I know, at least
that a choice between slavery and torture
is no choice at all.

And lives ask for many things
most want stability
some want fairness
and the precious few want freedom.

For freedom is a frightening thing.
a roaring lion rampant,
bringing rushing life and storming death.

but is it better to have tasted true life and died
in all it's pain and insane orgasmic fury
than never at all to have lived?

I think yes.

I want to rule myself, be the owner of my own soul,
of my own heart, of my own mind.

I want to be judged on who I am,
not what magic words I say
or how deep my faith in a nonexistance is.

And even if it exists.
I will not take the dictatorship of a God
as exclusive and hateful and some paint him.
Or even any Lord, any despotism.

For yet, I do not wish to be greater than God.
Merely an equal.

I do not choose Hell.
A choice between slavery and torture
is no choice at all.

And what's then the point of Free Will,
if there isn't a choice?