"I
know." She cut him short so smoothly it didn't seem like an interruption.
"Lily?"
"What?"
"Is there anything anyone can do to make you happy again?"
Lily stared at him with eyes unseeing, and, after a few minutes, he understood,
at least partly. Taking her by the shoulders and lightly shaking her, he was
startled to find himself facing the same deep, bottomless eyes James had seen
when he had shaken her out of a half-trance on the morning of the first day of
school. Dark and frightened, deprived and saddened, those two orbs stared at
him as if they were outlets to her soul. But soon the curtains fell over them
again, quickly, and left the mocking, slightly sad eyes he knew so well.
"There isn't, is there?"
Slowly at first, then determinedly, Lily shook her head. "No."
Sirius nodded, understanding. "It's time for breakfast–you look hungry.
Come on in."
Lily shook herself, then stood up. "You're right.
I'm being stupid. Let's go inside." She walked beside him into the Great
Hall, not listening to his explanation of how he hadn't said that she was
stupid.
When they got into the Great Hall and found seats, Lily was surprised to find
that half the school was there. She had expected them to be asleep, but–but,
well, they weren't. And when Sirius steered her to a place, she found herself
next to the two conspirators and organizers of the night before.
"Hi!"
"James! You finally got those bats cleaned up?"
James grimaced. "Yeah. And I'll bet McGonagall's gonna put some bat remains somewhere like inside sofa
cushions, just so she can watch me clean it up. She's much more
stricter than her mom."
"You just noticed that?"
"No. I'm restating a fact. Lil, how are
you?"
"Hum?" Lily looked up at him from over a glass of milk. "I'm fine."
He put a hand on her arm. "Listen, you were really great out there last
night."
"Out where?"
"That skit you and him–" he jerked his thumb at
Sirius–"performed. I didn't know you could act like that!"
Sirius shrugged. "I told her that, but she won't believe me. Seems like
she doesn't believe anything good about herself–do you?"
Lily stared at him disbelievingly. "There isn't anything to believe!"
She set her piece of toast down, pushed her seat back, and left the Great Hall,
leaving the two boys staring after her unbelievingly.]
Sirius was the first to stop. "I told you!"
"She really doesn't know? She could have a career in that! And be making
millions a year besides–why doesn't she believe us? Or anyone, for that?"
Sirius shook his head. "James, it's partly your fault."
"My–" James partly stood up. "My fault?"
"Yeah!" Sirius refused to be impressed with James' balled
fist. "You were the one that told her that the only reason you were her
friend was that she looked nice. Now you're seeing the consequences–and so is
she."
James sat back down, seeing Sirius's point. "Yeah, I suppose. But is there
anything I can do about it?"
Sirius smirked. "So–Miss Cissa isn't so perfect
anymore?"
James scowled. "Sirius, shut up!"
"You didn't deny it!"
Frowning, James dug into a piece of bacon. And he didn't bother to deny Sirius'
statement, something Sirius was quick to notice.
The first Quidditch match was scheduled between Ravenclaw and Gryffindor, a week away from Halloween.
Everyone was excited, and no one more so than the team members themselves. And
no one was more tired than the fourteen Quidditch
players–they would walk into the Great Hall in the mornings after training
sessions held by torchlight and going on far into the night. Their record was a
Gryffindor one–five thirty a.m., but Ravenclaw
wasn't so far behind with four forty-five a.m.
Every team member had dark circles around their eyes,
and Sirius and Remus had managed to persuade Lily to
help them with their homework. It took some talking, but Lily was finally won
over, and she spent her mornings from two to six suggesting points to put in
essays and checking calculations on Astronomy and Divination papers. She began
to go off food, and her breakfasts were usually a piece of toast while she was correcting
Study of Ancient Runes translations in the library.
The teams began calling her the 'savior student', and
they were relying heavily on her, for if they failed their classes, they would
be kicked off of the Quidditch team. Lily was a bit
unaware of the importance her previous studying and notes was doing for them,
and they were glad of it, for if she had known, she could easily have
blackmailed them into doing anything she wanted.
Friday's lunch period was hectic. Lily was correcting the sketch of the
planetary positions in the year 1875 on July 31st for a sixth year, crossing
out grammatical mistakes and false statements in the History of Magic essay for
a seventh year, and glancing over the summary of the chapter on vampires for a
third year. And when she got into Anatomy, she was even more tired than any of
the team members, and it was only when Professor Maar
asked them for their drawings of the niffler's
muscular system that it hit her–she had meant to do it when the Gryffindors were practicing, but then the Ravenclaw captain had begged her for help.
Her head sank down onto her desk; she had never failed to turn in an assignment
before now, and she waited nervously for the end of class and for Professor Maar to assign her detention–he was very strict about
homework.
It came as a relief and a shock to her, therefore, when he didn't ask her to
stay after class–the only thing he'd said as they gathered their books was,
"Mr. Potter, see me after class."
She went through Potions in a sort of puzzled state, and she hardly noticed
when James stepped in, handed a hurried note to Professor Cauldwell,
and took his place at the cauldron next to hers and Remus'.
Sirius poked James in the side. "What was that about?"
"Maar asked to see me after class."
"Why?"
"I didn't have my homework."
Lily heard that and jumped in. "But you did–I saw you doing it last night!"
James
shrugged. "I didn't have mine."
"You mean you didn't have it with you? But surely he'd let you go get
it!"
James sifted ground fruit fly wings into his cauldron. "I didn't have
it."
Puzzled, Lily turned back to her cauldron, pulling hippogriff feathers out of a
bag and grinding them. Sirius searchingly stared from her to James, who was
fixedly stirring their potion.
"James!"
"What?"
"Don't give me that innocent look. You handed
yours in, didn't you?"
"My what?"
"Stop that! You handed your work in under her name, didn't you?"
James didn't say a word; just went on stirring.
"That's gonna slop over in a minute. Turn the
heat down a bit. You did, right?"
Shrugging, James knelt and turned down the flame. "So?"
Sirius frowned. "You've lost your mind. What do you think Serena's going
to think?"
"Cissa isn't going to think anything of the
kind. Lily's been so busy helping us that she didn't have any time to do her
own work–and a detention and a zero's not going to hurt me. She takes grades
much more seriously than any of us do."
"Uh-huh, yeah, right. You'd better hope Serena's not going to find
out!"
James straightened. "Sirius, she isn't."
"She isn't?"
"That was a not–so–subtle hint. Cissa isn't
going to find out."
Sirius raised his eyebrows. "All right, fine. But if she does, your life
isn't going to be worth living."
"I know."
"And you did it anyway? Geez, you're
insane!"
Sirius had been wondering whether to tell Lily about that afternoon, and
finally he decided to, even though it might not turn out so well for him. So,
that night, when Lily was doing a History of Magic essay for Nigel, a shadow
fell over the two rolls of parchment. She looked up.
"Sirius! Sit–" She looked about her; the
chairs and tables were littered with quills, books, parchment, and pencils.
"I'll get you a chair." She started to clear away some of the
clutter, but Sirius stopped her.
"I don't need to sit to tell you this. You do."
Lily shrugged. "Sure, if you say so." She tucked one leg under her
and put her quill down, looking at him expectantly "Shoot!"
He stepped in front of her. "You know, this afternoon in Potions?"
"What about it?"
"When James came in late because he didn't turn in his homework for Maar."
"Oh, yeah, that. I was a bit surprised–I saw him doing it–and the funny
thing is, I was the one that didn't have mine."
"It's not that odd."
She raised her eyebrows. "It's not?"
"He handed in his stuff under your name."
Lily's eyes widened, and her lips parted. "He didn't!"
Sirius nodded. "He did."
"Why?"
"He said something like you had been helping the team out so much, and a
zero would matter more to you than to him. Something like
that. But I really don't believe it."
Lily frowned. "I don't see why you wouldn't. It was nice of him–but he
didn't have to."
"Exactly. That's why I'm more than a bit suspicious that that wasn't his
real reason."
Lily looked up. "Sirius, what're you trying to say?"
"You haven't noticed, have you?"
"Noticed what?"
"I'll take that as a no. But really–it'd take someone who's lost all their
senses to not realize what's going on."
"I'm perfectly sane."
"Not like that–I mean like you can't see, feel, hear…that kind of
sense."
"Oh. Then you must have all those in excess, because I'm not sure I
understand what you're getting at."
Sirius threw his hands into the air, secretly relieved. "All right, fine!
Never mind. I'm going to bed. See you tomorrow." He headed for his
dormitory, and Lily stared after him as though he was an escaped lunatic.
The next morning, Abigail was shaking Lily awake. Lily had fallen asleep with
her head on Translations and Runes, and Abigail had to work hard to get her up.
"Wh–what time is it?"
"Ten till ten. Hurry! We'll miss the match!"
Lily shook the sleep out of her eyes as she jumped up with a hurried
"Thank you." She started for her dormitory, but Abigail held her
back, pushing the Gryffindor scarf Remus had given
Lily in her first year towards her friend. Lily smiled quickly, tied the scarf
around her waist, as it was hot outside, and both of them started for the
doorway, arriving at the Quidditch field and taking
their places just as the Quaffle and both teams rose
into the air.The Ravenclaw
commentator had graduated, and a Slytherin fifth year
had taken over, who was quite a biased person to choose. As the teams took off,
so did the commentator, closely watched, as usual, by Professor McGonagall.
"Aaand…they're off! We've got a new Chaser
here–Rebecca Oxley, and she's taking over for Ashley Thomas. Oxley gets the Quaffle, heading for the goalposts–Quaffle
goes to Potter–Shaw–and a bit of fantastic Bludger
work by Ravenclaw Beater Gates. Quaffle
in hands of Ravenclaw Chaser Newby–Park–Newby…Newby
flying with Potter right next to him–kick him offa
his broom, Newby!–Professor, I wasn't serious!–anyway, Potter gets the Quaffle–probably cheated–what am I saying–must have
cheated; he's a Gryffindor, for Pete's sake!–and there goes Potter–dodges a Bludger–nice try, though, Gates!"
The Gryffindors were pulling ahead, thirty to ten,
and the Ravenclaws weren't responding well.
"And that was a nice punch in the nose to Potter–well done, Gates! Oh, too
bad–Gryffindor penalty.
Better
luck next time! Shaw throws…Patton intercepts–never mind. Gryffindor
point–forty to ten. Patton, you gotta try, you
gotta try!" The Gryffindors
were still ahead, and quickly, as a stormcloud grew
larger over the edge of the Forbidden Forest, so did their score. The Snitch
was nowhere to be seen, and, as drops began to fall, so did the spirits of the
students, thinking they were doomed to be out here till nightfall in the
pouring rain. Everyone was shielding themselves from the pouring rain by
holding cloaks over their heads. Lily found it a bit odd that several boys were
offering to hold their cloaks over her head, and she was deeply grateful when
Sirius got her out of that situation when he yelled over his shoulder, "A
little rain never hurt anyone, and if it did, she'd be inside!" It started
to thunder, and Lily was soaked from head to foot. So was everyone else, and
the robes that Sirius and Remus were holding over the
three of them were starting to resemble a waterfall. Even wringing them out
didn't help, and they had resorted to adding their cloaks, Lily's scarf, and Remus' sweater. Dimly, through the rain, they could hear
the commentator. "And I just got a raindrop in my eye and we need to get
new tents–these things are soaked! Professor, there's this company that sells
waterproof–"
"MURPHY!"
"Oh, right. Potter in possession of the Quaffle,
Oxley–Shaw–Oxley–Potter–Shaw–Potter–and they don't–dammit,
they score. And it's obvious that they must have hexed the Ravenclaw
Keeper–Gryffindor ahead, ninety to sixty. And something practically knocks Venn
off of his broom–come on, Venn, that was only a Bludger–wait, no, it wasn't! Venn! Venn! Snitch down by
goalposts at Gryffindor end–MacGregor catching
up…what–SH–" "MURPHY!" The stadium exploded, especially from the
Gryffindor end. Anya was rising into the air, fist
clutched around a golden, fluttering walnut. "Right, sorry. John Winters
launches mean Bludger at Venn, and MacGregor get the Snitch–score's three
forty to sixty
for Gryffindor, and we need new tents!"
Relieved, excited, and drenched, the Gryffindors
poured down onto the field, hugging the team members and lifting them high into
the air. Anya, the Seeker, was grinning
so hard her smile crossed on the back of her head. When they reached the
entrance hall, their excitement was so electric and they were so wet that they
didn't even stop to curse at Peeves, who had decided to dump buckets of water
onto them. They reached Gryffindor Tower quickly, and entered and attacked the
pre-prepared feast with just as much speed.Lily could
tell that several someones had been to Hogsmeade by the amount of butterbeers,
slabs of Honeydukes chocolate, levitating sherbet
balls, sugar quills, and the like. She suspected Peter, for she hadn't seen him
at the match, but then again, she doubted if he'd have the gumption. The
midpoint of the feast was a large cake in the shape of a broom–someone must
have placed a special request in the kitchens. It was a red velvet cake with
pale gold buttercream icing, and when Frank Longbottom bit into his slice, something exploded inside
his mouth–someone had put a wet-start firecracker inside. Lily thought she
could put a name to that someone–there was only one person at Hogwarts so
obsessed with firecrackers. Still, the cake was very good, and so was
everything else, though she steered clear of the Fudge Flies James had
described for her in her first year–they were supposed to have a tint of blood
flavoring.
They went to bed late; around two, though Lily stayed up a bit later to show
Miranda exactly what was meant by an eclipse of a half-moon. When she woke up,
it was ten in the morning, and Lily was a bit miffed to find that she had
missed breakfast. However, she wasn't really complaining–it was the first time
in a week that she'd gotten over four hours' sleep–it usually had been under.
She felt a rustling underneath her hand and sat up in bed. Pulling a letter out
of the envelope, she quickly unfolded it.
Lily,
This isn't usual, this method of writing, at least not for me, but we asked the
Ministry of Magic for an owl to send something to you, and they gave us one
free of charge. We need you to come home. I don't know quite what's happening,
but it has to do with Mum. Dad's not bearing up too well–overwork and late
nights, and plus–I've heard him mumbling Mom's name in his sleep. It's driving
me crazy, along with him, and we need you here. Forget your dumb school. This
is Dad we're talking about, and that's way more important than learning how to
wave a wand. Come as soon as possible.
Petunia
Lily looked up, half in shock. "Please God, not him and Mom! Not both of
them!"
Ignoring the strange stares of everyone in the common room as she dashed
through and pushed open the portrait in only her black nightgown and a navy
bathrobe and slippers, she raced for the staff room, looking for a teacher, any
teacher. When she knocked, pushing the door open, she encountered something she
hadn't expected. Professor McGonagall was in there, hat askew, gesticulating
wildly at two people in front of her. Lily recognized them–Severus
and James. But when Lily closed the door, Professor McGonagall stopped her
tirade, straightened her hat, and turned to Lily. "What is it?"
"I–I–" Lily's voice shook. "I need to speak to Professor Dumbledore,
please." Professor McGonagall eyed Lily suspiciously. "May I
understand the circu mstances?"
"It–it's–I–" She stopped, couldn't go on, and Professor McGonagall
suddenly looked worried
She shooed
the boys out of the room, and as they left, relieved, she moved towards Lily.
"Miss Evans?"
Lily shook. "I–I need to see Professor Dumbledore. Please. I–I have
to–it's terribly important."
Her face turned a deathly white, and she came close to fainting, but Professor
McGonagall caught her just before she hit the ground and set her in a chair.
"I will be right back." She left the classroom and closed the door
silently, and it seemed hours before Dumbledore entered the room, dark blue
robes and long, gray beard swaying.
"Miss Evans?"
Lily stood up and silently handed him Petunia's letter. He glanced quickly
through it, then put a steadying hand on her shoulder.
"We will send you home immediately. You will not have to make up any work
for any of your classes. I will have a house-elf take your things down to the
train as soon as you have finished packing." He looked very serious, but
at the same time compassionate, and Lily felt
strengthened as she left the room.
When she walked through the common room, Sirius tried to stop her.
"Lily? What's wrong?"
"Nothing. Go away."
James and Remus had now climbed over the backs of a
sofa. "Lil, what's wrong?"
Lily almost snapped with impatience. She whirled on the boys, who backed away
from her quickly.
"I told you nothing's wrong. You're going to believe me when I say so, for
if I do, it means I don't want any interfering idiots pulling at my sleeves
with their stupid 'What's wrong, Lily?'s.
I'm sick–sick to death of all you shallow brats, and thank God I'm
leaving!" She whirled around and went to the girls' dormitory stairs, but
James grabbed her arm.
"Lil, really, you can tell us!"
She had had enough. What with the fear of her father possibly dying any instant
coupled with an enraged impatience, she reached back and hit him across the
face with all the force in her arm. Lips drawn back from her teeth, showing
pale pearls, and cheekbones sticking out of her face, she was frightening. In
anger she was more defensive, horrifying, and aggressive than anyone they had
ever met before, and James drew back from her with an aching head and the clear
mark of a handprint on the right side of his face. With a last glare, she
vanished into the gloom of the dormitory stairs, leaving the boys behind her
baffled and stunned at the ferocity and suddenness of her attack.
Inside the dormitory, she ignored the puzzled glances Elspeth and Diana were
giving her, and hurriedly started to throw things haphazardly into her trunk.
When she had finished, she slammed the lid down with a loud bang, pulled a
philosophy book out of her pillowcase, and retreated down the stairwell. She
hadn't said a word since she had left James, Sirius, and Remus,
and if it hadn't been for the packed trunk, the inmates of the room would have
thought that they had been dreaming.
James tried to stop her again in the common room, which was both very brave and
very stupid.
"Lil, really! Tell
me–what's going on?"
She snarled, turning on him like a cheetah whose kittens were in danger.
"You never learn, do you? Get out of my way!"
"Lily! We're not letting you leave like this!"
"Oh, you're not? Well, you're in for a surprise. I am, and you're not
stopping me–GET OUT OF MY WAY, POTTER!"
She shrieked that last bit, and it left her hoarse, besides attracting the
attention of the entire common room. Lily raised her hand again as he didn't
move, but with a quick gesture, he caught both of her
wrists and simply looked at her. That stare took all of the
wrath out of her, and she stood there, limply. Then, regathering
her strength, she pulled away.
"Get your hands off me, you fool." A bit surprised when he obeyed and
stepped out of her way, she neverthless pushed her
way out of the masses that had gathered, pushing aside the portrait.
Professor McGonagall met her outside the portrait, and she steered Lily
outside, where the giant of a gamekeeper met them, and he walked Lily down to
the train station in Hogsmeade, where a relatively
tiny train met them. She was put onto the train, along with her trunk and the gamekeeper,
who was serving her as a sort of guard and guide. With a piercing whistle, the
train took off and moved out of Hogsmeade.
The almost-giant's name was Hagrid, she found out,
and beyond that, she knew nothing about him, as they passed their trip in
silence. When, hours later, the train pulled up at King's Cross, Hagrid escorted her out through the barrier, steered her
towards a Ministry official in a green uniform, and said goodbye to Lily with a
hard clap on the back as the car the official had brought moved out of the
parking lot.
She didn't even need to tell the man her address; he brought her straight to
her home and held the car door open for her as she stepped out. And as he took
her trunk out of the car and dragged it to the door, Lily was almost bowled
over by her older sister, who had been waiting at the door. She had flung it
open and rushed for her sister, grabbing her around the neck and crying
heartily. This unnerved Lily more than anything else–it must be very bad if
Petunia was hugging her, a witch, for comfort. She thanked the Ministry
official politely, offered him a Galleon, which he declined, and went inside in
search of her father.
Petunia shook her head when she opened the door that led to her parents' room.
"Lily, he's at work. He always is, now–and whenever he comes home, it
looks like he's seen a ghost. He'll be home in about three hours." Lily
glanced outside, which was black as pitch, then at the clock. "Three
hours? Tunia, it's ten
thirty!"
Petunia nodded sadly. "I know. He's always out this late."
Lily shook her head, trying to clear the cobwebs away, then
turned to her trunk. "Tunia, help me carry this
to my room?"
Her sister nodded. "Sure." Together, they grasped a handle at each
end and managed to maneuver it up the stairs and to Lily's room. Exhausted,
they sat down on the bed, breathing hard.
"Tunia, you're sure about this?"
"Lily, I've got eyes, haven't I?"
"All right." She sighed and heard her stomach rumble. "You hungry? I'm starved."
Petunia nodded. "I'm terribly hungry. I can't cook so well–and Dad–well,
he hasn't bothered lately. I've just been going over to Vernon's to eat."
Lily nodded. "Anything in the refrigerator?"
"Sort of. Some onions, milk, eggs if they're any good, and butter. We have some
potatoes in the pantry–and a tiny bit of flour. I used the last bit of cocoa
powder and sugar this morning when I was bored, and I haven't any money to go shopping
with. We have lots of spices, but you can't live on that."
Lily frowned. "That's going to change. Come downstairs with me."
Determinedly, she walked to the bookshelf that included her Jewish Kids
Catalogue, and pulled it out, flipping to the page that held recipes. Picking
out the simple latkes recipe, she went into the kitchen, pulling out a grater,
knife, and a bowl. She burrowed for a while till she found some good potatoes,
but when she did, she lost no time paring the largest three and handing them to
her sister, along with the grater and the bowl.
"Grate these. Mother taught me how to make this, and if I tell Dad that,
he's going to eat if I have to force it down his throat." She set herself
to paring an onion, and she saw out of the corner of her eye the obvious relief
of her older sister; that someone was finally taking over.
They spoke over the food; Petunia told her sister all about her father's
behavior as she cracked the eggs into the grated potatoes and onions, and Lily
told Petunia of some of the things that had happened at Hogwarts as she flipped
the latkes over the burner on the stove. Several regular potatoes were left
over, and those Lily chopped up and threw into the pan along with a pinch of
cayenne pepper, some bits of sliced onions, and the rest of the butter. As she
placed the glass lid on top of the pan, she asked her sister about the money
situation.
"How much do you have?"
"Lily, I have one pound and that's it. Absolutely it.
Dad hasn't been giving me my allowance, and I'm only fourteen–they're not
hiring me anywhere."
Lily frowned. "Do you think Vernon's parents could take us to London?"
Petunia was startled. "I'm sure they could–why?"
"I still have money in my vault at Gringotts–I
could exchange that. But do you know what he's been
doing with his salary?"
"I haven't asked."
But at two, when their father finally got home, Lily knew. When her father
stumbled in the door, and sat down at the kitchen table, gripping his head in
his hands, she could smell the strong scent of liquor, and her shoulders
slumped. Forget relying on him for money–she'd have to handle this. Handing her
father a plate full of food she'd warmed up, she watched him eat as she poured
him a glass of milk and explained that Petunia had asked her to come home.
Lily finally saw him to bed at three, and then only she let herself flop into
her own bed. She fell asleep almost before she hit the
pillows.
She woke up in the morning to find her sister shaking her shoulder violently.
Sitting up quickly and rubbing her head where she'd hit it on the wall, Lily
faced Petunia.
"What?"
"Dad's about to leave for work, and I don't know how to stop him!"
Lily swung her feet out of bed. "How ready is he?"
Petunia shrugged. "He doesn't have socks or shoes on yet, but he told me
to get him a thermos of black coffee. He said his head was ready to
explode."
Lily didn't bother to put on her bathrobe. She simply ran down the stairs into
the kitchen, took a quick look at the phone numbers posted on the refrigerator,
and dialed her father's boss' number.
"Mr. Grant's office?"
"Yes, this is Mr. Evans' daughter. Will you please inform Mr. Grant that
Mr. Evans is sick and will not be arriving today?"
"I will tell him. Thank you and have a nice day!"
Lily hung up. "I'm gonna need that!"
Shaking herself, she rushed to the medicine cabinet, running her fingers over
the different bottles, finally landing on one labeled Sleeping Pills. Shaking
all of the pills out of the aspirin bottle, she dumped the sleeping pills into
the aspirin bottle and took it along with the thermos of coffee to her father,
first making sure the coffee was decaffeinated.
"Dad?"
He was fixing his tie in front of the mirror, but at the sound of her voice he
turned. "Hi, hon. Is that coffee?"
She nodded. "It is. Petunia told me you have a headache?"
"Not just a headache. Feels like someone was crushing my
skull in a hydraulic press."
Lily shivered, but pulled out the aspirin bottle. "Dad, try this. It might
help."
She dropped the pill into the coffee, stirred it a bit, and handed it to her
father, who immediately gulped down half of the thermos.
"Thanks, hon. Oh, man–dear, would you tell Grant I'll be a bit late? I've
got to take a short nap–"
Lily nodded. "Of course. You rest. Love you,
Dad." Giving him a light kiss on his forehead, she left the room, closing
the door softly.
Outside, she met Petunia.
"He's asleep? How–"
"Sleeping pill. Don't ask. I'm getting ready, and you ask Vernon's parents if they can take us to London. Tell them the whole darn story–I
don't care, only please manage to keep quiet that we're going to Gringotts."
"Sure–but what should I tell them?"
"Anything. I've got a bank account there is fine. Just
call them!"
"All right." Petunia vanished down the stairs and picked up
the receiver while Lily pulled her hair into a somewhat sloppy braided bun and
slipped into a pair of jeans and her blue blouse. The burns she had received
that summer were fading, and there were only a few pale pink spots where the
black skin had been, Lily was pleased to note.
Petunia came back up just as Lily was pushing her feet into a pair of tennis
shoes. "His mum's taking us. She has to go to London anyway, so it's fine with
her."
Lily nodded. "When's she picking us up?"
"Ten
minutes. I'll go get ready." She went down the hall to her room, and Lily
busied herself by locating her Gringotts key, her
wand, and the bit of money she had left over from that summer, along with her
bag. Then, hurriedly, she rummaged her father's briefcase for his keys. They
left the house, locking it firmly, just as Mrs. Dursley
pulled up in their driveway. Petunia chattered with her while Lily sat in the
back seat, already exhausted, knowing the worst was yet to come.
Mrs. Dursley set them off in front of the bank that
was on the other side of the record shop that bordered the Leaky Cauldron, and
they had to go inside and wait there till she pulled away. Then, dodging
through the rotating door, they slipped inside the Leaky Cauldron.
Making it through unnoticed, they reached the alley. Lily pulled her wand out
and tapped the bricks, and immediately, they moved aside, forming an archway
large enough for the both of them to pass through.
Ignoring the odd looks she was getting from some of the grownups (no kids their
age were home at this time of year; they were all at school), they made their
way into Gringotts, where, after a wild cart ride,
Lily emerged with fifty Galleons. Petunia had declined the ride.
Pulling her sister along with her, Lily marched down to a free goblin, asking
him to exchange her money for Muggle currency. He
asked no questions, simply handed it out to her, and, relieved, Lily and
Petunia walked outside into the bright sunlight.
As they were moving towards the exit leading to the Leaky Cauldron, Lily knew
she must have jumped even farther than Petunia did when someone laid a hand on
her shoulder.
"You're Vanessa and Eva's friend, aren't you? What're you doing
here?"
Lily spun around and recognized someone she knew; Mr. and Mrs. Doylen. They were looking at her with polite puzzlement,
and they were even more startled when her eyes dilated in a sort of fear, she
rapidly turned and dragged her companion out of Diagon
Alley with her. Lily didn't stop till they were outside the Leaky Cauldron, and
only then did she allow herself to breathe normally and let her fingers go of
Petunia's arm. Petunia rubbed the spot where Lily's fingernails had dug in, and
she frowned at the nailmarks.
"What'd you do that for?"
Lily pulled Petunia to a nearby bus stop. "They're my friend's parents,
and I was scared that I'd have to explain to them what we were doing here. I
didn't want to start bawling in the middle of Diagon
Alley."
"Oh. Where're we going now?"
"Supermarket nearest home. Come on!" The next bus came fifteen
minutes later, and they were a block away from the closest store to their house
in another fifteen. Lily handed her sister a list of things they needed that
she'd made while on the bus, and, forty-five minutes later, they were standing
at the cash register with a few loaves of bread, milk, eggs, butter, orange
juice, some different cuts of meat, a large assortment of fruits and
vegetables, coffee, flour, sugar, bags of rice, some pasta and quite a few cans
of tomato paste, soup, and other things. It cost Lily half of her withdrawn
money, but she was satisfied with the result as she crammed the refrigerator,
freezer, and pantry full of their purchases that had close to broke both of
their backs when they were carrying them home. But neither of them complained
as they replaced sheets on beds, took down curtains and shook out rugs, washed
and folded six large loads of laundry, ironing three out of the six, and mopped
and vacuumed floors and carpets. When their father woke up, they had done a
thorough house-cleaning, besides putting lunch on the table. When he woke up
and drifted downstairs, he was greeted with an, "Afternoon, Daddy!"
and a bowl of some sort of stew along with creamed corn and a choice of orange
juice or milk. He hadn't the strength to ask where this all came from, simply
accepted it. This scared Lily, for he was behaving like a three-year-old,
taking everything for granted, and it frightened her to think she might have
the responsibility of the household descend on her tiny shoulders.
The Ministry sent an owl a week later, and they visited to check up on them in
two weeks. Lily was proud to tell them that everything was going smoothly; she
had seen her father off to work three days after she came home, he was coming
home by six, smelled just like the coffee that she knew the employees had in a
coffeemaker down in the basement, and to top that off, the house was clean, the
refrigerator and pantry stocked with food from her father's last paycheck,
Petunia and she had the time to attend the neighborhood school, and she and her
sister were getting along perfectly.
It surprised her to see the regularity with which the household was running
since she came home, but she had no idea that it was all due to her. She simply
thought that everything was going nicely because her father had given up
drinking, and she certainly didn't think that she was filling her mother's
place. The truth was that her father had missed her mother so much, and now
that there was someone so like his dead wife running the household, it seemed
as if she wasn't dead at all. And Lily didn't know this, but Petunia was
shuddering to think of what was going to happen when Lily returned to Hogwarts.
Three weeks had passed, and Lily had informed the Ministry of Magic that she
intended to return home at the end of a month. They were sending a car driven
by a Ministry official to drive her there, so there would be no transportation
problem.
There were hardly any problems; the only ones there were was how to inform people at school of the reason of her absence. And that one she didn't consider; she simply thought that it was none of their business. If they cared to pester her about it, they would be warned by what happened to James, and hopefully they would leave her alone.
Eva had
sent her several owls, asking her what was going on. Lily hadn't bothered to
answer or even open them; she hadn't had much free time. But as the letters
grew more frequent, one morning, she slit the latest two open. It wasn't really
anything that she hadn't expected; it simply asked her why she had left, why
she hadn't answered any letters, and what was wrong.
She also told Lily that if anything was terribly wrong, she could count on Eva
and Eva's family, along with anyone at Hogwarts. A postscript informed her that
Serena was being very moody and James wasn't paying as much attention to her as
he had been; she just thought Lily would like to know that. There were several
letters of the same sort from Severus, and she sent
him a laconic answer she'd composed during first period Literature at the
public school.
Thanks a bunch for bothering about me, but I'm fine, and so is everyone else
here. There's nothing wrong; and I'll be coming back to Hogwarts on Sunday. See
you then.
–Lily
P.S.–You can show this around; I don't care. I'd send another to Eva, but I
only have one owl. The other one is strictly for messages to the Ministry.
