By: Amy the Yu
On: October 12, 2002
Turn Away
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or any of its characters. This fic is written for purposes of amusement only. I am not gaining any profits from this. Blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda...
Warnings: Shounen ai Eiri+Shuichi and angst.
Author's Note: I was not planning to give Ryuichi much of a part, but I guess I kinda have to after reading how much people liked the idea of him intervening. However, since I was never a huge fan of Ryuichi's (please don't hurt me O_O), I'm going to write him as someone completely different from the child-like idiot that most people love him for. This is the sequel to "Permission Denied".
Here's the fic: ~*~*~*~
Eiri froze on the spot. Of all people he had not expected Ryuichi to be the one to stand up for Shuichi. The rabbit toting singer hid his brains well. Eiri had never guessed that he would be so observant and considerate towards his friends.
"But, but, but..." Eiri stuttered, not knowing how to confront the situation without his old cynical mask. He may have freed his emotions from the mental prison he had built, but that seemed to have a newly exposed down side. He was now open and vulnerable to being hurt. However, he had decided right there and then, being hurt due to this own inability to deal with his newfound, or rather his newly reawakened, emotions would be acceptable if he could reach his goal, if he could have Shuichi back by his side.
Ryuichi snapped, "Can the excuses. I'm sick of how you treat Shuichi. He deserves better. Why would you think that I'd let you go after him? Why? So you could hurt him? So you can attempt to rape him again? Face it, Uesugi, he was never anything more than a plaything to you."
"No." Eiri stumbled, "No, I-"
"Then what else would you have thought of him as?" Ryuichi cut in, not allowing Eiri to finish. "The only reason you want to find him is so you can abuse him even more. Why would you think that I would ever let you go after him after what you've done?"
Eiri felt defeated. He lowered his eyes to the floor in surrender. "Because...I love him." He whispered back.
Ryuichi snorted. "That's a laugh. Last I knew, you couldn't care less what happened to him. People change for the better, but I don't believe for a second that you're one of those people. Your type don't understand love. You only understand possessions and lust. You're a worthless liar." He then turned his back on the heartbroken writer and walked away, not feeling an ounce of remorse for the nasty remarks that he made.
The burden was too great and Eiri couldn't contain his sorrow anymore. Tears began to flow as Eiri slumped to the floor, defeat overwhelming him. Maybe Ryuichi was right. Maybe he had not changed as much as he had thought.
The fragile remains of Eiri's world began to crumble and there was nothing he could do to stop it. The race was over and he had lost. The prize was gone. Shuichi was gone. He wrapped his arms around his knees and buried his head there, hiding his face from the world. For the first time in years, he began to cry in earnest. The wall in his mind was gone and emotions were allowed to flow freely. There were no longer any barriers to prevent him from getting hurt and slowly, his heart was falling to pieces.
Ryuichi walked away, without sparing a single glance at the broken man behind. He did not even notice that Eiri was crying. He had done his duty as Shuichi's friend. What happened to Eiri was no concern of his.
Eiri was finally able to break free from his mental prison, but it all seemed like a big mistake. Had he left his emotions where they were, locked up safely in a hidden corner of his mind, he would have been able to move on. Unfortunately, the Eiri Uesugi that everyone had come to know was no more. In his place was a lonely man, searching for his one true love, a true love that he may never find again.
Soon, the lobby was silent once again, save for the anguished sobs of an unfortunate man.
This was not fair. Eiri should have found his lover, Shuichi should have forgiven him, and they should have fallen in love all over again, but this was no fairytale and Eiri was no Prince Charming. He was the tragic hero who will never have his happy ending. Eiri was destined for the role. It just fit him so perfectly. Perhaps he was meant to live unhappily ever after.
TBC
Note: Sorry for the crappy chapter. Writer's block hits again. Help me out? The ending for this chapter was actually inspired by a poem I wrote for my English class, "Unhappily Ever After". The theme "fairytales gone wrong" written all over it. If anyone's interested in reading it, visit: http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=905539 It's a very short, amusing parody and was a class favourite. Try it, you might like it.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or any of its characters. This fic is written for purposes of amusement only. I am not gaining any profits from this. Blah blah blah yadda yadda yadda...
Warnings: Shounen ai Eiri+Shuichi and angst.
Author's Note: I was not planning to give Ryuichi much of a part, but I guess I kinda have to after reading how much people liked the idea of him intervening. However, since I was never a huge fan of Ryuichi's (please don't hurt me O_O), I'm going to write him as someone completely different from the child-like idiot that most people love him for. This is the sequel to "Permission Denied".
Here's the fic: ~*~*~*~
Eiri froze on the spot. Of all people he had not expected Ryuichi to be the one to stand up for Shuichi. The rabbit toting singer hid his brains well. Eiri had never guessed that he would be so observant and considerate towards his friends.
"But, but, but..." Eiri stuttered, not knowing how to confront the situation without his old cynical mask. He may have freed his emotions from the mental prison he had built, but that seemed to have a newly exposed down side. He was now open and vulnerable to being hurt. However, he had decided right there and then, being hurt due to this own inability to deal with his newfound, or rather his newly reawakened, emotions would be acceptable if he could reach his goal, if he could have Shuichi back by his side.
Ryuichi snapped, "Can the excuses. I'm sick of how you treat Shuichi. He deserves better. Why would you think that I'd let you go after him? Why? So you could hurt him? So you can attempt to rape him again? Face it, Uesugi, he was never anything more than a plaything to you."
"No." Eiri stumbled, "No, I-"
"Then what else would you have thought of him as?" Ryuichi cut in, not allowing Eiri to finish. "The only reason you want to find him is so you can abuse him even more. Why would you think that I would ever let you go after him after what you've done?"
Eiri felt defeated. He lowered his eyes to the floor in surrender. "Because...I love him." He whispered back.
Ryuichi snorted. "That's a laugh. Last I knew, you couldn't care less what happened to him. People change for the better, but I don't believe for a second that you're one of those people. Your type don't understand love. You only understand possessions and lust. You're a worthless liar." He then turned his back on the heartbroken writer and walked away, not feeling an ounce of remorse for the nasty remarks that he made.
The burden was too great and Eiri couldn't contain his sorrow anymore. Tears began to flow as Eiri slumped to the floor, defeat overwhelming him. Maybe Ryuichi was right. Maybe he had not changed as much as he had thought.
The fragile remains of Eiri's world began to crumble and there was nothing he could do to stop it. The race was over and he had lost. The prize was gone. Shuichi was gone. He wrapped his arms around his knees and buried his head there, hiding his face from the world. For the first time in years, he began to cry in earnest. The wall in his mind was gone and emotions were allowed to flow freely. There were no longer any barriers to prevent him from getting hurt and slowly, his heart was falling to pieces.
Ryuichi walked away, without sparing a single glance at the broken man behind. He did not even notice that Eiri was crying. He had done his duty as Shuichi's friend. What happened to Eiri was no concern of his.
Eiri was finally able to break free from his mental prison, but it all seemed like a big mistake. Had he left his emotions where they were, locked up safely in a hidden corner of his mind, he would have been able to move on. Unfortunately, the Eiri Uesugi that everyone had come to know was no more. In his place was a lonely man, searching for his one true love, a true love that he may never find again.
Soon, the lobby was silent once again, save for the anguished sobs of an unfortunate man.
This was not fair. Eiri should have found his lover, Shuichi should have forgiven him, and they should have fallen in love all over again, but this was no fairytale and Eiri was no Prince Charming. He was the tragic hero who will never have his happy ending. Eiri was destined for the role. It just fit him so perfectly. Perhaps he was meant to live unhappily ever after.
TBC
Note: Sorry for the crappy chapter. Writer's block hits again. Help me out? The ending for this chapter was actually inspired by a poem I wrote for my English class, "Unhappily Ever After". The theme "fairytales gone wrong" written all over it. If anyone's interested in reading it, visit: http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=905539 It's a very short, amusing parody and was a class favourite. Try it, you might like it.