Fate's Humor: Gohan's Story Chapter 3: The Loss, a dragon ball z fanfic

Fate's Humor: Gohan's Story

Chapter 3

By: Cimorene

"Daddy? Daddy, what's wrong?" I asked as I walked down the hall towards the waiting room. Walk is the wrong word, I ran as fast as I could without looking like I was running.

"Oh, Gabby, Gabby. It's awful." Diana said, rocking herself.

"Diana? Daddy, what happened?" I demanded.

"Scott died." Was all he said. I sat down in the uncomfortable chair.

"He died? Scottie died? No, daddy! That's not possible! Scottie was supposed to get better! He can't! he can't!" I screamed. I feel into a denial stage and would not listen to anyone and I totally shut off the world, even Gohan.

THE NEXT DAY...

"Hey, Gabby! Where were you this morning?" Gohan asked casually.

"Leave me be, Gohan. Don't talk to me, it is for your own good." I said, running down the hall.

"Gabby! Wait!" he called after me. I did not wait. I left as fast as I could. Scott's funeral was later that day and I rushed home. I was listening to the radio when my favorite song came on...

Late at night when all the world is sleeping

I stay up and think of you and I wish on a star

That somewhere you are thinking of me too.

My sister and my mom and I would sing that song together and Scott would sing backup. It brought tears to my eyes and I had to change the station. The song on there wasn't much better...

But I can still recall the sting of all the tears when he was gone

They said he crashed and burned

I know I'll never learn why any boy should die so young.

The tears were flowing hard and I had to stop and pull over because I could no longer see.

Suddenly at about 3 in afternoon, I had a weird feeling in my heart. It was painful and I had an idea that it was in some way connected to Gabrielle. I decided to go to her brother's funeral.

I had to stop listening to the radio so I could continue. I was so gone. I had never been so depressed in my life and I had built barriers to protect me from myself. I wouldn't even let Gohan near me. I turned back on the radio to the talk radio station so I could listen for any traffic reports. What I heard was much worse...

To every listener within the range of this radio station. There have been reports of Android activity near Opus Town. Please stay alert for any more warnings.

My breath stopped as I heard that. That is all we needed now. Those damn androids. They always know how to wind up showing up at the worst time. Hmm...there was a weird feeling when I thought about the androids. Gohan, it has to be him. Something happened between him and the androids. The funeral was a blur and so was the whole week later. My father was on the verge of a mental collapse but had to hold on for Diana.

"Gabby? I want you to know that I will always be here. I won't leave you and Diana. I can't. I promised your mother that I would never let you two go. I won't let you go into foster care. I just need some time to cope. I talked to the Briefs and they said it was fine for me to take off some time." My dad said.

"It's okay, Daddy. I will always believe in you. And I will be always dreaming of you." I said, turning my head towards him.

"Diana, too?" Diana asked.

"Yes, Diana too." I said, with tears in my eyes. We recuperated in about a month and our lives got back to normal. Or as normal as they get. Jacien left me alone and I stayed away from Gohan, for his sake and mine.

Gabrielle became much more distant towards me and everyone else. She wouldn't listen to anyone, especially Mr. Kopeland. She had zero tolerance for him.

"Miss Yamato, you need to work harder at being a good student aide. You are slacking." Mr. Kopeland told her.

"What if I didn't want to be a student aide anymore. Everything is different now. You hear me, EVERYTHING!" She yelled and ran out of the room. I just shrugged at Mr. Kopeland.

Tears became more frequent and my eyes never seemed to dry. Kira had left me when I dumped Jacien and I just couldn't deal with Gohan. My feelings toward everything went to the see, hear, speak no evil philosophy. I talked to no one. I listened to no one. I saw no one.
***********************Gabby, You have to talk to someone*******************

**************************And you want it to be you************************

***************************Well, yeah. That'd be nice.***********************

*****************Nice? NICE? Nice would be that Scott would still be here*******

*********************Gabby, I can't stand to see you like this******************

*********************Then don't look at me, because I won't change************

That made it so I alienated myself from Gohan. The summer was approaching fast and he didn't need help anymore. My driving became reckless, dangerous even. Diana became a little bitch and wouldn't listen to any one but my dad and me. My dad became a lost soul at work and his work became sloppy. My dreams were blank and it seemed I had no future. My eyes must have died because I lost the sparkle I had once held so dear. My tears became meaningless and my pains seemed to be killing me, inside out.

"NO!" Diana yelled for the fifth time as Joann tried to feed her. I was listlessly drinking a milkshake. Diana picked up her bowl of fruit and dumped it on the floor. Joann had never believed in spanking and therefore just calmly told Diana that she was bad.

"She isn't gonna listen." I told her, still spinning my drink.

"Could you please feed her something?" Joann asked.

"She's not hungry. She doesn't want to eat." I replied. I got up and walked upstairs to my balcony. I saw the waves crash on the beach shore. They were so free. They didn't have to deal with anything. So free.

I was starting to worry about Gabby. She wouldn't talk with anyone and she wasn't someone who was looking for friends either. She would either not talk at all or be really snappish. It started to worry me and I took matters into my own hands as I headed toward her beach-front home.

I walked down my private staircase to the ocean. The wave crashing made such a melody that soothed my malignant soul. The sea was calling to me. I took my hair out of it's restraining berets and let it fall. The sea wind caressed my hair and I was becoming one with the sea.

Something was going on and I had to find out what. My mind was eased by the sound of the sea and I saw the most beautiful sight. It was Gabrielle in a crimson dress and her hair hanging down. The wind was circulating through her hair and made her sparkle. I ran up to her and I took her hand. She spun towards me and her eyes were so empty. She yanked her hand out of mine and began her stride towards the sea. I saw what she planned to do and I had to stop her. No matter what.

My mind was totally clear and I had no question in my mind what I was about to do was the absolute right thing. I was going to let the sea take me. The sea, the birthplace and death site of so much, was going to be the end of me. I wanted it that way and I wanted Gohan to understand that. He tried to stop me. I guess he thought it was futile to try and stop me.

I had to stop her. I ran up to her and took her. She couldn't resist me because of the simple fact that I was much stronger than her. She struggled a lot and she was crying the entire way. I couldn't believe why she would want to die so I asked her. She wouldn't recognize me as being there. I shook her lightly and I saw her empty eyes. They were so blank.

"Gabby, what are you doing? What happened to my kindle girl? Your fire is gone. Why? Tell me." I said, rather forcefully.

"Gohan, you wouldn't understand...my brother, my mother's baby is gone...he was all we had left of her. She didn't know Diana very well and Diana looks like my dad, Scottie looked like my mom. I can't live anymore. I don't deserve it. Everyone can survive without me..." Gabrielle said.

"Your family needs you. I need you." I said.

"You are better off without me, Gohan." Gabrielle said.

"Do you realize what you are saying? Gabrielle Yamato, I need you. You are my world and I can't imagine my life without you. You need to become the feisty girl who was constantly arguing with me...I need you." I said.

She looked up into my eyes. "You don't need me. I was just a hindrance" She finally whispered. "I'm sorry, Gohan. I can't deny that. I just can't cope. My whole family is slowly dying off. Who's next? That question just recycling in my mind. I can't take it."

You have to, Gabrielle. You are important. You must see this for yourself." I said.

"I CAN'T! I can't. I can't see my own worth. WHY? Oh, Kami, tell me." She said, falling to her knees in the surf.

"YOU CAN! And you will. Just wait. What happened to that girl that showed me that she was very important to my world?" I asked.

"She has died. Please don't ask anymore." Gabrielle said.

"No, she hasn't and I won't let her." I said, taking her hands in mine. She looked up at me with her eyes, which were slowly gaining her sparkle back.

"I guess, you are right. Thank you." She said, softly and finally. "I guess I was blinded by my own selfishness."

"You are an angel. You know no selfishness." I said.

"Oh, really? Well, Gabrielle Yamato is back!" She said, with her old flame back.

"Good thing!" I said.

Gohan was right. It was important that I was here. I saw this remembrance of a memory...It was me and my mom. She was the top cheerleader in her high school. I was looking through her old yearbooks. She was laughing at me and Angela about our mess ups and such in our gymnastics. Angela and I were the top two in the state if not the nation. We were known as the twin princesses of the floor. I stopped gymnastics after both Angela and my mom died. That put me into a state of denial and loss. I was depressed for almost a year. Jacien helped me recover. He is such a jerk.

"You won't do anything suicidal again, will you?" Gohan asked.

I laughed in my tears, "No, I promise I won't." I said.

"Good, because I can't always save you." Gohan said. We kissed and I was so light headed I almost floated up to the sky.

"Goodbye, Gohan. I have to go home now and set things right." I said.

"Okay, Gabby. I need to head home too. I kind of left suddenly and my mom is probably worried." Gohan said. I headed up to my room.

"Daddy?" I asked as I headed for his office. He was listening to my mom's first song, her favorite.

How many times did I pray

You'd find me

How many wishes on a star

Gazing off in the dark

Dreaming I'd see your face

Safe at home unafraid

Captured in your embrace

"Yes?" He asked, not shutting off the song.

So many times

When my heart was broken

Visions of you

Would keep me strong

You were with me all along

Guiding my every step

You are all that I am

And I'll never forget

"That was Mom's favorite song, isn't it?" I asked.

"Yep." He said, choked up. "It was her Scottie song. Originally it was our song but when Scottie was born she changed it."

It was you who first believed

In all that I was made to be

It was you looking in my eyes

You held my hand

And you showed me life

And I've never been the same

Since you first believed

"It was Scottie's lullaby?" I asked.

"Yep. Scott loved this song." He replied

There were times

When I'd thought I'd lost you

Fearing forever it was a dream

But it wasn't what it seemed

Placing your hand in mine

You could see in the dark

You were guiding my heart

"Oh, daddy. I just can't understand why everyone is going. First mom, then Angela and now Scottie. Who is next?" I asked, lying my head on the desk.

"It shall stop now. We shall all grow old." My father replied.