So far from the first chapter.
went back home, got ready for bed, and was prayed a short prayer, asking God
to truly help me in this relationship where God would be more than my Provider,
he'd be my Counselor, my friend, my lover, my father, my just-everything. I got
into bed and turned off the light. I clearly heard the Holy Spirit telling me to pray.
It was late, and I really didn't feel like it. So I ignored it. (bad idea). But, I just
couldn't get comfortable falling asleep. I felt really hot, and I just couldn't sleep. I
heard the Holy Spirit once again, telling me that God wanted to hear my voice, he
wanted to hear me talk. So I got back out of bed, turned on the light and started
pacing and praying about this relationship, school, everything, for about a good
30 minutes. I was satisfied, and went back into bed. I was just starting to get
comfortable when- I heard the Holy Spirit again.. "How much do you love me?"
I said, "I love you with all of my mind, heart, and soul"
"Then why can't you pray for me?" came the reply I dreaded.
I sighed, looked back at the clock. Almost midnight. It was still pretty early, I
guess, but still. I tried to ignore the voice and tried to count backwards slowly
from a 100 (it always works) but I just couldn't get sleepy. I heard the voice
, "Do you love me or not?"
"I do," I said.
"Then get up once more." The Holy Spirit urged me. I did not feel like getting up.
If I wanted to wake up, I would have to turn on the light, which was waaay over
there and, well I was just lazy. But I wondered if God ever felt like answering
prayers, and how he is always faithful. So I dragged myself out of bed and began
to pace and pray. Probably another good 30 minutes, I could already feel the
Holy Spirit. I turned off the light and got ready to sleep. Everything was well
until I had to go to the restroom. I tried to hold it in but it was bugging me.
Why couldn't I just go to sleep? I was very annoyed. I rolled out of bed once
and went to the restroom. As I was coming back, I heard the Holy Spirit speak
and tell me to pray again. I again tried to ignore it but I knew I would do it
sooner or later, so I decided to pray. As I was praying, I heard the spirit say
he was proud of me and that after this I could go to sleep now. So I was like,
"ok, this is the last time so I better make the most of it." After about 40 more
minutes, I was excited to sleep.
I was almost falling asleep when I hear the Holy Spirit again. This time
he's saying, "read the bible." I said, "but I thought that was the last time!!"
"Is that how much you love me?" came the question.
I didn't want to answer. I had already woken up three times to pray, it was
Almost 2 am, and I was sleepy. But I went to get my bible and decided to
Read in bed. Then after I was finished, I could just drop the bible on the floor
And sleep. Ingenious idea! So I go to get my bible and get back into bed when
I hear Holy Spirit saying, " Don't read from your bed."
"WHAT?" I asked.
"Don't read from your bed." The voice ordered again.
I was debating in my mind. Should I sacrifice this time for the Lord and get
Blessed and or sleep right now and kill the spirit? The answer was obvious. ............
More coming in chapter 3!!!
went back home, got ready for bed, and was prayed a short prayer, asking God
to truly help me in this relationship where God would be more than my Provider,
he'd be my Counselor, my friend, my lover, my father, my just-everything. I got
into bed and turned off the light. I clearly heard the Holy Spirit telling me to pray.
It was late, and I really didn't feel like it. So I ignored it. (bad idea). But, I just
couldn't get comfortable falling asleep. I felt really hot, and I just couldn't sleep. I
heard the Holy Spirit once again, telling me that God wanted to hear my voice, he
wanted to hear me talk. So I got back out of bed, turned on the light and started
pacing and praying about this relationship, school, everything, for about a good
30 minutes. I was satisfied, and went back into bed. I was just starting to get
comfortable when- I heard the Holy Spirit again.. "How much do you love me?"
I said, "I love you with all of my mind, heart, and soul"
"Then why can't you pray for me?" came the reply I dreaded.
I sighed, looked back at the clock. Almost midnight. It was still pretty early, I
guess, but still. I tried to ignore the voice and tried to count backwards slowly
from a 100 (it always works) but I just couldn't get sleepy. I heard the voice
, "Do you love me or not?"
"I do," I said.
"Then get up once more." The Holy Spirit urged me. I did not feel like getting up.
If I wanted to wake up, I would have to turn on the light, which was waaay over
there and, well I was just lazy. But I wondered if God ever felt like answering
prayers, and how he is always faithful. So I dragged myself out of bed and began
to pace and pray. Probably another good 30 minutes, I could already feel the
Holy Spirit. I turned off the light and got ready to sleep. Everything was well
until I had to go to the restroom. I tried to hold it in but it was bugging me.
Why couldn't I just go to sleep? I was very annoyed. I rolled out of bed once
and went to the restroom. As I was coming back, I heard the Holy Spirit speak
and tell me to pray again. I again tried to ignore it but I knew I would do it
sooner or later, so I decided to pray. As I was praying, I heard the spirit say
he was proud of me and that after this I could go to sleep now. So I was like,
"ok, this is the last time so I better make the most of it." After about 40 more
minutes, I was excited to sleep.
I was almost falling asleep when I hear the Holy Spirit again. This time
he's saying, "read the bible." I said, "but I thought that was the last time!!"
"Is that how much you love me?" came the question.
I didn't want to answer. I had already woken up three times to pray, it was
Almost 2 am, and I was sleepy. But I went to get my bible and decided to
Read in bed. Then after I was finished, I could just drop the bible on the floor
And sleep. Ingenious idea! So I go to get my bible and get back into bed when
I hear Holy Spirit saying, " Don't read from your bed."
"WHAT?" I asked.
"Don't read from your bed." The voice ordered again.
I was debating in my mind. Should I sacrifice this time for the Lord and get
Blessed and or sleep right now and kill the spirit? The answer was obvious. ............
More coming in chapter 3!!!