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A/N: Okay let me start by saying. I AM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SOOO LONG!!!! I
am terrible I know!!! But you guys I had a hard time figuring out where to
go from where I left off. The story was getting way to rushed I think. So I
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Everything
Chapter Nine: And It Hurts
Rory closed her eyes and let the warm sun hit her face. She looked around the town and smiled. It always amazed her how every year things were always the same. How every spring the air smelled clean and fresh. How it always reminded her of days when she and Lane would go to her house after school and talk about everything. They would make fun of the popular girls and giggle about boys. Amazing how far away those days seemed now. Lane wasn't around as much. Rory was glad that Lane had found Dave. She had never seen her best friend glow like that before. She let a warm smile spread across her face thinking about how happy she was, but slowly it drifted away. She wished she had a Dave. A guy that fit her in every way. A guy that was funny and cute but still serious. Oh who the hell was she kidding? She wishes she had Jess.
Rory opened her eyes and tried to focus on her book. She tried to think about the story. Tried to read the words but she gave up and let her thoughts take over. It had been five months since that night on the bridge. Practically in the same spot she sat right now. The only difference was that, one her feet were skimming the water, two she was in a skirt and not a coat, and third she was hear alone. No Jess. God there had been no Jess for what seemed like forever. She hated herself for thinking he had wanted her. For falling for him. For believing what he said that night. She stood and pushed her flip-flops onto her wet feet. She picked up her bag and let her thoughts haunt her as she headed to Luke's. She hated walking to Luke's sometimes.
The morning after that night she had been walking to Luke's with a smile on her face. She had told her mom and she was taking her advice to "go get the man," and then she saw it. And she swore to God that this time it hit her like a sledgehammer. Jess and Shane outside of Luke's making out. Really making out. She had just stopped. This time she couldn't think. Thank the lord her mom was there to pull her away and take her home. She had missed school that day. Rory Gilmore never misses school. A few days later she went to Luke's and he had looked right threw her. Like she wasn't even breathing. And that's how things had been for five months. Five long months. A lot had happened in that time. She had been waiting for her letter from Harvard telling her if she got in or not. They were arriving at Chilton any day now. Her and Pairs weren't on speaking terms and Dean had moved back to Chicago for his last semester of high school. Oh and one more small thing. Luke had finally asked out her mom. So Lane had Dave. Dean had some new girl in Chicago last time she heard. Her mom had Luke and Jess had Shane. For the first time in her life Rory Gilmore was alone.
She sighed as she opened the door to Luke's and heard the bell ring. God she hated that bell. A memory of a stormy night flashed threw her mind. She looked over for a familiar face but her mother must be running late. Or upstairs. Jess looked up from the cash register as Rory sat down at the counter. He meet her gaze before looking back down at the register.
"Coffee?" his voice was cold. She hated that voice.
"No. Thank you." She matched his tone. He looked up and smirked. "What the hell are you smirking at Jess?"
"Nothing Miss Gilmore." Amazing how she wanted to slap him and kiss him all at once.
" Just leave me alone." She turned her stool and looked out the window. Jess walked around the counter and sat on the stool next to her.
"You're a customer. I have to ask you if you want something to drink."
"Oh I'm sorry I didn't know a smart ass face didn't come with the service. My bad. Next time I will be sure to not expect anything more. I guess that's always my big mistake with you." She turned back to the counter and looked at the menu. Jess walked back around the counter and rested his arms on the counter.
"What is that supposed to mean?" She looked up and mimicked his smirk before pulling the menu over her face. Jess pulled it down and looked at her. "Hey I asked you a question."
"Good for you Jess. You can now form questions with you mouth. I guess its good for something more the being locked to Shane's. But I wouldn't be asking two many questions if I were you." She stood up and walked out the door. As the bell rang she turned back to face him. "It's not your turn to be asking anything from me." Jess sighed and yell to Caesar he would be right back. He ran out the door and hurried to catch up with her. He grabbed her arm and turned her towards her.
"What the hell does that mean?" Rory squinted her eyes. He hated that look. She grabbed his hand and entwined their fingers.
"Do you remember this or not?" He didn't say anything. She dropped his hand turned around looking towards the small town. "What did I do? What happened Jess?"
"Nothing." His voice was barley about a whisper. "You did nothing Rory." He could hear a soft cry escape her mouth. He wanted so badly to touch her. To hold her. To beg her to forgive him for acting like. well himself. She didn't turn around but her knew the look on her face. Embarrassment and confusion written across every inch of her pale white skin. Her cheeks were turning red now and tears were starting to fall. He knew this because he had seen it so many times before. So many times he had caused her to cry. Another cry.
"Everyone in this town has figured it out." She turned and faced him. She has tear stained cheeks and her eyes were red. God she still took his breath away. He saw a tear slid down her cheek. Then another.
"Figured what out?" He knew the answer. He wasn't that stupid.
"How to fall in love. How to get past everything and all the crap and just be with someone. I mean even Kirk and Cat Kirk have got over the differences. Everyone in this town has someone." She looked down at the ground and he knew she was fighting the urge to break down. "Everyone except me." She looked back up at him and he cupped her face. He slowly ran his thumb over her bottom lip to stop it from shaking. She looked him straight in the eye. Blue controlling brown. "Jess why can't I find it? What so wrong with me? I know I'm not perfect. Not even close but I want it so bad. Why wont anyone love me?" She dropped her eyes and took a deep breath. "Why wont you love me again?" It was so low. So quiet he had read her lips to be sure he had heard right.
"Rory I don't know what to do." She looked at him and ran her arm down the front of his shirt. She grabbed a handful of it and pulled him closer. Both knew what this meant. She had done it twice before. He lowered his head slowly as she closed her eyes.
"Do this." When their lips meet he gave into her. Letting her take control. He knew she needed it. She hadn't kissed him like this since that night. The warm summer night. He could feel her desperation for him. Her need to hold onto him. Her reluctance to let go. He didn't want her to but how could he tell her. She wouldn't understand. He started to deepen the kiss and with every pull of his shirt begging him to come closer he forget his reasons for turning his back on her. He finally broke the kiss. His lungs gasped for air. Before he could move she had her arms wrapped around him and she was crying into his chest. Sobbing. "Don't leave me again. Please. I love you. God I love you so much. Please. Please. Jess please don't hate me anymore."
"Rory I could never hate you." He bent down and kissed her forehead. "How could I when I love you." With that he kissed her mouth before walking towards Luke's. Rory stopped breathing. He had left again.
A/N: okay review please!!! Not sure but I think only one or two chapters left!!!^_^
Everything
Chapter Nine: And It Hurts
Rory closed her eyes and let the warm sun hit her face. She looked around the town and smiled. It always amazed her how every year things were always the same. How every spring the air smelled clean and fresh. How it always reminded her of days when she and Lane would go to her house after school and talk about everything. They would make fun of the popular girls and giggle about boys. Amazing how far away those days seemed now. Lane wasn't around as much. Rory was glad that Lane had found Dave. She had never seen her best friend glow like that before. She let a warm smile spread across her face thinking about how happy she was, but slowly it drifted away. She wished she had a Dave. A guy that fit her in every way. A guy that was funny and cute but still serious. Oh who the hell was she kidding? She wishes she had Jess.
Rory opened her eyes and tried to focus on her book. She tried to think about the story. Tried to read the words but she gave up and let her thoughts take over. It had been five months since that night on the bridge. Practically in the same spot she sat right now. The only difference was that, one her feet were skimming the water, two she was in a skirt and not a coat, and third she was hear alone. No Jess. God there had been no Jess for what seemed like forever. She hated herself for thinking he had wanted her. For falling for him. For believing what he said that night. She stood and pushed her flip-flops onto her wet feet. She picked up her bag and let her thoughts haunt her as she headed to Luke's. She hated walking to Luke's sometimes.
The morning after that night she had been walking to Luke's with a smile on her face. She had told her mom and she was taking her advice to "go get the man," and then she saw it. And she swore to God that this time it hit her like a sledgehammer. Jess and Shane outside of Luke's making out. Really making out. She had just stopped. This time she couldn't think. Thank the lord her mom was there to pull her away and take her home. She had missed school that day. Rory Gilmore never misses school. A few days later she went to Luke's and he had looked right threw her. Like she wasn't even breathing. And that's how things had been for five months. Five long months. A lot had happened in that time. She had been waiting for her letter from Harvard telling her if she got in or not. They were arriving at Chilton any day now. Her and Pairs weren't on speaking terms and Dean had moved back to Chicago for his last semester of high school. Oh and one more small thing. Luke had finally asked out her mom. So Lane had Dave. Dean had some new girl in Chicago last time she heard. Her mom had Luke and Jess had Shane. For the first time in her life Rory Gilmore was alone.
She sighed as she opened the door to Luke's and heard the bell ring. God she hated that bell. A memory of a stormy night flashed threw her mind. She looked over for a familiar face but her mother must be running late. Or upstairs. Jess looked up from the cash register as Rory sat down at the counter. He meet her gaze before looking back down at the register.
"Coffee?" his voice was cold. She hated that voice.
"No. Thank you." She matched his tone. He looked up and smirked. "What the hell are you smirking at Jess?"
"Nothing Miss Gilmore." Amazing how she wanted to slap him and kiss him all at once.
" Just leave me alone." She turned her stool and looked out the window. Jess walked around the counter and sat on the stool next to her.
"You're a customer. I have to ask you if you want something to drink."
"Oh I'm sorry I didn't know a smart ass face didn't come with the service. My bad. Next time I will be sure to not expect anything more. I guess that's always my big mistake with you." She turned back to the counter and looked at the menu. Jess walked back around the counter and rested his arms on the counter.
"What is that supposed to mean?" She looked up and mimicked his smirk before pulling the menu over her face. Jess pulled it down and looked at her. "Hey I asked you a question."
"Good for you Jess. You can now form questions with you mouth. I guess its good for something more the being locked to Shane's. But I wouldn't be asking two many questions if I were you." She stood up and walked out the door. As the bell rang she turned back to face him. "It's not your turn to be asking anything from me." Jess sighed and yell to Caesar he would be right back. He ran out the door and hurried to catch up with her. He grabbed her arm and turned her towards her.
"What the hell does that mean?" Rory squinted her eyes. He hated that look. She grabbed his hand and entwined their fingers.
"Do you remember this or not?" He didn't say anything. She dropped his hand turned around looking towards the small town. "What did I do? What happened Jess?"
"Nothing." His voice was barley about a whisper. "You did nothing Rory." He could hear a soft cry escape her mouth. He wanted so badly to touch her. To hold her. To beg her to forgive him for acting like. well himself. She didn't turn around but her knew the look on her face. Embarrassment and confusion written across every inch of her pale white skin. Her cheeks were turning red now and tears were starting to fall. He knew this because he had seen it so many times before. So many times he had caused her to cry. Another cry.
"Everyone in this town has figured it out." She turned and faced him. She has tear stained cheeks and her eyes were red. God she still took his breath away. He saw a tear slid down her cheek. Then another.
"Figured what out?" He knew the answer. He wasn't that stupid.
"How to fall in love. How to get past everything and all the crap and just be with someone. I mean even Kirk and Cat Kirk have got over the differences. Everyone in this town has someone." She looked down at the ground and he knew she was fighting the urge to break down. "Everyone except me." She looked back up at him and he cupped her face. He slowly ran his thumb over her bottom lip to stop it from shaking. She looked him straight in the eye. Blue controlling brown. "Jess why can't I find it? What so wrong with me? I know I'm not perfect. Not even close but I want it so bad. Why wont anyone love me?" She dropped her eyes and took a deep breath. "Why wont you love me again?" It was so low. So quiet he had read her lips to be sure he had heard right.
"Rory I don't know what to do." She looked at him and ran her arm down the front of his shirt. She grabbed a handful of it and pulled him closer. Both knew what this meant. She had done it twice before. He lowered his head slowly as she closed her eyes.
"Do this." When their lips meet he gave into her. Letting her take control. He knew she needed it. She hadn't kissed him like this since that night. The warm summer night. He could feel her desperation for him. Her need to hold onto him. Her reluctance to let go. He didn't want her to but how could he tell her. She wouldn't understand. He started to deepen the kiss and with every pull of his shirt begging him to come closer he forget his reasons for turning his back on her. He finally broke the kiss. His lungs gasped for air. Before he could move she had her arms wrapped around him and she was crying into his chest. Sobbing. "Don't leave me again. Please. I love you. God I love you so much. Please. Please. Jess please don't hate me anymore."
"Rory I could never hate you." He bent down and kissed her forehead. "How could I when I love you." With that he kissed her mouth before walking towards Luke's. Rory stopped breathing. He had left again.
A/N: okay review please!!! Not sure but I think only one or two chapters left!!!^_^