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Star date year 2286 march the 24th.
I don't get it.thud.don't understand it..thud.what.is.the.solution.Again I banged my head against a lone tree. Poor tree. My banging tree. I was troubled by a piece of David's work. The DNA scrambler. It had to be perfect. It would nullify the original DNA of the planet and insert it with that of G II, as I called it now.thud.think.thud.think.no result.only a headache.
I stopped and sat down. My stomach really widening now.our child.unborn. Ours. I wondered about it. A boy or a girl...if it was not finished yet.she would live here.
I rose and decided to eat something. The fruit here was very luscious.diverse. Everyday I ate something else. Carol Marcus was right. Like I anticipated. Enough for a lifetime. Suddenly I was curious about my messages again. Who would have responded? The ex-lieutenant.the unknown half Vulcan..
I strolled to my ever growing library and sat down. Activating my computer. After a few minutes I discovered that none of Spock were present. Only one person. Kirk. Curiosity piquet I activated it.
The face of the captain appeared. Hmm...only now I notice how much he resembles David.
-Saavik, I know that eventually will read this. As you see I am fine, thanks for caring. But then again we went trough a lot. I know that you want to be alone but I have one question. I know about David and you. so that makes you my daughter-in-law. Tell me why you decided to leave, not informing me of the marriage.I at least deserve that don't you think? I await your answer. Kirk out.-
hmm.telling him why I chose not to inform him.widowed in only a few weeks.I would be damned if I told him about my plans for G II.but he did deserve an explanation why I declined telling him.
After the standard procedure I began my talk.
***
-Captain. Thank you for your message. I must admit to be surprised at your persistence. But you were correct. You desire to know why I declined to inform you.
The answer is quite obvious. I was widow within weeks. Would it make a change if I did inform you? to grief together over a son, Whom, by the way, you did not know as well as I did.
I desired him, from the beginning when you had a fight in the Genesis cave. The reason why I declined is that David wished to inform you. it was nothing much. You as captain know how it works. The bonding was very private. But we did it. It was a one side only. He was not telepathic. That did not prevent us from doing so. It was new, unknown to both but very deep. I miss him still.
Like I explained before, David wanted to tell, against my advise. Then The Grissom was destroyed, he passed away, Spock came back from the dead, the refusion, your period on Vulcan, the journey that you took to Earth, the past, back again, to Vulcan, and back to Earth. When was I supposed to inform a man that was covered with honour, deserved, crowded with press and worried about the recovery of my mentor, of the fact that his late son was a bonded man? If you see it from my point of view? There was no time.
And now, I have all the time in the world to inform you that we were mates. That I indeed grieved deeply while all were concerned about Spock. No one cared to ask me what happened on Genesis. Not even you. Oh you thanked me, that was appreciated, but that was all.
Of all three exile months you spend on Vulcan not once have you been asking it from my point of view. Starfleet did, correct. But even for them I hid away details about what I did.
What was the use to disgrace Spock of the things I had done. And as I am spilling now as it is, I saved Spock when he was in Pon Farr. By doing what a woman had to do. He never remembered. Painfully true. A young person pushed away by the old inhabitant.I always wondered if T'Lar knew or noticed what I had done.
Any concept of how it was for me, a newly bonded, to do what I did? David knew and accepted it. Neither knew that the Klingons were coming.
And that captain Kirk.was the reason why I did not inform you. For me the easer way. You may feel frustrated now but I insure you.not as frustrated as I was months ago.
Live long Kirk. Saavik out.-
Kirk sat back. Okay.one woman who spilled her heart to her whims. She almost sounded angry, hurt.then again.she was away for six months now. And there was something about her.not her facial expression.no.her body.
He turned around and took another look at the recording. Body of the woman covered in a Vulcan dress with a sash.hmm.colour was blue. Actually suited her.HUH?
"Computer freeze image.go back three seconds.back one.hold. WHAT?" he took another look. It really was.but.who's.
***
Star date July 27 2287.
"AWWWWW.why now.ouch.calm down."
I curled up in pain. Okay. Our child wanted out. But why in the name of logic did it have to be so painful.I felt another contraction.more rapidly.I was doing this for ten hours fifteen minutes.I lay on the convertible grass of the cave.
Curious animals like a mouse and some squirrels came to investigate. Do as you please. Where was a midwife when you needed one. Oh yeah, I decided to retreat.own fault.I tugged the blanket again. The grass was damaged as it was.
The animals, startled by my movement hopped away. Moan.groan.sweat.ouch.I decided to remove my clothing completely.only covered with the blanket. I tried to channel the labour pains but they intensified.almost.almost.
I had prepared the room for my newborn weeks ago. The project on hold. Priorities.hehehe..hump.ohhhhh.by the universe.
I tried to steady my breathing.Thank you Spock for your guidance.appreciated.slowing my heartbeat I calmed a bit. A sudden urge put it on hold.
I felt it's head coming and curled my back to give it more room. My feet parched in the soil. Come on.come.on..I pushed once, twice.three times.okay.ouch.head was out.the child lay good. Again.again.oh by the Vulcan gods.get it over with.I rested my head for awhile on the grass. Nice and cool.sweat poured down my face. I did have a cloth which I had watered with cool water, it was of no use now. Again I push, my legs no longer willing to co-operate. I felt the shoulders come, almost there.almost. I yelled in pain as I felt the child come. After ten more pushed I felt it come out, ending with the legs.
I lay my head on the grass again as I heard a heartbroken cry in protest.aw..wait a minute little one.have to catch my breath.add to that my shaking legs.
As soon as I did, I bend forwards and there the child lay. Covered with blood and pre-birth fat. I grabbed a smaller blanket and took the child in my arms, cuddling it like the proud mother I was now. A new urge made me frown. The urge that you had to go to the toilet.oh...my.I lay flat again. The child against me as I pushed once more.no twins.please no.as soon as I felt something warm leaving my body I frowned. Okay.what was that.I rose again and frowned. Ah.the afterbirth.figures.
"And what are you little one? A boy or a girl." I grabbed a piece of the blanket and gazed down to determine her gender. A girl.a perfect girl. I lay back again. Shoving myself a little further from the afterbirth. I would take care of that later. I gazed at her, she at me. Very intelligent eyes. Brown. Her ears, slightly pointed. Vulcan genes dominated. Hair abundant, curly, like mine is. A Vulcan appearance. I am forgetting something.blanket, milk.well.instantly ready now, diaper.check.washing cloth.check.AH.name.
"How to call you.a girl.hmm.if you were a boy, like I anticipated.it would have been Savid.a girl.how about.Savia?"
My little wonder chirred a little. Okay.a green light. Then I noticed her fixation on my breasts. Hungry? Little one.you are just born.sigh.I carefully placed her against my left breast and felt the baby sucking in pure bliss. Okay. Healthy girl. Mine.I needed time to recuperate but would continue my project later. Slowly I fell asleep.with me, my little Sevia.
***
Kirk could not sleep. He knew that he saw it right all those months ago. She was with child. Probably born now. But who's. Spock or David's.he rose and began stalking again. Yes, she would be a mother now. But what if she came in trouble.no one would be there to aid her.and on what was she working.he had send several other messages. Telling her that it was true that he had not thought about her, that she had as much pain or more over the death of Spock. Fact was.he never anticipated that a Vulcan would have decided so fast to bond with another. Well Spock helped him out of that one.
He confirmed his suspicions. She was with child. Her face and body gave it away. A rough estimate of the doctors was about six moths. The real bother was that he did not know who's child it was. David or Spock's.he wondered if she herself knew.
***
Star date January the second 2288.
A sudden cry woke me up. again? I rose and walked to the crib. There she lay. Her beautiful eyes gazing at me with small tears running down. I picked her up and cuddled her.
"There, there.calm down.it will be fine." I patted her back. She was now five months 25 days. Sevia was really a quiet baby. Only crying when something was wrong. Being a few simple things. food, diaper, just attention. I could fix it all.
***
As the years passed by Sevia developed herself as a real bright child, understanding all her mother explained and more. Even came with her own idea's. On age five helping full time with her mothers life work. Saavik had explained the reasons that she was so much secluded from the rest of the universe and frankly, it could not interest her in the slightest. Never knowing other beings or socialising with them.
Star date: 26 December 2291.
My child is now four years old. A bright one, with her own idea's. the project is starting to get in the middle stage. Meaning.the input of all DNA samples. A shipload of work. Like I hoped she would Savia is working alongside of me. Never knowing how it is to have more people around her. I am raising her the Vulcan way. Even if she is ½ Vulcan, ¼ Romulan and human. No sign of that. I wonder if I did the right thing. Seeing her sleep with those long brow/black curls and a spirit that will last forever.
Star date year 2286 march the 24th.
I don't get it.thud.don't understand it..thud.what.is.the.solution.Again I banged my head against a lone tree. Poor tree. My banging tree. I was troubled by a piece of David's work. The DNA scrambler. It had to be perfect. It would nullify the original DNA of the planet and insert it with that of G II, as I called it now.thud.think.thud.think.no result.only a headache.
I stopped and sat down. My stomach really widening now.our child.unborn. Ours. I wondered about it. A boy or a girl...if it was not finished yet.she would live here.
I rose and decided to eat something. The fruit here was very luscious.diverse. Everyday I ate something else. Carol Marcus was right. Like I anticipated. Enough for a lifetime. Suddenly I was curious about my messages again. Who would have responded? The ex-lieutenant.the unknown half Vulcan..
I strolled to my ever growing library and sat down. Activating my computer. After a few minutes I discovered that none of Spock were present. Only one person. Kirk. Curiosity piquet I activated it.
The face of the captain appeared. Hmm...only now I notice how much he resembles David.
-Saavik, I know that eventually will read this. As you see I am fine, thanks for caring. But then again we went trough a lot. I know that you want to be alone but I have one question. I know about David and you. so that makes you my daughter-in-law. Tell me why you decided to leave, not informing me of the marriage.I at least deserve that don't you think? I await your answer. Kirk out.-
hmm.telling him why I chose not to inform him.widowed in only a few weeks.I would be damned if I told him about my plans for G II.but he did deserve an explanation why I declined telling him.
After the standard procedure I began my talk.
***
-Captain. Thank you for your message. I must admit to be surprised at your persistence. But you were correct. You desire to know why I declined to inform you.
The answer is quite obvious. I was widow within weeks. Would it make a change if I did inform you? to grief together over a son, Whom, by the way, you did not know as well as I did.
I desired him, from the beginning when you had a fight in the Genesis cave. The reason why I declined is that David wished to inform you. it was nothing much. You as captain know how it works. The bonding was very private. But we did it. It was a one side only. He was not telepathic. That did not prevent us from doing so. It was new, unknown to both but very deep. I miss him still.
Like I explained before, David wanted to tell, against my advise. Then The Grissom was destroyed, he passed away, Spock came back from the dead, the refusion, your period on Vulcan, the journey that you took to Earth, the past, back again, to Vulcan, and back to Earth. When was I supposed to inform a man that was covered with honour, deserved, crowded with press and worried about the recovery of my mentor, of the fact that his late son was a bonded man? If you see it from my point of view? There was no time.
And now, I have all the time in the world to inform you that we were mates. That I indeed grieved deeply while all were concerned about Spock. No one cared to ask me what happened on Genesis. Not even you. Oh you thanked me, that was appreciated, but that was all.
Of all three exile months you spend on Vulcan not once have you been asking it from my point of view. Starfleet did, correct. But even for them I hid away details about what I did.
What was the use to disgrace Spock of the things I had done. And as I am spilling now as it is, I saved Spock when he was in Pon Farr. By doing what a woman had to do. He never remembered. Painfully true. A young person pushed away by the old inhabitant.I always wondered if T'Lar knew or noticed what I had done.
Any concept of how it was for me, a newly bonded, to do what I did? David knew and accepted it. Neither knew that the Klingons were coming.
And that captain Kirk.was the reason why I did not inform you. For me the easer way. You may feel frustrated now but I insure you.not as frustrated as I was months ago.
Live long Kirk. Saavik out.-
Kirk sat back. Okay.one woman who spilled her heart to her whims. She almost sounded angry, hurt.then again.she was away for six months now. And there was something about her.not her facial expression.no.her body.
He turned around and took another look at the recording. Body of the woman covered in a Vulcan dress with a sash.hmm.colour was blue. Actually suited her.HUH?
"Computer freeze image.go back three seconds.back one.hold. WHAT?" he took another look. It really was.but.who's.
***
Star date July 27 2287.
"AWWWWW.why now.ouch.calm down."
I curled up in pain. Okay. Our child wanted out. But why in the name of logic did it have to be so painful.I felt another contraction.more rapidly.I was doing this for ten hours fifteen minutes.I lay on the convertible grass of the cave.
Curious animals like a mouse and some squirrels came to investigate. Do as you please. Where was a midwife when you needed one. Oh yeah, I decided to retreat.own fault.I tugged the blanket again. The grass was damaged as it was.
The animals, startled by my movement hopped away. Moan.groan.sweat.ouch.I decided to remove my clothing completely.only covered with the blanket. I tried to channel the labour pains but they intensified.almost.almost.
I had prepared the room for my newborn weeks ago. The project on hold. Priorities.hehehe..hump.ohhhhh.by the universe.
I tried to steady my breathing.Thank you Spock for your guidance.appreciated.slowing my heartbeat I calmed a bit. A sudden urge put it on hold.
I felt it's head coming and curled my back to give it more room. My feet parched in the soil. Come on.come.on..I pushed once, twice.three times.okay.ouch.head was out.the child lay good. Again.again.oh by the Vulcan gods.get it over with.I rested my head for awhile on the grass. Nice and cool.sweat poured down my face. I did have a cloth which I had watered with cool water, it was of no use now. Again I push, my legs no longer willing to co-operate. I felt the shoulders come, almost there.almost. I yelled in pain as I felt the child come. After ten more pushed I felt it come out, ending with the legs.
I lay my head on the grass again as I heard a heartbroken cry in protest.aw..wait a minute little one.have to catch my breath.add to that my shaking legs.
As soon as I did, I bend forwards and there the child lay. Covered with blood and pre-birth fat. I grabbed a smaller blanket and took the child in my arms, cuddling it like the proud mother I was now. A new urge made me frown. The urge that you had to go to the toilet.oh...my.I lay flat again. The child against me as I pushed once more.no twins.please no.as soon as I felt something warm leaving my body I frowned. Okay.what was that.I rose again and frowned. Ah.the afterbirth.figures.
"And what are you little one? A boy or a girl." I grabbed a piece of the blanket and gazed down to determine her gender. A girl.a perfect girl. I lay back again. Shoving myself a little further from the afterbirth. I would take care of that later. I gazed at her, she at me. Very intelligent eyes. Brown. Her ears, slightly pointed. Vulcan genes dominated. Hair abundant, curly, like mine is. A Vulcan appearance. I am forgetting something.blanket, milk.well.instantly ready now, diaper.check.washing cloth.check.AH.name.
"How to call you.a girl.hmm.if you were a boy, like I anticipated.it would have been Savid.a girl.how about.Savia?"
My little wonder chirred a little. Okay.a green light. Then I noticed her fixation on my breasts. Hungry? Little one.you are just born.sigh.I carefully placed her against my left breast and felt the baby sucking in pure bliss. Okay. Healthy girl. Mine.I needed time to recuperate but would continue my project later. Slowly I fell asleep.with me, my little Sevia.
***
Kirk could not sleep. He knew that he saw it right all those months ago. She was with child. Probably born now. But who's. Spock or David's.he rose and began stalking again. Yes, she would be a mother now. But what if she came in trouble.no one would be there to aid her.and on what was she working.he had send several other messages. Telling her that it was true that he had not thought about her, that she had as much pain or more over the death of Spock. Fact was.he never anticipated that a Vulcan would have decided so fast to bond with another. Well Spock helped him out of that one.
He confirmed his suspicions. She was with child. Her face and body gave it away. A rough estimate of the doctors was about six moths. The real bother was that he did not know who's child it was. David or Spock's.he wondered if she herself knew.
***
Star date January the second 2288.
A sudden cry woke me up. again? I rose and walked to the crib. There she lay. Her beautiful eyes gazing at me with small tears running down. I picked her up and cuddled her.
"There, there.calm down.it will be fine." I patted her back. She was now five months 25 days. Sevia was really a quiet baby. Only crying when something was wrong. Being a few simple things. food, diaper, just attention. I could fix it all.
***
As the years passed by Sevia developed herself as a real bright child, understanding all her mother explained and more. Even came with her own idea's. On age five helping full time with her mothers life work. Saavik had explained the reasons that she was so much secluded from the rest of the universe and frankly, it could not interest her in the slightest. Never knowing other beings or socialising with them.
Star date: 26 December 2291.
My child is now four years old. A bright one, with her own idea's. the project is starting to get in the middle stage. Meaning.the input of all DNA samples. A shipload of work. Like I hoped she would Savia is working alongside of me. Never knowing how it is to have more people around her. I am raising her the Vulcan way. Even if she is ½ Vulcan, ¼ Romulan and human. No sign of that. I wonder if I did the right thing. Seeing her sleep with those long brow/black curls and a spirit that will last forever.