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Yami Kaosu: Chaos, I need an inventive and entertaining way to state the disclaimer.
Chaos: And so you came to me...why?
Yami Kaosu: Because I don't have any ideas right now...
Chaos: Hmm...well, you could have a chibi Yami Bakura angel do it?
Yami Kaosu: Yeah!
Chibi Yami Bakura Angel: *in a kawaii chibi voice* They don't own Yu-Gi-Oh!
Yami Kaosu: But we now own a chibi Yami Bakura tenshi! *glomps the chibi Yami Bakura angel*
A/N: *looks at disclaimer* Um...right. We have a chibi Yami Bakura angel now! ^_^ Anyway, this would be the epilogue of Yami Bakura's suicide. It's dark and angsty. Ryou's POV, basically his thoughts on losing his Yami. It's sad! *makes clones of the chibi Yami Bakura angel and gives one to Ryou* Um...anyway, so here's the epilogue! ~Yami
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How could he have done this to me?
I can't...no, I won't bring myself to believe that he is truly gone...
And yet...his pulse is gone...his breathing has stopped...his blood lies in deep red pools around me...
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My eyes jump open as I suddenly bolt up. I look frantically around, and my eyes slowly adjust to the darkness of my room. Putting a hand to my chest, I can feel my rapidly beating heart, and hear my own heavy breathing.
Calming slightly, I lay back down in my bed. It seems that I am destined for another night of haunting nightmares. I can't stop my eyes from welling up with tears as I think of that day...
"He would have criticized me for crying..." I whisper softly. He would have told me that I was being weak. But how can I possibly help it? He's gone now...and there is nothing that I can do to bring him back.
I look to the nightstand beside my bed. My Millennium Ring glitters faintly in the moon's dim light. Taking it off of the stand, I hug it to my chest. It's the only link that I have left to him, besides my own memories. No pictures, nothing, only the item which had housed his spirit for thousands of years.
I squeeze my eyes shut, and can feel the tears sliding down my face, and onto the ring. Even now, I still have trouble believing that he is truly gone. No one else knows about it, save myself.
My father has noticed the recent change in me, and has asked what was wrong, but I couldn't tell him. He wouldn't understand. I don't think he ever knew about the spirit of the tomb robber that had shared my mind and body for all of these years. There was really no point in him learning of it now.
And then there are the others. I know for a fact that they wouldn't have understood. I don't think any of them liked him. And he hated all of them. Maybe the only one who could have possibly understood my anguish was Yugi, but I doubt it.
Yugi can imagine what it would be like to have your other ripped away from you, but exactly what I am going through now is hard to contemplate. And it is something that I would never wish anyone to go through.
If I were to tell him to imagine what it would be like to have Yami torn away from him, I'm sure he would get some idea of where I was coming from now. But, more than likely, both he and Yami would think that I am happy to finally be rid of my spirit.
And they would have no idea how wrong they are.
There have been times when I have wondered what life would be like if he wasn't around. Years ago, I would have imagined a much happier life without him. But then I finally realized how wrong I was. Life without him isn't anywhere close to the heaven that I had thought it would be.
It's more of a living hell.
I constantly forget that he's not here anymore. I try to talk to him, before realizing that I will never get a response.
I have to wonder if all of this is going to drive me insane. My mind just cannot seem to register the fact that he is gone. He is gone forever.
But forever is just too long for me to wait...
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School is sheer torture to get through these days. I never noticed how much of a blessing it was to have someone to talk at any given point during the day. Now, I find myself paying even less attention than I had before, and my grades are beginning to slip because of it.
My teachers, my friends, my father; no one has any idea that I have lost someone so dear to me. Not that it would matter to them. More and more, I have been thinking that no one actually does care.
They've all noticed that something is wrong with me. However, no one's made any extreme steps to find out what. All I have to tell them is that it's nothing, and they seem to accept the answer with relative ease.
I have a guess as to why that is. It's not that they don't care. They probably think that it has something to do with him. And no one among them, save perhaps Yugi's Yami, is willing to deal with him.
If only that were true...it would at least mean that he was still here with me...
But it isn't true...
I'm alone...
I can't help but sigh as that thought repeats itself endlessly throughout the realms of my mind. Slowly, my present state fades, as I lose myself in a memory...the memory of my last moments with him...
******
Blood. There was so much blood.
Following the dark rivers of the liquid, my eyes met the sight of his body, paled with such loss, filled only with the presence of death.
It can't be true...
He...he can't be...dying...
"Ryou...please...tell me...how...how could you have ever forgiven me...for everything...that I did to you?"
What? He's...he's still alive...he wants to know how I could...
"I love you..."
That's it. That is the truth. I love him with all of who I am.
He is my other, my darkness.
I am his light...
The two of us are forever intertwined in soul and spirit, mind and body. I am his other half, just as he is mine.
We belong together...But...wait...his hand...it's gone limp...no, he can't be...
He can't be gone!
It's not true! He and I are meant to be one! We are meant to make a whole...forever...
How...how could he possibly leave me now?
******
He really thought that I would be happier without him. That's why he left me behind. All he wanted in his final moments of life was for me to be happy.
If only he had known...
All I truly needed to be happy...
...was him.
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Yami Kaosu: *sobs* Who here is deeply saddened and depressed now?
Chaos: *raises her hand*
Ryou: *huggles his chibi Yami Bakura angel*
Yami Bakura: *growls*
Yami Kaosu: *nudges Yami Bakura* C'mon, you know it made sad to see Ryou so depressed about your death!
Chaos: Maybe it made him happy. You know, happy to know that Ryou cares about him so much?
Yami Bakura: *leaves*
Yami Kaosu: *grins* He knows he loves it.
Chaos: Thus is the story. A very sad and not very final note, I know. Hmm...this could actually lead to more suicide...
Ryou: *blinks*
Yami Kaosu: It more or less depends on what the readers want. I think this'll be the end, though. No point in torturing Ryou even more.
Chaos: Perhaps. We shall see. Anyway, R & R, minna! And here's a thanks to all readers and reviewers! *gives everyone a chibi Yami Bakura angel* ^_^