Learning To Let Go

***14 months earlier at the Pre Natal Intensive Care Unit***

"Karen! Honey what is going on? Is everything ok?" Kurt frantically asked his wife.

Karen just looked at Kurt with pain and anger in her eyes and he knew his answer.

"Oh God, baby! What happened? Please tell me."

"She's gone, Kurt. The baby we lost her. The Doctor guesses that stress is what caused the premature labor and her lungs weren't developed enough. She suffocated to death, Kurt."

Kurt just looked at his wife with the same look she had given him earlier. How could anyone let this happen? He just didn't understand why this was happening to him.

"This doesn't happen to me. It happens to other people! Please tell me I'm dreaming!" Kurt yelled.

***Current day***

"Hey, Chris have you seen Kurt around?" Dwayne asked his friend.

"No, man I haven't. I was actually going to ask you how he is doing. He hasn't seemed like himself lately."

"I know. It's been worrying the hell out of me. I called him to see if he was coming to watch the match tonight and got his voicemail. I know he didn't go anywhere because he has been so damn depressed."

"D, what happened? I mean all I know is she left but there has to be a reason why."

"To be honest, Chris I don't really know. I know Kurt has never forgiving him self for loosing the baby. Even though everyone has told him a million times he had nothing to do with it. He keeps saying it was his fault because he put so much stress on Karen. My guess is she couldn't take it anymore. He wasn't the same man after they lost the baby and she couldn't handle that."

Jericho just looked at Dwayne was a sad look of remorse on his face. He didn't know really what to say.

"I am going to go ask, Steph if she has heard from him. I know when he gets really depressed an needs a shoulder to cry on he always calls Steph."

"Ok, man and tell him to cheer up. We all miss picking on him!"

After Dwayne talked to Stephanie and found out she knew no more about Kurt's whereabouts then he did, he decided to go to house and check on him.

"Thor? Come here boy." Dwayne called to Kurt's Bull Terrier. Thor usually was waiting to greet Dwayne with a wagging tail and a wet lick. Dwayne looked around everywhere outside but didn't see Thor anywhere. He felt a sense of nervousness come over him. Dwayne knocked on the door three times and decided to go in when he realized Kurt wasn't coming to the door.

"Kurt! Kurt, where are you?" Dwayne yelled from the front door.

Dwayne could hear his voice echo throughout the house. He stepped into the kitchen first and turned the light on. The kitchen was completely still and looked like it hadn't had anyone in it for weeks. Dwayne continued to walk around Kurt's house. The living room and family were just as quite as the kitchen was. Dwayne started to make his way up the hallway when he heard Thor's whimper coming from the bathroom.

"Thor, buddy? Come here boy." Dwayne called towards the dog's cries.

Thor ran out of the bathroom and growled at Dwayne and ran back into the bathroom.

"That's weird. That dog usually cries when his fleas bite him."

Dwayne then saw Thor do the same thing again only this time he ran out and grabbed a hold of Dwayne's pants and pulled him towards the door. Dwayne finally realized the dog wanted him to come into the bathroom. Dwayne could feel his heart pounding in his chest. He was scared to see what the dog was making such a big fuss over.

"Oh my God, Kurt! Jesus Christ, what have you done?"

Kurt was lying in the floor of the bathroom in a puddle of blood. (A/N: Sorry for the recent spree of pain and tragedy I have caused Kurt)  His whole body was shaking like it was in convulsions. Kurt didn't have to answer Dwayne he knew what had happened. The knife was lying on the ground and Dwayne could see the gash on Kurt's wrists.

Dwayne grabbed Kurt and carried him to the couch. He ran and grabbed a towel and applied pressure to the wounds and reached for his cell phone.

"Hello 911, Emergency response."

"Please help me. My best friend just tried to commit suicide and is fading. Please help me."

"Sir, calm down and tell me where you are."

Dwayne continued telling the lady about what he had found and what had happened. She assured him that an EMT would be there as soon as they could and try to stay calm.

When the paramedics arrived on the scene they pushed Dwayne to the side and rushed off with Kurt. Dwayne tried to ride to the hospital with him but they told him to stay behind for questioning.

"I have told you a million times he has been depressed about his wife leaving but I never thought one time he would try and kill his self. He has so much going for him right now. He is the best damn player in our game in my opinion."

"Thank you, Mr. Johnson. That will be all." The man said to him.

Dwayne sure was glad too because he had to get to the hospital to see Kurt and he had to get there quick.