Disclaimer: Well I don't own Gilmore girls. . So please don't sue me cause
I'm 16 and I have nothing worth value!
Paring: Hmmm let me think..????
Spoilers: Maybe. It does but doesn't follow the story line.
A/N: And now we move on ladies and gentlemen to a very important chapter
in my story!!! Will it be sad? Can't say. Will it be happy? Can't say. Will
it make you want to pull your eyeballs out with your bare hands.??? I don't
know!!! But read on if you dare!!! The idea about Shane, there will be..
Drum roll please. a Shane!! Okay anywho on with the story.
Everything
Chapter Five: All Mixed up
Rory's eyes slowly opened. The warm summer sun shinned on her face threw her window. She closed her eyes and tried to go back to sleep. Today Dean was coming back. She felt sick to her stomach with guilt. Not just because of what happened a few months ago, but the though of having to lie to him everyday was more the she could comprehend. She didn't want to lie. Didn't want to hurt him either. She just wanted to sleep. Suddenly she he a loud thump from upstairs and smiled. In seconds Lorelai was down stairs bouncing up and down on her bed.
"Luke's!" Rory pulled her covers over he head and groaned. Lorelai had had enough. Being serious she sat down on Rory's bed and looked at the lump hiding under the blanket. "Rory what's up with Luke's? I mean for days you beg me to talk to Luke and now I cant even get you within two hundred feet of the place. Are you mad at Luke?"
"No." Rory didn't move the covers as she felt the tears. She had to tell her mom. "Mom I can tell you anything right." Lorelai smiled.
"Of course sweetheart. Now what's bugging you?" Lorelai heard a loud sigh. She could tell Rory was fighting tears.
"I. I kissed Jess." Suddenly the covers were gone and Lorelai was holding them her hand.
"What? You kissed Jess! What do you mean you kissed Jess? Did he kiss you or did you kiss him?"
"Both." A tear slid down her cheek, as she felt smaller.
"Okay so your guys kissed each other and it was a one time thing so."
"Twice." Lorelai just looked at her waiting for an explanation. Finally after a few seconds of fighting back the tears she started. "Okay earlier this year Dean and I have been well Dean and I. I have tried so many different times to make it good. Like it used to be but after a few months I was just so tired of trying to make something be there, that wasn't there, that I don't even think was there in the first place. Wow! Now that was a run-on sentence. So then there was Jess and I mean there was everything there. He just made me so happy. So last year when he came back I saw him a Sookie's wedding. He was standing there and I remember thinking this is it. This is what makes me happy. So I kissed him. After a few seconds it hit me and I ran away. Then you know the Friday night we told grandma and grandpa I was leaving well I didn't see Lane. I went to the diner and saw Jess. We decided to end it and he kissed me goodbye. I though no on would ever except me if I weren't little miss perfect. But now I think I made a huge mistake because mom." she let the tears fall as she fell into her mothers arms, "it. it hurts so bad. I mean I love this guy and I can't be with him. Its all my stupid fault." Lorelai started stroking Rory's head as she cried.
"Rory you know what you have to do right." Rory looked up at her Mom with a questioning face. "Rory you have to do what makes you happy."
"Mom you hate Jess." Lorelai smiled and hugged her daughter.
"I know and I don't think he is a good choice but if he makes you happy then that's what I want."
"I don't want to hurt Dean. I mean I don't love him but id never want to hurt him."
"I think lying to him is worse the breaking up with him. Now listen we can't avoid Luke's for as long as needed but Rory I think you should tell everyone the truth soon because look at you. Your stressed out and obviously not happy. Plus you haven't had a Luke's coffee hit in almost three months"
"Yeah. Well I'm gonna go take a shower. I'm sorry for not telling you."
"Its okay babe. As long as your happy and for the record crazy. I mean sweetheart Jess?"
"Mom I don't even know sometimes. All I know is I want to be with him." Rory walked towards the bathroom. Lorelai just sat on her bed looking around. All of her daughter's things were in this one room. Memories filled her mind. Her first book. Her elementary graduation diploma. Her Harvard junk. She held back a few tears. Her daughter was in love. The real kind of love. The kind that she new was never there for Dean. The kind that drove you crazy. The kind that people dreamed for. God help her.
Rory took a deep breath. The warm summer air filled her lungs as she inhaled. She smiled slightly. She felt better that she had told her mom. She new Lorelai was more upset then she showed but Rory was thankful she didn't blow up at her. She was getting closer to Lane's house when something caught her eye. 'Gosh you think people would get a room.' She tried not looking at the couple against the wall but something made her stare. She could see the girl was blond. Really blond and the guy had dark brown hair. She was about to turn the other way when something else caught her eye. A book, in his back pocket. 'No.' She stood dead still afraid to move. As the girl turned the guy and pined him against the wall she saw him. She couldn't breath. She couldn't think.
She stepped back and off the curb. She was in the street and didn't see the car coming. The driver honked and Rory jumped out of the way. Her eyes never moved. Jess looked up and saw her. She was searching his eyes for something. Nothing. She turned on her heel and started to walk home. One step. Another step. Another. Another. Another. She was running now. She couldn't stop thinking about it.
A basket. A car ride. A record store. A kiss. A diner on a stormy night. Blue on brown. Brown on blue. Salty tears. A loving touch. A painful memory. A love that was lost.
A/N: Okay kiddies PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And your presents full of love are hear, well soon will be. I am almost done with a R/J short and its good. real good!!! I you review I will try to finish it faster!!!!^_^
Everything
Chapter Five: All Mixed up
Rory's eyes slowly opened. The warm summer sun shinned on her face threw her window. She closed her eyes and tried to go back to sleep. Today Dean was coming back. She felt sick to her stomach with guilt. Not just because of what happened a few months ago, but the though of having to lie to him everyday was more the she could comprehend. She didn't want to lie. Didn't want to hurt him either. She just wanted to sleep. Suddenly she he a loud thump from upstairs and smiled. In seconds Lorelai was down stairs bouncing up and down on her bed.
"Luke's!" Rory pulled her covers over he head and groaned. Lorelai had had enough. Being serious she sat down on Rory's bed and looked at the lump hiding under the blanket. "Rory what's up with Luke's? I mean for days you beg me to talk to Luke and now I cant even get you within two hundred feet of the place. Are you mad at Luke?"
"No." Rory didn't move the covers as she felt the tears. She had to tell her mom. "Mom I can tell you anything right." Lorelai smiled.
"Of course sweetheart. Now what's bugging you?" Lorelai heard a loud sigh. She could tell Rory was fighting tears.
"I. I kissed Jess." Suddenly the covers were gone and Lorelai was holding them her hand.
"What? You kissed Jess! What do you mean you kissed Jess? Did he kiss you or did you kiss him?"
"Both." A tear slid down her cheek, as she felt smaller.
"Okay so your guys kissed each other and it was a one time thing so."
"Twice." Lorelai just looked at her waiting for an explanation. Finally after a few seconds of fighting back the tears she started. "Okay earlier this year Dean and I have been well Dean and I. I have tried so many different times to make it good. Like it used to be but after a few months I was just so tired of trying to make something be there, that wasn't there, that I don't even think was there in the first place. Wow! Now that was a run-on sentence. So then there was Jess and I mean there was everything there. He just made me so happy. So last year when he came back I saw him a Sookie's wedding. He was standing there and I remember thinking this is it. This is what makes me happy. So I kissed him. After a few seconds it hit me and I ran away. Then you know the Friday night we told grandma and grandpa I was leaving well I didn't see Lane. I went to the diner and saw Jess. We decided to end it and he kissed me goodbye. I though no on would ever except me if I weren't little miss perfect. But now I think I made a huge mistake because mom." she let the tears fall as she fell into her mothers arms, "it. it hurts so bad. I mean I love this guy and I can't be with him. Its all my stupid fault." Lorelai started stroking Rory's head as she cried.
"Rory you know what you have to do right." Rory looked up at her Mom with a questioning face. "Rory you have to do what makes you happy."
"Mom you hate Jess." Lorelai smiled and hugged her daughter.
"I know and I don't think he is a good choice but if he makes you happy then that's what I want."
"I don't want to hurt Dean. I mean I don't love him but id never want to hurt him."
"I think lying to him is worse the breaking up with him. Now listen we can't avoid Luke's for as long as needed but Rory I think you should tell everyone the truth soon because look at you. Your stressed out and obviously not happy. Plus you haven't had a Luke's coffee hit in almost three months"
"Yeah. Well I'm gonna go take a shower. I'm sorry for not telling you."
"Its okay babe. As long as your happy and for the record crazy. I mean sweetheart Jess?"
"Mom I don't even know sometimes. All I know is I want to be with him." Rory walked towards the bathroom. Lorelai just sat on her bed looking around. All of her daughter's things were in this one room. Memories filled her mind. Her first book. Her elementary graduation diploma. Her Harvard junk. She held back a few tears. Her daughter was in love. The real kind of love. The kind that she new was never there for Dean. The kind that drove you crazy. The kind that people dreamed for. God help her.
Rory took a deep breath. The warm summer air filled her lungs as she inhaled. She smiled slightly. She felt better that she had told her mom. She new Lorelai was more upset then she showed but Rory was thankful she didn't blow up at her. She was getting closer to Lane's house when something caught her eye. 'Gosh you think people would get a room.' She tried not looking at the couple against the wall but something made her stare. She could see the girl was blond. Really blond and the guy had dark brown hair. She was about to turn the other way when something else caught her eye. A book, in his back pocket. 'No.' She stood dead still afraid to move. As the girl turned the guy and pined him against the wall she saw him. She couldn't breath. She couldn't think.
She stepped back and off the curb. She was in the street and didn't see the car coming. The driver honked and Rory jumped out of the way. Her eyes never moved. Jess looked up and saw her. She was searching his eyes for something. Nothing. She turned on her heel and started to walk home. One step. Another step. Another. Another. Another. She was running now. She couldn't stop thinking about it.
A basket. A car ride. A record store. A kiss. A diner on a stormy night. Blue on brown. Brown on blue. Salty tears. A loving touch. A painful memory. A love that was lost.
A/N: Okay kiddies PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And your presents full of love are hear, well soon will be. I am almost done with a R/J short and its good. real good!!! I you review I will try to finish it faster!!!!^_^