Title. I Can Try
Authour. ~sushisama~ (sbolce@esper.com)
Warnings. Kensuke/Daiken, and
muchness of the fluff.
Disclaimer. Digimon and all its characters are copyrighted to Toei.
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Notes. Oh dear. Seems I've
fallen into the whole Valentine's Day fic thing. Granted, I'm a bit late with this, but, ohwell, who can you blame? I was originally going to write a Kingdom
Hearts fic, but then I went through my Kensuke doujinshi 'Koisuru Dendoutai',
and got inspired. Btw, if anyone has
translations to that doujin, I would love you ever so much if I could get those
from you... ;D Anyway, read and review! And remember to check out the message board
for replies to fics. ^_^
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thoughts [ ] = dreams ( ) = flashbacks
::*~~*::
It was a
strangely hot winter day, Ken noticed as he sat in the park in between his home
and Odaiba. He had found a bench near a
bunch of trees where there weren't a lot of people. This was as the former Digimon Kaizer had hoped, because he was
even more so of a loner now since his return from the digital world. He found himself often time hiding from old
fans and admirers.
The blue-haired genius looked
down at his watch. Ten minutes. Daisuke was ten minutes late. Ken sighed, pondering how much more he
should bother wasting his time in the park.
Though he wasn't around people, he still felt uncomfortable being within
eyesight of all the happy couples on this day.
This day that always reminded
him of how lonely he was...
"Ken!"
Ken turned to the voice that
was approaching him. He laid eyes on
the slightly younger tanned boy that was running towards him. He couldn't help but smile. Daisuke always found a way to make him smile
without even trying.
"Daisuke-kun," Ken
addressed as the boy stopped in front of him, panting and trying to catch his
breath, his hands on his knees as he bent over.
"No need for
formalities," Daisuke said as he straightened himself up, smiling. "Sorry I'm late."
"It's all right,"
Ken said with a shrug. "What did
you want to talk about?"
"Talk about?"
Ken nodded. "That's why you asked me here, isn't
it?"
"I wanted to spend the
day with you, is all," Daisuke admitted.
"...you did?" As happy as he was to hear that the boy he
silently admired wanted to spend time with him, Ken couldn't help but feel a
bit skeptical. Daisuke had been asking
him a lot lately to join their group.
He denied him each time, but the cinnamon-haired boy still seemed
persistent.
"Yeah." Daisuke looked down at the ground, his hands
behind his back.
/ Is he blushing? / Ken
thought.
"I don't have anyone to
be with today. Even Miyako and Iori
have someone!" He sighed before
looking back up at Ken. "I just
didn't want to be alone today. I
thought that you might want company, too."
Ken scowled at him. "What makes you think that I'm
lonely?"
Daisuke bit his lower lip,
thinking how to word what he was going to say without offending his
friend. "Ken... I know you're alone. At least, that's how you feel." He took Ken's pale hand in his. "But you're not. I'll always be there for you."
Ken looked to the hand holding
his and back to Daisuke's big chocolate eyes.
"You just wanted to spend the day with me?" Daisuke nodded, smiling, thinking that his
friend had finally started to understand.
It took him so long just to work up the courage to call Ken, courage
he'd been building up for over a week, and it had only come to head that
morning.
He frowned with disappointment
when Ken retracted his hand.
"So you're taking pity on
me for just today?" He glared into
Daisuke's eyes, making the smaller boy feel even smaller. "You felt lonely and came to me, just
because your crush is probably spending the day with that blond. But will you acknowledge me in the same way
tomorrow? Or will it go back to you
asking me to join you just because I'm a Digidestined like you and your friends?"
Daisuke stared at Ken with
large, uncomprehending eyes, his mouth open a little in surprise. He wasn't expecting Ken to react like
this. Ken had become so timid and he
half-expected him to just sit, listen, and discuss something like this. Not blow up.
It some-what reminded him of
the Kaizer's attitude...
"Ken... I don't understand..."
"What isn't there to
understand? I don't want your pity."
"Pity?" Daisuke shook his head. "No!" He gripped Ken's shoulders in an almost desperate way. "I don't pity you at all,
Ken." He stared Ken in the eyes,
seeking out whatever emotions were in those blue eyes: what he saw was the
underlying confusion, hate, and some of the same desperation that Daisuke had,
though probably not for the same reason.
"I don't pity you at all..."
His voice took on a very gentle edge.
"Then what do you
feel?" Ken asked, his voice not as accusing as it had been. "Is it obligation because I'm a
Digidestined?"
The confusion came back to
Daisuke's eyes. "What don't you
understand? What can I do to make you
think the same way I do?" He put
his hands to his sides, his eyes downcast.
"Why do you think like that, when all I really want is to be
friends with you?"
"Why would you want
me?" Ken asked, his voice dropping to a sadder note. "After all I've done to you and your
friends... I was so horrible as the
Kaizer..." He sighed. "Why do you even bother with me at
all?"
The answer was simple: "I
told you, I want to be your friend."
"That's all?"
"That's all." Daisuke replied through a smile. "Look, we're not in the digital world
right now, or even with the other children and our Digimon, so, just for now,
let's pretend there are no such things, all right?"
Ken hesitated. "...all right. Just you and me."
Daisuke nodded, a large grin
on his face. "Right. Just you and me."
The tanned boy was startled
when Ken suddenly latched himself to the younger boy, wrapping his arms around
the spiky-haired boy. "Thank
you..." Ken whispered though muffled by Daisuke's shoulder from where his
head rested.
Daisuke returned the embrace,
rubbing Ken's back for reassurance.
"Don't thank me, Ken. It's
what friends are for." He closed
his eyes and let a small sigh pass his lips.
"What I'm here for..."
Daisuke received another
surprise when in the next moment Ken's lips were upon his. His eyes were wide with shock, but he didn't
pull away.
"K-ken...?" the
baffled preteen squeaked, when the blue-haired genius pulled away.
Ken had a small smile on his
face. "Yes, Daisuke?"
"What... what was that
for?"
"Because... that's how
you're supposed to celebrate this day."
"I know... But that's only with someone you
like..." He noticed the smile Ken
had going away slowly. "...someone
you like like that." And it
clicked right after he said it. Why Ken
was staring at him so intensely, why the good mood he thought the child of
kindness was finally beginning was going away so suddenly. "Oh," he said softly. "Oh."
"Daisuke..."
"I admire you, Ken,"
Daisuke said, cutting off Ken before he could start any new statement. "I always have. Even when you were the Kaizer, I had some
respect for you, only because of how determined you were. You're so strong..."
"Daisuke," Ken tried
again.
"I... I didn't think you
were like that, I didn't think you liked anyone. But... it kind of makes me feel special that you of all people
would like me." He blushed
some. "And I... I don't know how I
feel about you, but... but..."
Ken wrapped his arms around
Daisuke again and pulled the boy closer.
"Don't force anything, Daisuke.
I understand if you don't feel the same..."
"But, I don't know how I
feel." He sighed, relaxing into
Ken's hug. "I don't want to just
pass it off as nothing when there might be something..."
"What do you want to do
then?"
Daisuke pulled away from Ken
so he could look into the other's eyes.
"I don't want to be friends today."
Ken raised an eyebrow. "You don't?"
Daisuke shook his head. "No.
I want to be taking you on a date, like..."
"Like a boyfriend?"
"Yeah."
Ken smiled. "I can deal with that."
"Good," Daisuke said
through a grin. "Because I
wouldn't have accepted 'no'."
Ken chuckled. "I know, I wouldn't expect you to. So, where do you want to take me?"
"Somewhere cheap. I don't have much money."
"Then, let's just walk
around some and then go to the restaurant I saw nearby. Sound good?"
"Sounds perfect."
Ken took Daisuke's hand and
began to drag him off, both of them wearing big smiles. "Daisuke?"
"Yeah, Ken?"
"Happy Valentine's
Day."
"Happy Valentine's Day to
you, too, Ken."
*blinkblink* I'm such a conformist. *shudder*
I don't hate this fic, and I don't really care for it. It's 'okay', I guess. Eh. Ohwell. Always next year. Now, off to writing more for 'Distance'! W00t! ^_^