Ceremonies
Chapter Two: Forbidden Romance
by: Ann Lowe
lagz_xf_forever@hotmail.com
Disclaimer: Dun own Gundam Wing.
Notes: This sucks. Horribly. Tell me I'm wrong!
The man ran his fingers through the hair of his beloved once more before rising and retrieving his missing articles of clothing. He turned to look sadly at the beautiful sleeping face before walking out through the front exit.
Unbeknownst to him, the woman had been awake throughout everything. She closed her eyes gently and curled into a fetal position to cry. Her eyes clouded over about an hour later, and she fell into an uneasy sleep. She had a terrible feeling that something was going to happen, and no one would like it.
*~~*~~*~~*
"Dammit!" Duo Maxwell jumped up and down in agony. His wife walked through the door carrying their son.
"What happened?" Hilde asked, almost ready to laugh.
"I dropped the damn hammer on my foot!" He screeched. "Fuck!"
"Duo, watch you language." Hilde reprimanded his as their son shouldn't be hearing his father's language.
"But, geez, that hurt!"
"Well, maybe you should let a professional do it. You know we can afford it, love." Hilde grinned as she watched him explode.
"If I can repair a fucking Gundam, I think I can do this! It's just repairing the ceiling! How hard can this damn job be?!?"
"Obviously quite. That's the fourth time you've injured yourself in the past hour, Duo. Let the professional do it." Hilde shrugged. "Or at least call Heero or Wu Fei to come and help you. You can't hold that board and nail at the same time. You'll just keep hurting yourself."
"Fine. I'm calling Yuy. He has the smallest chance of making fun of me for it." He grumbled as he walked off to find a phone. Dialing the number, Duo was rewarded by his best friend's face appearing almost automatically.
"Hello, Duo." Duo could practically hear the sarcasm in his voice.
"Can you come over and help me repair our ceiling?" Duo got straight to the point.
"Sure. I have no life of my own." He rolled his eyes.
"Geez, you're in a bad mood!"
"I have to have dinner with Zechs." He looked close to pulling his hair out or just wanting to punch out a wall.
"Lucky you." Duo teased.
"Noin isn't coming." Duo winced. No one to defend the Perfect Soldier this time.
"Doesn't he listen to Relena any more?"
"Not as much so as he does with Noin. I either have to remain perfectly silent or judge what I say very carefully. It's not fair." He groaned.
"Can you complain at my house? I need some serious help here."
"Sure, be right over." With that, he hung up.
"He's sure not one for conversation." Hilde commented.
"No, he just realized I wasn't kidding."
"That too." Hilde giggled and poked her husband in the ribs. The laughed and kissed her mouth rather forcefully. "OK, you, get back to work." Hilde teased.
"What'll you do to me if I don't?"
"Well, I can think of a couple of things." Hilde grinned. "Either not speak to you, or skip your supper." Duo mocked having a heart attack. "Now go!"
"Do I get a reward?"
"Yeah, food." Hilde rolled her eyes. "I'm pregnant enough as is." They both laughed at Hilde's state. She was about four months pregnant. And in this hot July month, that was a royal pain in the ass.
About fifteen minutes later there was a knock on the door and Hilde opened it to reveal a rather disgruntled Heero Yuy.
"What happened to you?"
"I don't want to talk about it." He walked past her to find Duo bouncing around on one foot in the kitchen occasionally muttering 'Fuck', or 'Damn'. "Seems to me like stating the fact that you're incompetent would be an understatement. Why didn't you just wait until I got here?" Heero walked over and picked up the hammer from the floor where it had hit Duo's foot and bounced to.
"I got bored. What took so long?"
"Relena had a fit. She said that I should be getting ready for her brother's return to earth greeting, and I was leaving. I love her, sure, but her yelling at me profusely is just plain a pain." He groaned and picked up the boards that were going on the ceiling. Duo and Hilde had a ceiling that looked like it should have been the floor to a deck or patio. They had scorched about four of them by starting a chicken on fire at Duo's twenty-sixth birthday party. That had been two weeks ago.
"Well, now you can help me out and forget all about it!" Duo said cheerily as he handed Heero the other hammer. "This one works better. I'll hold the board and you pound. I don't want you to have to get your pretty little fingers smashed up before your nice dinner party." Duo mocked.
"Do you want to get hurt?"
"Not really."
"Then do the world a favor and shut up."
"Yes, sir!" Duo mock saluted.
"Now, how the hell am I supposed to ignore Zechs when he's always glaring at me?" Heero looked really worried, and the two men - would boys be more appropriate ^^ - worked on the ceiling.
"It's not like you don't usually glare back. Just try to concentrate on Relena. Think nasty crap if it helps. Just don't think about him. Only worry when he talks to you." Duo grinned. "Man, I'm glad I'm not you!"
"Zechs wouldn't be like this if you were trying to date his sister. He just hates me in general."
"No he doesn't. He just resents you because you beat the crap out of him."
"You're not helping."
"Yes, I am, I'm holding up the board!"
"."
"Yeah, I know what you meant, pally."
"What the hell do I do if he asks something where I know he won' t like the answer?"
"Like what? So what if you've slept with Re, it's not that big of a deal!"
"Oh, yeah, I'm gonna go and tell my girlfriend's over-protective elder brother that I've slept with his sister. That'll go over real well. You can pay for the funeral as I won't be around anymore."
"Oh, come on! He isn't going to do anything to you! Plus, I'm sure Re'd cover for you if he did something like that." Duo suddenly grinned. "Just because he's still a virgin doesn't mean that we have to be." Duo laughed out loud and Heero grinned a little.
"Probably true."
"Well, no one who's getting it on a regular basis is that stiff!"
"Probably true."
"OK, now you're just saying the same thing over and over. Don't. It creeps me out."
"." Heero slammed the hammer down at the insult and somehow managed to smash his own hand. "Fuck!" Hilde shot into the room to watch Heero fall backwards off the ladder and land in a heap on the floor.
"Oh my God! Are you all right?"
"Itai! What do you think!" Heero groaned and rolled onto his back. "I think I sprained my ankle."
"Let me see it!" Hilde sat down next to him and started examining his ankle. Just then, the telephone rang. "Duo, can you get that?"
"Sure." Duo went to answer the phone. "Hey, Re." No one in the other room could hear him.
"Hey, is Heero over there? He took off before telling me where he was going. Normally that OK, but Milliardo is going to be here early. Actually, he'll be here in about fifteen minutes."
"Yeah, Heero's here. But I think he'll be late."
"Why?" Relena was now glaring.
"He fell off the ladder after smashing one of his fingers and landed on his ankle." Duo grinned embarrassedly.
"Is he all right?" Relena suddenly looked as thought she could care less if her brother was on his way. Suddenly Hilde yelled from the other room.
"Duo! I think your dear clumsy friend broke the damn thing! Geezus, you gotta see this!" Hilde was rewarded with a rather stressed.
"Oh, shut up, you!" Heero's voice sounded strained.
"Umm. Yeah, he's gonna be late." Duo grinned impishly.
"Why the hell was Heero up a ladder anyway?"
"Remember when I scorched the ceiling? Well, we were replacing the boards."
"That's a long way down!"
"Yeah, and it hurts more when you hit most of the steps on the ladder, too."
"Duo! Who's on the phone?" Hilde yelled from the other room.
"Uhh, Relena?" Duo sounded slightly nervous. Even Relena heard Heero groan.
"Hey!" She shouted. "I heard that, you!"
"Look, Re, we gotta get your dear boyfriend over to the hospital. He'll show up when he does." Duo reached to click the off button, but refrained when Relena glared at him.
"I really don't want to stall my brother. He was in a really bad mood when he called. That's never a good thing. He tends to overreact to things just a little bit more. Only Noin can get him to stop ranting." Relena looked slightly pale.
"There ain't much we can do about that, babe. Look, I gotta go. Heero'll be there when he gets there." Duo promptly hung up the phone.
"Come on." Hilde had helped Heero to his feet. "We'll use my car. Duo'll drive yours over to the hospital behind us so that you have a way to get home."
"Right. Duo, what did Relena want?" Heero asked his friend nervously.
"Zechs is gonna be early. He's to arrive in about ten minutes."
"Great. Wonderful. Peachy. Today has officially sucked." Heero groaned.
"Yeah, I'll bet." They drove to the hospital in silence - mainly because Duo was in another car completely.
Hilde helped Heero to the front desk and explained the situation. The nurse got them a doctor right away. That was good. The doctor helped Heero into his office and assured them that he had broken his ankle. As it was just a straight brake, he set it then and there and put it in a cast. Heero paid for this and the three of them set out from the hospital, one in crutches. Heero looked at his watch.
"That took two fucking hours! They're gonna kill me!" He looked pale.
"Well, don't speed." Hilde glared at the young man as he got into his car. "Duo, since Heero shouldn't be using that foot, why don't you drive him. I'll follow and pick you up."
"Good idea." Duo smiled and Heero just groaned again. "You have one hot car, dude." He gave him the thumbs up.
"I know."
"You probably do." Duo sweatdropped. "Well, let's go." They hit the road once more.
They arrived at the Peacecraft residence twenty minutes later - it's quite a ways from the hospital to Relena's estate. Heero noticed Zechs' car there right away and groaned again. Relena walked out the front door with her dreaded brother following behind her as Duo pulled to a stop, got out, and helped Heero out.
"Well, at least he wasn't making it up." Zechs remarked snidely.
"Milliardo." Relena protested.
"No, I didn't. Right now, I wish I had." Heero groaned as he crutched over to Duo who had started to leave and asked for his keys. Duo had completely forgotten about them - seriously.
"Heero, are you all right?"
"Yeah, I'm fine." He looked more annoyed than in pain. They all waved as Duo and Hilde drove away.
"Do you want to eat now?" Relena asked after a too-long silence from the men.
"Sure, why not." It was more of a statement than a question on Heero's part.
"OK." Relena led them inside and dinner was served.
The first five minutes went quite smoothly. Then the disaster started. The soup was being brought to the table when one of the maids tripped and the hot soup landed directly in the lap of - who else - Heero Yuy.
"Oh, great! Just great!" Heero was on his last nerve. The maid looked scared out of her mind and cleaned as quickly as possible then ran away as quickly as possible.
"I don't think she meant it, Heero." Relena tried to calm him down. In all aspects, Heero was quite calm. In fact, everything considered, he was remarkably calm.
"I know that!" He replied sarcastically.
"You don't have to snap at her." Zechs finally spoke up.
"I didn't snap. I'm being perfectly rational, so don't give me any crap, OK?" He definitely didn't look happy, that's for sure.
"You've been extremely unpleasant all night. I'll understand the ankle thing, and the soup, but taking it out on us is completely unreasonable." To Zechs' utter amazement, Heero started laughing lightly - the one from the earlier episodes, the creepy one. ::shudder::.
"Heero." Relena trailed off. She recognized this. Heero was beyond the point of pissed off. Nope, now he was doing something he hadn't done in quite a while. He was back into the time of his training.
"Zechs. I had originally planned to be as nice to you as is humanly possible. Not as nice as Quatre is, but as close as I can get. Well, you can just fuck off, OK, pal?"
"Heero, please don't." Relena was even frightened.
"Right now, I don't need this bull shit. I've had the day from Hell and you aren't helping matters." He continued. "So now, I'm going to go for a little drive." He grinned again. "I'll come back when I cool down, and apologize as I am not in a good way right now." This time they both saw it. Something in his eyes. That flicker of emotion that even now doesn't appear. For some reason, Heero Yuy was frightened. Of what, they couldn't figure out. He had no reason to be afraid, annoyed, mad, anxious, yes, but frightened? Neither understood. Not the one who had stayed through thick and thin, not the one who had tried his best to understand, yet not like his enemy.
"Heero, please. What's wrong? I know it's not just this. If you leave now, I'll be worried, and I know that you aren't going to do anything that either of us will find productive."
"Probably not."
"Yuy. She's right. Even I wouldn't feel good about letting you go now. You are a danger to yourself and others."
"Probably."
"Heero! Listen to us! We care about you, don't go doing anything you'll regret!"
"You care, yes, you are sincere, yes, but do you understand, no. I'm more of a danger here than in a car. You don't seem to understand that. If I become more agitated. well, I don't even know what I'll do." He chuckled softly. "I'm going to leave. Now." He grabbed his coat and stormed out the door. Ignoring crutches and everyone in the room. He moved as though the crutches had only been a waste of time and Zechs was seriously wondering if some how while he was upset, his ankle had healed itself. He was brought from his thoughts, however, when Relena started to cry.
"Relena, it'll be OK. You know that. It always is." It was obvious that he was trying to convince himself of the same thing.
"I know. That's not why I'm crying, brother."
Zechs didn't understand. "Then why?"
"Because I know what he means. That he's more of a danger here than away. Sometimes I think that Heero can't control himself even. That sometimes he acts in ways that even he doesn't agree with. Like subconsciously. As though his mind takes over his body."
"Yeah, I know what you mean." Zechs looked at the door. He really did understand now.
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Heero sat in his car, driving with the top down. He had a classic Mercedes Convertible. He had the radio turned on and a slow song was playing.
I know you're out there somewhere
Some where, somewhere
I know I'll find you somehow
And somehow I'll return again to you
The mist is lifting slowly
I can see the way there And I've left behind the empty streets that once inspired my life And the strength of the emotion is like thunder in the air 'Cuz the promise that we made each other haunts me to the end I know you're out there somewhere Somewhere, somewhere I know you're out there somewhere Somewhere you can hear my voice I know I'll find you somehow Somehow, somehow I know I'll find you somehow And somehow I'll return again to you
Heero smiled at the lyrics. In a way they were perfect, yet in others, they weren't exactly fitting. But the song was relaxing. He had to give it that much credit.
He kept smiling at the song. So naïve, yet so true. Like the person singing knew the concept of life. He listened for the end, and the Radio Announcer told the world that the song had been called "I Know You're Out There Somewhere" by: The Moody Blues. It was so relaxing. Heero instantly felt that his going for a drive had been the perfect idea. He would just drive until he felt relaxed, then drive back. He didn't care how far he went He knew that they'd thank him for it later. He wasn't stable just then. He'd had the sinking sensation that if he'd stayed he would have beaten the living daylights out of Zechs. or worse. He closed his eyes at the thought. He had vowed to be true to himself. No one else. Yet, somehow he knew that if something were to provoke him far enough, a subconscious would take over and leave a big mess. That had happened many times in the past. He couldn't control himself, and that scared the shit out of him. He had very seriously thought about drinking during times like that. Then there was Relena. They had only been dating for a year, despite popular demand. That had sure been an interesting discussion subject. He smiled genuinely. It had been a rather odd day that day. Relena had been. too chipper for her own well being. She had been practically bouncing off the walls and driving her guards completely nuts! Heero had been called down there on his one day off - he got one about every three months or so - to try and help calm her down. Even he had been amazed at the girl's energy supply! She had been completely wild! He had finally lost his patience, grabbed her, and tied her to a chair. This had - obviously - caused quite a ruckus! She had been pissed, to say the absolute least. Heero had just smiled and sat on her desk. He remembered that whole scene well.
*~~*~~* Flashback *~~*~~*
"Heero Yuy! Untie me this instant!"
"Do you promise to calm down?"
"No! I have no reason to!"
"Then you're staying where you are."
"Oh! Do you want to look for another job?"
"I'm sure that there are plenty of other politicians who don't go bonkers every so often and drive their entire building insane. I could just work for one of them." Heero said nonchalantly. He blinked a couple of times as she stared at him.
"I believe that's the first time I've heard you say that much in one sitting other than giving some sort of speech."
He had just glared at her indignantly. "That's not true."
"Oh, really? Do I hear things that I don't notice or something?"
"You're very rude and hypocritical, did you know that?"
"You're one to talk!" She had glared at him worse than he had glared at her and caused him to flush a little.
"You just haven't known me that long!" He shot back at her.
"Really now, eight and a half years isn't very long, huh?"
"No! I happen to be twenty-four. That's only one third of my life."
"It's enough to know that you usually don't say that much!"
"I used to talk quite a bit, I'm just more reserved now!"
"'Reserved'? Is that what you call it? I call it being huffy and stuck up!"
"Ha! Look in the mirror, sweetheart!"
"Ass! You never speak to anyone, keep to yourself, act like you have a twenty-foot pole shoved up your ass, and seem to think that you aren't worth jack squat! Well, you know what, you need to lighten up, buddy! Get a life or something! You can't just sit around and be a bodyguard all your life! You need to find yourself someone that you love, get married, and live happily! You deserve it just as much as the next person! The war's over, if you hadn't noticed! There is no need for people who just can't accept that peace is here! You deserve what everyone else has. You deserve to be happy and to do that you need to let go! Let go of your past and whatever happened that made you stop trusting people! I mean, geez! You're on edge all the time! Even around me! And I'm your friend! Let people know how you feel! Just-" Relena had stopped short when Heero suddenly stood up.
"Nice speech." He glared at her. "But you don't know shit about me, so don't assume anything! I live my life the way I see fit! Maybe I'm not used to peace, maybe I'm not as social as I should be, and maybe I need to lighten up! I'll admit it! But you don't seem to realize that it's just not that simple! You never saw the things I did, you'd never understand why I can't let it go! And you don't seem to realize that I'm trying! God, I am! I've tried with all the might I have to act the same as anybody else! I can't, Relena! I just can't! You may think that I'm giving up too easily. I'm not. I've been trying for a long time now. Trying to be just like you and Duo and everybody else. It's just not that easy, I have too many things that weight me down. Right when I think that my past is behind me, something else happens to shove it right back in my face! If peace were truly here, then there wouldn't be any battles. You don't seem to realize that there are battles still being fought everyday everywhere. Some people just don't want peace. I do, I really do. I want everyone to realize just how hard we fought, but not everyone will realize. Humanity is too stubborn. Relena, I came from a military organization. That organization and many others are still in working order! I know! Hell, I've met the leaders of most of them! Geezus, even my own sister still fights! She won't stop, either. It's just our way of life, Relena. We being humans. Many people still have reasons to fight, people to fight for. We can't call it true peace until those people are at peace as well. No one can heal the wounds of some, either. Some mere physical, some mental. I know many men that I used to be good friends with that have seen so many things that they can't even see straight. You didn't live my life, you can't judge me. No one but I can do that. I think lowly of myself because I'm not a good person at all. I've killed more people than you know. You're thinking. 'Sure, that's what war is about', but that's not it, Relena! I've been a soldier since before I can remember. I've killed as many people before the war as during it. Most of them were innocent as well. Accidents did some of it, then there were the people that we didn't know were innocent until it was too late. I was forced to judge people before getting to know them and act on that judgment. You don't know what it feels like to watch everyone around you die and you are the only one who survives. Cruel fate lets you live when you would gladly have passed on. You just don't understand." He trailed off. Relena looked at the eyes of the man before her. They were open to the world. Pain had filled their clear blue depths and they traced paths on the floor. The twenty-four-year- old man before her looked closer to seventy. Worn out and used up, his body was no longer alert, he was just barely there.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to judge you. That wasn't what I meant. You know it wasn't."
"I'm sorry that I blurted that all out. And no, it didn't seem as you were judging me. I felt as if you had already done that and stamped it as the end of the issue. Even I will admit that my life doesn't hold much meaning, and that my purpose is over. Why can't you? I wasn't meant for a world without war. Heartless people shouldn't live in a world with too much heart. They tend to feel out of place and as though their purpose is no longer there."
Relena suddenly smiled in spite of herself, shocking the young man. "If I weren't tied down, I'd hug you. But, as I am, I can only say it." She looked moderately surprised as Heero smiled with her and chuckled a little. She was even more surprised when he walked around behind her and untied her.
"I think you've calmed down a bit. Have you not? I'd calm to the point of boredom too if an idiot started preaching at me." He smiled sadly and went to the door, "I'll see you tomorrow, Relena-san." He smiled and was about to open the door when Relena grabbed him from behind and turned him around.
"Don't talk like that. You have a purpose, you have meaning, and you have people that love you, Heero. Please don't talk that way. It hurts those of us who care. We try so hard to understand you, and you seem to just want to make it more difficult. We get to a certain point on your defenses and you push us away, We aren't going to hurt you, you know. We'll never leave you, or demoralize you, and we won't stop trying. No, never. Heero, you know perfectly well that we care about you more than you think we should. You aren't useless and we don't despise you. We all love you. In our own way, sure, but we do. Don't talk down about yourself, Heero Yuy. I think that I'd have to smack you if you did it again!"
"But I don't see the point in my existence. How could you?" He asked in a disbelieving and humorous tone.
"Because, no matter how hard you try to hide yourself, we always can tell what you fell or what you're thinking. Well, maybe not all the time, but for the most part. Hiding yourself isn't healthy. We care too much about you to watch you waste away like that."
"Then you care more than I do, Relena. I don't care what happens to me. It doesn't really matter." He looked slightly surprised to see that the Princess was crying. "Why are you crying? I don't understand."
"If you hate yourself so much, then why did you let yourself live? Why did you try so hard to stay alive at the end of the Eve War? Why do you let us be your friends? I know why. Because secretly, you just want to be happy, but you don't know how to show that urge. So, you think of yourself as weak and your existence pointless. But you can be happy. I know you can." Relena looked up at him gently.
"How, though?" He sighed. "It's impossible. Just give up, I have." Heero looked older than he truly was at that moment.
"But that's just it. I can't."
"Yes, you-" He was cut off from his next sentence as Relena lightly kissed him. When the kiss broke, both participants looked slightly flushed. "Why did you do that?" Heero finally asked.
"Because I wanted to." Relena smiled. "And I don't regret it."
"But-" He was once again cut off, only this time the kiss was more urgent and forceful. He didn't even try to get away. Before he could realize and - ultimately - stop what he was doing, Heero found himself kissing back and soon found himself pressed against the door behind him. Not knowing exactly what to do in a situation like this, Heero just slipped his arms gently around her waist and Relena's hands cupped the sides of his face. They broke only for air and then kissed again. This pattern continued for quite a long time before they both decided that they needed to go home. Though, nothing was the same afterwards. And, in Duo's phrasing, officially became a couple four weeks and three days later - Relena counted. You can just guess what that means. ^^
*~~*~~*~~* End Flashback *~~*~~*~~*
Heero smiled lightly and also found himself blushing. Relena had been right. He could be happy. But he couldn't truly be a peace with himself until all the scars on his soul had been revealed. He just wasn't ready for that yet.
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Meanwhile, Zechs had decided to go home, after telling Relena to apologize to Heero for him, and saying that he'd call another time to do it in person. He drove home in silence. Contemplating what had just happened. He had to admit that he didn't hate Yuy as much as everyone thought he did. He just couldn't understand him and that was frustrating. Zechs could, for the most part, understand all of the other Gundam Pilots and why they were the way they were, they had revealed those reasons. Heero hadn't joined in the day they had each told their stories, he had just kept silent while everyone felt as though he didn't feel like he could. They all later realized that he was just scared, but they knew not to pressure him.
Upon reaching his home, Zechs decided to e-mail Noin and tell her about what happened. She was his best friend and understood most of the things on his mind. No, she wasn't just his best friend. She was the one person he loved in a way the he himself couldn't even begin to describe. He was just hesitant to tell anyone. He knew that he still had enemies that were always looking for a way to exploit him. He knew that Duo, Trowa, Quatre, and Wu Fei each had enemies, but they weren't the kind that would actually start something. Heero on the other hand probably had more - and worse - enemies than Zechs did. Zechs didn't understand why he put Relena at risk. They could use her against him at any moment.
Zechs knew that he couldn't do anything that would endanger the one he loved, but he couldn't resist telling her how he felt. He had done so and gotten the one response that he wasn't prepared for. He was prepared if she slapped him, or just stared at him, or tried to just cue him out, or even in the slight instant where she would return his feelings. But what she had done had most definitely been the one thing he wasn't prepared for. Lucrezia Noin had smiled at him lightly. then she had kissed him. At first he thought that it had been some sort of joke, but Noin seemed to realize that he was thinking that and done it again, only with more force. Heaven forbid him from trying to stop her, either. This was what he had been hoping she'd do. Only in words instead of actions. Later, he realized that if she did return his feelings, she wasn't simply going to say so, like he did. Noin acted on things. He should have guessed that. But, it didn't stop him from being thrilled. No, he had been beside himself. They had, actually, made out for about four hours afterwards. Now, they were - for lack of a better description - having something slightly like an affair. They didn't tell anyone, though they knew that everyone would be happy for them. They just wanted to keep it to themselves, though that was becoming steadily more difficult. People didn't realize how hard it was not to give off hints that you wanted desperately to just grab that person then and there and do things that shouldn't be anywhere near the eyes of children. or adults for that matter.
He sighed as he signed on to his computer. This was going to be a hard thing to explain over a computer.
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Well, that's chapter two. I think you understand the title, right? I mean it'd kind of like, wouldn't a better title for this have something to do with Heero and Relena? Well, you'll see. I think you get it just a little more after this chapter though, huh? Yep, I'm a little screwy in the head. Sure. Anyway, the song I used really is "I Know You're Out There Somewhere" by: The Moody Blues. I didn't put the whole song (as it's rather long), but I think you get the basic point. That was the beginning. The rest of the song is just as good. I thought that I should put down what I was listening to when I wrote this: The Moody Blues & Judy Collins Well, stay tuned for more!
Disclaimer: Dun own Gundam Wing.
Notes: This sucks. Horribly. Tell me I'm wrong!
The man ran his fingers through the hair of his beloved once more before rising and retrieving his missing articles of clothing. He turned to look sadly at the beautiful sleeping face before walking out through the front exit.
Unbeknownst to him, the woman had been awake throughout everything. She closed her eyes gently and curled into a fetal position to cry. Her eyes clouded over about an hour later, and she fell into an uneasy sleep. She had a terrible feeling that something was going to happen, and no one would like it.
*~~*~~*~~*
"Dammit!" Duo Maxwell jumped up and down in agony. His wife walked through the door carrying their son.
"What happened?" Hilde asked, almost ready to laugh.
"I dropped the damn hammer on my foot!" He screeched. "Fuck!"
"Duo, watch you language." Hilde reprimanded his as their son shouldn't be hearing his father's language.
"But, geez, that hurt!"
"Well, maybe you should let a professional do it. You know we can afford it, love." Hilde grinned as she watched him explode.
"If I can repair a fucking Gundam, I think I can do this! It's just repairing the ceiling! How hard can this damn job be?!?"
"Obviously quite. That's the fourth time you've injured yourself in the past hour, Duo. Let the professional do it." Hilde shrugged. "Or at least call Heero or Wu Fei to come and help you. You can't hold that board and nail at the same time. You'll just keep hurting yourself."
"Fine. I'm calling Yuy. He has the smallest chance of making fun of me for it." He grumbled as he walked off to find a phone. Dialing the number, Duo was rewarded by his best friend's face appearing almost automatically.
"Hello, Duo." Duo could practically hear the sarcasm in his voice.
"Can you come over and help me repair our ceiling?" Duo got straight to the point.
"Sure. I have no life of my own." He rolled his eyes.
"Geez, you're in a bad mood!"
"I have to have dinner with Zechs." He looked close to pulling his hair out or just wanting to punch out a wall.
"Lucky you." Duo teased.
"Noin isn't coming." Duo winced. No one to defend the Perfect Soldier this time.
"Doesn't he listen to Relena any more?"
"Not as much so as he does with Noin. I either have to remain perfectly silent or judge what I say very carefully. It's not fair." He groaned.
"Can you complain at my house? I need some serious help here."
"Sure, be right over." With that, he hung up.
"He's sure not one for conversation." Hilde commented.
"No, he just realized I wasn't kidding."
"That too." Hilde giggled and poked her husband in the ribs. The laughed and kissed her mouth rather forcefully. "OK, you, get back to work." Hilde teased.
"What'll you do to me if I don't?"
"Well, I can think of a couple of things." Hilde grinned. "Either not speak to you, or skip your supper." Duo mocked having a heart attack. "Now go!"
"Do I get a reward?"
"Yeah, food." Hilde rolled her eyes. "I'm pregnant enough as is." They both laughed at Hilde's state. She was about four months pregnant. And in this hot July month, that was a royal pain in the ass.
About fifteen minutes later there was a knock on the door and Hilde opened it to reveal a rather disgruntled Heero Yuy.
"What happened to you?"
"I don't want to talk about it." He walked past her to find Duo bouncing around on one foot in the kitchen occasionally muttering 'Fuck', or 'Damn'. "Seems to me like stating the fact that you're incompetent would be an understatement. Why didn't you just wait until I got here?" Heero walked over and picked up the hammer from the floor where it had hit Duo's foot and bounced to.
"I got bored. What took so long?"
"Relena had a fit. She said that I should be getting ready for her brother's return to earth greeting, and I was leaving. I love her, sure, but her yelling at me profusely is just plain a pain." He groaned and picked up the boards that were going on the ceiling. Duo and Hilde had a ceiling that looked like it should have been the floor to a deck or patio. They had scorched about four of them by starting a chicken on fire at Duo's twenty-sixth birthday party. That had been two weeks ago.
"Well, now you can help me out and forget all about it!" Duo said cheerily as he handed Heero the other hammer. "This one works better. I'll hold the board and you pound. I don't want you to have to get your pretty little fingers smashed up before your nice dinner party." Duo mocked.
"Do you want to get hurt?"
"Not really."
"Then do the world a favor and shut up."
"Yes, sir!" Duo mock saluted.
"Now, how the hell am I supposed to ignore Zechs when he's always glaring at me?" Heero looked really worried, and the two men - would boys be more appropriate ^^ - worked on the ceiling.
"It's not like you don't usually glare back. Just try to concentrate on Relena. Think nasty crap if it helps. Just don't think about him. Only worry when he talks to you." Duo grinned. "Man, I'm glad I'm not you!"
"Zechs wouldn't be like this if you were trying to date his sister. He just hates me in general."
"No he doesn't. He just resents you because you beat the crap out of him."
"You're not helping."
"Yes, I am, I'm holding up the board!"
"."
"Yeah, I know what you meant, pally."
"What the hell do I do if he asks something where I know he won' t like the answer?"
"Like what? So what if you've slept with Re, it's not that big of a deal!"
"Oh, yeah, I'm gonna go and tell my girlfriend's over-protective elder brother that I've slept with his sister. That'll go over real well. You can pay for the funeral as I won't be around anymore."
"Oh, come on! He isn't going to do anything to you! Plus, I'm sure Re'd cover for you if he did something like that." Duo suddenly grinned. "Just because he's still a virgin doesn't mean that we have to be." Duo laughed out loud and Heero grinned a little.
"Probably true."
"Well, no one who's getting it on a regular basis is that stiff!"
"Probably true."
"OK, now you're just saying the same thing over and over. Don't. It creeps me out."
"." Heero slammed the hammer down at the insult and somehow managed to smash his own hand. "Fuck!" Hilde shot into the room to watch Heero fall backwards off the ladder and land in a heap on the floor.
"Oh my God! Are you all right?"
"Itai! What do you think!" Heero groaned and rolled onto his back. "I think I sprained my ankle."
"Let me see it!" Hilde sat down next to him and started examining his ankle. Just then, the telephone rang. "Duo, can you get that?"
"Sure." Duo went to answer the phone. "Hey, Re." No one in the other room could hear him.
"Hey, is Heero over there? He took off before telling me where he was going. Normally that OK, but Milliardo is going to be here early. Actually, he'll be here in about fifteen minutes."
"Yeah, Heero's here. But I think he'll be late."
"Why?" Relena was now glaring.
"He fell off the ladder after smashing one of his fingers and landed on his ankle." Duo grinned embarrassedly.
"Is he all right?" Relena suddenly looked as thought she could care less if her brother was on his way. Suddenly Hilde yelled from the other room.
"Duo! I think your dear clumsy friend broke the damn thing! Geezus, you gotta see this!" Hilde was rewarded with a rather stressed.
"Oh, shut up, you!" Heero's voice sounded strained.
"Umm. Yeah, he's gonna be late." Duo grinned impishly.
"Why the hell was Heero up a ladder anyway?"
"Remember when I scorched the ceiling? Well, we were replacing the boards."
"That's a long way down!"
"Yeah, and it hurts more when you hit most of the steps on the ladder, too."
"Duo! Who's on the phone?" Hilde yelled from the other room.
"Uhh, Relena?" Duo sounded slightly nervous. Even Relena heard Heero groan.
"Hey!" She shouted. "I heard that, you!"
"Look, Re, we gotta get your dear boyfriend over to the hospital. He'll show up when he does." Duo reached to click the off button, but refrained when Relena glared at him.
"I really don't want to stall my brother. He was in a really bad mood when he called. That's never a good thing. He tends to overreact to things just a little bit more. Only Noin can get him to stop ranting." Relena looked slightly pale.
"There ain't much we can do about that, babe. Look, I gotta go. Heero'll be there when he gets there." Duo promptly hung up the phone.
"Come on." Hilde had helped Heero to his feet. "We'll use my car. Duo'll drive yours over to the hospital behind us so that you have a way to get home."
"Right. Duo, what did Relena want?" Heero asked his friend nervously.
"Zechs is gonna be early. He's to arrive in about ten minutes."
"Great. Wonderful. Peachy. Today has officially sucked." Heero groaned.
"Yeah, I'll bet." They drove to the hospital in silence - mainly because Duo was in another car completely.
Hilde helped Heero to the front desk and explained the situation. The nurse got them a doctor right away. That was good. The doctor helped Heero into his office and assured them that he had broken his ankle. As it was just a straight brake, he set it then and there and put it in a cast. Heero paid for this and the three of them set out from the hospital, one in crutches. Heero looked at his watch.
"That took two fucking hours! They're gonna kill me!" He looked pale.
"Well, don't speed." Hilde glared at the young man as he got into his car. "Duo, since Heero shouldn't be using that foot, why don't you drive him. I'll follow and pick you up."
"Good idea." Duo smiled and Heero just groaned again. "You have one hot car, dude." He gave him the thumbs up.
"I know."
"You probably do." Duo sweatdropped. "Well, let's go." They hit the road once more.
They arrived at the Peacecraft residence twenty minutes later - it's quite a ways from the hospital to Relena's estate. Heero noticed Zechs' car there right away and groaned again. Relena walked out the front door with her dreaded brother following behind her as Duo pulled to a stop, got out, and helped Heero out.
"Well, at least he wasn't making it up." Zechs remarked snidely.
"Milliardo." Relena protested.
"No, I didn't. Right now, I wish I had." Heero groaned as he crutched over to Duo who had started to leave and asked for his keys. Duo had completely forgotten about them - seriously.
"Heero, are you all right?"
"Yeah, I'm fine." He looked more annoyed than in pain. They all waved as Duo and Hilde drove away.
"Do you want to eat now?" Relena asked after a too-long silence from the men.
"Sure, why not." It was more of a statement than a question on Heero's part.
"OK." Relena led them inside and dinner was served.
The first five minutes went quite smoothly. Then the disaster started. The soup was being brought to the table when one of the maids tripped and the hot soup landed directly in the lap of - who else - Heero Yuy.
"Oh, great! Just great!" Heero was on his last nerve. The maid looked scared out of her mind and cleaned as quickly as possible then ran away as quickly as possible.
"I don't think she meant it, Heero." Relena tried to calm him down. In all aspects, Heero was quite calm. In fact, everything considered, he was remarkably calm.
"I know that!" He replied sarcastically.
"You don't have to snap at her." Zechs finally spoke up.
"I didn't snap. I'm being perfectly rational, so don't give me any crap, OK?" He definitely didn't look happy, that's for sure.
"You've been extremely unpleasant all night. I'll understand the ankle thing, and the soup, but taking it out on us is completely unreasonable." To Zechs' utter amazement, Heero started laughing lightly - the one from the earlier episodes, the creepy one. ::shudder::.
"Heero." Relena trailed off. She recognized this. Heero was beyond the point of pissed off. Nope, now he was doing something he hadn't done in quite a while. He was back into the time of his training.
"Zechs. I had originally planned to be as nice to you as is humanly possible. Not as nice as Quatre is, but as close as I can get. Well, you can just fuck off, OK, pal?"
"Heero, please don't." Relena was even frightened.
"Right now, I don't need this bull shit. I've had the day from Hell and you aren't helping matters." He continued. "So now, I'm going to go for a little drive." He grinned again. "I'll come back when I cool down, and apologize as I am not in a good way right now." This time they both saw it. Something in his eyes. That flicker of emotion that even now doesn't appear. For some reason, Heero Yuy was frightened. Of what, they couldn't figure out. He had no reason to be afraid, annoyed, mad, anxious, yes, but frightened? Neither understood. Not the one who had stayed through thick and thin, not the one who had tried his best to understand, yet not like his enemy.
"Heero, please. What's wrong? I know it's not just this. If you leave now, I'll be worried, and I know that you aren't going to do anything that either of us will find productive."
"Probably not."
"Yuy. She's right. Even I wouldn't feel good about letting you go now. You are a danger to yourself and others."
"Probably."
"Heero! Listen to us! We care about you, don't go doing anything you'll regret!"
"You care, yes, you are sincere, yes, but do you understand, no. I'm more of a danger here than in a car. You don't seem to understand that. If I become more agitated. well, I don't even know what I'll do." He chuckled softly. "I'm going to leave. Now." He grabbed his coat and stormed out the door. Ignoring crutches and everyone in the room. He moved as though the crutches had only been a waste of time and Zechs was seriously wondering if some how while he was upset, his ankle had healed itself. He was brought from his thoughts, however, when Relena started to cry.
"Relena, it'll be OK. You know that. It always is." It was obvious that he was trying to convince himself of the same thing.
"I know. That's not why I'm crying, brother."
Zechs didn't understand. "Then why?"
"Because I know what he means. That he's more of a danger here than away. Sometimes I think that Heero can't control himself even. That sometimes he acts in ways that even he doesn't agree with. Like subconsciously. As though his mind takes over his body."
"Yeah, I know what you mean." Zechs looked at the door. He really did understand now.
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Heero sat in his car, driving with the top down. He had a classic Mercedes Convertible. He had the radio turned on and a slow song was playing.
I know you're out there somewhere
Some where, somewhere
I know I'll find you somehow
And somehow I'll return again to you
The mist is lifting slowly
I can see the way there And I've left behind the empty streets that once inspired my life And the strength of the emotion is like thunder in the air 'Cuz the promise that we made each other haunts me to the end I know you're out there somewhere Somewhere, somewhere I know you're out there somewhere Somewhere you can hear my voice I know I'll find you somehow Somehow, somehow I know I'll find you somehow And somehow I'll return again to you
Heero smiled at the lyrics. In a way they were perfect, yet in others, they weren't exactly fitting. But the song was relaxing. He had to give it that much credit.
He kept smiling at the song. So naïve, yet so true. Like the person singing knew the concept of life. He listened for the end, and the Radio Announcer told the world that the song had been called "I Know You're Out There Somewhere" by: The Moody Blues. It was so relaxing. Heero instantly felt that his going for a drive had been the perfect idea. He would just drive until he felt relaxed, then drive back. He didn't care how far he went He knew that they'd thank him for it later. He wasn't stable just then. He'd had the sinking sensation that if he'd stayed he would have beaten the living daylights out of Zechs. or worse. He closed his eyes at the thought. He had vowed to be true to himself. No one else. Yet, somehow he knew that if something were to provoke him far enough, a subconscious would take over and leave a big mess. That had happened many times in the past. He couldn't control himself, and that scared the shit out of him. He had very seriously thought about drinking during times like that. Then there was Relena. They had only been dating for a year, despite popular demand. That had sure been an interesting discussion subject. He smiled genuinely. It had been a rather odd day that day. Relena had been. too chipper for her own well being. She had been practically bouncing off the walls and driving her guards completely nuts! Heero had been called down there on his one day off - he got one about every three months or so - to try and help calm her down. Even he had been amazed at the girl's energy supply! She had been completely wild! He had finally lost his patience, grabbed her, and tied her to a chair. This had - obviously - caused quite a ruckus! She had been pissed, to say the absolute least. Heero had just smiled and sat on her desk. He remembered that whole scene well.
*~~*~~* Flashback *~~*~~*
"Heero Yuy! Untie me this instant!"
"Do you promise to calm down?"
"No! I have no reason to!"
"Then you're staying where you are."
"Oh! Do you want to look for another job?"
"I'm sure that there are plenty of other politicians who don't go bonkers every so often and drive their entire building insane. I could just work for one of them." Heero said nonchalantly. He blinked a couple of times as she stared at him.
"I believe that's the first time I've heard you say that much in one sitting other than giving some sort of speech."
He had just glared at her indignantly. "That's not true."
"Oh, really? Do I hear things that I don't notice or something?"
"You're very rude and hypocritical, did you know that?"
"You're one to talk!" She had glared at him worse than he had glared at her and caused him to flush a little.
"You just haven't known me that long!" He shot back at her.
"Really now, eight and a half years isn't very long, huh?"
"No! I happen to be twenty-four. That's only one third of my life."
"It's enough to know that you usually don't say that much!"
"I used to talk quite a bit, I'm just more reserved now!"
"'Reserved'? Is that what you call it? I call it being huffy and stuck up!"
"Ha! Look in the mirror, sweetheart!"
"Ass! You never speak to anyone, keep to yourself, act like you have a twenty-foot pole shoved up your ass, and seem to think that you aren't worth jack squat! Well, you know what, you need to lighten up, buddy! Get a life or something! You can't just sit around and be a bodyguard all your life! You need to find yourself someone that you love, get married, and live happily! You deserve it just as much as the next person! The war's over, if you hadn't noticed! There is no need for people who just can't accept that peace is here! You deserve what everyone else has. You deserve to be happy and to do that you need to let go! Let go of your past and whatever happened that made you stop trusting people! I mean, geez! You're on edge all the time! Even around me! And I'm your friend! Let people know how you feel! Just-" Relena had stopped short when Heero suddenly stood up.
"Nice speech." He glared at her. "But you don't know shit about me, so don't assume anything! I live my life the way I see fit! Maybe I'm not used to peace, maybe I'm not as social as I should be, and maybe I need to lighten up! I'll admit it! But you don't seem to realize that it's just not that simple! You never saw the things I did, you'd never understand why I can't let it go! And you don't seem to realize that I'm trying! God, I am! I've tried with all the might I have to act the same as anybody else! I can't, Relena! I just can't! You may think that I'm giving up too easily. I'm not. I've been trying for a long time now. Trying to be just like you and Duo and everybody else. It's just not that easy, I have too many things that weight me down. Right when I think that my past is behind me, something else happens to shove it right back in my face! If peace were truly here, then there wouldn't be any battles. You don't seem to realize that there are battles still being fought everyday everywhere. Some people just don't want peace. I do, I really do. I want everyone to realize just how hard we fought, but not everyone will realize. Humanity is too stubborn. Relena, I came from a military organization. That organization and many others are still in working order! I know! Hell, I've met the leaders of most of them! Geezus, even my own sister still fights! She won't stop, either. It's just our way of life, Relena. We being humans. Many people still have reasons to fight, people to fight for. We can't call it true peace until those people are at peace as well. No one can heal the wounds of some, either. Some mere physical, some mental. I know many men that I used to be good friends with that have seen so many things that they can't even see straight. You didn't live my life, you can't judge me. No one but I can do that. I think lowly of myself because I'm not a good person at all. I've killed more people than you know. You're thinking. 'Sure, that's what war is about', but that's not it, Relena! I've been a soldier since before I can remember. I've killed as many people before the war as during it. Most of them were innocent as well. Accidents did some of it, then there were the people that we didn't know were innocent until it was too late. I was forced to judge people before getting to know them and act on that judgment. You don't know what it feels like to watch everyone around you die and you are the only one who survives. Cruel fate lets you live when you would gladly have passed on. You just don't understand." He trailed off. Relena looked at the eyes of the man before her. They were open to the world. Pain had filled their clear blue depths and they traced paths on the floor. The twenty-four-year- old man before her looked closer to seventy. Worn out and used up, his body was no longer alert, he was just barely there.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to judge you. That wasn't what I meant. You know it wasn't."
"I'm sorry that I blurted that all out. And no, it didn't seem as you were judging me. I felt as if you had already done that and stamped it as the end of the issue. Even I will admit that my life doesn't hold much meaning, and that my purpose is over. Why can't you? I wasn't meant for a world without war. Heartless people shouldn't live in a world with too much heart. They tend to feel out of place and as though their purpose is no longer there."
Relena suddenly smiled in spite of herself, shocking the young man. "If I weren't tied down, I'd hug you. But, as I am, I can only say it." She looked moderately surprised as Heero smiled with her and chuckled a little. She was even more surprised when he walked around behind her and untied her.
"I think you've calmed down a bit. Have you not? I'd calm to the point of boredom too if an idiot started preaching at me." He smiled sadly and went to the door, "I'll see you tomorrow, Relena-san." He smiled and was about to open the door when Relena grabbed him from behind and turned him around.
"Don't talk like that. You have a purpose, you have meaning, and you have people that love you, Heero. Please don't talk that way. It hurts those of us who care. We try so hard to understand you, and you seem to just want to make it more difficult. We get to a certain point on your defenses and you push us away, We aren't going to hurt you, you know. We'll never leave you, or demoralize you, and we won't stop trying. No, never. Heero, you know perfectly well that we care about you more than you think we should. You aren't useless and we don't despise you. We all love you. In our own way, sure, but we do. Don't talk down about yourself, Heero Yuy. I think that I'd have to smack you if you did it again!"
"But I don't see the point in my existence. How could you?" He asked in a disbelieving and humorous tone.
"Because, no matter how hard you try to hide yourself, we always can tell what you fell or what you're thinking. Well, maybe not all the time, but for the most part. Hiding yourself isn't healthy. We care too much about you to watch you waste away like that."
"Then you care more than I do, Relena. I don't care what happens to me. It doesn't really matter." He looked slightly surprised to see that the Princess was crying. "Why are you crying? I don't understand."
"If you hate yourself so much, then why did you let yourself live? Why did you try so hard to stay alive at the end of the Eve War? Why do you let us be your friends? I know why. Because secretly, you just want to be happy, but you don't know how to show that urge. So, you think of yourself as weak and your existence pointless. But you can be happy. I know you can." Relena looked up at him gently.
"How, though?" He sighed. "It's impossible. Just give up, I have." Heero looked older than he truly was at that moment.
"But that's just it. I can't."
"Yes, you-" He was cut off from his next sentence as Relena lightly kissed him. When the kiss broke, both participants looked slightly flushed. "Why did you do that?" Heero finally asked.
"Because I wanted to." Relena smiled. "And I don't regret it."
"But-" He was once again cut off, only this time the kiss was more urgent and forceful. He didn't even try to get away. Before he could realize and - ultimately - stop what he was doing, Heero found himself kissing back and soon found himself pressed against the door behind him. Not knowing exactly what to do in a situation like this, Heero just slipped his arms gently around her waist and Relena's hands cupped the sides of his face. They broke only for air and then kissed again. This pattern continued for quite a long time before they both decided that they needed to go home. Though, nothing was the same afterwards. And, in Duo's phrasing, officially became a couple four weeks and three days later - Relena counted. You can just guess what that means. ^^
*~~*~~*~~* End Flashback *~~*~~*~~*
Heero smiled lightly and also found himself blushing. Relena had been right. He could be happy. But he couldn't truly be a peace with himself until all the scars on his soul had been revealed. He just wasn't ready for that yet.
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Meanwhile, Zechs had decided to go home, after telling Relena to apologize to Heero for him, and saying that he'd call another time to do it in person. He drove home in silence. Contemplating what had just happened. He had to admit that he didn't hate Yuy as much as everyone thought he did. He just couldn't understand him and that was frustrating. Zechs could, for the most part, understand all of the other Gundam Pilots and why they were the way they were, they had revealed those reasons. Heero hadn't joined in the day they had each told their stories, he had just kept silent while everyone felt as though he didn't feel like he could. They all later realized that he was just scared, but they knew not to pressure him.
Upon reaching his home, Zechs decided to e-mail Noin and tell her about what happened. She was his best friend and understood most of the things on his mind. No, she wasn't just his best friend. She was the one person he loved in a way the he himself couldn't even begin to describe. He was just hesitant to tell anyone. He knew that he still had enemies that were always looking for a way to exploit him. He knew that Duo, Trowa, Quatre, and Wu Fei each had enemies, but they weren't the kind that would actually start something. Heero on the other hand probably had more - and worse - enemies than Zechs did. Zechs didn't understand why he put Relena at risk. They could use her against him at any moment.
Zechs knew that he couldn't do anything that would endanger the one he loved, but he couldn't resist telling her how he felt. He had done so and gotten the one response that he wasn't prepared for. He was prepared if she slapped him, or just stared at him, or tried to just cue him out, or even in the slight instant where she would return his feelings. But what she had done had most definitely been the one thing he wasn't prepared for. Lucrezia Noin had smiled at him lightly. then she had kissed him. At first he thought that it had been some sort of joke, but Noin seemed to realize that he was thinking that and done it again, only with more force. Heaven forbid him from trying to stop her, either. This was what he had been hoping she'd do. Only in words instead of actions. Later, he realized that if she did return his feelings, she wasn't simply going to say so, like he did. Noin acted on things. He should have guessed that. But, it didn't stop him from being thrilled. No, he had been beside himself. They had, actually, made out for about four hours afterwards. Now, they were - for lack of a better description - having something slightly like an affair. They didn't tell anyone, though they knew that everyone would be happy for them. They just wanted to keep it to themselves, though that was becoming steadily more difficult. People didn't realize how hard it was not to give off hints that you wanted desperately to just grab that person then and there and do things that shouldn't be anywhere near the eyes of children. or adults for that matter.
He sighed as he signed on to his computer. This was going to be a hard thing to explain over a computer.
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Well, that's chapter two. I think you understand the title, right? I mean it'd kind of like, wouldn't a better title for this have something to do with Heero and Relena? Well, you'll see. I think you get it just a little more after this chapter though, huh? Yep, I'm a little screwy in the head. Sure. Anyway, the song I used really is "I Know You're Out There Somewhere" by: The Moody Blues. I didn't put the whole song (as it's rather long), but I think you get the basic point. That was the beginning. The rest of the song is just as good. I thought that I should put down what I was listening to when I wrote this: The Moody Blues & Judy Collins Well, stay tuned for more!