans to join with Sauron to take over Middle Earth as it is known.." she spoke to me softly as I quickly drew heave black drapes over the window and turned to her, she was still resplendid in my black robes. "He...is breeding things even Sauron has no knowledge of deep in his pits." she added " I think he has gone power mad, he wishes to forge rings as well,ones that would out shine even the One True Ring.." her tone was morbid as she spoke to me. "Sauron wishes to destroy everything and Saurmon wishes to lord over it all" she said as she looked guarded towards the window I was infront of,I stepped away from it nd she seemed more at ease.
"What does he plan to breed down there?" I had to know, I wanted to but I didn't want to and I had spoken the words before I could take them back again. She was most enlightening when it came to Saurman, and prehaps for being so ill treated for so long ,knowing his plans and haveing a mind capable of thwarting them gave me great pleasure.
"Uruk-hai with flame and shadows.." she said from where she was sitting primly on the bed. I went cold again, those words scared me. I had learned more of the Balrogs then I had wanted to know , and that was why Saurman had the books opened on his desk, now it made so much sense.
"No!" I said wide eyed." He can't do that...Thuringwethil he can't do that, the creatures of flame and shadow call no one master." I began as I moved to kneel in front of her."They would destroy everything.." I whimpered "Everything.." I was in tears at this point and she held me there quietly saying nothing for a long while. "You,you can't allow him to do this." I said wondering where this sudden urge to protect came from,when I had been oh so willing before to cause its end.
"I can not stop him,I am just a messenger Grima" she purred my name and that gave me chills in the most delightful way,a way that would distract me were I not so insistant. "I fear that he plans to go over Sauron's head and try to draw the essence of Melkor to him.." she explained.
"He told you all this ?" I asked amazed as he was always so secretive with me,he rarely told me anything unless it was something to serve him better.The her features took on an impish look and she shook her head lightly.
"Nay, he didn't tell me,he wanted to keep it from me" She said "but I can read minds, he didn't recall that" she looked sleepy and crawled into the bed curling into a small ball."He thought by keeping me distracted with other things I wouldn't notice,but I am a messenger and its my job to deliever information,so I know things.."she explained.
She was tired I moved to cover her up,I still had much to think on and my neck hurt, my fingers absently went to the side of my neck, her mark on my flesh was still there where she had bit me,though it didn't bleed,I raised the golden ruff of my under robe to cover it and sat infront of the fire place to ponder these things, if I slept that night it was a troubled sleep,filled with visions of demon like Uruk-Hai.
I awoke when she came to me, the embers of the fire were burned low and then went out as I watched them, She said nothing, nothing needed be said.She was not there to harm me or to feed, she justed curled around me like some great cat and slept there contently.When I quietly asked her."Why are you here with me?" it was something I needed to know and wanted an answer to,her answer touched me and brought tears to my eyes.
"No one deserves to be alone" her voice whispery as though afraid to break the peace of the night.
"I am not a hero,in fact I am rather vile,but I do not wish this is there anything I can do to stop it ?" finally I asked unable to bear the not knowing as visions of Saurman's past tortures of me came to mind, it would only get worse. So yes I wanted to do this for me and prehaps for this lovely creature,this led to my final question to her for this night. "I thought you were of Shadow, Wethi..." I had given her a pet name and not noticed it.
"Go on like you know nothing until I can gather more information,return to Rohan as Saurman would have you and do his bidding for now, and as for why am I helping, it is not so much that I am a hero as well, we all can't be hero's then who would the good guys oppose?" she asked softly. "I lost a good deal of myself and my power when Luthian took my cloak, it was a weight off, and my beauty only returned after offering aid to the half maia,I do not consider myself evil but I must live off other's so I am not good either,I am Thuringwethil and that is all I can say as way of explinantion. " for now it was good enough and I rested, tomarrow I would return to Rohan.
In Deep
I awoke with something silken over me, I was groggy,how long had I been asleep, was the room a dream ,had I even been to Orthanc? all these questions assaulted me as my eyes struggled to focus on the surrounding around me. I half expected to fing myself in my rooms in Meduseld.
I was weak, not that I had been strong before and I was looking at a beautiful ivy swirrled bed post. "Thats new" I murmured in my half- awake state only to have hands again touch me, soft silken hands that smelled of Lilys of the Valley rested to my brow,as a mother would tend a sick child, I had no mother she had been lost to me when my father had taken me from her, Galmod was not a kind man.
"You are better?" a sweet musical voice asked me and I froze, I went cold then hot then cold again. My eyes widened as they settled on the woman leaning across the other side of the bed.It was that same magnificant creature I had dreamed, but apparently not dreamed and it was her hand that with drew from my brow. "I was concerned.." she said low " you seemed so lost, no one has ever gotten that lost when I took from them" she said quietly, she disturbed me but apparently I had disturbed her more.
"What do you mean?" I asked from parched lips that cracked and into the pocket of my robe my hand went for my handdkerchief.I dabbed lightly at the corner of my lips,the pale lace returned speckled with blood for my eyes to behold as I glanced between proof of my of fragileness and the girl who seemed equally as fragile.
"My ...bite...my gift is to allow a person to experience there hearts desires while I feed, it is in a way payment for what I take." she said in measured accented tones,she was looking to her hands, delicate with long sharp nails on them. Yet, as she was watching them I was watching her."You , you were unusual you curled into my arms and slept afterwards, usually afterwards most flee me,calling me a monster and or trying to destroy me for my shortcomings."
"Shortcomings?" I had to ask she was the single most lovely creature I had seen, her beauty was akin to that of the Sorceress of the Woods, and even then she seemed to exceed it, but prehaps it was the magic of her touch that caused me to feel impartial to her. "What short comings could one such as you possiably have?" I inquired.
"I did not always need to do this." she said as she stood and dragged the sheet with her, she had been by my side the whole time awaiting my awakening. She moved across the floor to pace. " I aided Luthien and I was punished for this, I lost alot of my powers and I became what you see before you now" she held out her hands again ,her arms holding the sheet to her. "Some beautiful creature, though I was not always so." she continued. "Prehaps the Valar smiled on me for my betrayal in the end or for saveing there beautiful Morning Star." she shook her head and added softly "One does not betray Melkor lightly."
All of this was before my time but like any student of the odd I had studied such things and I nodded. Though I asked before I thought,"How did you come to be here,beneath Orthanc?" once my curiosity is peeked I must have my answers.She gave me a rather irritable look and I felt fear but held my ground,amazeing for me,as I reflected on it.
"I had those who worshipped me " she said with a slight smile to ruby lips as hair slipped into her eyes as she continued. " I charmed one of the Istari to build me a room where no one would find me,and then they built Orthanc ontop of that, apparently." she explained as she opened the hallway door to peer out, "I smell orc." she stated flatly a dangerous look coming over her features.
"Master Saurman breed them Mi'lady Thuringwethil" I hurriedly said and managed to get myself from the reclined postion on the bed,in a flutter of robes I went to her,to touch her arm, I feared for her I realized and it was a startling revelation."Saurman is not a kind man when his will is thwarted.." I whispered,I had been beat before for some imagined fault in something he was doing and I couldn't bear this fair creature to fall under his wrath.
"Why don't you let me bring you something to eat?" I offered in a hurry wanting to keep her secret from him, prehaps I felt she was mine. I was obessing over another woman this one was so much older then I was and the other was younger,I sighed I could not help the way that I was and I wanted to please her to make her happy,Eowyn had never given me the time of day, this woman was -something else.
"I think " she said and my heart sank."I would like to go out for a bit." saying this she turned to reguard me with those flashing golden eyes,though what ever powers they held,she did not use to sway me, instead there was general warmth within them and she waited for me,when I started past she took my arm, like I was someone important and that caused me to blush brightly,thankfully she pretended not to notice.
The meeting with Saurman went far diffrently then I had expected it to, I feared she would be dominated by his will and just another of his pawns, yet deep down I knew I feared she would fancy his power and turn those beautiful eyes away from me, my sun burning in the night.
I had given her a spare set of robes, the black material clung and fell in a beautiful way,a way it never did on me. Her red hair I had braided back for her in a multi strand braid, she had teased me about being good with my hands and I had blushed even brighter and said nothing only finshed helping her. It was nothing I had not done before, my mother had taught me how to run a house it was her skills that I inherited not my father's.
His crystaline eyes settled over her form, he found her fair as well I could tell. "Who have you brought here Worm?" he demanded in an indignant voice,though he never once looked to me his attention captured by her, as mine had been as well.I was about to answer when she spoke up.
"His name is Grima.." she said softly "Not Worm..." I now looked to her as well, there was a faint glow to her cheeks and her head was tilted lightly to the side, swan like and graceful. "he whom the elves call Curunir!" she said with a slight sneer to her lips and she moved foward gracefully herhand motioning about her slightly. "So you believe Orthanc to be yours, you are right but I was here before this was built I think you know that as well don't you my fallen companion?" she inquired.
Saurman had an in-take of breath and then a slow smile spread over his face. "Mi'lady how could I possiablely forget you, you have changed you are far lovelier then the books give you credit for." he said with a smirk.
She didn't seemed swayed by this and I didn't want harm to come to her, I moved foward prehaps intending to cause him distraction,but either way I found myself between my..what could I call her,I realized in my mind I labeled her as my own and thought Saurman had a way with words, so to did I. "Prehaps my lady, would like something to eat, Master Saurman...it would be rude not to show your guest kindness." I managed,though I felt small with both of these powerful being's watching me like a hawk, I felt like a little mouse.
"I see that Curumo forgets himself." she called him by a name I had never heard aligned to him and he seemed to shrink before that and nodded his head as though in acknowledgement."Flinging insults is not for the likes of us" she said as she reach foward to touch his white sleeve. "Old though you are, you hold but a candles flame to my age,"Angband was once my area " she said this was a mystery to me and I listened intently until sent to fetch food and wine, surpriseingly it was not Saurman I looked to for premission but Thurinwethil.
She nodded her head to me and caressed a cheek,it lit a fire and memories of her biteing me came back,left me breathless all I could do was nod my head and hurry to do as I was bidden. "You have charmed my Worm" came the cross voice of Saurman followed by a low murmur of "He was never yours to begin with!" then I was out of rang to hear anything.
For hours they talked though she never once ignored me,includeing me in the conversations and was impressed by my intellectual capability. Saurman was surpriseingly giveing to her,as though he held a grudgeing respect for her,though I could also read hatred in his eyes. When she pleaded off rest, Saurman gave me a evil glance and offered me to her. " Then for your comfort if you would like Grima,he may be useful to you." she glared I was stunned.
"He is his own person..." she began with a angry shake of her head and started to say more but Saurman held up his hand and looked into her eyes.
"He is bewitched by you, as you can not bewitch me, do not try to deny it Lady, for it is written over his face how he despises me for even looking at you, that is the effects of a charmed person." he stated matter of factually.
Was I looking at him as though I would kill him and if so why? I glanced down to find my hand had indeed slid into where I kept my hidden blade, I blanched at the thought I would attack Saurman. Quickly I placed that hand under my arm before it could do anything.
Thruingwethil turned to me and said in a rather clipped voice "If you wish to stay you may" she nodding her head and my heart pounded in my chest, how could she do that to me, I thought only Eowyn could make my heart ache like that, Eowyn who was so far away in Rohan, and would give me narry a kind word or look, and here I was in my master's home with one of the loveliest creatures who seemed so kind and wanting me to be happy, it was unreal and I felt as though I was going through a dream.
I bowed slightly and for once this honeyed tongue actually worked in her presence,"I would be honored of the company my lady for you sure have bewitched me, and who is to say it is not a willingly accepted one?" I murmured hopeing to ease her concerns of what Saurman had said, and it was a small triumph to see the look on Saurman's face as I departed with Thuringwethil, for once I had something not him, it felt good, though I knew I should wary that feeling of power being near her gave me.
"What did you speak of with Saurman?" I asked once she was in my own chambers, the room was done in darks I can not stand the light of day, it burns my sensitive eyes a bit,though not to the point I can not stand it, I also found her fearful of the light, she hid behind me her arms slideing around my thin waist and her face was buried in my hair as I accidently unwittingly opened the window,feeling prehaps she would enjoy the breeze.
"Saruman plans to join with Sauron to take over Middle Earth as it is known.." she spoke to me softly as I quickly drew heave black drapes over the window and turned to her, she was still resplendid in my black robes. "He...is breeding things even Sauron has no knowledge of deep in his pits." she added " I think he has gone power mad, he wishes to forge rings as well,ones that would out shine even the One True Ring.." her tone was morbid as she spoke to me. "Sauron wishes to destroy everything and Saurmon wishes to lord over it all" she said as she looked guarded towards the window I was infront of,I stepped away from it nd she seemed more at ease.
"What does he plan to breed down there?" I had to know, I wanted to but I didn't want to and I had spoken the words before I could take them back again. She was most enlightening when it came to Saurman, and prehaps for being so ill treated for so long ,knowing his plans and haveing a mind capable of thwarting them gave me great pleasure.
"Uruk-hai with flame and shadows.." she said from where she was sitting primly on the bed. I went cold again, those words scared me. I had learned more of the Balrogs then I had wanted to know , and that was why Saurman had the books opened on his desk, now it made so much sense.
"No!" I said wide eyed." He can't do that...Thuringwethil he can't do that, the creatures of flame and shadow call no one master." I began as I moved to kneel in front of her."They would destroy everything.." I whimpered "Everything.." I was in tears at this point and she held me there quietly saying nothing for a long while. "You,you can't allow him to do this." I said wondering where this sudden urge to protect came from,when I had been oh so willing before to cause its end.
"I can not stop him,I am just a messenger Grima" she purred my name and that gave me chills in the most delightful way,a way that would distract me were I not so insistant. "I fear that he plans to go over Sauron's head and try to draw the essence of Melkor to him.." she explained.
"He told you all this ?" I asked amazed as he was always so secretive with me,he rarely told me anything unless it was something to serve him better.The her features took on an impish look and she shook her head lightly.
"Nay, he didn't tell me,he wanted to keep it from me" She said "but I can read minds, he didn't recall that" she looked sleepy and crawled into the bed curling into a small ball."He thought by keeping me distracted with other things I wouldn't notice,but I am a messenger and its my job to deliever information,so I know things.."she explained.
She was tired I moved to cover her up,I still had much to think on and my neck hurt, my fingers absently went to the side of my neck, her mark on my flesh was still there where she had bit me,though it didn't bleed,I raised the golden ruff of my under robe to cover it and sat infront of the fire place to ponder these things, if I slept that night it was a troubled sleep,filled with visions of demon like Uruk-Hai.
I awoke when she came to me, the embers of the fire were burned low and then went out as I watched them, She said nothing, nothing needed be said.She was not there to harm me or to feed, she justed curled around me like some great cat and slept there contently.When I quietly asked her."Why are you here with me?" it was something I needed to know and wanted an answer to,her answer touched me and brought tears to my eyes.
"No one deserves to be alone" her voice whispery as though afraid to break the peace of the night.
"I am not a hero,in fact I am rather vile,but I do not wish this is there anything I can do to stop it ?" finally I asked unable to bear the not knowing as visions of Saurman's past tortures of me came to mind, it would only get worse. So yes I wanted to do this for me and prehaps for this lovely creature,this led to my final question to her for this night. "I thought you were of Shadow, Wethi..." I had given her a pet name and not noticed it.
"Go on like you know nothing until I can gather more information,return to Rohan as Saurman would have you and do his bidding for now, and as for why am I helping, it is not so much that I am a hero as well, we all can't be hero's then who would the good guys oppose?" she asked softly. "I lost a good deal of myself and my power when Luthian took my cloak, it was a weight off, and my beauty only returned after offering aid to the half maia,I do not consider myself evil but I must live off other's so I am not good either,I am Thuringwethil and that is all I can say as way of explinantion. " for now it was good enough and I rested, tomarrow I would return to Rohan.