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*~*Chapter 6: My Own Private Hell*~*
"Augh...." Kagome shook her head groggly. *Damn my head hurts* She closed her eyes and sat for a few moments. She finally got enough strength to actually take a look around. She was lying flat on her back in the middle of a dark forest. *How long have I been knocked out for? Where is everyone?* "Inuyasha?" There was no answer. Her voice echoed eerily into the silence of the forest. *Something is not right...* She shifted her weight, only to be hit with a stabing wave of pain. Kagome shut her eyes tightly, and squinted at her left leg. It was bleeding freely. "Ah crap. Must've broken something," she said in a strained voice. She grabbed a long branch poking at her side and used it to support her weight. She whiped sweat from her forehead and limped off in to the forest.
Kagome stopped to splint her leg by a stream. She cupped the water in her hands and took a sip. Kagome spit the putrid water out. "What the hell?!? What kind of water is this?" Warm? Bitter? *So much for a nice, refreshing drink* she thought to herself. She washed her face anyway and sat, staring at the cloudy sky. *I can't see anything. No sun. No moon. No stars. Nothing but blackened clouds* A bright light caught her attention. "Hn?" It glowed a short distance from where she sat. The light illuminated the trees around it in a strange way. Kagome grabbed her stick and limped tward the mysterious light.
Kagome huffed at the amount of energy it took her to walk only a few yards. She finally reached the clearing the light was comming from. She shielded her eyes from the sudden burst of light, but stood shocked at what was in front of her. Inuyasha and Kikyou were standing a few feet away from her, locked in a passionate kiss. Kagome's eyes bulged as a soft sigh of shock escaped her mouth. "I-Inuyasha?" He pulled out of the kiss and slowly turned to her, keeping Kikyou very close to him.
"What? Oh. It's you wench." Kagome slipped slightly at his words. He had called her wench before, and she hadn't cared. But, in this situation, how could he? Kikyou smiled at her utter confusion.
"Inuyasha, what are you doing? I though that you-"
"That I what? Forgot about Kikyou? Forgot my feelings for her? I could never. After what we shared, nothing could come between us. Not even her death." He released the miko and walked over to Kagome untill her was only an inch from her face. "Not even you. Do you really think that YOU could replace Kikyou?" He let out a cold laugh that didn't fit him at all. Kagome stood in shock.
"But-but you told me that you would protect me! You don't have the least bit of feeling for me? None at all?"
"Feh. Why should I? You only help me get the Shikon shards. You mean nothing more than a mere devise. I tolerate you so that I can complete the Shikon jewel and wish Kikyou back." Kagome tried to back away, but slipped and landed on her bad leg. She winced and shut her eyes, tears of pain and greif streaming down her cheeks. Inuyasha cupped her face in his hand. "Open your eyes." She did, very reluctanly. "You know, I did have some feelings for you. Before Kikyou came back to me, you were just like her. I often imagined her as you before she got a body." He grinned evily as he released her. Kagome couldn't take it anymore.
"SIT!!!" she cryed out, hoping that he would feel a little pain for what he did to her. When nothing happened, she opened her eyes slightly only to see the prayer beads dangling freely in front of her face. Kikyou smiled as she dropped the beads in Kagome's lap.
"You can't get out of it that easily," she said in a mocking tone. Kagome buried her face in her hands and cried. She cried and cried. *This can't be happening! Why? My heart has been ripped to shreds...My dreams, torn to bits. How could that bastard do this to me? He betrayed me...*
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Inuyasha opened his eyes and grasped his head tightly. *Damn! I have a fuckin bad headache!* He sat up and rubbed the back of his head and looked around. He was sitting in the middle of a big battlefield. The smell of blood was everywhere. *I can't smell anything but blood. I wonder what happened here?* He stood up and tried to see farther, but wasn't able to, due to the thick, gray fog everywhere. A familiar smell caught his sensitive nose. "I know that smell...It smells like......Sango's blood!" He ran off in the direction of the bloody scent.
The silver haired hanyou crouched over Sango's corpse. He had found everyone else's as well. They were all dead. Even Kirara. He whipped away a small stream of tears on his cheek. "I swear I'll make whoever did this pay!" Inuyasha shouted to the still battleground. *At least Kagome wasn't there. She might still be alive* "I have to protect her!" he whispered. He walked off, leaving the depressing scene behind.
Inuyasha paused at a fallen soldier's dead body. He sniffed it. "Still fresh," he muttered. *This battle took place not to long ago. But it's strange. I only see one type of uniform. Almost like they killed eachother or a strong something killed them all* He sniffed the air again. "Kagome!" He raced off in the direction of the scent. *It has to be her! I can smell her blood! Gods, I hope she is ok...* He rushed passed a mass of corpses and finally found what he was looking for.
Kagome was lying by the side of a gnarled tree. Her clothes were torn and bloody. She had a deep wound though her left shoulder. Her face was brused and dirty.She was motionless. "Kagome!" Inuyasha rushed over to her side and slowly picked her up and lay her in his lap. The school girl coughed and started gasping for breath. "Kagome! Your alive! Thank god!" The hanyou hugged the limp form as tears of relief rolled down his cheek.
"No thanks to *cough* you, bastard..." Inuyasha was paralyzed with shock.
"Ka-Kagome? What are you talking about???" Kagome coughed, splatering crimson blood on her already dirty shirt. She gave him a look of pure hatred.
"Bastard. I....I hate...you..." Her body gave a large shudder and went limp. Her eyes closed in eternal sleep.
"Ka-Kagome?!? Kagome! KAGOME!!!!" Inuyasha gave her body a sharp shake. A fresh wave of tears welled up in his eyes. "No...Not Kagome. Anyone but Kagome. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TAKE HER??????????" he yelled. The tears mixed with the mud on his face, leaving brown steaks across his cheeks.
"No, I think the question is, why did YOU take her." Inuyasha spun around to see the undead miko standing before him.
"Ki-Kiyou? What happened? And what do you mean by that? I had nothing to do with this!"
"Oh no, Inuyasha. You had everything to do with this." She smiled at his obvious confusion. "You don't remember do you?"
"Remember what?" Kikyou took a few steeps closer to him.
"YOU killed them all, Inuyasha. I saw you do it." Inuyasha's eyes widened in horror.
"Wha-what? How could I? N-no! I couldn't! I didn't! I CAN'T!!!" Kikyou merely smiled, her gray eyes twinkling.
"You know what Inuyasha? You wanna know what you did as you killed them? You LAUGHED! That's right. You enjoyed every. Fucking. Moment." She let a soft laugh escape her cold lips. "You can do wonderus things when that youkai blood gets in your veins." He stared at her.
"H-how could my youkai blood influence my mind? The Tetsusaiga is supposed to stop that!" he said though tears.
"You mean this?" She held Inuyasha's Tetsusaiga in her hand. "You dropped it. Too bad. You should have seen the look on Kagome's face. Complete horror untill you told her that you were going to enjoy killing her."
"NOOO!!!!" He clasped Kagome's dead form closer, and closer to his body. "I'm so sorry Kagome. It's all my fault." His salty tears dropped onto Kagome's shirt, leaving two, salty patches. "I'm sorry. I could protect you from everything, but my self. It's all my fault..."
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Kagome remained on the floor of the forest. How long she had cried, she did not know. Time didn't matter to her anymore. The only thoughts that went through her mind were of Inuyasha. *How could he use me like that??? How could I have been so stupid....I should have seen right though him...* A memory forced its way out of her subconcious.
*~*Flashback*~*
(Way back at the temple with the spider heads. The dark haired Inuyasha has his head on Kagome's lap)
"How is this....? More comfortable?"
"Yeah..." (Inuyasha closes his eyes and turns his head tward Kagome) "You...smell nice.." (Kagome blushes)
"Eh? Wh,what's this? I thought you couldn't stomach my smell!"
"That was...a lie..." (Kagome blushes more, but seems touched by this)
"Inuyasha..."
*~*End Flashback*~*
Kagome stopped sobbing. *I remember that. He must have cared a bit...No! I can't let myself be tricked again!* She shook her head hard. But, yet again, another memory reached her.
*~*Flashback*~*
(After the second meeting with Kikyou, I think. Anyway, Kagome is talking to Inuyasha about what he feels for Kikyou)
(Kagome sits down, back to back with Inuyasha)
"Kagome I....like your smiling face. Somehow...when I'm with you, I feel relieved it seems." (Kagome pretends to sleep, though she still listens) "Kagome?" He looks at her face. "She's....she's bloody asleep! The bitch, just when someone is speaking about something important..." (Kagome smiles and falls asleep for real)
*~*End Flashback*~*
*Somehow...when I'm with you, I feel relieved it seems...* Wake up! Those weren't the words of some idle flatterer! "Hn?!? Who are you?" Kagome was now crouching in a darkened room, instead of a forest. A human like figure was walking twards her in the darkness. The speaker finally came into view.
I am you... Kagome looked up in disbelief as she sees herself standing over her.
*~*~*~*Muhahahahahahahhahahahahaaaa!!!!!! Cliffhangers!!!!! Evil!!!! Hee. Sorry. I couldn't resist!If you don't understand what is happening, than just e-mail me, or put up a review! I know that in the second flashback, it's not exactly what happened. But if she had really fallen asleep, Kagome wouldn't have heard those sweet words!!!! And just for clearification, yes, Kagome DOES hate Inuyasha now. The next chapter is called, "Conversing with myself." You better get ready!
*~*Chapter 6: My Own Private Hell*~*
"Augh...." Kagome shook her head groggly. *Damn my head hurts* She closed her eyes and sat for a few moments. She finally got enough strength to actually take a look around. She was lying flat on her back in the middle of a dark forest. *How long have I been knocked out for? Where is everyone?* "Inuyasha?" There was no answer. Her voice echoed eerily into the silence of the forest. *Something is not right...* She shifted her weight, only to be hit with a stabing wave of pain. Kagome shut her eyes tightly, and squinted at her left leg. It was bleeding freely. "Ah crap. Must've broken something," she said in a strained voice. She grabbed a long branch poking at her side and used it to support her weight. She whiped sweat from her forehead and limped off in to the forest.
Kagome stopped to splint her leg by a stream. She cupped the water in her hands and took a sip. Kagome spit the putrid water out. "What the hell?!? What kind of water is this?" Warm? Bitter? *So much for a nice, refreshing drink* she thought to herself. She washed her face anyway and sat, staring at the cloudy sky. *I can't see anything. No sun. No moon. No stars. Nothing but blackened clouds* A bright light caught her attention. "Hn?" It glowed a short distance from where she sat. The light illuminated the trees around it in a strange way. Kagome grabbed her stick and limped tward the mysterious light.
Kagome huffed at the amount of energy it took her to walk only a few yards. She finally reached the clearing the light was comming from. She shielded her eyes from the sudden burst of light, but stood shocked at what was in front of her. Inuyasha and Kikyou were standing a few feet away from her, locked in a passionate kiss. Kagome's eyes bulged as a soft sigh of shock escaped her mouth. "I-Inuyasha?" He pulled out of the kiss and slowly turned to her, keeping Kikyou very close to him.
"What? Oh. It's you wench." Kagome slipped slightly at his words. He had called her wench before, and she hadn't cared. But, in this situation, how could he? Kikyou smiled at her utter confusion.
"Inuyasha, what are you doing? I though that you-"
"That I what? Forgot about Kikyou? Forgot my feelings for her? I could never. After what we shared, nothing could come between us. Not even her death." He released the miko and walked over to Kagome untill her was only an inch from her face. "Not even you. Do you really think that YOU could replace Kikyou?" He let out a cold laugh that didn't fit him at all. Kagome stood in shock.
"But-but you told me that you would protect me! You don't have the least bit of feeling for me? None at all?"
"Feh. Why should I? You only help me get the Shikon shards. You mean nothing more than a mere devise. I tolerate you so that I can complete the Shikon jewel and wish Kikyou back." Kagome tried to back away, but slipped and landed on her bad leg. She winced and shut her eyes, tears of pain and greif streaming down her cheeks. Inuyasha cupped her face in his hand. "Open your eyes." She did, very reluctanly. "You know, I did have some feelings for you. Before Kikyou came back to me, you were just like her. I often imagined her as you before she got a body." He grinned evily as he released her. Kagome couldn't take it anymore.
"SIT!!!" she cryed out, hoping that he would feel a little pain for what he did to her. When nothing happened, she opened her eyes slightly only to see the prayer beads dangling freely in front of her face. Kikyou smiled as she dropped the beads in Kagome's lap.
"You can't get out of it that easily," she said in a mocking tone. Kagome buried her face in her hands and cried. She cried and cried. *This can't be happening! Why? My heart has been ripped to shreds...My dreams, torn to bits. How could that bastard do this to me? He betrayed me...*
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Inuyasha opened his eyes and grasped his head tightly. *Damn! I have a fuckin bad headache!* He sat up and rubbed the back of his head and looked around. He was sitting in the middle of a big battlefield. The smell of blood was everywhere. *I can't smell anything but blood. I wonder what happened here?* He stood up and tried to see farther, but wasn't able to, due to the thick, gray fog everywhere. A familiar smell caught his sensitive nose. "I know that smell...It smells like......Sango's blood!" He ran off in the direction of the bloody scent.
The silver haired hanyou crouched over Sango's corpse. He had found everyone else's as well. They were all dead. Even Kirara. He whipped away a small stream of tears on his cheek. "I swear I'll make whoever did this pay!" Inuyasha shouted to the still battleground. *At least Kagome wasn't there. She might still be alive* "I have to protect her!" he whispered. He walked off, leaving the depressing scene behind.
Inuyasha paused at a fallen soldier's dead body. He sniffed it. "Still fresh," he muttered. *This battle took place not to long ago. But it's strange. I only see one type of uniform. Almost like they killed eachother or a strong something killed them all* He sniffed the air again. "Kagome!" He raced off in the direction of the scent. *It has to be her! I can smell her blood! Gods, I hope she is ok...* He rushed passed a mass of corpses and finally found what he was looking for.
Kagome was lying by the side of a gnarled tree. Her clothes were torn and bloody. She had a deep wound though her left shoulder. Her face was brused and dirty.She was motionless. "Kagome!" Inuyasha rushed over to her side and slowly picked her up and lay her in his lap. The school girl coughed and started gasping for breath. "Kagome! Your alive! Thank god!" The hanyou hugged the limp form as tears of relief rolled down his cheek.
"No thanks to *cough* you, bastard..." Inuyasha was paralyzed with shock.
"Ka-Kagome? What are you talking about???" Kagome coughed, splatering crimson blood on her already dirty shirt. She gave him a look of pure hatred.
"Bastard. I....I hate...you..." Her body gave a large shudder and went limp. Her eyes closed in eternal sleep.
"Ka-Kagome?!? Kagome! KAGOME!!!!" Inuyasha gave her body a sharp shake. A fresh wave of tears welled up in his eyes. "No...Not Kagome. Anyone but Kagome. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TAKE HER??????????" he yelled. The tears mixed with the mud on his face, leaving brown steaks across his cheeks.
"No, I think the question is, why did YOU take her." Inuyasha spun around to see the undead miko standing before him.
"Ki-Kiyou? What happened? And what do you mean by that? I had nothing to do with this!"
"Oh no, Inuyasha. You had everything to do with this." She smiled at his obvious confusion. "You don't remember do you?"
"Remember what?" Kikyou took a few steeps closer to him.
"YOU killed them all, Inuyasha. I saw you do it." Inuyasha's eyes widened in horror.
"Wha-what? How could I? N-no! I couldn't! I didn't! I CAN'T!!!" Kikyou merely smiled, her gray eyes twinkling.
"You know what Inuyasha? You wanna know what you did as you killed them? You LAUGHED! That's right. You enjoyed every. Fucking. Moment." She let a soft laugh escape her cold lips. "You can do wonderus things when that youkai blood gets in your veins." He stared at her.
"H-how could my youkai blood influence my mind? The Tetsusaiga is supposed to stop that!" he said though tears.
"You mean this?" She held Inuyasha's Tetsusaiga in her hand. "You dropped it. Too bad. You should have seen the look on Kagome's face. Complete horror untill you told her that you were going to enjoy killing her."
"NOOO!!!!" He clasped Kagome's dead form closer, and closer to his body. "I'm so sorry Kagome. It's all my fault." His salty tears dropped onto Kagome's shirt, leaving two, salty patches. "I'm sorry. I could protect you from everything, but my self. It's all my fault..."
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Kagome remained on the floor of the forest. How long she had cried, she did not know. Time didn't matter to her anymore. The only thoughts that went through her mind were of Inuyasha. *How could he use me like that??? How could I have been so stupid....I should have seen right though him...* A memory forced its way out of her subconcious.
*~*Flashback*~*
(Way back at the temple with the spider heads. The dark haired Inuyasha has his head on Kagome's lap)
"How is this....? More comfortable?"
"Yeah..." (Inuyasha closes his eyes and turns his head tward Kagome) "You...smell nice.." (Kagome blushes)
"Eh? Wh,what's this? I thought you couldn't stomach my smell!"
"That was...a lie..." (Kagome blushes more, but seems touched by this)
"Inuyasha..."
*~*End Flashback*~*
Kagome stopped sobbing. *I remember that. He must have cared a bit...No! I can't let myself be tricked again!* She shook her head hard. But, yet again, another memory reached her.
*~*Flashback*~*
(After the second meeting with Kikyou, I think. Anyway, Kagome is talking to Inuyasha about what he feels for Kikyou)
(Kagome sits down, back to back with Inuyasha)
"Kagome I....like your smiling face. Somehow...when I'm with you, I feel relieved it seems." (Kagome pretends to sleep, though she still listens) "Kagome?" He looks at her face. "She's....she's bloody asleep! The bitch, just when someone is speaking about something important..." (Kagome smiles and falls asleep for real)
*~*End Flashback*~*
*Somehow...when I'm with you, I feel relieved it seems...* Wake up! Those weren't the words of some idle flatterer! "Hn?!? Who are you?" Kagome was now crouching in a darkened room, instead of a forest. A human like figure was walking twards her in the darkness. The speaker finally came into view.
I am you... Kagome looked up in disbelief as she sees herself standing over her.
*~*~*~*Muhahahahahahahhahahahahaaaa!!!!!! Cliffhangers!!!!! Evil!!!! Hee. Sorry. I couldn't resist!If you don't understand what is happening, than just e-mail me, or put up a review! I know that in the second flashback, it's not exactly what happened. But if she had really fallen asleep, Kagome wouldn't have heard those sweet words!!!! And just for clearification, yes, Kagome DOES hate Inuyasha now. The next chapter is called, "Conversing with myself." You better get ready!