Title: Light and Dark
Author: NT
NT: I don't own Digimon. This will contain Yaoi and have angst and a bit of fluff then more angst.
Ken: Great.
NT: You guys aren't still mad at me, are you?
Ken: Of course!! You killed my angel and then made me suffer so much!!
NT: *sighs*
TK: Why?
NT: Didn't we already go over that?
TK: No.
NT: Just go hug or kiss or something. Leave me alone to write the next chapter. *sighs* I'm sorry, okay. I'm sorry for killing TK and making Ken suffer.
TK: Thank you!
Ken: I'm still mad at you.
NT: *sighs*
TK: You tend to sigh a lot, even at the oddest times.
NT: I have a good reason to sigh all right?
***
Chapter 2: The Pain is Forever, Or is It?
I'm sitting in my room still grieving over you. That's not the worst part though. It has been three months since your death. You would think I'd be better, but I wasn't. I felt the same the day of your funeral. I can still see it. It was a terrible day for everyone. Your death changed the world. Changed everyone around you. The place seemed to darken the moment they buried you.
Your brother, Yamato, was completely pale. He seemed to be trapped. Trapped in the very thought of his little brother being gone. He cared for you so much. More than anyone. Even Taichi. He would always show you that other side. That side that seemed to be locked away.
Kari had fainted. You two were best friends. You saved each other so many times. I was always jealous of how close she was to you. I always wanted to be the one to make you smile and laugh the way you did. I loved that day when I was able to.
The day was dark. Just like all the days that came. You looked so calm. You weren't in pain anymore. You were smiling. You smiled when you died. You were smiling now. At me? Yes, at me. You were smiling at me.
Your parents were devastated by the death. Carrying the same look were your friends. The Digidestined were all there at the funeral. So many tears were shed. You held the Crest of Hope. You were Hope. You saved both our world and the digital world and even managed to change so many. You changed me. Many think it was Daisuke who had, but no. You had changed me. Since the first time I laid eyes on you, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I wanted you by my side. I almost had created a dark ring for humans and have you under my control, but I could never do that to you. I wanted you, but I wanted you to want me back. You would come to me on your own will.
That day you were mad at me. I had whipped you, but it had no effect on you. You would just smile and see right through me. You seemed to know me. Then that moment you had tackled me to the ground and sat on top of me. I then realized every part of our bodies touching. I was thinking of joining our lips, but I held back. I couldn't tell you then. I couldn't reveal my feelings. Not there. The day I would had to be perfect and it was, to me at least.
**Flashback**
"Ken!! Ken!! Where are you?"
"Over here." I needed to see you. I don't know why. No, I knew why. I was in love with you. Since the day I first saw you and heard your soft, caring voice.
"Hey Ken. What's up?"
"Nothing." I was happy you had forgiven me for all those things I had done when I was the Kaiser. I never thought you would, but you had.
You leaned back against the tree with your arms behind your head, as the sun's rays hit your body lightly. The way it had made you look so beautiful. I would look at you from the corner of my eyes every now and then making sure you didn't see me. Every time I knew your eyes were on me, I would turn my eyes onto the book I was supposedly reading. We were silent. It wasn't awkward or anything. It was rather pleasant. Maybe it was because you were here with me. You broke that silence with your sweet voice.
"So, Ken, whatcha reading?"
"Just a book for school."
"It's a nice day out. We should do something."
"Like what?"
I kept my eyes away from you. I knew if I looked at you, I would blush. And when I mean blush, I mean turn into a cherry. So I kept my eyes on a safe place. My book. I noticed your gaze was still on me and I ended up looking at you. Our eyes were locked, or at least mine couldn't stop looking into yours.
As time passed, I broke our lock and looked back to my book as I started to blush. You must have noticed since the next thing you had done was rather surprising. Not in a bad way though.
You stood up and I thought you were going to walk away, but instead you stood in front of me. I looked up expecting to see a look of disgust or something like that, but instead I saw something else. Your eyes were soft, but filled with... desire?
You smiled and your eyes narrowed. "Oh, maybe something like this." You leaped at me, knocking me on my back, as your legs and hands kept me in a tight lock. I was too shocked to move. You leaned in closer and pushed your lips onto mine. I moaned as I felt your tongue soon gain entrance into my mouth.
As the kiss broken due to lack of air, you rested your head on my chest. We were in public, which anyone could see, but you didn't care.
"Ken, I love you."
My eyes widened, as I heard the words I had said in my own mind. You loved me?
"I love you too, Takeru."
With those words, you snuggled closer as if we weren't close enough. Maybe we weren't, but all that matter was we loved one another.
From that moment, everything seemed to lighten. I was able to see the colors I never had. You made me see everything in a new way. There was something about you. There was everything about you. I love everything.
**End Flashback**
That same memory has been playing in my mind over and over again. I can't concentrate in school anymore or on anything for that matter. I've lost my appetite and I can't seem to sleep.
I can't stand the pain anymore. Everyone said it was to get better as time passed, but I feel the same I had the day at the hospital and the day at the funeral. Nothing has changed and nothing will. My parents won't like my decision and neither will my friends, but they'll understand, right? They know how I've been feeling.
I'm doing the right thing, right? When you feel like you lost the will to live, you will understand how I feel. This is the way I'm going anyways. I've lost a lot of weight and I know I look horrible. I'm only a burden now. I only take up space and waste air.
This knife is beautiful. It's not gray. It's blue. Blue like his eyes. This is the way I want it to be. It has to be this way.
"Takeru, I'll be with you soon. Please wait for me. Just wait a little longer."
A cold blade against pale skin. A few swipes, a few cuts are all it takes. I know my angel will be disappointed in me, but he'll understand. He will know the pain that I've had to live with so far.
I'm bleeding. The blood is leaving. The blood that was left of me. Of this empty shell. On the floor covered in blood. My parents will be home in two hours. I will die by then. I will die before they can save me.
"Takeru, I will see you soon. Just wait a little longer."
With my angel again. With my love again. I smile. Never thought I would. Takeru smiled when he left. I will smile when I do. A last note to my family and friends. They will understand. They will know.
Bury me with my love, with my angel. Bury me with Takeru so every part of us is together. The pain was too much for me, so I wanted to do this. I'm happy again. I'm smiling again. Sorry for any pain, any tears. I want to be with him. I need to be with him. Angels now. Together again.
Last few breaths. Last sight. Everything is sweet. Everything is bright. The clouds are no longer gray. The world has color again. Many colors. My angel and I are the center. The balance has returned. Light and Dark.
***
NT: How'd you like it?
TK and Ken: *still crying*
NT: But you guys are together again.
Ken: But now we're both dead!!!
NT: But you're angels!
TK: But we left all our friends and families!!! We're dead!!!
NT: *sighs* You probably wanted an all fluff story.
TK: *beams* yes!!
Ken: That would be nice.
NT: *sighs*
TK: Please r/r to make NT stop sighing.
NT: Oh, just to tell you. There may be an epilogue or chapter 3.
Ken: May?
NT: I'm not sure yet.
TK: Epilogue to the story about us dead?
NT: Yes.
TK and Ken: *starts crying*
NT: *sighs*
Author: NT
NT: I don't own Digimon. This will contain Yaoi and have angst and a bit of fluff then more angst.
Ken: Great.
NT: You guys aren't still mad at me, are you?
Ken: Of course!! You killed my angel and then made me suffer so much!!
NT: *sighs*
TK: Why?
NT: Didn't we already go over that?
TK: No.
NT: Just go hug or kiss or something. Leave me alone to write the next chapter. *sighs* I'm sorry, okay. I'm sorry for killing TK and making Ken suffer.
TK: Thank you!
Ken: I'm still mad at you.
NT: *sighs*
TK: You tend to sigh a lot, even at the oddest times.
NT: I have a good reason to sigh all right?
***
Chapter 2: The Pain is Forever, Or is It?
I'm sitting in my room still grieving over you. That's not the worst part though. It has been three months since your death. You would think I'd be better, but I wasn't. I felt the same the day of your funeral. I can still see it. It was a terrible day for everyone. Your death changed the world. Changed everyone around you. The place seemed to darken the moment they buried you.
Your brother, Yamato, was completely pale. He seemed to be trapped. Trapped in the very thought of his little brother being gone. He cared for you so much. More than anyone. Even Taichi. He would always show you that other side. That side that seemed to be locked away.
Kari had fainted. You two were best friends. You saved each other so many times. I was always jealous of how close she was to you. I always wanted to be the one to make you smile and laugh the way you did. I loved that day when I was able to.
The day was dark. Just like all the days that came. You looked so calm. You weren't in pain anymore. You were smiling. You smiled when you died. You were smiling now. At me? Yes, at me. You were smiling at me.
Your parents were devastated by the death. Carrying the same look were your friends. The Digidestined were all there at the funeral. So many tears were shed. You held the Crest of Hope. You were Hope. You saved both our world and the digital world and even managed to change so many. You changed me. Many think it was Daisuke who had, but no. You had changed me. Since the first time I laid eyes on you, I couldn't stop thinking about you. I wanted you by my side. I almost had created a dark ring for humans and have you under my control, but I could never do that to you. I wanted you, but I wanted you to want me back. You would come to me on your own will.
That day you were mad at me. I had whipped you, but it had no effect on you. You would just smile and see right through me. You seemed to know me. Then that moment you had tackled me to the ground and sat on top of me. I then realized every part of our bodies touching. I was thinking of joining our lips, but I held back. I couldn't tell you then. I couldn't reveal my feelings. Not there. The day I would had to be perfect and it was, to me at least.
**Flashback**
"Ken!! Ken!! Where are you?"
"Over here." I needed to see you. I don't know why. No, I knew why. I was in love with you. Since the day I first saw you and heard your soft, caring voice.
"Hey Ken. What's up?"
"Nothing." I was happy you had forgiven me for all those things I had done when I was the Kaiser. I never thought you would, but you had.
You leaned back against the tree with your arms behind your head, as the sun's rays hit your body lightly. The way it had made you look so beautiful. I would look at you from the corner of my eyes every now and then making sure you didn't see me. Every time I knew your eyes were on me, I would turn my eyes onto the book I was supposedly reading. We were silent. It wasn't awkward or anything. It was rather pleasant. Maybe it was because you were here with me. You broke that silence with your sweet voice.
"So, Ken, whatcha reading?"
"Just a book for school."
"It's a nice day out. We should do something."
"Like what?"
I kept my eyes away from you. I knew if I looked at you, I would blush. And when I mean blush, I mean turn into a cherry. So I kept my eyes on a safe place. My book. I noticed your gaze was still on me and I ended up looking at you. Our eyes were locked, or at least mine couldn't stop looking into yours.
As time passed, I broke our lock and looked back to my book as I started to blush. You must have noticed since the next thing you had done was rather surprising. Not in a bad way though.
You stood up and I thought you were going to walk away, but instead you stood in front of me. I looked up expecting to see a look of disgust or something like that, but instead I saw something else. Your eyes were soft, but filled with... desire?
You smiled and your eyes narrowed. "Oh, maybe something like this." You leaped at me, knocking me on my back, as your legs and hands kept me in a tight lock. I was too shocked to move. You leaned in closer and pushed your lips onto mine. I moaned as I felt your tongue soon gain entrance into my mouth.
As the kiss broken due to lack of air, you rested your head on my chest. We were in public, which anyone could see, but you didn't care.
"Ken, I love you."
My eyes widened, as I heard the words I had said in my own mind. You loved me?
"I love you too, Takeru."
With those words, you snuggled closer as if we weren't close enough. Maybe we weren't, but all that matter was we loved one another.
From that moment, everything seemed to lighten. I was able to see the colors I never had. You made me see everything in a new way. There was something about you. There was everything about you. I love everything.
**End Flashback**
That same memory has been playing in my mind over and over again. I can't concentrate in school anymore or on anything for that matter. I've lost my appetite and I can't seem to sleep.
I can't stand the pain anymore. Everyone said it was to get better as time passed, but I feel the same I had the day at the hospital and the day at the funeral. Nothing has changed and nothing will. My parents won't like my decision and neither will my friends, but they'll understand, right? They know how I've been feeling.
I'm doing the right thing, right? When you feel like you lost the will to live, you will understand how I feel. This is the way I'm going anyways. I've lost a lot of weight and I know I look horrible. I'm only a burden now. I only take up space and waste air.
This knife is beautiful. It's not gray. It's blue. Blue like his eyes. This is the way I want it to be. It has to be this way.
"Takeru, I'll be with you soon. Please wait for me. Just wait a little longer."
A cold blade against pale skin. A few swipes, a few cuts are all it takes. I know my angel will be disappointed in me, but he'll understand. He will know the pain that I've had to live with so far.
I'm bleeding. The blood is leaving. The blood that was left of me. Of this empty shell. On the floor covered in blood. My parents will be home in two hours. I will die by then. I will die before they can save me.
"Takeru, I will see you soon. Just wait a little longer."
With my angel again. With my love again. I smile. Never thought I would. Takeru smiled when he left. I will smile when I do. A last note to my family and friends. They will understand. They will know.
Bury me with my love, with my angel. Bury me with Takeru so every part of us is together. The pain was too much for me, so I wanted to do this. I'm happy again. I'm smiling again. Sorry for any pain, any tears. I want to be with him. I need to be with him. Angels now. Together again.
Last few breaths. Last sight. Everything is sweet. Everything is bright. The clouds are no longer gray. The world has color again. Many colors. My angel and I are the center. The balance has returned. Light and Dark.
***
NT: How'd you like it?
TK and Ken: *still crying*
NT: But you guys are together again.
Ken: But now we're both dead!!!
NT: But you're angels!
TK: But we left all our friends and families!!! We're dead!!!
NT: *sighs* You probably wanted an all fluff story.
TK: *beams* yes!!
Ken: That would be nice.
NT: *sighs*
TK: Please r/r to make NT stop sighing.
NT: Oh, just to tell you. There may be an epilogue or chapter 3.
Ken: May?
NT: I'm not sure yet.
TK: Epilogue to the story about us dead?
NT: Yes.
TK and Ken: *starts crying*
NT: *sighs*