1 By: Amy Yu
On: March 31, 2002
2 Saying Goodbye
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or any of its characters. This fic is written for purposes of amusement only. I am not gaining any profits from this. Blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda...
Warnings: Shounen ai Eiri+Shuichi and angst.
Author's Note: This is the sequel to "Comatose Dreams".
Here's the fic:
~*~*~*~
'Wake up Eiri. Please, just open your eyes so I know you're okay.' Shuichi begged silently. He was still at the hospital, waiting for Eiri to recover, sitting in that chair by Eiri's bedside, always sitting in that chair.
It has been four days now and there has yet to be any signs of improvement or deterioration. Even unconscious, Eiri was a mystery to all those around him.
"No matter what you do to me, I'll keep praying for you." Shuichi mumbled softly to the sleeping face of his lover, who, for once, did not wear a scowl. "I'll never give up on you because I'll always love you."
At first, Shuichi had cried bitter tears, angry with both Eiri and himself. He was mad at Eiri because of the vicious way he was attacked by the very person who he trusted with his heart. And even though Shuichi did not realize it, Eiri had turned into the very person that he had hated and he had hurt someone precious to him. He was mad at himself because he had not found another way to stop the attack.
Eiri had already gone through so much in his life, he did not need anymore pain and Shuichi had caused him so much pain by just being part of his life.
Bringing a limp hand up to his lips, Shuichi gently kissed each finger before nuzzling the palm with his cheek. He wished that he could hear Eiri speak to him again, even if he would only hear about how much Eiri hated him for being such a nuisance in his already pain filled life. He wished he could look in to Eiri's eyes again, even if he saw nothing but loathing in those golden irises. He wished he could hold Eiri again, even if it was for just a moment. He wished he could talk to Eiri again, even if it was just to say good bye.
Drowning in a sea of depression, Shuichi broke down in empty sobs, his tears having dried long ago. Gripping Eiri's hand with all his might, he buried his face in the thin hospital blanket at Eiri's waist, muffling his own agonizing sounds, but never letting go of that hand.
In fact, Shuichi was so overwhelmed by his own misery that he did not even notice when a small crease formed on Eiri's forehead, or when Eiri began to whimper softly like a mistreated child.
Finally, unable to hide the horrors of his dreams from the outside world any longer, Eiri cried out in his slumber, "Don't touch me. Stay away from me!"
Not knowing that Eiri was fighting off a spirit, which only seemed to exist in his dreams, Shuichi recoiled at the outburst. He had thought that Eiri's venomous tone was directed at him. Now, seeing Eiri slowly settle back into his deep sleep with only a slight sigh, Shuichi slowly backed into a corner of the room and wrapped his arms around himself, his eyes never leaving the face of his sleeping lover.
"Is that what you want? Was that what you wanted all along?" Shuichi asked the silent form on the bed opposite to him, knowing that he will not get an answer. "I wish you only told me sooner. I would have left you alone if it made you happy. I would have done anything if it made you happy...because you're all that matters in my world."
With those words, Shuichi cautiously approached Eiri again, whispered, "Have a good life. I won't bother you any longer." After placing a gentle kiss on Eiri's forehead, Shuichi straightened himself and without another word or a backward glance, he slipped out of the room and out of Eiri's life, this time, good-bye may be forever.
3 TBC
On: March 31, 2002
2 Saying Goodbye
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or any of its characters. This fic is written for purposes of amusement only. I am not gaining any profits from this. Blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda...
Warnings: Shounen ai Eiri+Shuichi and angst.
Author's Note: This is the sequel to "Comatose Dreams".
Here's the fic:
~*~*~*~
'Wake up Eiri. Please, just open your eyes so I know you're okay.' Shuichi begged silently. He was still at the hospital, waiting for Eiri to recover, sitting in that chair by Eiri's bedside, always sitting in that chair.
It has been four days now and there has yet to be any signs of improvement or deterioration. Even unconscious, Eiri was a mystery to all those around him.
"No matter what you do to me, I'll keep praying for you." Shuichi mumbled softly to the sleeping face of his lover, who, for once, did not wear a scowl. "I'll never give up on you because I'll always love you."
At first, Shuichi had cried bitter tears, angry with both Eiri and himself. He was mad at Eiri because of the vicious way he was attacked by the very person who he trusted with his heart. And even though Shuichi did not realize it, Eiri had turned into the very person that he had hated and he had hurt someone precious to him. He was mad at himself because he had not found another way to stop the attack.
Eiri had already gone through so much in his life, he did not need anymore pain and Shuichi had caused him so much pain by just being part of his life.
Bringing a limp hand up to his lips, Shuichi gently kissed each finger before nuzzling the palm with his cheek. He wished that he could hear Eiri speak to him again, even if he would only hear about how much Eiri hated him for being such a nuisance in his already pain filled life. He wished he could look in to Eiri's eyes again, even if he saw nothing but loathing in those golden irises. He wished he could hold Eiri again, even if it was for just a moment. He wished he could talk to Eiri again, even if it was just to say good bye.
Drowning in a sea of depression, Shuichi broke down in empty sobs, his tears having dried long ago. Gripping Eiri's hand with all his might, he buried his face in the thin hospital blanket at Eiri's waist, muffling his own agonizing sounds, but never letting go of that hand.
In fact, Shuichi was so overwhelmed by his own misery that he did not even notice when a small crease formed on Eiri's forehead, or when Eiri began to whimper softly like a mistreated child.
Finally, unable to hide the horrors of his dreams from the outside world any longer, Eiri cried out in his slumber, "Don't touch me. Stay away from me!"
Not knowing that Eiri was fighting off a spirit, which only seemed to exist in his dreams, Shuichi recoiled at the outburst. He had thought that Eiri's venomous tone was directed at him. Now, seeing Eiri slowly settle back into his deep sleep with only a slight sigh, Shuichi slowly backed into a corner of the room and wrapped his arms around himself, his eyes never leaving the face of his sleeping lover.
"Is that what you want? Was that what you wanted all along?" Shuichi asked the silent form on the bed opposite to him, knowing that he will not get an answer. "I wish you only told me sooner. I would have left you alone if it made you happy. I would have done anything if it made you happy...because you're all that matters in my world."
With those words, Shuichi cautiously approached Eiri again, whispered, "Have a good life. I won't bother you any longer." After placing a gentle kiss on Eiri's forehead, Shuichi straightened himself and without another word or a backward glance, he slipped out of the room and out of Eiri's life, this time, good-bye may be forever.
3 TBC