"Was it
something bodiless, only occupied by a soul–What is it, dear?" Lily jumped
up, madness seemingly overcoming her at the chatter and noise Professor
Trelawney was making. She dashed all the way to the trapdoor, kicked it open,
and ran all the way down to the Great Hall, sliding into her seat as fast as
possible, trying to forget those red, snake-shaped eyes, blasting fire and doom
at her.
Lily refused to answer any questions that evening, and she went to bed as early
as possible, trying to block out her last scene with Tom. She was awakened
rudely, however, at about two in the morning, by someone shaking her violently
by the shoulder. "Lily! Get up!" "Wh–who're
you? Go back to bed and let me do the same."
"Lily!" The voice was a bit more urgent now. "Get up!" The
person pulled her sheets away. "Get up now!"
"I want my sheets back!" "You'll get tem if you come downstairs
with me. Come on!" "James? You lunatic. Two a.m. is early even for me." She
stretched, yawned, stretched a bit more, and ed her sheets from his arms.
"You're coming downstairs right now or I'll dump a bucket of water on
you!"
"Oh, right." He held up a large tin pail. "I wasn't bluffing.
Come on."
"Oh, all right!" Muttering under her breath, she wrapped herself in
her blankets and tramped downstairs to the roaring fire, curling up as close to
it as she could without singeing her hair. "All right. You got me out of
bed and into a bad mood, so now please get me back into bed."
"Huh?"
"State thy case."
"Oh. It's not a case. But anyway, did you ask her yet?"
"Ask who?"
"You know who!"
"Ask who about what?"
"Lily, stop being difficult!"
"All right, all right. But I do wish I'd demanded payment. What I put up
with to get what I did get out of her cost me the front part of my tongue, a
load of patience, and a lot of acting. I'm certainly going to get the lead role
in any play I decide to try out for after this."
"Come on!"
"Fine, fine. All right, I did get from her that she did like Sirius last
year, that she likes someone this year who is a third year, a boy, a
Gryffindor…ooh, what was his name? It wasn't Longbottom,
it wasn't Remus…ooh, it's on the tip of my
tongue–"
"Lily, honestly!"
"Umm…it wasn't Sirius, at least not this year, I know him very well–let's
see, could be Peter, could be-"
"Lily!"
"Could be Taylor Young, you know that redhead who never talks,–hey, she
said he played Quidditch–it could be John, now,
couldn't it? Or Nigel, or that Joseph DeVonn
character, or–"
"LILY!"
"All right, all right, I give. Yes."
"Yes what?"
"Yes."
"YES WHAT?"
"Oh, James, it's just so much fun to make you mad, do you know that?"
"And?"
"Well, it is."
"Well? What about—what about Serena?"
"What about her?"
"Lily, please stop! What did she say?"
Lily rolled her eyes a few times. "Thank goodness I'm not into all this stuff.
I'd be a walking stress model."
"Oh, come on. Lily, please!"
Lily looked at the tousle-headed figure in green and blue plaid pajamas,
kneeling at her feet, begging for something. She started to laugh.
James jumped up quickly and clapped his hand over her mouth. "Do you want the
whole Tower down here? Shut up!"
"All right." Lily shook herself loose, stretched out on the couch, and closed
her eyes.
"What are you doing?"
Lily sighed. She reached for the quill, inkwell, and bit of parchment someone
had left lying on the table, wrote something, and pushed it over to James.
You told me to shut up.
He read it quickly, frowned, and crumpled the note up. "Lily, honestly! Please,
can't you see how important this is to me? I'm begging you!"
Lily's mouth softened into a ridiculing smile as she saw James kneeling at her
feet, pulling at her blankets.
"All right. I give. Yes."
"Not that again! Yes what?"
"Yes. She told me she liked you. A lot."
His face lit up and he sprang to his feet, beaming all over his face. Lily
thought to herself that she'd never seen him so happy.
"Truly? You—you're not lying?"
She smiled. "No. I'm not. I don't suppose I have to ask if you're satisfied,
but I'm going to bed." She picked up her blankets and trailed up the stairs to
her dormitory. James followed her and plucked at her sleeve."Um—Lily?"
"What?"
"Do you mind doing me another big favor?"
"Ten Galleons."
"Really—That is, I'll pay you as soon as—"
"James Potter, you really have gone soppy over her, haven't you? Depends on the
favor."
"Erm…" He looked very nervous and tongue-tied. "Do
you think you can get her to go to Hogsmeade with me
tomorrow?" "We have a Hogsmeade visit?"
"The
things I go through. All right, fine, but you're paying for everything I decide
to buy in The Three Broomsticks. Don't worry, I won't intrude on any private
conversations!" she added at seeing his rather horrified face. "I will do my
best. But now go to bed!"
The next morning, Lily cornered Serena as they were stepping into the carriages
that were to convey then to Hogsmeade.
"Serena, I need to talk to you."
"Why are–Oh, fine. What about?"
"James."
Serena pulled Lily into the carriage, slammed the door, and faced Lily.
"What about him? You didn't tell him, did you?"
"What–No. I didn't. But he asked to talk to me."
Serena's eyes narrowed. "Proceed."
"It was last night in the common room, and he asked me if I could manage
to get you to meet him in The Three Broomsticks today. I told him I would do my
best. What time do you want him to be there?"
Serena laughed gaily. "Tell him I'll be there as soon as I can get out of
these musty carriages."
Lily nodded. "I've become the regular messenger girl, haven't I?"
She jumped out of the carriage door and managed to get into the one James was
in before the carriages started to move.
"Well? Did you ask her?"
"Yes."
"And?"
"And what?"
"Exactly. And what?"
"You're getting better at this." Lily wrinkled her nose. "She's
meeting you in that pub as soon as she can get out of 'these musty carriages'.
Quote unquote."
He smiled slowly, then stared out of the window for the rest of the trip, not
bothering to acknowledge her presence.
When the carriages finally stopped, Lily had to stand back as a charcoal-headed
blur raced past her out of the door.
"Anxious, are we?"
She stepped down, right into a blast of cold wind. She saw James leading
Serena, who was clutching her cloak around her and looking the very picture of
a maiden in distress, to the entrance of The Three Broomsticks. She shook her
head and vanished into the joke shop.
A few minutes later, she re-emerged with bright red cheeks and a wish for the
common room fire. Not wasting an instant, she stepped into the small pub.
It was welcomingly warm inside, and she didn't waste an instant ordering a
large butterbeer and stepping over to the two tables
pushed together in a corner, seating Sirius, Remus,
Peter, Miranda, John, and several others.
"Hi, all!"
They looked up. "Oh, hi, Lily. Join us?"
Lily shrugged. "Precisely what I came over here to do." She slipped
into a chair between Sirius and Miranda. "Did I interrupt an extremely
important conversation?"
Sirius shrugged. "Depends on whose point of view you're looking at this.
From James' view, yes, you interrupted something as important as life and
death–"
"Pain and death. As important as pain and death. Without pain, this world
would have severe problems. Proceed."
"This world does have severe problems."
"There is that. But go on."
"Well, from his point of view, as I said, you should be lying dead, even
though he isn't here. From ours, you came at just the right time."
"I did? Oh, good. For once–How? For what?"
John jerked his thumb over his shoulder. Lily peered around he shoulder and
caught sight of a very secluded table, with two occupants.
"Well, how was I on time?"
"You acted as their messenger girl, didn't you?"
"What do you mean?"
Nigel sighed. "You gave them their little messages for each other and got
them here together, didn't you?"
"Well, yeah. So?"
"That was stupid."
"Sirius, shut up. How?"
Remus frowned, Nigel played with his nails, and
Sirius sat there, pretending he had no idea of what was going on and why he was
sitting at a table with absolute lunatics.
"How?"
Miranda scowled in James' general direction. "They're planning on ditching
you as soon as possible."
"What–How–When and where?"
Jacqueline de Forté, the reserve Gryffindor Beater,
patted Lily on the shoulder.
"Lily, it's not your fault, they're just a bunch of airheads. We just
overheard them talking, and what they were saying basically amounts to this;
'She's done what we needed done, now we get rid of her.'"
Lily's eyes were open and wide, hurt and stunned. "So what you're trying
to say is that they used me?"
Sirius flinched. "Yeah, pretty much."
He stooped down to glance at her face, which had drooped down to meet the front
of her robes. "Are you all right?"
She snapped back up. "Couldn't be better."
"Really?"
"Truly. I'm all right. Need to be alone for a minute, though. Excuse
me." She stepped away from the table, knocking her chair over, and walked
out without bothering to pick it up. Sirius and Remus
looked terribly worried. "Do you think she's all right?"
Nigel
shook his head. "She should be. We didn't tell her the other half."
"Other half of what?"
"You remember what Serena hinted. They're going to try to turn the whole
darn school against her when they make her wand slip and make one of the Quidditch players fall off of his broom at the next
match."
"Oh, that. It better not be me!"
"John, it's going to be one of us. Me, Nigel, Anya,
or Ashley."
"What about Joseph?"
"Are you kidding? The whole darned school'd
applaud if she knocked him into the mud!"
Outside, a moody redhead was ambling down the lane, bumping into people and
staring blankly at their "Excuse you!"'s.
She had no expression whatsoever on her face, unless you counted, well,
nothing. Which no one really did.
She made her way up to the Shrieking Shack, where she leaned on the top rail of
the fence and stared dreamily out into space, jumping about a mile when she
felt a touch on the shoulder.
"Lily?"
"Serverus–oh, hello." She turned back to
wind-watching.
"Lily, are you all right? You left The Three Broomsticks in a sort
of–well, twisted way. Like you were going to commit suicide is what your face
looked like. Are you all right?"
Lily sighed and turned to her friend. "Serverus,
I don't know what I did wrong."
"Neither do I. But then, I'm not sure of all the facts."
"Mmm."
"That was a not-so-subtle hint. You still haven't answered my
question."
"Oh–I–"–Lily broke down. For the first time in weeks, her eyes
started to fill with tears. Half blinded, she flung her arms around Serverus' neck, hanging onto him as if he were her
lifeline. Very stunned and antsy, he patted her back a bit.
Lily regained control of herself fairly quickly. She pulled away, wiping her
cheeks with the back of her hand. "I'm sorry. I just needed a hug.
Badly." Leaning onto the rail again, she clutched it so hard her knuckles
started to turn white and Serverus had to detach them
from the fence.
"Lily, you're gonna break the wood if you keep
that up. Come on." He took her arm and led her back down the lane.
"Where're we going?"
"I'm taking you back. If you stay in Hogsmeade,
you're very likely going to run into Potter, and right now I have a feeling
that isn't going to go over so well."
"Back where?"
"They have a new study corner in the library, with couches and a fire. We
can talk there."
Gratefully, Lily re-dried her eyes. "Serverus,
thanks so much."
"For what?"
"I'm not sure. Everything."
They reached Hogwarts shortly afterwards, and Serverus
took Lily straight to the library. He pulled her down onto one of the couches
and sat down himself.
"Lily, tell me. Trust me, you'll feel a lot better once you get all of
this out."
"All right." Lily was hiccuping softly and
shaking a bit, but she tried her best to sit up straight and keep her face dry.
Managing to stay somewhat in control of herself, she related the whole story to
Serverus, hardly stopping for breath. At the end of
her narrative, she shuddered, then leaned against his shoulder, he with a drawn
and pinched countenance.
"Lily, I'm so sorry this had to happen to you."
"Don't be sorry. I was stupid."
"You weren't. It wasn't your fault, and don't you dare blame yourself for
it."
"Yes, sir."
"Are you sick?"
"No. Overly depressed and hurt and dehydrated and weak and wobbly and
tired, yes. Sick, no."
He searched her face, looking for something he didn't find. Then, with a sigh,
he heaved himself up off of the sofa.
"C'mon. I'm taking you to Gryffindor Tower."
"You know where it is?"
"I have the general direction down. Yes."
"All right." Lily wiped her eyes one last time and submitted to being
pulled gently out of the library. Two corridors away, Lily stopped.
"It's probably best you stop here. I know for a fact you're not allowed
inside the common room." She turned away, but Serverus
pulled her back.
"Lily, a word of advice. James can convert people pretty quickly into
thinking what he does, and I'd not stay in the common room if I were you. Go to
your old dormitory. I mean–that is–if you want to. Please don't think I'm
trying to order you around. I'm not."
Lily half-smiled. "I didn't think so. Thank you so much. I–I don't know
anyone else here at Hogwarts that has been a better friend to me than you. This
year," she added. "I don't mean to sound all mushy, but you're the
best friend I think I've ever had. Thank you." Her expression was sincere,
and Serverus had no doubt that she meant what she
said. Though it did take him quite a bit off his guard.
"Er–you're welcome. I didn't do anything,
though, did I?"
Pushing her hair behind her ears, Lily grinned. "You did much more than
you think you did." She rounded the corner, feeling more secure and loved
than she had in days. Not love-loved, she told herself, pushing open the
portrait door, just friend-loved. And with what she had been through, that was
the only kind that mattered.
She didn't take Serverus' advice on one point; she
headed for the fire in the common room. It was empty, as was most of the school
except for a few second, first, and seventh years, who hadn't gone to Hogsmeade. Amanda was sitting by the fire with Eva, both of
them immersed in a chess game.
"Amanda. Eva. Hi."
They looked up. "Oh, hi, Lily. Not going to Hogsmeade?"
"Already
been? You couldn't have spent three hours there!"
Eva shushed Amanda with a movement of her hand. "'Manda,
something's wrong. Lily, what happened?"
Lily sighed. Eva was right, there was something wrong, but she didn't know if
it was best to tell her what had happened.
"Nothing."
"Liar. Lily, I know you too well. What's wrong?"
"I'm not telling anything this afternoon. Not today."
Eva looked worried. "Are you sure? You might feel a lot better."
"I've already told someone. I do feel better, but now I think that telling
anyone else might bring everything back that I'm trying to forget."
"Well, can we go to that someone?"
Lily slowly nodded. "I don't think I'd mind. Yes. Go ahead."
"Well, who did you go to?"
"Serverus."
"Snape? You went to him, of all people? Why not
to someone nicer or–well, more understanding, or at least friendlier. Why go to
that overgrown bat?"
Lily's eyes flashed dangerously, and Amanda shrank back. "He's my friend,
and I have a right to go to whomever I wish to go to for consolation. I'm going
to bed." With that, she pushed herself off of her chair and stalked up the
dormitory stairs, not so much angry as terribly tired. She didn't heed the
calling of her old school friend behind her.
"To bed? Lily, it's not even three yet!"
She woke from her nap around six, and she found the dormitory empty. Shaking
her hair away from her face, she slipped into her shoes and made for the Great
Hall, where the rest of the school would be eating. The common room was empty,
and she headed out of the portrait door as fast as she could.
Lily entered the Great Hall and stepped towards her usual seat for the past
month; the one she had held at the beginning of last year, though Sirius was
shooting warning glances at her not to come any closer. She therefore wasn't
surprised to find Serena in her seat and Diana and Elspeth where Eva and
Miranda usually sat.
"Hi! Any room left for me?"
James looked her up and down coldly. "No." He turned back to his
food.
Lily pressed her lips together. "Well then. Someone's in a bad mood. What
happened?"
He didn't pay her any mind, not even turning to look at her. Serena did,
however.
"What are you doing here?"
"I might ask you that same question. You're in my seat."
"It's mine now. I got here first."
"You did. So?"
"So this is going to be my seat from now on. Go to your little second-year
friends, and leave us alone."
Lily raised her eyebrows. "You're being a regular little fanged
serpent."
"Yeah, well, you're being a rampaging cow. You're not wanted here, so
leave, why don't you?"
"Because I'm already here, and because I don't feel like leaving just yet.
I used to be wanted, or at least accepted, so what happened?"
"You don't deserve to be accepted among us."
"I used to be. James used to beg me to deliver messages to you. And vice
versa."
"Exactly. Used to be. That was when you were useful."
James didn't look up. "You tell her, Serena."
Sirius frowned, but his comment was drowned out by Serena's spiteful remarks.
"You're not useful any more; you're a regular little Orc.
Go somewhere else and amuse yourself with your rabble."
"Why should I?"
"Because I said so, that's why. Leave us in peace."
Lily shrugged. "I don't mind. I'd rather sit among a herd of asps than
here with you. Goodbye. I go now to my rabble." She whirled, leaving
Sirius and Remus behind with very relieved
expressions.
Later that night as she sat playing checkers with Sirius, the portrait opened
and James and Serena climbed in, both of them smiling and chattering excitedly.
They stopped, however, once they got within three feet of Sirius and Lily.
"Sirius, what're you doing with her?"
Lily pushed Sirius back into his chair and faced James squarely. "He's
playing checkers. Anything else you want to ask?"
"Yeah, what're you doing with one of my friends?"
"Playing checkers with him. I thought that was obvious."
"Watch your mouth, Evans."
"I can't. Not unless I stand in front of a mirror all day long, and I
don't plan to do that."
"You're getting too uppity, and I suggest you shut up while you're
ahead."
"Oh, I'm ahead? Thanks for admitting that."
"Admitting what?"
"That I'm beating you at retorts."
Serena pulled gently at James' arm. "James, you promised me you'd help me
with my Defense Against the Dark Arts homework." Her musical tones made
James turn away.
"Oh, right, I did. Come on."
Lily watched them go, with an expression Sirius was rather relieved to see.
Disgust.
Over the next few days, Lily, to the relief of her friends, was seemingly
untouched by the treachery of someone she had thought to be her friend. Serena
everyone knew she didn't care about, so they didn't trouble themselves about
her., and neither did Lily. But James was out of favor with half of the Gryffindors; the rest just didn't care. But out of those that
did, he was quite the image of a traitorous worm, and they were all looking
forward to the inevitable quarrel all couples had, sooner or later. To
everyone's surprise, though, they showed no signs of quarreling at all, not
even a friendly spat after two weeks, and the next Quidditch
match was drawing near.
James was
practicing almost nonstop, and Lily was attending every one of the Slytherin team practices. She was getting very good at
fixing small injuries, which Edgar Hatcher was getting even better at
inflicting. The team was considering looking for a new Seeker very seriously.
It was the morning before the Quidditch match; a
Saturday, and breakfast time. Tired and stiff, wiping sleep out of her eyes,
Lily walked down to the Great Hall, where the mail was being delivered. Sliding
into her seat between Miranda and Eva, both extremely excited, she had to jump
back as quite a thick letter splashed into the milk jug in front of her.
Eva drew back instantly, as did Miranda. Neither of them wanted to touch the
envelope, which was bright red. Lily couldn't see anything wrong with it, so
she was a bit surprised at her friends' reactions. She fished it out a bit
tentatively and held it by one corner, waiting for something to happen. The
next moment, something did, shaking the dust off of the walls and bright sky-blue
ceiling.
A screaming voice burst out of the scarlet envelope, and Lily immediately
understood why Eva and Amanda had stuffed their fingers in their ears. Ringing
in her own was a voice she remembered from her first visit to Diagon Alley and last Christmas. Sheila. And, from the
sound of things, she wasn't too happy.
Evans, you and me are taking this one outside. You've ruined practically all–
Lily had had enough. Whipping out her wand, she pointed it at the Howler.
"Percuquo!"
The whole of the Great Hall watched in astonishment as burning remnants of the
Howler fell onto the floor and the voice faded away. Lily shot a triumphant
glance over to the Ravenclaw table and slipped back
into her seat, under the scrutiny of the whole school.
She was the first to leave the Hall after breakfast, thinking to herself that
if she hated this attention, she'd hate even more being a sort of political
ruler.
Quiet and withdrawn, she dressed for the Quidditch
game (Gryffindor against Slytherin) afterwards, purposely
pulling out the dark green cloak trimmed with black that she'd worn last winter
for the snowball fight. It would come in handy, too, she thought, as there was
a strong wind blowing outside. Stepping out of the dormitory and ignoring the
amazed stares of the scarlet-clad Gryffindors, she
met Severus down in the entrance hall, quite as
planned.
"Lily! Well, there's no doubt who you're rooting for. You're honestly
willing to go through with this?"
"I'm wearing a cloak. So what?"
"So…you're going against your House."
"If that's the way that works, I'd be going against them all the time
unless I changed my eye color. I'm wearing the warmest thing I have, and I'm
going to need it. Are we going?"
"Sure. Slytherin team's already in the locker
room. Come on."
They set off across the grounds. But halfway to the Quidditch
stadium, they were pulled up short by an explosion of magenta and blue sparks
in front of them.
A voice echoed across the grounds, obviously not too happy.
"Snape, you can go. I need a word with
Evans."
Sheila came walking across the lawn, taking her precious time.
"Evans, what did you do that for?"
"Do what? Put out your Howler? I didn't want to get my eardrums blasted
out. I thought that was obvious."
"No. You know very well what I mean. It has to do with James and Sikora."
"Oh–getting them together? You have my word that I regret that as much as
I regret ever being his friend."
Sheila's eyes narrowed, and Lily fully expected her to sprout a forked tongue
and start slithering on the ground. "Do you know how much that hurt
me?"
"To be honest, no."
"I need to speak to you. Alone." She eyes Serverus
meaningly, and Lily sighed, but nodded.
"Serverus, that was a hint. I'll see you at the Quidditch match." She set off with Sheila towards the
Forbidden Forest.
"Well? What did I do this time?"
"You don't know, do you?"
"No. I wish I didn't have to find out, either."
"Well, you're going to. Did you know, before you came into the picture,
James and I were totally happy?"
"No."
"Well, now you do. That even continued up to the beginning of second year.
Then something else happened."
"Let me guess. Serena?"
"He never showed any interest in her. Never. Even though she tried; I
could see that. Then she started picking fights with you, and he immediately
rallied to her."
"Oh, good."
"Oh, good what?"
"Finally, someone who doesn't believe that I beat the insides out of
her."
"Of course you didn't. You have more sense than that."
"Erm–thank you?"
"Hum. Still, he was still normal around me, and then he begged you to do
something. Probably find out what she thought about him."
"For someone who can't come inside our common room, your guesses are
pretty darn good."
"I'm a jealous woman. We're usually right. But, anyway, when he got her
answer, the first thing he did was come right to me. Three guesses as to what
he said."
"You're not wanted any longer, go away and be happy that at one point in
time you were favored by the Ultimate Conqueror?"
Sheila was stunned. "You're good. Did you hear him say that?"
"No. I guessed. I know him, and that's the kind of thing he'd say."
"Well, that about sums his speech up. It was really mean, and the last
thing he was was gentle."
"I can imagine."
