Another chapter for you all!
Hmmm, I'm not sure where this chapter will go, I have a few ideas. Just know that if its sad
then it will be for a reason.
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"Rei, I...I don't love you. I'm sorry."
Kai heard the words coming out of his mouth and knew they were wrong. Why was he doing
it? Why was he telling Rei he had no feelings for him?
He knew why.
He couldn't let anyone get close to him. Love was weakness.
His heart almost broke as he walked out on Rei. But he couldn't tell him how he felt. Ever.
But why?
'Rei said he loved me.' Kai thought to himself. 'But I can't let myself love him back. He
deserves better. He might be crushed now but in the long run it will be better this way.'
He walked out the hotel room.
He quickened his stride when he saw Tyson in the hall. He didn't feel like talking.
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All Rei knew was pain. His world had fallen apart. His life smashed and left in tiny
discarded pieces.
His body shook as he sobbed, he didn't think he would ever be able to stop.
He wanted to curl up and die. Oblivion would be preferable to his pain.
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Tyson saw Kai leave the hotel room, from in the hallway where he'd been waiting, and
knew it wasn't a good sign. It shouldn't have been that quick. He almost asked Kai what
had happened but he was walking away too quickly.
'I guess I better go check on Rei.' Tyson thought.
He didn't see Rei at first. But he heard the sobbing and knew something was very wrong.
Then he saw Rei on the couch, curled up, sobbing between heavy breaths.
"Oh Rei..." Tyson said and walked over to him. He wasn't sure what to say. He sat next to
Rei and put his hand on Rei's shaking shoulder.
"Rei...what happened?" Tyson said as gently as he could. He wasn't even sure if Rei knew
he was there.
'Why am I always the one to find Rei like this??' Tyson wondered. 'Kenny or Max would
know what to do.' He sighed.
"He..he...he..s..said..he..didn't..love...m..me..." Tyson could barely make out Rei's
words between the sobbing.
"Its OK Rei..." He knew it was a pathetically inadequate thing to say, but he was lost for
words.
'Jesus Kai...' Tyson thought '...you sure can be a callous bastard sometimes.'
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Kai walked along a nameless street. His mind racing.
He assured himself he'd done the right thing. But why did it feel so very wrong?
He couldn't love anyone. Rei deserved better.
What he did with Tyson was different. There was no meaning.
He didn't love Tyson.
Tyson couldn't reach him. Couldn't hurt him.
He couldn't pretend with Rei. If he let himself love him he knew he would never be able to
stop loving him. He'd get hurt, he always got hurt.
Kai angrily kicked a trashcan that was in his path, watching it clatter loudly down the
street.
He stopped and put his hands against a nearby wall. Taking deep breaths.
He felt flushed.
He forced his eyes shut; he wasn't going let any tears escape. He was stronger than this.
He slumped to the ground, resting against the wall and began to cry.
'What have I done?' he though as the tears fell from his eyes.
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Tyson had done his best to calm Rei and went to get Max and Kenny. He gave them a brief
summary of the situation and told them not to ask any questions.
Tyson, Kenny and Max walked into the hotel room expecting to see Rei on the couch like
Tyson had said.
But he wasn't there.
"Uhhhh, I'll check around..." Tyson said. Rei wasn't in the kitchen. Or the bedroom. Then
Tyson noticed the bathroom door was closed.
'Phew...' Tyson thought '...probably just washing up.'
He knocked gently on the door. "Rei, are you okay?" he asked.
He could hear soft crying.
He clenched his fists in anger when he thought what Kai had done to his friend.
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Kai stood up and wiped the tears from his eyes. He was angry with himself for his show of
emotion, though no one had even been around to see it.
'Rei...' he thought '...oh Rei, what have I done to you?'
He knew what he had to do.
He didn't know if it was just going to make things worse, or whether Rei now hated him,
but he had to tell him.
Kai started running.
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Rei noticed Tyson had left.
He knew he'd be back, probably with Kenny and Max.
He didn't feel like dealing with them all right now.
Gathering his strength, and taking deep breaths he walked to the bathroom and shut the
door. Locking it.
He sat on the edge of the tub and put his head in his hands.
He could feel more tears coming.
He couldn't stand it, the situation, his pain, life.
He couldn't stand life.
He looked around the bathroom scanning for something. He saw what he wanted, a
complimentary shaver the hotel put in every bathroom.
Rei picked it up and examined it. A quick twist and a bit of force and he'd got the
razorblade out.
He held it in his had. It was small, shiny, perfect.
Tyson knocked on the door. Rei ignored him.
He began to weep softly.
He took the razorblade and put it against his wrist, he shut his eyes and pressed down,
drawing it up his arm, making a gaping incision.
He did the same with the other arm.
The physical pain was comfort. His emotional pain would end soon.
He collapsed to the floor. A large pool of blood surrounding him.
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Please don't hate me!
I'm sorry all right, but things are going to get better!
I hope I'm not becoming predictable. If it is predictable is it at least interesting to read? I
don't know if anyone actually likes this.
When I started even I didn't think Id be torturing Rei this much, ohwell, maybe a happy
ending is in sight.
Hmmm, I'm not sure where this chapter will go, I have a few ideas. Just know that if its sad
then it will be for a reason.
***********************************************************************
"Rei, I...I don't love you. I'm sorry."
Kai heard the words coming out of his mouth and knew they were wrong. Why was he doing
it? Why was he telling Rei he had no feelings for him?
He knew why.
He couldn't let anyone get close to him. Love was weakness.
His heart almost broke as he walked out on Rei. But he couldn't tell him how he felt. Ever.
But why?
'Rei said he loved me.' Kai thought to himself. 'But I can't let myself love him back. He
deserves better. He might be crushed now but in the long run it will be better this way.'
He walked out the hotel room.
He quickened his stride when he saw Tyson in the hall. He didn't feel like talking.
-----------------------------------------------------
All Rei knew was pain. His world had fallen apart. His life smashed and left in tiny
discarded pieces.
His body shook as he sobbed, he didn't think he would ever be able to stop.
He wanted to curl up and die. Oblivion would be preferable to his pain.
-----------------------------------------------------
Tyson saw Kai leave the hotel room, from in the hallway where he'd been waiting, and
knew it wasn't a good sign. It shouldn't have been that quick. He almost asked Kai what
had happened but he was walking away too quickly.
'I guess I better go check on Rei.' Tyson thought.
He didn't see Rei at first. But he heard the sobbing and knew something was very wrong.
Then he saw Rei on the couch, curled up, sobbing between heavy breaths.
"Oh Rei..." Tyson said and walked over to him. He wasn't sure what to say. He sat next to
Rei and put his hand on Rei's shaking shoulder.
"Rei...what happened?" Tyson said as gently as he could. He wasn't even sure if Rei knew
he was there.
'Why am I always the one to find Rei like this??' Tyson wondered. 'Kenny or Max would
know what to do.' He sighed.
"He..he...he..s..said..he..didn't..love...m..me..." Tyson could barely make out Rei's
words between the sobbing.
"Its OK Rei..." He knew it was a pathetically inadequate thing to say, but he was lost for
words.
'Jesus Kai...' Tyson thought '...you sure can be a callous bastard sometimes.'
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Kai walked along a nameless street. His mind racing.
He assured himself he'd done the right thing. But why did it feel so very wrong?
He couldn't love anyone. Rei deserved better.
What he did with Tyson was different. There was no meaning.
He didn't love Tyson.
Tyson couldn't reach him. Couldn't hurt him.
He couldn't pretend with Rei. If he let himself love him he knew he would never be able to
stop loving him. He'd get hurt, he always got hurt.
Kai angrily kicked a trashcan that was in his path, watching it clatter loudly down the
street.
He stopped and put his hands against a nearby wall. Taking deep breaths.
He felt flushed.
He forced his eyes shut; he wasn't going let any tears escape. He was stronger than this.
He slumped to the ground, resting against the wall and began to cry.
'What have I done?' he though as the tears fell from his eyes.
---------------------------------------------------------
Tyson had done his best to calm Rei and went to get Max and Kenny. He gave them a brief
summary of the situation and told them not to ask any questions.
Tyson, Kenny and Max walked into the hotel room expecting to see Rei on the couch like
Tyson had said.
But he wasn't there.
"Uhhhh, I'll check around..." Tyson said. Rei wasn't in the kitchen. Or the bedroom. Then
Tyson noticed the bathroom door was closed.
'Phew...' Tyson thought '...probably just washing up.'
He knocked gently on the door. "Rei, are you okay?" he asked.
He could hear soft crying.
He clenched his fists in anger when he thought what Kai had done to his friend.
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Kai stood up and wiped the tears from his eyes. He was angry with himself for his show of
emotion, though no one had even been around to see it.
'Rei...' he thought '...oh Rei, what have I done to you?'
He knew what he had to do.
He didn't know if it was just going to make things worse, or whether Rei now hated him,
but he had to tell him.
Kai started running.
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Rei noticed Tyson had left.
He knew he'd be back, probably with Kenny and Max.
He didn't feel like dealing with them all right now.
Gathering his strength, and taking deep breaths he walked to the bathroom and shut the
door. Locking it.
He sat on the edge of the tub and put his head in his hands.
He could feel more tears coming.
He couldn't stand it, the situation, his pain, life.
He couldn't stand life.
He looked around the bathroom scanning for something. He saw what he wanted, a
complimentary shaver the hotel put in every bathroom.
Rei picked it up and examined it. A quick twist and a bit of force and he'd got the
razorblade out.
He held it in his had. It was small, shiny, perfect.
Tyson knocked on the door. Rei ignored him.
He began to weep softly.
He took the razorblade and put it against his wrist, he shut his eyes and pressed down,
drawing it up his arm, making a gaping incision.
He did the same with the other arm.
The physical pain was comfort. His emotional pain would end soon.
He collapsed to the floor. A large pool of blood surrounding him.
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Please don't hate me!
I'm sorry all right, but things are going to get better!
I hope I'm not becoming predictable. If it is predictable is it at least interesting to read? I
don't know if anyone actually likes this.
When I started even I didn't think Id be torturing Rei this much, ohwell, maybe a happy
ending is in sight.