1 By: Amy Yu
On: April 18, 2002
2 The Man Behind the Mask
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or any of its characters. This fic is written for purposes of amusement only. I am not gaining any profits from this. Blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda...
Warnings: Shounen ai Eiri+Shuichi and angst.
Author's Note: This is the sequel to "Saying Good-bye".
Here's the fic:
~*~*~*~
3 Have a good life. I won't bother you any longer.
"Do you hear that, Eiri?" the spirit of his former sensei whispered in an ominous tone. "He's leaving you because he finally sees the monster that you really are."
Cradling his head in his arms, Eiri fought to keep the dreaded words of good-bye out of him mind. "No! That's not true. Shuichi loves me. He said so himself. He's just joking, he'll come back, he always does because he won't let me go, he loves me." He muttered, almost as if he was trying to convince himself.
The truth was that Shuichi had left and the ghosted words that had filtered into Eiri's mind were the faint farewell his lover had murmured softly before leaving this part of his life behind for good.
"Don't kid yourself. No one loves you, not even the boy. He had such an innocent soul, but you tormented it until there was nothing left, but a hollow shell filled with all the negative emotions that seem to roll off of you. How can he have loved you when you rarely every showed him anything more than a scowl and even when you did show him more, it was only when you felt that it was convenient." Yuki spat at Eiri with every last bit of disgust in the world residing in his words.
Uncurling from the fetal position that had been his immediate reaction to Yuki's presence; Eiri backed away from his avenging sensei. Refusing to believe what he was being told, he turned away from Yuki's smirking face and ran off in search of a way to escape from this nightmarish hell.
Have a good life. I won't bother you any longer.
These words of a final farewell echoed in Eiri's head, tearing him apart from the inside. He had to find a way out and get Shuichi back before he lost him forever. He was so enraptured by his thoughts that he did not notice his sensei appear right before him, seemingly out of thin air, and ran right into him.
Stumbling backwards from the force of the impact, Eiri looked up to find Yuki slowly advancing towards him with a contempt smirk playing on his face.
"You won't get away this time. I'm making sure of that." Yuki announced with confidence.
Feeling his panic returning to him, Eiri backed away a few more steps, whispering, "No. Not again. What would Shuichi think of me if he was here?"
"He doesn't give a damn about you." Yuki said with a hint of satisfaction. "He left you for good remember?"
"No, that's not true." Eiri denied. He refused to believe that Shuichi had left him out of hatred. "He said himself that he loves me."
Almost as if a proverbial light bulb had switched on over his head, Eiri's mind replayed the few words that had filtered into his unconscious thoughts.
I'll always love you.
Shuichi had said that to him. Even after Eiri had done something so horrendous, Shuichi could still forgive him and love him. That was something that Eiri could never understand, but he was grateful. There were not many pure souls in the world and Shuichi was one of the purest and kindest. How he had the fortune of attracting such a wonderful lover may never be known, but it was the opportunity of a lifetime. You can only find your soul mate once, and Eiri's had walking out of his room just moments ago.
3.1 You're all that matters in my world.
Shuichi had thought that walking out of Eiri's life would be the best, but he was wrong. No matter who said that Shuichi was wrong for him, only Eiri knew for sure and he knew that Shuichi was the one for him, the only one for him.
Feeling renewed energy flowing through him, Eiri realized that if he wanted Shuichi back, he would have to fight Yuki and this time, he would get rid of him for good.
Eiri stopped backing away from the ghost from his darkest nightmares and lifted his eyes in defiance. It was time to stop running from his past and fight back.
"No, Yuki. You're wrong. He does love me and I think it's about time I listened to that pink fluff ball of mine. He kept telling me to let go of my past and learn to live my life. He was right, I have to let go." Eiri spoke with an air of confidence. "He was right and you were wrong."
Startled by Eiri's sudden change of heart, Yuki stopped as well and stared back. With a contempt edge in his voice, he responded, "Stop fooling yourself. No one can love a screw up like you." But Eiri had already made up his mind. There was nothing that Yuki could do to regain his control over Eiri.
All the rage inside of Eiri came rushing out and instead of taking it out on Shuichi as he had done so many times before, it was all focused on Yuki.
Closing his hands up tightly, Eiri brought his right hand up and swung. His fist connected with Yuki's lift cheek, but instead of falling down or stumbling back before countering with his own punch, Yuki froze. Then as Eiri was lowering his hand, Yuki's inert image shattered like glass, into countless numbers of tiny shards.
His soul finally free from its prison of ice, Eiri stared down at the needle sharp splinters on the ground. "Our battle's over, Yuki. It's all over and I won."
Eiri slowly released a long breath as if he was ridding his body of any traces of the destructive thoughts that Yuki had deeply implanted in his mind. It really was over now and his greatest burden was now gone.
The pain and agony Yuki had caused him dissipated and he could live his life again. Letting the first real smile in over 8 years slip onto his face, Eiri closed his eyes and savoured the feeling of the beginning of the rest of his life as the darkness around him faded, taken over by a warm white glow which slowly engulfed him. He was free now.
TBC...
On: April 18, 2002
2 The Man Behind the Mask
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or any of its characters. This fic is written for purposes of amusement only. I am not gaining any profits from this. Blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda...
Warnings: Shounen ai Eiri+Shuichi and angst.
Author's Note: This is the sequel to "Saying Good-bye".
Here's the fic:
~*~*~*~
3 Have a good life. I won't bother you any longer.
"Do you hear that, Eiri?" the spirit of his former sensei whispered in an ominous tone. "He's leaving you because he finally sees the monster that you really are."
Cradling his head in his arms, Eiri fought to keep the dreaded words of good-bye out of him mind. "No! That's not true. Shuichi loves me. He said so himself. He's just joking, he'll come back, he always does because he won't let me go, he loves me." He muttered, almost as if he was trying to convince himself.
The truth was that Shuichi had left and the ghosted words that had filtered into Eiri's mind were the faint farewell his lover had murmured softly before leaving this part of his life behind for good.
"Don't kid yourself. No one loves you, not even the boy. He had such an innocent soul, but you tormented it until there was nothing left, but a hollow shell filled with all the negative emotions that seem to roll off of you. How can he have loved you when you rarely every showed him anything more than a scowl and even when you did show him more, it was only when you felt that it was convenient." Yuki spat at Eiri with every last bit of disgust in the world residing in his words.
Uncurling from the fetal position that had been his immediate reaction to Yuki's presence; Eiri backed away from his avenging sensei. Refusing to believe what he was being told, he turned away from Yuki's smirking face and ran off in search of a way to escape from this nightmarish hell.
Have a good life. I won't bother you any longer.
These words of a final farewell echoed in Eiri's head, tearing him apart from the inside. He had to find a way out and get Shuichi back before he lost him forever. He was so enraptured by his thoughts that he did not notice his sensei appear right before him, seemingly out of thin air, and ran right into him.
Stumbling backwards from the force of the impact, Eiri looked up to find Yuki slowly advancing towards him with a contempt smirk playing on his face.
"You won't get away this time. I'm making sure of that." Yuki announced with confidence.
Feeling his panic returning to him, Eiri backed away a few more steps, whispering, "No. Not again. What would Shuichi think of me if he was here?"
"He doesn't give a damn about you." Yuki said with a hint of satisfaction. "He left you for good remember?"
"No, that's not true." Eiri denied. He refused to believe that Shuichi had left him out of hatred. "He said himself that he loves me."
Almost as if a proverbial light bulb had switched on over his head, Eiri's mind replayed the few words that had filtered into his unconscious thoughts.
I'll always love you.
Shuichi had said that to him. Even after Eiri had done something so horrendous, Shuichi could still forgive him and love him. That was something that Eiri could never understand, but he was grateful. There were not many pure souls in the world and Shuichi was one of the purest and kindest. How he had the fortune of attracting such a wonderful lover may never be known, but it was the opportunity of a lifetime. You can only find your soul mate once, and Eiri's had walking out of his room just moments ago.
3.1 You're all that matters in my world.
Shuichi had thought that walking out of Eiri's life would be the best, but he was wrong. No matter who said that Shuichi was wrong for him, only Eiri knew for sure and he knew that Shuichi was the one for him, the only one for him.
Feeling renewed energy flowing through him, Eiri realized that if he wanted Shuichi back, he would have to fight Yuki and this time, he would get rid of him for good.
Eiri stopped backing away from the ghost from his darkest nightmares and lifted his eyes in defiance. It was time to stop running from his past and fight back.
"No, Yuki. You're wrong. He does love me and I think it's about time I listened to that pink fluff ball of mine. He kept telling me to let go of my past and learn to live my life. He was right, I have to let go." Eiri spoke with an air of confidence. "He was right and you were wrong."
Startled by Eiri's sudden change of heart, Yuki stopped as well and stared back. With a contempt edge in his voice, he responded, "Stop fooling yourself. No one can love a screw up like you." But Eiri had already made up his mind. There was nothing that Yuki could do to regain his control over Eiri.
All the rage inside of Eiri came rushing out and instead of taking it out on Shuichi as he had done so many times before, it was all focused on Yuki.
Closing his hands up tightly, Eiri brought his right hand up and swung. His fist connected with Yuki's lift cheek, but instead of falling down or stumbling back before countering with his own punch, Yuki froze. Then as Eiri was lowering his hand, Yuki's inert image shattered like glass, into countless numbers of tiny shards.
His soul finally free from its prison of ice, Eiri stared down at the needle sharp splinters on the ground. "Our battle's over, Yuki. It's all over and I won."
Eiri slowly released a long breath as if he was ridding his body of any traces of the destructive thoughts that Yuki had deeply implanted in his mind. It really was over now and his greatest burden was now gone.
The pain and agony Yuki had caused him dissipated and he could live his life again. Letting the first real smile in over 8 years slip onto his face, Eiri closed his eyes and savoured the feeling of the beginning of the rest of his life as the darkness around him faded, taken over by a warm white glow which slowly engulfed him. He was free now.
TBC...