I was still sitting on the bench in the park. I don't know how long it had
been since Suzie is gone now, and I really have no clue of what time it is.
I hardly even noticed when it started to rain.
I was soaked in water, and freezing, but it didn't matter. Nothing mattered at the time. Oh, well, except for the fact that I am a complete freak and idiot. And that I'm probably catching a cold, and also that my mom is probably going to kill me when I got home like this.
For the moment, I really wasn't thinking about going home. Part of me was:
'Go tell him you like him!!!!!'
Though the other part was more:
'Look at you!!! **laughs** The great Ruki just blew off a guy and she acts like she just lost her favorite doll!! **laughs**'
I was just starting to think that it was a good thing that it was raining, that way you can't see the tears I'm letting out, when I felt a shadow in front of me. I popped up my head. It was Him.
I tried to smile as much as I could but it made me cry even more, my lips forming into a shy grin.
"Hey ." I whispered. I'm not even sure he heard me.
He was just standing in front of me, hands in his pockets, the rain killing his hair. I started to laugh.
"Your hair looks great like that, you know!"
I suddenly stopped laughing because he still hadn't moved.
"Ryo, what's the matter?"
Then he finally moved and sat down besides me. He slowly took his jacket off and put it on my shoulders. I didn't say anything. Though I was extremely grateful.
I was having a battle with myself on what I should do. I mean, jeez, look at my situation for a minute. Sitting on this stupid bench under this stupid rain with a guy I kind of like. OKAY! I like him.
"Ryo?" I murmured, though I knew he had heard me, "you remember what you said about one of us always apologizing when we see each other?"
I took a glance at him. His blue gaze was covered by messy brown hair. He nodded.
"Well, I guess it does apply for every time, because I'm sorry ." I started.
"For what? I mean, there is nothing to be sorry about. It's my fault, I should be the one who is sorry, don't you think?"
I looked at him. I don't know what in heaven's sake was happening to me, but I completely turned myself towards him, one leg on each side of the bench and with my right hand, I put his hair behind his ear, and stared at him.
After a moment, he finally returned my gaze.
"What?" he said, grinning. But it wasn't the grin I knew, this one was a pained and sadden grin, it gave me shivers down my spine.
I slowly moved towards him and my lips met his for a couple of magical seconds, then I moved back.
He grinned again, though with his true grin this time. You know, the one where I always get the butterflies with. Yup, here they come. And here I go blushing approximately 14 shades of red.
"Ruki?"
Maybe I didn't count right, 23 shades of red sounds more right to me.
"Yes?"
"What was this scene in my room about you not wanting me as you boyfriend?"
Make that 50.
"Huh? Mmmmmmmmmh, well, you see. Huh, it's like this. So." I bet even Alf would have had some difficulty to sound more stupid then me at the time.
He grinned again, bending forward and meeting my lips.
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In front of the school
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The bell should be ringing in half an hour, though it was the same thing every Monday, we would come early to tell each other about our week-ends. Everybody was here, meaning me, Jen, Kenta, Kazu, Jeri and Takato, though nobody knew. About Ryo and me I mean.
What is currently killing me is Kazu flirting with me. Okay, that's not new, but I have a boyfriend now, I don't need Mr. Fancy Pants to do that to me!! Argh.
"So, Ruki how was your week-end??? I much have been harsh, two days without me." he started.
"Oh, gosh, Kazu, you have no idea, a living hell," I said, grinning.
The worst is that he took me seriously. Where is Mr. Perfect when you need him???
"I knew that." There he goes trying to move closer to me.
"Huh, Kazu, that was a joke.!" said Jeri, coming to my rescue.
"Hey, look, it's Ryo!!!" yelled Kenta and Kazu at the same time, "and he is moving towards us!!! Yessssssss!"
Now came the hard part. 'Come on Ruki, you can do it!' Yeah, I can do it. I mean, I'm Ruki Makino. Go me! I can do it.
.
Can Jello do anything?
"Hey guys!" said Ryo coming into the circle. Next to me. Putting an arm around my waist. Kissing me for a couple of seconds.
I must have been bright red, because Ryo started grinning at me. He whispered to my ear:
"It's going to be all right ."
Sure I mean. I only want to burry myself in a hole and die there.
Though we both looked to all of my friends and met their gaze.
"What?" we said, simultaneously.
They all had this looked that says: what the **** was that. Funny. Until Jeri almost strangled me.
"I'm so happy for you two!!!" she yelled. I sure busted and eardrum.
Then everyone followed, though I was only almost killed this one time, thanks God.
The only ones that didn't do anything were Kenta and Kazu.
"Aren't you guys happy for them, Kenta? Kazu?" Jen asked, still standing next to me.
The answer was that Kenta was too startled to do anything while Kazu was boiling in anger. Oooooooooops.
"Is something wrong Kazu?" asked Ryo, as Kenta finally cam back to reality and came to me and said he was happy for us both.
Kazu didn't answer and turned around, almost running.
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Lunch
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Well, I wasn't that hungry. Partly because of what happened that morning. Though also because the entire cafeteria was looking at our table, mostly because Ryo was sitting besides me and chatting with both my friends and his that had come to our table.
It was strange because Kazu wasn't here. I kind of missed him.
Ryo must have caught me thinking because he put an arm around my shoulders and spoke to me gently.
"Ruki, he is going to be fine"
"Yeah, you're right ."
.
***Kazu's POV***
I kept looking at myself in the mirror, thinking about her. My gaze went to the razor blade on the other sink next to me.
"All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
This is not enough
I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else so we can be free
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
This is not enough
This is not enough
All the things she said
All the things she said
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
'Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head
Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind
Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?"
A/N: I'm sorry for the song, but I just love it, and I thought it fitted what Kazu was going through!!! It is from Tatu and if you have the chance to, listen to it, it's really great!!! Anyway, I want to thanks the reviewers and mostly the flamer (that surely forgot to put his/her name, too bad)!!! Also, I'm sorry about only updating once a month or something like that, it's just that I have those problems at school, because well. It's king of hard to explain.
ANYWAY, I hope everybody liked this chappie!!! Please R/R, and next time, could the unknown flamer leave his e-mail address so I can thank him/her personally??? I don't see why you should be afraid of expression your opinion. it's a free country after all.
R/R, THANKS!!!!!
I was soaked in water, and freezing, but it didn't matter. Nothing mattered at the time. Oh, well, except for the fact that I am a complete freak and idiot. And that I'm probably catching a cold, and also that my mom is probably going to kill me when I got home like this.
For the moment, I really wasn't thinking about going home. Part of me was:
'Go tell him you like him!!!!!'
Though the other part was more:
'Look at you!!! **laughs** The great Ruki just blew off a guy and she acts like she just lost her favorite doll!! **laughs**'
I was just starting to think that it was a good thing that it was raining, that way you can't see the tears I'm letting out, when I felt a shadow in front of me. I popped up my head. It was Him.
I tried to smile as much as I could but it made me cry even more, my lips forming into a shy grin.
"Hey ." I whispered. I'm not even sure he heard me.
He was just standing in front of me, hands in his pockets, the rain killing his hair. I started to laugh.
"Your hair looks great like that, you know!"
I suddenly stopped laughing because he still hadn't moved.
"Ryo, what's the matter?"
Then he finally moved and sat down besides me. He slowly took his jacket off and put it on my shoulders. I didn't say anything. Though I was extremely grateful.
I was having a battle with myself on what I should do. I mean, jeez, look at my situation for a minute. Sitting on this stupid bench under this stupid rain with a guy I kind of like. OKAY! I like him.
"Ryo?" I murmured, though I knew he had heard me, "you remember what you said about one of us always apologizing when we see each other?"
I took a glance at him. His blue gaze was covered by messy brown hair. He nodded.
"Well, I guess it does apply for every time, because I'm sorry ." I started.
"For what? I mean, there is nothing to be sorry about. It's my fault, I should be the one who is sorry, don't you think?"
I looked at him. I don't know what in heaven's sake was happening to me, but I completely turned myself towards him, one leg on each side of the bench and with my right hand, I put his hair behind his ear, and stared at him.
After a moment, he finally returned my gaze.
"What?" he said, grinning. But it wasn't the grin I knew, this one was a pained and sadden grin, it gave me shivers down my spine.
I slowly moved towards him and my lips met his for a couple of magical seconds, then I moved back.
He grinned again, though with his true grin this time. You know, the one where I always get the butterflies with. Yup, here they come. And here I go blushing approximately 14 shades of red.
"Ruki?"
Maybe I didn't count right, 23 shades of red sounds more right to me.
"Yes?"
"What was this scene in my room about you not wanting me as you boyfriend?"
Make that 50.
"Huh? Mmmmmmmmmh, well, you see. Huh, it's like this. So." I bet even Alf would have had some difficulty to sound more stupid then me at the time.
He grinned again, bending forward and meeting my lips.
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In front of the school
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The bell should be ringing in half an hour, though it was the same thing every Monday, we would come early to tell each other about our week-ends. Everybody was here, meaning me, Jen, Kenta, Kazu, Jeri and Takato, though nobody knew. About Ryo and me I mean.
What is currently killing me is Kazu flirting with me. Okay, that's not new, but I have a boyfriend now, I don't need Mr. Fancy Pants to do that to me!! Argh.
"So, Ruki how was your week-end??? I much have been harsh, two days without me." he started.
"Oh, gosh, Kazu, you have no idea, a living hell," I said, grinning.
The worst is that he took me seriously. Where is Mr. Perfect when you need him???
"I knew that." There he goes trying to move closer to me.
"Huh, Kazu, that was a joke.!" said Jeri, coming to my rescue.
"Hey, look, it's Ryo!!!" yelled Kenta and Kazu at the same time, "and he is moving towards us!!! Yessssssss!"
Now came the hard part. 'Come on Ruki, you can do it!' Yeah, I can do it. I mean, I'm Ruki Makino. Go me! I can do it.
.
Can Jello do anything?
"Hey guys!" said Ryo coming into the circle. Next to me. Putting an arm around my waist. Kissing me for a couple of seconds.
I must have been bright red, because Ryo started grinning at me. He whispered to my ear:
"It's going to be all right ."
Sure I mean. I only want to burry myself in a hole and die there.
Though we both looked to all of my friends and met their gaze.
"What?" we said, simultaneously.
They all had this looked that says: what the **** was that. Funny. Until Jeri almost strangled me.
"I'm so happy for you two!!!" she yelled. I sure busted and eardrum.
Then everyone followed, though I was only almost killed this one time, thanks God.
The only ones that didn't do anything were Kenta and Kazu.
"Aren't you guys happy for them, Kenta? Kazu?" Jen asked, still standing next to me.
The answer was that Kenta was too startled to do anything while Kazu was boiling in anger. Oooooooooops.
"Is something wrong Kazu?" asked Ryo, as Kenta finally cam back to reality and came to me and said he was happy for us both.
Kazu didn't answer and turned around, almost running.
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Lunch
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Well, I wasn't that hungry. Partly because of what happened that morning. Though also because the entire cafeteria was looking at our table, mostly because Ryo was sitting besides me and chatting with both my friends and his that had come to our table.
It was strange because Kazu wasn't here. I kind of missed him.
Ryo must have caught me thinking because he put an arm around my shoulders and spoke to me gently.
"Ruki, he is going to be fine"
"Yeah, you're right ."
.
***Kazu's POV***
I kept looking at myself in the mirror, thinking about her. My gaze went to the razor blade on the other sink next to me.
"All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
This is not enough
I'm in serious shit, I feel totally lost
If I'm asking for help it's only because
Being with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out
Wanna fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else so we can be free
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
All the things she said
All the things she said
Running through my head
This is not enough
This is not enough
All the things she said
All the things she said
And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault but I want her so much
Wanna fly her away where the sun and rain
Come in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare - don't worry me
'Cause I'm feeling for her what she's feeling for me
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, going out of my head
Mother looking at me
Tell me what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind
Daddy looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?"
A/N: I'm sorry for the song, but I just love it, and I thought it fitted what Kazu was going through!!! It is from Tatu and if you have the chance to, listen to it, it's really great!!! Anyway, I want to thanks the reviewers and mostly the flamer (that surely forgot to put his/her name, too bad)!!! Also, I'm sorry about only updating once a month or something like that, it's just that I have those problems at school, because well. It's king of hard to explain.
ANYWAY, I hope everybody liked this chappie!!! Please R/R, and next time, could the unknown flamer leave his e-mail address so I can thank him/her personally??? I don't see why you should be afraid of expression your opinion. it's a free country after all.
R/R, THANKS!!!!!