~Life rattlings of a lesbian-part 3~
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Dear Kix,
My cousin came over yesterday and she being the teenage girl everyone expects brought up the subject as usual of guys.My best friend couldn't help but notice my panicked expression for a few seconds.I am a good actor but hey that shook me up.Anyways so we start talking and she askes how far we've ever gone with a guy, and I reply 2nd base. How do I explain to her that I've been to 3rd base only it was with a girl?How do you tell someone about this?I'm so worried I'll lose my friends and family.But why I don't know..I know they'll accept me as I am or will they? Someday I will find my angel, an angel I can love until the end of time. But will my angel come? At the rate I'm going I could be 50 before I tell my family about my tastes. What makes us so different from heterosexuals? If I didn't tell you I was a LEsbian you would just go on thinking I'm strait and not think a second thought.But why when I do tell you that you shy away from me like I'm a disease?What makes us/me so different?So what if I find my happiness in a girl? Is it that wrong and unatural? I enjoy the theory I heard a couple of days ago that through-out their life a person will be attracted to someone their own sex...but only some will be attracked to the same sex their whole lives. Gives you something to think about. Did you know there are 1.2 gay/les/bi bashing per average day?What compells poeple to do such things to us?Why are we shunned? Why kix?I just don' know anymore.A ending seems to be more and more visible. All I'd have to do is pull the trigger and my pain would leave. Who would miss me?The way people are so homophobic today I am aimed to think that not a soul would mind I'm gone. All I'd have to do is pull the trigger and my pain would leave me. But why go to hel for these people and let them know that they've won? I won't go with out a fight but stil the thoughts still enter my mind. One day I 'll find her, my angel, my soulmate but until then, life gose on in a circle of hate and betrayel.
Kix I only wish I can last until she comes, even my walls have a limit to the amount of pain they can hold off. I thank you for lending me your pages as an escape from the real world,Until next time if there is one,
All Respect,
Haruka
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well?Like?hate? should I continue?Please review!
normal disclaimers are inserted here
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Dear Kix,
My cousin came over yesterday and she being the teenage girl everyone expects brought up the subject as usual of guys.My best friend couldn't help but notice my panicked expression for a few seconds.I am a good actor but hey that shook me up.Anyways so we start talking and she askes how far we've ever gone with a guy, and I reply 2nd base. How do I explain to her that I've been to 3rd base only it was with a girl?How do you tell someone about this?I'm so worried I'll lose my friends and family.But why I don't know..I know they'll accept me as I am or will they? Someday I will find my angel, an angel I can love until the end of time. But will my angel come? At the rate I'm going I could be 50 before I tell my family about my tastes. What makes us so different from heterosexuals? If I didn't tell you I was a LEsbian you would just go on thinking I'm strait and not think a second thought.But why when I do tell you that you shy away from me like I'm a disease?What makes us/me so different?So what if I find my happiness in a girl? Is it that wrong and unatural? I enjoy the theory I heard a couple of days ago that through-out their life a person will be attracted to someone their own sex...but only some will be attracked to the same sex their whole lives. Gives you something to think about. Did you know there are 1.2 gay/les/bi bashing per average day?What compells poeple to do such things to us?Why are we shunned? Why kix?I just don' know anymore.A ending seems to be more and more visible. All I'd have to do is pull the trigger and my pain would leave. Who would miss me?The way people are so homophobic today I am aimed to think that not a soul would mind I'm gone. All I'd have to do is pull the trigger and my pain would leave me. But why go to hel for these people and let them know that they've won? I won't go with out a fight but stil the thoughts still enter my mind. One day I 'll find her, my angel, my soulmate but until then, life gose on in a circle of hate and betrayel.
Kix I only wish I can last until she comes, even my walls have a limit to the amount of pain they can hold off. I thank you for lending me your pages as an escape from the real world,Until next time if there is one,
All Respect,
Haruka
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well?Like?hate? should I continue?Please review!