Chapter Eleven: Before The Escape
Dear Remus,
This last letter from Azkaban that I write to you will be very short, for in another few minutes the Dementors are coming with dinner and I will escape. Peter is alive. He's at Hogwarts, Remus. Right where Harry is.
The thought of this gives me such a feeling of dread in my stomach that I feel physically ill. I let James and Lily die. I WILL NOT allow Harry to suffer the same fate. I am his guardian and godfather, and James made me responsible for him. I don't care if I die in the attempt, I owe this to Lily and James…and to myself.
When the Dementors come to give me food, I will slip all of these letters and the newspaper article I found about Peter (got it from Fudge, no time to fully explain) into my pocket, so I will have them after I transform. Then I will turn into a dog and slip my emaciated body through the bars. From there I will leave the island and swim to shore. My emotions confuse the Dementors when I am a dog. This is my only hope.
Remus…there is a chance that I will die without ever seeing you, and so therefore I will state plainly what I have already said in so many words, in case you ever read this letter. I love you more than life itself. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You are the only person in the world that I ever want to be my lover, the only one who is perfect for me. Whether I am alive or dead, imprisoned or free, mad or sane, I shall always be,
Your Sirius.
THE END
Author's Note: So, what did you think? I adore reviews! If you liked this, I recommend reading If In The End and If In the Beginning, my two companion fics. I will start writing If In the Future (if which Sirius and Remus get together!!!) very soon, I promise. Love, Marauder