Setsuna had sleep for 4 days...and Heero didnt sleep at all...and this is
kind of happening during one day,even if it seem that is happen during only
1or2 hours, but it start it the morning and finish at night...
~~ Crucify yourself, for them ~~
Thing for everyone in the apartment wasnt getting better, only Trowa and Wufei,seem to be able to keep things ok,but even there...Duo was slowly breaking down...Heero...was he breaking down because of Setsuna, nobody was sure...And Quatre. He was the one who was the most suffering,beside Setsuna, but, knowing that he is empath(sp??), he had take most of everyone pains...and he was suffering for them...but even there, for some reason Duo was still breaking down and Setsuna wasnt getting better. With Duo it was simple, he find a way to block Quatre, not at 100%. this is why Quatre wasnt able to take all the pain away, Duo knew that if Quatre had take all his pain away, Quatre wouldnt had make it. And for Setsuna, since she wasnt awake,so it was hard to know how Quatre wasnt able to take all her pain for himself...And with Heero, he had take most of it...For Wufei and Trowa, he was able to take it all...But with all that pain he was breaking down too, faster that Duo and Heero, soon he should be at the stage of Setsuna, falling asleep and dont wake up soon....
After about 4 day, Setsuna wake up. When she enter the leaving room, she only found a almost crying Quatre...Knowing what he had done she walk over to him, her burns and her bones was hurting like hell. But she was a senshi,she could go easy over the pain.
When she reach Quatre, she lower herself down and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Quatre,let me take it..." she told him
He turn his face to face her, and look at her confuse
"What? you're awake...How??" he ask her
"The pain you had take from everyone,let me take it...I can handle better than you...And yes I am awake...and how, it is my secret..." she told him, her eye asking for him to accept was she was saying
"How can you handle it better than me...You dont know that pain, they feel..." he told her
"I have feel more pain that all of them, they need you more than me...if you had to break down, the whole team will...and if I do break down, your team will still be together,and you will all be ok..." she told him
"no...if you break down, some of us, will totally lose it..." he told her
"Not if I can help it...Quatre let me take the pain, I can handle it, I have suffer greater pain...let me..." she told him
"no..." he told her. And before he knew it, he didnt feel anything...He look at her and she only smile back.
"You should go sleep, Quatre, your tired" she told him.
He walk away,feeling much better in some way...
~~~
Heero had see, what happen, he even hear it...
"Why are you doing this?" he ask her, she jump a little. She hadnt hear him getting near her
"Because, Quatre wouldnt had make it..." she told Heero
"What about you?" he ask her
"I'll should make it...I always did anyway..." she answer his question
"Why do I have the feeling, you wouldnt this time?" he ask her.
His heart break into piece, at her answer
"Well, if this time I donw make it, at least I will no longer suffer..." she told him, at this moment she almost told him everything she had on her heart...almost...
He lower him and sit beside her...(he was standing up beside her) They just sit, with out speaking, when Setsuna jump up and run to the kitchen, Heero was surprise but he jump up fast and run after her...
When he enter the kitchen. He found Setsuna,on the floor, holding a crying Duo in her arm...a knife beside them.
"What...?" he ask her
And since she didnt answer he walk to her and ask her again.
"I arrive on time, Duo was about to kill himself..." she told Heero with a soft voice,not to louder.
"Im sorry...so sorry..."Duo said crying
"why..." Setsuna ask duo
"i dont know why..." he answer her.
It had take a few minute to Heero to understand what was happening, when his scream what. Wufei, Trowa and a sleepy Quatre enter the kitchen,wondering why Heero had scream.
It was Heero who had told them,after Setsuna had bring Duo to his room.
As soon as Heero had told them that Duo was about to kill himself when Setsuna enter, Quatre had fall to the floor and he had start throwing up, as for Trowa he was helping Quatre to "recover" from the new. Wufei was saying something about weak person...and Heero, well he was in deep thought...Trying to find out,why Duo was about to kill himself, he knew he was depress, but was he so depress????
~~~ Duo's room ~~~
Setsuna sat on the bed, still holding Duo, who was crying even more. Im sorry, he was saying...
"Duo, I know why you almost want to kill yourself, and you are wrong...if the other were destine to be kill,after you blow up the OZ base, then this is how thing should be. And you are wrong, I dont hate you...Duo there is people outside that door. That cares about you...even Wufei...and Duo, I care about you...dont ever try that again...come speak to me, I will help you...Duo, it is not your fault, that I sleep all this time, and it is not your fault if I m sad like that, or if Heero isnt feeling ok, because, I m going down...Duo it is NOT your fault..." She told him, softly in his ears
"yes it is...If I hadnt blow up the OZ base,nothing of this would have happen..." he answer what she was saying still crying
"Duo,if this didnt happen. I will never met you and the rest, and I would have lonely, like I am always." she told him
"you had your friend..." he told her " the one that die..."
"Duo, they werent really my friend...the young one had each other, the older one had each other too, as for the owner she had her husband, and for me, I was pretty much alone...Duo...here I have people that care...and you too, you have people that care about you...Duo,please say you will never try that again...please" she ask/told him
He didnt answer he only cry more...He cry until he fall asleep. At this time, Setsuna put him in his bed and after giving a little kiss on his head,and saying, that thing will be ok. She walk out of the room.
~~Leaving room~~
"how...is he?" ask Heero
"Ok, for now..." she answer him.
She walk to the window and start staring out side.
"You said,that you have feel more pain than that, you are about 20years old...how can you have feel more pain...I dont think you have see so many thing to be like that..." Heero told/ask her. Recalling the talk with Quatre, this morning.
"Like you,Heero, I have my secrets..." Setsuna told him
"Your secrets couldnt be worse as mine..."said Heero under his breath...He was getting sad...and Setsuna knew it
She get were he was, and site beside him.
"Heero, I know your secrets,and you are not alone with that burn...I, my self, have more horrible thing than that...Maybe, one day,I will told you my secret, until them fears not your secret and emotion" she told him in his ear
"What..." he ask her
He turn his head to look in her eyes. Sadness,Emptiness,Happiness,Kindness and Honor was see in her eyes. It was what he had see in everyone and even his eyes, the first time he met the other gundam(1).
Setsuna was touching him inside. She was touching everyone...Like a Angel sent to help them in this war,that seem to never ending. But even if she was helping everyone, and that she had take Quatre's burn. Heero felt that she need him, them...as much as they need her...
"Why are you staring at me?" she ask him
"I dont know...I was lost in your eyes..." he whisper, he could tell that Setsuna blush a little
"..." she ~told~ him
"Heero...you shouldnt pay attention to me...you will end up getting hurt..." she told him,looking away...it was hurting her say that, but it was the truth
"Is me or you that will end up getting hurt...?" he ask her
"Oh, Heero...please..." she start, and again she was breaking down...and Heero knew it..both were breaking down and both knew about the other's pain...
"You cant help everyone here, and hope that nobody will help you,Setsuna..." he said
"You are precious to all of us, you even find your way, to make Wufei, worry about you, and he dont know you that much...It's been 5day that you are here, 4 day passing asleep. And you have capture everyone heart...Duo was breaking down, but you help him up. Quatre was about to totally break, but you stop it, by taking the pain for your self. Wufei isnt going around anymore saying: weak onna...because you have told him that he doesnt know what you have see in your life...and he realize that is it the same for the other woman. And even Trowa is getting worry, and he his Mister no worry..." he told her, hoping she will stop be so reserve and close on herself.
"Heero, this is what I have done all my life...I can take anyone's pain and helping them after get over it...Heero I am like that, the one that destroy herself to help the others." she told him
"Well stop it...stop crucify yourself for the other...please...I dont think anyone could survive if you die..." he told.
"You will survive...Heero,please let me for once, die..." she ask him. She start crying
"How could you ask me this...You touch my heart, like no one did...Setsuna, you cant be serious when you are asking me this..." he ask/answer her
"Heero, let the broken senshi of time, die... so she could be in peace for the first time in 5000 years..." She told him,in his ears, before getting up and start to walk away. But she didnt get the chance to go far, Heero had capture her hand...
"So this is how you could take Quatre's pain and everyone away. This is why you broke down...You are one of those legendary senshi..." he ask her
"yes...and this is why, you cant pay attention to me, or even fall for me...Heero, I am destine to be for ever alone." She told him
"Well, I will go against destiny." He said, getting her close to him, before kiss her. She was a bit surprise, but she lose herself in the kiss fast. After he break down the kiss, he whisper in her ear...
"I will go against it, because in 5day, you have capture my heart, Setsuna, and I had fall in love with you...and I will not let you go so easy." he told, before holding her close...
She was crying,in his arms...Crying of happiness and of pain,knowing that he would end up, hurt after her death...
~~Some where, unknown~~
"Setsuna is finally happy...But thing dont stop there..." Rei,well the ghost of Rei, said
"You are right, it is only the start of it..." Serenity said...
"only the start..." she repeat
~~~~
~~Even the soldier that are see as they cant fall in love. Found them self in love with someone that feel, the same as them~~
An: chapter 2...hope you like it...I dont know if this is the end or not, it could be it...but I dont think it will be it...i have a more, painful end...oh and I forget to say this, this is happening during the war, but at a time were it is peaceful. get it? during war, but peaceful... And the g-pilots are about 20-21 and Setsuna 20, even if we know that she is way older than that...oh even if I mention that Setsuna is a senshi, it doesnt have a big part in it...ok,not truth...it had a big part...you will see later in a other chapter...but maybe it wouldnt have a big part, im not sure about it...
1= To know what I mean, go to: http://www.msnusers.com/mypicture?user=4263~4AAPAAAAACyzncDRKuQKzj4QJP!Je5OZ lFydiml3iZhcWS9UsreFdLYg$$~4AAQAAAAAGI0sKVU1ZHO41lpwYJLHt2tSk3QCgNmwusac$ or just go to my profile(msn profile: nickname: Crucify_my_love_or---) and look at the picture, the order of what it said on it,goes with the order of the g-pilots...and it is just what I pretty much see,on they eyes, on that picture...Anyway review please...and if you are about to flame, dont bother say: "Your english is bad...or bla bla bla..." You can say that I have mistake in it...but who doesnt?? and yes, I do have more than the other fic, but Im french so, bug off about the none-understandable fic, that I write...Oh thank you to the 3 review that I got...I'll put the name down,but stupidity fanfiction.net doesnt work...I HATE it when it doesnt work...yeah I found the name...thank you to: MistressCoCoLoVeR, Cassie- Bear01 and the Iron Duck...thank you to those 3. Ja Ne for now, see ya soon with chapter 3! ~Mistal~
~~ Crucify yourself, for them ~~
Thing for everyone in the apartment wasnt getting better, only Trowa and Wufei,seem to be able to keep things ok,but even there...Duo was slowly breaking down...Heero...was he breaking down because of Setsuna, nobody was sure...And Quatre. He was the one who was the most suffering,beside Setsuna, but, knowing that he is empath(sp??), he had take most of everyone pains...and he was suffering for them...but even there, for some reason Duo was still breaking down and Setsuna wasnt getting better. With Duo it was simple, he find a way to block Quatre, not at 100%. this is why Quatre wasnt able to take all the pain away, Duo knew that if Quatre had take all his pain away, Quatre wouldnt had make it. And for Setsuna, since she wasnt awake,so it was hard to know how Quatre wasnt able to take all her pain for himself...And with Heero, he had take most of it...For Wufei and Trowa, he was able to take it all...But with all that pain he was breaking down too, faster that Duo and Heero, soon he should be at the stage of Setsuna, falling asleep and dont wake up soon....
After about 4 day, Setsuna wake up. When she enter the leaving room, she only found a almost crying Quatre...Knowing what he had done she walk over to him, her burns and her bones was hurting like hell. But she was a senshi,she could go easy over the pain.
When she reach Quatre, she lower herself down and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Quatre,let me take it..." she told him
He turn his face to face her, and look at her confuse
"What? you're awake...How??" he ask her
"The pain you had take from everyone,let me take it...I can handle better than you...And yes I am awake...and how, it is my secret..." she told him, her eye asking for him to accept was she was saying
"How can you handle it better than me...You dont know that pain, they feel..." he told her
"I have feel more pain that all of them, they need you more than me...if you had to break down, the whole team will...and if I do break down, your team will still be together,and you will all be ok..." she told him
"no...if you break down, some of us, will totally lose it..." he told her
"Not if I can help it...Quatre let me take the pain, I can handle it, I have suffer greater pain...let me..." she told him
"no..." he told her. And before he knew it, he didnt feel anything...He look at her and she only smile back.
"You should go sleep, Quatre, your tired" she told him.
He walk away,feeling much better in some way...
~~~
Heero had see, what happen, he even hear it...
"Why are you doing this?" he ask her, she jump a little. She hadnt hear him getting near her
"Because, Quatre wouldnt had make it..." she told Heero
"What about you?" he ask her
"I'll should make it...I always did anyway..." she answer his question
"Why do I have the feeling, you wouldnt this time?" he ask her.
His heart break into piece, at her answer
"Well, if this time I donw make it, at least I will no longer suffer..." she told him, at this moment she almost told him everything she had on her heart...almost...
He lower him and sit beside her...(he was standing up beside her) They just sit, with out speaking, when Setsuna jump up and run to the kitchen, Heero was surprise but he jump up fast and run after her...
When he enter the kitchen. He found Setsuna,on the floor, holding a crying Duo in her arm...a knife beside them.
"What...?" he ask her
And since she didnt answer he walk to her and ask her again.
"I arrive on time, Duo was about to kill himself..." she told Heero with a soft voice,not to louder.
"Im sorry...so sorry..."Duo said crying
"why..." Setsuna ask duo
"i dont know why..." he answer her.
It had take a few minute to Heero to understand what was happening, when his scream what. Wufei, Trowa and a sleepy Quatre enter the kitchen,wondering why Heero had scream.
It was Heero who had told them,after Setsuna had bring Duo to his room.
As soon as Heero had told them that Duo was about to kill himself when Setsuna enter, Quatre had fall to the floor and he had start throwing up, as for Trowa he was helping Quatre to "recover" from the new. Wufei was saying something about weak person...and Heero, well he was in deep thought...Trying to find out,why Duo was about to kill himself, he knew he was depress, but was he so depress????
~~~ Duo's room ~~~
Setsuna sat on the bed, still holding Duo, who was crying even more. Im sorry, he was saying...
"Duo, I know why you almost want to kill yourself, and you are wrong...if the other were destine to be kill,after you blow up the OZ base, then this is how thing should be. And you are wrong, I dont hate you...Duo there is people outside that door. That cares about you...even Wufei...and Duo, I care about you...dont ever try that again...come speak to me, I will help you...Duo, it is not your fault, that I sleep all this time, and it is not your fault if I m sad like that, or if Heero isnt feeling ok, because, I m going down...Duo it is NOT your fault..." She told him, softly in his ears
"yes it is...If I hadnt blow up the OZ base,nothing of this would have happen..." he answer what she was saying still crying
"Duo,if this didnt happen. I will never met you and the rest, and I would have lonely, like I am always." she told him
"you had your friend..." he told her " the one that die..."
"Duo, they werent really my friend...the young one had each other, the older one had each other too, as for the owner she had her husband, and for me, I was pretty much alone...Duo...here I have people that care...and you too, you have people that care about you...Duo,please say you will never try that again...please" she ask/told him
He didnt answer he only cry more...He cry until he fall asleep. At this time, Setsuna put him in his bed and after giving a little kiss on his head,and saying, that thing will be ok. She walk out of the room.
~~Leaving room~~
"how...is he?" ask Heero
"Ok, for now..." she answer him.
She walk to the window and start staring out side.
"You said,that you have feel more pain than that, you are about 20years old...how can you have feel more pain...I dont think you have see so many thing to be like that..." Heero told/ask her. Recalling the talk with Quatre, this morning.
"Like you,Heero, I have my secrets..." Setsuna told him
"Your secrets couldnt be worse as mine..."said Heero under his breath...He was getting sad...and Setsuna knew it
She get were he was, and site beside him.
"Heero, I know your secrets,and you are not alone with that burn...I, my self, have more horrible thing than that...Maybe, one day,I will told you my secret, until them fears not your secret and emotion" she told him in his ear
"What..." he ask her
He turn his head to look in her eyes. Sadness,Emptiness,Happiness,Kindness and Honor was see in her eyes. It was what he had see in everyone and even his eyes, the first time he met the other gundam(1).
Setsuna was touching him inside. She was touching everyone...Like a Angel sent to help them in this war,that seem to never ending. But even if she was helping everyone, and that she had take Quatre's burn. Heero felt that she need him, them...as much as they need her...
"Why are you staring at me?" she ask him
"I dont know...I was lost in your eyes..." he whisper, he could tell that Setsuna blush a little
"..." she ~told~ him
"Heero...you shouldnt pay attention to me...you will end up getting hurt..." she told him,looking away...it was hurting her say that, but it was the truth
"Is me or you that will end up getting hurt...?" he ask her
"Oh, Heero...please..." she start, and again she was breaking down...and Heero knew it..both were breaking down and both knew about the other's pain...
"You cant help everyone here, and hope that nobody will help you,Setsuna..." he said
"You are precious to all of us, you even find your way, to make Wufei, worry about you, and he dont know you that much...It's been 5day that you are here, 4 day passing asleep. And you have capture everyone heart...Duo was breaking down, but you help him up. Quatre was about to totally break, but you stop it, by taking the pain for your self. Wufei isnt going around anymore saying: weak onna...because you have told him that he doesnt know what you have see in your life...and he realize that is it the same for the other woman. And even Trowa is getting worry, and he his Mister no worry..." he told her, hoping she will stop be so reserve and close on herself.
"Heero, this is what I have done all my life...I can take anyone's pain and helping them after get over it...Heero I am like that, the one that destroy herself to help the others." she told him
"Well stop it...stop crucify yourself for the other...please...I dont think anyone could survive if you die..." he told.
"You will survive...Heero,please let me for once, die..." she ask him. She start crying
"How could you ask me this...You touch my heart, like no one did...Setsuna, you cant be serious when you are asking me this..." he ask/answer her
"Heero, let the broken senshi of time, die... so she could be in peace for the first time in 5000 years..." She told him,in his ears, before getting up and start to walk away. But she didnt get the chance to go far, Heero had capture her hand...
"So this is how you could take Quatre's pain and everyone away. This is why you broke down...You are one of those legendary senshi..." he ask her
"yes...and this is why, you cant pay attention to me, or even fall for me...Heero, I am destine to be for ever alone." She told him
"Well, I will go against destiny." He said, getting her close to him, before kiss her. She was a bit surprise, but she lose herself in the kiss fast. After he break down the kiss, he whisper in her ear...
"I will go against it, because in 5day, you have capture my heart, Setsuna, and I had fall in love with you...and I will not let you go so easy." he told, before holding her close...
She was crying,in his arms...Crying of happiness and of pain,knowing that he would end up, hurt after her death...
~~Some where, unknown~~
"Setsuna is finally happy...But thing dont stop there..." Rei,well the ghost of Rei, said
"You are right, it is only the start of it..." Serenity said...
"only the start..." she repeat
~~~~
~~Even the soldier that are see as they cant fall in love. Found them self in love with someone that feel, the same as them~~
An: chapter 2...hope you like it...I dont know if this is the end or not, it could be it...but I dont think it will be it...i have a more, painful end...oh and I forget to say this, this is happening during the war, but at a time were it is peaceful. get it? during war, but peaceful... And the g-pilots are about 20-21 and Setsuna 20, even if we know that she is way older than that...oh even if I mention that Setsuna is a senshi, it doesnt have a big part in it...ok,not truth...it had a big part...you will see later in a other chapter...but maybe it wouldnt have a big part, im not sure about it...
1= To know what I mean, go to: http://www.msnusers.com/mypicture?user=4263~4AAPAAAAACyzncDRKuQKzj4QJP!Je5OZ lFydiml3iZhcWS9UsreFdLYg$$~4AAQAAAAAGI0sKVU1ZHO41lpwYJLHt2tSk3QCgNmwusac$ or just go to my profile(msn profile: nickname: Crucify_my_love_or---) and look at the picture, the order of what it said on it,goes with the order of the g-pilots...and it is just what I pretty much see,on they eyes, on that picture...Anyway review please...and if you are about to flame, dont bother say: "Your english is bad...or bla bla bla..." You can say that I have mistake in it...but who doesnt?? and yes, I do have more than the other fic, but Im french so, bug off about the none-understandable fic, that I write...Oh thank you to the 3 review that I got...I'll put the name down,but stupidity fanfiction.net doesnt work...I HATE it when it doesnt work...yeah I found the name...thank you to: MistressCoCoLoVeR, Cassie- Bear01 and the Iron Duck...thank you to those 3. Ja Ne for now, see ya soon with chapter 3! ~Mistal~