Title: Just Another Monday...
Chapter: 1/??
Author: Cerasi J.
Rating: PG
Catagory: Drama/Other mushy crap.
Summary: My first try at drama.
Author's Note: Anything with "//" means reading, thinking or the Force.
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At 4:03 Monday morning Zekk's comm link buzzed him out of a deep, peaceful sleep. He halfway opened one eye, and cursed at the little machine by his bedside. He rolled over and fumbled for the switch to answer it. His hand finally hit it, "Hello?" He left the "What the hell do you want?" hanging in the air.
"Zekk? Zekk, it's Jacen."
"Jacen...? Dude, do you know what time it is?"
"Yeah, I know," he sounded very upset.
Zekk sat up at hearing the fear in his friend's voice. He knew Jacen would never call this early in the morning unless something was wrong. "Jacen, what is it?"
The only thing he could hear was a muffled sob on the other end. "Jacen?"
"Jaina…"
By this time Zekk was fully awake. "What's wrong with Jaina?" he demanded. Things had been hard for Jaina and Zekk over the past few months.
He came back to Courscant only a week after Chewbacca had passed away, and that was hard for Jaina. She didn't speak to Zekk at first, as if Chewie's death had been his fault. Then, she lightened up and started talking to him again, only to find out while Zekk was away he had met another woman named Galla Tyvek. Of course, Jaina stopped talking to him completely after that.
Zekk pulled himself out of his thoughts and brought himself back to the problem at hand.
"Jacen, please tell me, what happened?!"
"Jaina," he sobbed again. "W-was in an accident."
All the blood ran from his face, he felt like Jacen had just slapped him. "Is she… is she…?" Was all he could manage to studder.
The young man on the other end of the line sniffled. "No, she's not. But she's close."
Now Zekk felt like crying, "Jacen, stay where you are, I'll be right down."
He shut off the comm and flopped back onto his bed, trembling. How could this happen? Why did it have to happen? Why Jaina? Why did it have to happen to his best friend?
Moving numbly, he got up and turned on the lights. He pulled his shirt over his head, still thinking. Was it him? Did this happen because of him? Because he screwed up and didn't listen to himself? Because he never told Jaina how he felt? What if this was his last chance? She would never know. Never know because he was always too shy.
He let out an angry sigh as he pulled on his boots. He told himself over and over it must be a dream and he would wake up. But he didn't wake up, he didn't wake up as he walked into the E.R., and he didn't wake up when he saw Han and Leia, Jacen and Anakin sitting there with teary eyes and heavy hearts. Nope, guess it wasn't a dream. Anakin and Jacen stood when they saw Zekk walking towards them. "How is she?"
Anakin hung his head and tears formed in Jacen's eyes, "They doctors said if she makes it through the afternoon she might live," Anakin said.
Zekk stood there, pale and shaking and not saying a word. "H-how did it happen?" he asked, trying to keep from crying himself. It didn't work, and tears rolled down his cheeks anyway.
"We don't know," Anakin answered again. "We got a call about an hour ago saying that she was in an accident, that's all we know."
Zekk nodded, trying to wipe the tears away. Leia came and stood beside Jacen, her arm around protectively. "Thank you for coming, Zekk."
He nodded again, "Is there anything I can do? When can I see her?"
At that moment Jacen sobbed again, "You don't want to see her! She looks… unhuman!"
"But I want to see her," he protested. He knew it must be harder for Jacen, being a twin and all.
Leia spoke up quietly, "Maybe in a little bit the doctors will let you see her."
Zekk wanted to scream, "What if there isn't 'a little bit'?? What if this is it??" But he didn't. He just said, "Okay," and started to walk away.
"Zekk!" Leia called after him again. He turned and looked at her. Her face was worn and tired looking, she looked older then she was. She placed a small leather bound book in his hands.
"It's Jaina's journal," she explaned. "She told me if anything ever happened to her I should give it to you."
Why me? Why not Jacen?, He wondered. "Thanks."
She nodded and turned away. He stood there for a minute, feeling uncomfitable.
He finally turned and walked outside. He sat down on a bench and looked over the little book in his hands. Part of him wanted to open it and read every word Jaina had ever writen, but part of him felt as if he were her little brother sneaking into her room and reading her diary.
He kept staring at the book, debating on what to do with it. Well, if Jaina wanted him to have it, she must have wanted him to read it…
He shoved the book in his pocket, he would keep it for her and when she got better he would give it back to her. He glanced off to the east, watching the sunrise. It had been a long time since he had watched the sunrise.
Zekk finally couldn't resist any longer and he pulled the book from his pocket, opened it in the middle and read,
// July 27
I saw Zekk today, the first time since we left the Jedi academy... I wish Jacen would have asked Tenel Ka to marry him,
I was hoping Zekk would follow and perhaps ask me... I could never be that lucky I suppose. I don't know what do to now that I am a knight... sometimes I wish I was normal, just a normal girl, with normal looks, a normal life... normal parents... I guess I just can't have everything my way... For once I would like to wear a dress without everyone looking at me funny. I wonder if Zekk would like me in a dress... hell, I wonder if Zekk likes me at all.
With Love,
Jaina //
Zekk closed his eyes, and leaned back against the bench. //Gods Jaina, why didn't you TELL me?!// He thought. He always knew he loved Jaina, but he didn't want to admit it to himself because he knew it would ruin their friendship.
Tears started to form in his green eyes, thinking of all the chances he had had to tell her... was it all in vain?
His heart ached too much to read on, he closed the book and returned it to his pocket. Zekk got up and started to walk, by this time the sun had risen, it's beams blinding him.
He walked past the fountain him and Jaina had swam in when they were children, he sighed. He knew nothing would ever be the same again.
Chapter: 1/??
Author: Cerasi J.
Rating: PG
Catagory: Drama/Other mushy crap.
Summary: My first try at drama.
Author's Note: Anything with "//" means reading, thinking or the Force.
~*~*~*~
At 4:03 Monday morning Zekk's comm link buzzed him out of a deep, peaceful sleep. He halfway opened one eye, and cursed at the little machine by his bedside. He rolled over and fumbled for the switch to answer it. His hand finally hit it, "Hello?" He left the "What the hell do you want?" hanging in the air.
"Zekk? Zekk, it's Jacen."
"Jacen...? Dude, do you know what time it is?"
"Yeah, I know," he sounded very upset.
Zekk sat up at hearing the fear in his friend's voice. He knew Jacen would never call this early in the morning unless something was wrong. "Jacen, what is it?"
The only thing he could hear was a muffled sob on the other end. "Jacen?"
"Jaina…"
By this time Zekk was fully awake. "What's wrong with Jaina?" he demanded. Things had been hard for Jaina and Zekk over the past few months.
He came back to Courscant only a week after Chewbacca had passed away, and that was hard for Jaina. She didn't speak to Zekk at first, as if Chewie's death had been his fault. Then, she lightened up and started talking to him again, only to find out while Zekk was away he had met another woman named Galla Tyvek. Of course, Jaina stopped talking to him completely after that.
Zekk pulled himself out of his thoughts and brought himself back to the problem at hand.
"Jacen, please tell me, what happened?!"
"Jaina," he sobbed again. "W-was in an accident."
All the blood ran from his face, he felt like Jacen had just slapped him. "Is she… is she…?" Was all he could manage to studder.
The young man on the other end of the line sniffled. "No, she's not. But she's close."
Now Zekk felt like crying, "Jacen, stay where you are, I'll be right down."
He shut off the comm and flopped back onto his bed, trembling. How could this happen? Why did it have to happen? Why Jaina? Why did it have to happen to his best friend?
Moving numbly, he got up and turned on the lights. He pulled his shirt over his head, still thinking. Was it him? Did this happen because of him? Because he screwed up and didn't listen to himself? Because he never told Jaina how he felt? What if this was his last chance? She would never know. Never know because he was always too shy.
He let out an angry sigh as he pulled on his boots. He told himself over and over it must be a dream and he would wake up. But he didn't wake up, he didn't wake up as he walked into the E.R., and he didn't wake up when he saw Han and Leia, Jacen and Anakin sitting there with teary eyes and heavy hearts. Nope, guess it wasn't a dream. Anakin and Jacen stood when they saw Zekk walking towards them. "How is she?"
Anakin hung his head and tears formed in Jacen's eyes, "They doctors said if she makes it through the afternoon she might live," Anakin said.
Zekk stood there, pale and shaking and not saying a word. "H-how did it happen?" he asked, trying to keep from crying himself. It didn't work, and tears rolled down his cheeks anyway.
"We don't know," Anakin answered again. "We got a call about an hour ago saying that she was in an accident, that's all we know."
Zekk nodded, trying to wipe the tears away. Leia came and stood beside Jacen, her arm around protectively. "Thank you for coming, Zekk."
He nodded again, "Is there anything I can do? When can I see her?"
At that moment Jacen sobbed again, "You don't want to see her! She looks… unhuman!"
"But I want to see her," he protested. He knew it must be harder for Jacen, being a twin and all.
Leia spoke up quietly, "Maybe in a little bit the doctors will let you see her."
Zekk wanted to scream, "What if there isn't 'a little bit'?? What if this is it??" But he didn't. He just said, "Okay," and started to walk away.
"Zekk!" Leia called after him again. He turned and looked at her. Her face was worn and tired looking, she looked older then she was. She placed a small leather bound book in his hands.
"It's Jaina's journal," she explaned. "She told me if anything ever happened to her I should give it to you."
Why me? Why not Jacen?, He wondered. "Thanks."
She nodded and turned away. He stood there for a minute, feeling uncomfitable.
He finally turned and walked outside. He sat down on a bench and looked over the little book in his hands. Part of him wanted to open it and read every word Jaina had ever writen, but part of him felt as if he were her little brother sneaking into her room and reading her diary.
He kept staring at the book, debating on what to do with it. Well, if Jaina wanted him to have it, she must have wanted him to read it…
He shoved the book in his pocket, he would keep it for her and when she got better he would give it back to her. He glanced off to the east, watching the sunrise. It had been a long time since he had watched the sunrise.
Zekk finally couldn't resist any longer and he pulled the book from his pocket, opened it in the middle and read,
// July 27
I saw Zekk today, the first time since we left the Jedi academy... I wish Jacen would have asked Tenel Ka to marry him,
I was hoping Zekk would follow and perhaps ask me... I could never be that lucky I suppose. I don't know what do to now that I am a knight... sometimes I wish I was normal, just a normal girl, with normal looks, a normal life... normal parents... I guess I just can't have everything my way... For once I would like to wear a dress without everyone looking at me funny. I wonder if Zekk would like me in a dress... hell, I wonder if Zekk likes me at all.
With Love,
Jaina //
Zekk closed his eyes, and leaned back against the bench. //Gods Jaina, why didn't you TELL me?!// He thought. He always knew he loved Jaina, but he didn't want to admit it to himself because he knew it would ruin their friendship.
Tears started to form in his green eyes, thinking of all the chances he had had to tell her... was it all in vain?
His heart ached too much to read on, he closed the book and returned it to his pocket. Zekk got up and started to walk, by this time the sun had risen, it's beams blinding him.
He walked past the fountain him and Jaina had swam in when they were children, he sighed. He knew nothing would ever be the same again.