Title: Survival is not an option.
Author: DBZVelena
Warning: I was driving home when this popped in my head. Traffic does that to me.
Disclaimer: This is fanfiction. By the time you find out my real name, I'll be dead. So no point in sueing me.
Sequel to What's the point of living?
Here I am. Standing in my rented suit. Waiting for Relena to walk up the isle and the ceremony to begin.
Then why do i feel like I'm betraying my self?
Am I not doing everything right?
Save the world, get the girl, marry her, live happily ever after.
Isn't that how its supposed to be?
Then why does this feel so empty.
Quatre is sitting in the front row, sobbing his space-heart out, I bet.
Trowa is standing next to me, he's the best man.
Wufei is on duty as Preventer. And busy keeping away all the media.
I swear this wedding has more camera's pointed at than the world peace conference.
I look at Trowa, I know he doesn't approve. According to him I'm making the biggest mistake of my life.
According to him I should act on my emotions like I once told him to.
Aren't I doing just that, marrying Relena?
Do I love Relena?
I do I guess, or i would not have saved her.
Am I In Love with Relena?
...
I don't know. Shouldn't I be? I love her don't I?
But wouldn't this then be the happiest day of my life?
Then why do i feel like its a funeral?
I wish Duo was here. He'd take one look at me and tell me to lighten up.
His smile would light up the whole building.
He'd look in my eyes and know what I'm thinking.
He knows me so well.
He'd laugh at how i look in this suit. Flash his ass at the media camera's.
Duo knows how to live.
Duo IS life.
So how come he couldn't come?
Why isn't he here on the day that should be the happiest day of my life?
His message said that he was to busy. But I doubt that.
He's my best friend, he'd do anything for me.
So why isn't he here?
Why do I care?
Why can't I stop thinking of him when I should be thinking of Relena.
Why is it his smile that lights up my day and not Relena's.
How come all Duo would have to do is look in my eyes to know what I'm thinking,
wile Relena wouldn't even know what I'm thinking if I actually told her.
How come i measure Relena against Duo and find her lacking.
I guess I'm the baka this time.
I turn to Trowa, and apparently he figured out that i get it now. For he hands me Duo's address.
Thankfully its not to far away. If I take Trowa's bike I'll be there in 15-20 minutes.
Trowa hands me the keys even before I ask. Guess Duo isn't the only one that knows how my mind works.
One word is said before I run for the emergency exit. "Go!"
I know he'll make my excuses, fixes things so its not to big a thing for Relena.
She can keep the ring. It never mattered anyway. A souvenir from our engagement.
I'm on the road now. And for some reason a line pops in my head.
Survival is not an option.
So true, and a life with Relena would only be that. Surviving.
I'll take a leap of faith and go for living instead.
With Duo.... If he'll have me.
Author: DBZVelena
Warning: I was driving home when this popped in my head. Traffic does that to me.
Disclaimer: This is fanfiction. By the time you find out my real name, I'll be dead. So no point in sueing me.
Sequel to What's the point of living?
Here I am. Standing in my rented suit. Waiting for Relena to walk up the isle and the ceremony to begin.
Then why do i feel like I'm betraying my self?
Am I not doing everything right?
Save the world, get the girl, marry her, live happily ever after.
Isn't that how its supposed to be?
Then why does this feel so empty.
Quatre is sitting in the front row, sobbing his space-heart out, I bet.
Trowa is standing next to me, he's the best man.
Wufei is on duty as Preventer. And busy keeping away all the media.
I swear this wedding has more camera's pointed at than the world peace conference.
I look at Trowa, I know he doesn't approve. According to him I'm making the biggest mistake of my life.
According to him I should act on my emotions like I once told him to.
Aren't I doing just that, marrying Relena?
Do I love Relena?
I do I guess, or i would not have saved her.
Am I In Love with Relena?
...
I don't know. Shouldn't I be? I love her don't I?
But wouldn't this then be the happiest day of my life?
Then why do i feel like its a funeral?
I wish Duo was here. He'd take one look at me and tell me to lighten up.
His smile would light up the whole building.
He'd look in my eyes and know what I'm thinking.
He knows me so well.
He'd laugh at how i look in this suit. Flash his ass at the media camera's.
Duo knows how to live.
Duo IS life.
So how come he couldn't come?
Why isn't he here on the day that should be the happiest day of my life?
His message said that he was to busy. But I doubt that.
He's my best friend, he'd do anything for me.
So why isn't he here?
Why do I care?
Why can't I stop thinking of him when I should be thinking of Relena.
Why is it his smile that lights up my day and not Relena's.
How come all Duo would have to do is look in my eyes to know what I'm thinking,
wile Relena wouldn't even know what I'm thinking if I actually told her.
How come i measure Relena against Duo and find her lacking.
I guess I'm the baka this time.
I turn to Trowa, and apparently he figured out that i get it now. For he hands me Duo's address.
Thankfully its not to far away. If I take Trowa's bike I'll be there in 15-20 minutes.
Trowa hands me the keys even before I ask. Guess Duo isn't the only one that knows how my mind works.
One word is said before I run for the emergency exit. "Go!"
I know he'll make my excuses, fixes things so its not to big a thing for Relena.
She can keep the ring. It never mattered anyway. A souvenir from our engagement.
I'm on the road now. And for some reason a line pops in my head.
Survival is not an option.
So true, and a life with Relena would only be that. Surviving.
I'll take a leap of faith and go for living instead.
With Duo.... If he'll have me.