Note from Shu-chan: I'm really getting into this! Heehee. Thanks, ChibiUkyo, for makin' me do this! I did kinda want to poke at Ryuichi's past, but never had drive to. Until now!!! MUAHAHAHAHA!!!! Too much caffine from my all nighters I think. I really need to write my Democracy paper instead of fanfics, but we all know which is more fun ^.^* I'm so gonna fail this class anyway....Why oh Why didn't I do this class pass/fail? Enough talk more type! Hai!

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Ryuichi sat on the floor hunched over a peice of paper, doodling instead of working on the new song they were supposed to be writing.

San and Atsuko were fighting over the music, Ryuichi was in charge of the lyrics. Roh, well, Roh just did what he felt like so why bother? Ryuichi looked up and blinked feeling his cheeks flush when his eyes met Roh's. "Are you ever gonna grow up?" Roh asked dropping down on the floor beside Ryuichi.

Ryuichi looked down at the paper his cheeks burning painfully and nodded too scared of the sounds he'd make if he actually tried to talk.

"Don't. I like you better like this." Roh smiled and took Ryuichi's chin in his hand to turn the younger boy's face to him. Ryuichi just got wide eyed as Roh kissed him.

"I'll never grow up," Ryuichi promised his voice cracking with shock.

Roh actually laughed. "You are adorable, Ryuichi." He looked over at Atsuko and San. "There's a carnival. I know how much you like them. Do you want to go?"

"B-but the song!"

Roh held up the paper Ryuichi had been drawing on. "This the lyrics?" Ryuichi gulped. "You're not into this right now, so let's go and let them work out thier differences. They won't even notice."

Ryuichi looked over at the two still fighting. San could be very forceful when he wanted to be. "Ok. Let's go, Roh." Just the two of us.

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Everyone in the studio jumped as the loud crash pounded through the silence. Shindou Shuichi looked up embarrassed and waved sheepishly. "Uh....Lalliho?"

"You're late." Fujisaki Suguru snarled angrily, flames in his eyes.

K was polishing his gun casually and Sakano was unconcious from the part of the ceiling that had fallen on him when K had accidentily fired off a shot. More reasons never to sneak up on him, Hiro tucked that note away for later.

"Shuichi!" Noriko kicked open the door and Shuichi jumped a mile. "Kaicho wants to see you," she said clamly and walked away.

Shuichi put a hand over his pounding heart and looked apologetically to the very angry people still in the room. "I'll be back....uh....get started without me?"

"WHAT DO YOU THINK WE'VE BEEN DOING?!?!?!" Suguru yelled after Bad Luck's lead singer.

Shuichi sweatdropped as he walked down the hall. "Man, Fujisaki is really pissed...I'm dead when I get back there." Mental image of K laughing with a very large gun. Shuichi whimpered pathetically. "Seguchi-san. This better be important."

Shuichi stopped in the doorway and stared. Tatsuha sat on the floor beside a couch where Ryuichi was layed out sleeping. Tohma stood to the side and Noriko sat on his desk. Worry on all their faces.

"What happened?"

"Ryuichi just passed out. We don't think it's serious, but I need to ask a favor of you, Shindou-san."

Shuichi nodded and stared at his unconscious idol.

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Yuki Eiri glared through the fog of cigarette smoke that seemed to hover over the crowd. He still wasn't sure how he had let that noisy little brat talk him into coming here. But then again, Tohma had been the one to ask Shuichi so that did make it a little better.

But only a little.

"I promise not to ask you to dance, Yuki." Shuichi smiled at the blonde novelist over his shoulder and sat down at the table for two.

Yuki was secretly grateful. He didn't know the first thing about dancing. As he looked into the crowd he was also glad he had given into some of the noisy idiot's clothing suggestions. Shuichi had just pulled out one of his tour outfits so he blended in well, but Yuki stuck out baddly in the young club crowd.

Yuki's attention was brought back to the other side of the table when he heard his lover's annoying voice. "Where's Atsuko?" The boy was asking one of the waitresses.

The woman pointed to the stage and simply said, "Drums."

Now both turned to the stage where a band played and focused on the drummer. A pretty woman with wild black hair and amazing clothes that were exotic even here. Definantly hard to miss.

"Now we wait until she's done," Shuichi told Yuki leaning closer with a smile.

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Ryuichi sat up on the couch rubbing his head. "My brain hurts," he announced.

"Thats a new one," Noriko muttered but dropped down to rub Ryuichi's back reassuringly. "What happened, Ryu-chan? You passed out. We were worried." She looked over to the other couch where Tatsuha had finally crashed exhausted with worry.

"I don't know. I was trying to remember where Kumagurou came from...." He held up the pink rabbit and knew it was important, but he couldn't remember. "Can I go home now?"

Tohma nodded and Noriko woke up Tatsuha. "I'll get a car to take you home." They all knew Ryuichi didn't know how to drive, not that any of them would have let him if he wanted to.

Ryuichi nodded and was silent the whole way home, just staring at Kumagurou. "Why can't I remember anything, Tatsuha?"

Tatsuha shook his head. "I don't know, Ryu-chan. Sometimes its something traumatic, but you forgot like you're whole life right?"

Ryuichi nodded sulking. "I remember Tohma and Noriko-chan, but nothing before."

Tatsuha looked out the window. Hopefully Shuichi would get somewhere with his mission.

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Atsuko closed the door and collapssed happily into a chair. Yuki was lounging on the couch while Shuichi perched on the couch's edge. "You are much cuter in person, Shindou-san," Atsuko mused smiling.

Shuichi blushed. "Thank you. But I want to ask about Sakuma Ryuichi."

"Of course! What about him?"

"How do you know him?"

Atsuko choked. "He didn't tell you?!"

Shuichi bit his bottom lip. "Sakuma-san doesn't remember."

Atsuko sat up wide eyed. "Really? We grew up together! Me and him and Roh. We had a band in high school. We met San in high school too....." Atsuko sat back thinking.

Shuichi looked at Yuki before turning back to Atsuko. "Well.....maybe....tell us what you know? Like, where did he get Kumagurou?"

"He got Kumagurou at a carnival," Atsuko said slowly her focus still a million miles away. "Roh won him...."

"Who's Roh?"

"Ryuichi's koibito."