Chapter 5 Year 5
" God why am I being such an ass to James. I know its not his fault." Lily was torn she knew she could never tell anyone about her and matt and what if she ended up pregnant then she was royally screwed (almost literally)." God I wish I could just apologize to him. But I just don't know how."
" Why don't you start with I am sorry for being such an ass to you."
" Sirius? Oh my god I didn't see you there."
" Thank you captain obvious. Yeah well anyway"
" What do you think I should do Sirius?"
" Apologize to James cause he is miserable with out you talking to him."
" Well you make it sound like we are going out or something."
" Maybe you should be."
" What?" Lily didn't think she heard Sirius right did James have feelings for her even thou he was going out with that bitch Scarlet.
" I said maybe you should go talk to him now."
" Oh yeah ok."
" Well I have to go ok. And Lils we really need you back on the Quidditch field."
" Yeah I'll think about it."
Later that night, much later in fact. Lily woke up sweating she just had the weirdest dream ever she was crouching over a little boy that looked just like James - except for the eyes they were just like hers and she could hear James yelling at her and all she saw was green.
" Whatever, god I am hallucinating." Lily went to the common room and headed right to the piano, she didn't know someone was in there with her. She began to play with so much emotion it was like she was the piano and then she sang, god how he loved to hear her sing.
"OH yeah ah yeah yeah yeah, uh huh, you know everything that I am afraid of you do everything I shouted everybody wants you everybody loved you I don't know if I should tell you how I feel I wish everyone would disappear every time you call me I am to scared to appear and I am too shy to say ph I got a crush on you I hope you feel the way the I do I get a rush when I am with you I got a crush on you you know I am the one that you can talk to sometimes you tell me stuff I don't want to know sometimes I just want to hold you ,you say exactly what you feel about her I wonder would you ever think about me that oh I got a crush on you I hope you feel the way that I do I get a rush when I am with you o I got a crush on you o I wish I could tell somebody but there no one to talk to nobody knows ive got a crush on you a crush on you Ive got a crush on you hey yeah hey yeah hey yeah , ive got crush on you , you say everything no one says I feel everything that you are afraid you feel I will always want you I will always love you Ive got crush on you I hope you feel the way that I do I get a rush when I am with you o I got a crush on you ., I hope you feel the way I that I do , I get rush when I am with you.
" ive got a crush on you too." James walked up behind lily and kissed her cheek she felt a burning sensation to turn and kiss him back , but she just got up and ran - ran out the door and ran , until she couldn't run anymore.
" Well isn't this great. Now she wants to crush me."
The next morning lily sat down to breakfast and she was next to James and Sirius , Sirius gave her supportive looks and James kept looking at her shyly and the finally he grabbed her hand.
" Um you guys I think I have to go to class um . yeah " Lily got out as quickly as she could. James followed in suit.
" LILY WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON." James had his big deep blue eyes digging into hers.
" Nothing is wrong James."
" Horse shit. I hold you hand and you pull away and have to go to class."
" Well I do have to go to class."
" ITS SATURDAY. I LIKE YOU LILY I LIKE YOU A LOT."
"Yeah well, you already have a girlfriend and you seem very intement with her."
" Yeah but last night. I mean the song."
" I was playing piano how was I suppose to know you were down there?"
" I know I had the same dream you did lily about Harry and the green light."
" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKIN ABOUT JAMES?" Lily was near tears she couldn't imagine how James knew what she had been dreaming.
" You know what I am talking about I had the same dream a couple nights ago. And when I heard you yelling Harry's name and my name I knew."
" What are you talking about you couldn't hear me scream cause I never screamed."
" I was upstairs in your dorm lily I heard you."
" What the hell were you doing up there?"
" Watching you sleep."
" So stalking me you were stalking me." James' s heart lurched at these words the woman he loved - liked liked the woman he liked was breaking his heart - god you don't love her James - he thought.
" Why are you being such a bitch?"
" WACK! WHAT WAS THAT JAMES HAROLD POTTER?"
" You are just you aren't yourself."
" No you called me a bitch damn you and I was thinking about forgiving you well you know what PRONSY you can kiss my mudblood ass cause I will never ever ever forgive you. NEVER." Lily walked off
" Lily..Lily . Fawkes. but I- I- I- -I- love you." James whispered to himself. A tear fell down his cheek. James potter never cried and the whole Hogwarts population probably just saw the whole fight. He wanted to be alone. Just alone.
" God why am I being such an ass to James. I know its not his fault." Lily was torn she knew she could never tell anyone about her and matt and what if she ended up pregnant then she was royally screwed (almost literally)." God I wish I could just apologize to him. But I just don't know how."
" Why don't you start with I am sorry for being such an ass to you."
" Sirius? Oh my god I didn't see you there."
" Thank you captain obvious. Yeah well anyway"
" What do you think I should do Sirius?"
" Apologize to James cause he is miserable with out you talking to him."
" Well you make it sound like we are going out or something."
" Maybe you should be."
" What?" Lily didn't think she heard Sirius right did James have feelings for her even thou he was going out with that bitch Scarlet.
" I said maybe you should go talk to him now."
" Oh yeah ok."
" Well I have to go ok. And Lils we really need you back on the Quidditch field."
" Yeah I'll think about it."
Later that night, much later in fact. Lily woke up sweating she just had the weirdest dream ever she was crouching over a little boy that looked just like James - except for the eyes they were just like hers and she could hear James yelling at her and all she saw was green.
" Whatever, god I am hallucinating." Lily went to the common room and headed right to the piano, she didn't know someone was in there with her. She began to play with so much emotion it was like she was the piano and then she sang, god how he loved to hear her sing.
"OH yeah ah yeah yeah yeah, uh huh, you know everything that I am afraid of you do everything I shouted everybody wants you everybody loved you I don't know if I should tell you how I feel I wish everyone would disappear every time you call me I am to scared to appear and I am too shy to say ph I got a crush on you I hope you feel the way the I do I get a rush when I am with you I got a crush on you you know I am the one that you can talk to sometimes you tell me stuff I don't want to know sometimes I just want to hold you ,you say exactly what you feel about her I wonder would you ever think about me that oh I got a crush on you I hope you feel the way that I do I get a rush when I am with you o I got a crush on you o I wish I could tell somebody but there no one to talk to nobody knows ive got a crush on you a crush on you Ive got a crush on you hey yeah hey yeah hey yeah , ive got crush on you , you say everything no one says I feel everything that you are afraid you feel I will always want you I will always love you Ive got crush on you I hope you feel the way that I do I get a rush when I am with you o I got a crush on you ., I hope you feel the way I that I do , I get rush when I am with you.
" ive got a crush on you too." James walked up behind lily and kissed her cheek she felt a burning sensation to turn and kiss him back , but she just got up and ran - ran out the door and ran , until she couldn't run anymore.
" Well isn't this great. Now she wants to crush me."
The next morning lily sat down to breakfast and she was next to James and Sirius , Sirius gave her supportive looks and James kept looking at her shyly and the finally he grabbed her hand.
" Um you guys I think I have to go to class um . yeah " Lily got out as quickly as she could. James followed in suit.
" LILY WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON." James had his big deep blue eyes digging into hers.
" Nothing is wrong James."
" Horse shit. I hold you hand and you pull away and have to go to class."
" Well I do have to go to class."
" ITS SATURDAY. I LIKE YOU LILY I LIKE YOU A LOT."
"Yeah well, you already have a girlfriend and you seem very intement with her."
" Yeah but last night. I mean the song."
" I was playing piano how was I suppose to know you were down there?"
" I know I had the same dream you did lily about Harry and the green light."
" WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKIN ABOUT JAMES?" Lily was near tears she couldn't imagine how James knew what she had been dreaming.
" You know what I am talking about I had the same dream a couple nights ago. And when I heard you yelling Harry's name and my name I knew."
" What are you talking about you couldn't hear me scream cause I never screamed."
" I was upstairs in your dorm lily I heard you."
" What the hell were you doing up there?"
" Watching you sleep."
" So stalking me you were stalking me." James' s heart lurched at these words the woman he loved - liked liked the woman he liked was breaking his heart - god you don't love her James - he thought.
" Why are you being such a bitch?"
" WACK! WHAT WAS THAT JAMES HAROLD POTTER?"
" You are just you aren't yourself."
" No you called me a bitch damn you and I was thinking about forgiving you well you know what PRONSY you can kiss my mudblood ass cause I will never ever ever forgive you. NEVER." Lily walked off
" Lily..Lily . Fawkes. but I- I- I- -I- love you." James whispered to himself. A tear fell down his cheek. James potter never cried and the whole Hogwarts population probably just saw the whole fight. He wanted to be alone. Just alone.