4 AM
Disclaimer: I don't own and if you think I do then you're a fucking idiot.
Warnings: Attempted suicide and language... You guys are awesome, you know? Anyhow, last chapter and I think I'm gonna write a sequel... More neat stuff like a little more violence and magic and other strange stuff... Tell me what you think please.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Two Weeks After "Chest Cold" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Seto waved farewell to the last of his guests, which happened to be Yami and Yugi. The party was in Yugi's honor, Seto and Jou's gift to him on his birthday.
Yugi was twenty-three today.
Sighing, Seto shut the door and headed upstairs, where his Jou was waiting to talk to him.
About halfway through the gala celebration, his lover had found him and asked to speak with him after the party. He seemed depressed, but the brunette couldn't figure out why.
Sighing yet again, Seto opened the door to his bedroom and found the object of his thoughts at his work desk. "Hello lovely. What did you want to talk to me about?"
The answer Jou gave him was clearly too blunt for his liking.
"Why have you been ignoring Mokuba and me lately?" No anger was in his voice, just sadness.
"What?" The blond stood and walked over to Seto, eyes down cast.
"At least tell me if it's someone else. Of course I'd kill myself cuz I wouldn't be able to handle it but-"
He never did finish his sentence because the next instant, his head snapped to the left as Seto slapped him.
Without a second thought Jou ran from the house.
!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!
After the twenty minute sprint through the raining streets of Domino, Jou pulled his keys out and fumbled to open the door. Finally getting it open, he stepped inside.
Once he made sure it was locked, he sank to the floor and let go an anguished sob.
!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!
The slamming of the back door instantly startled the Spirit of the Sennen Puzzle awake.
Grunting at the nuisance, he threw on a robe and went downstairs to investigate. Finding Jou, who was currently crying his eyes out, was definitely not what he expected to find.
Deciding to intervene on his friend's histarics, Yami gathered the young man up and walked into the living room, gentlely placing Jou in his green recliner.
"Jou? Jou what's wrong?" Yami's voice was calm and soothing, but he gasped at the ugly bruise when Jou lifted his face to look at the Pharaoh. Before Jou could answer however, Yami held up his hand.
"Let me get some ice for your cheek first."
As Yami wrapped ice into a dish towel, he woke his violet-eyed lover. //Yugi-love, wake up! Jou's here and he's not looking so good.//
/Alright... Let me get some clothes on.../
//Why? You look better naked!//
/Later love./
When Yugi stumbled downstairs a couple minutes later, the sight of Jou sent Yugi into distress. Yami was kneeling in front of the blond, one hand holding the ice-filled dish towel against Jou's bruised cheek and Yami's other hand was firmly set against the other cheek, to keep Jou from flinching away. All the while, tears were still spilling from chocolate eyes.
"Gods Jou! What happened?" Yugi ran the rest of the way down and sat beside Yami on the floor.
"He... hit m-me..." His voice was hoarce and broken from crying.
"Who did?"
"Seto..." Jou hissed when Yami applied too much pressure to the hideous mark.
"Sorry Jou." Yami pulled away the cloth and Yugi snatched it from him.
"Love, let me do this. You're too heavy-handed for such delicate work. Would you go get more ice though?" Yami nodded and returned to the kitchen as Yugi took his place in front of his heart-broken friend.
On his way back to the living room, crimson eyes caught sight of a pristine white enevlope on the floor. He picked it up and continued on to his destination.
Sitting down, he slipped the letter into Jou's lap. "I think it's for you." Jou tore it open and his breath caught. This is what the letter said:
[ "4 AM" By: Seto Kaiba
I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years,
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it, know that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to god I figure out
What's wrong
I walked around my room
Not thinking
Just sinkning in this box
I blame myself for being too much
like somebody else
I never thought I would just
Bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it, know that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to god I figure out
What's wrong]
Sometime while he was reading, he had started crying again.
"Jou?" He met the worried stares of his two best friends.
"Yami, do you have a smoke handy, cuz I really need one." The Pharaoh nodded and left, going upstairs.
"I didn't know you two smoked."
"I haven't in five years..." Jou grinned slightly at Yugi. "I really need one now though."
Yami came back down, holding two packs of Marlboro's in his hand. Jou took the pack that was proffered to him and proceeded to smoke until he calmed down, which was about half the pack.
"What time is it?" the blond asked suddenly.
"3:30 am... Why?" Yugi responded.
"I've got to find Seto!"
Running up to his room, Jou threw open his closet, looking for the warmest coat he could find.
"Why the rush all of a sudden? It's not like Seto's going to do anything." Yami asked from the door.
"That's where you're wrong buddy. Did you read the letter?" When Yami shook his head, Jou continued. "He's gonna do something stupid. That letter was a song you see. He only writes letters like that when he feels strongly about he wants to say but can't say it to your face. What he wants you to know is right there... The title of the song itself will tell you something. Whatever he's gonna do he's gonna do at four am..."
"Do you even know where he is?"
"I have a good idea. When we get in fights, he always storms out to think. When I go look for him, he would always be sitting on the bridge railing, over looking the creek, close to here..." Finally finding a good enough coat, he pulled it on, noting with irony that it was Seto's favorite trenchcoat.
"You want Yugi and I to go with you? You would get there faster if I drove you..." Jou cut him off.
"No... I've already ruined your evening and I'll be damned if I make myself more trouble by not letting you guys sleep because of me. Besides," Jou looked at the young man. "I know how to take care of myself.
Yami snorted. "Yeah, I'll bet."
"Hey! I resent that! If you didn't have Shadow powers, then I could kick your butt in a street fight anyday!" Jou grinned. "Thanks Yami. You and Yugi are the greatest friends I ever got."
Yugi popped his head into the room. "Then thank us by moving your scrawny ass and getting that stubborn dragon of yours to come to his senses!"
Jou mocked saluted him. "Yes sir, Shorty."
"I'll get you for that!" Yugi shouted as Jou ran by.
"Bye Captain Shorty! Bye Yami!" This time Yugi couldn't get in his retort; Jou was already gone.
!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!
He had been sitting here for damn near three hours.
'Why did I hit him? I swore I would never hit a loved one. I can't believe I would never even consider it, much less do it.' He didn't know what had possessed him to do something so heinous. He remembered that one time, long ago, when he had told his brother that if he ever hit him that he would die... Kill himself rather than living with the memory of such a shameful display of anger.
Checking his watch again, he sighed in relief. 'Four o'clock. I need to get this over with... I'm going to miss you, my honey-puppy...'
Seto climbed up onto the concrete railing of the bridge and looked down at the river that would be his grave.
Fate, however, had other ideas.
Jou's iron grip wrapped around his waist from behind, and heaved the CEO to the pavement of the sidewalk.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!?!" Jou shouted, more from fear of what his damned idiotic lover had almost done.
"Jou-" Seto moved to stand but Jou would have none of it.
"SHUT UP!" In a flash, Seto found himself pinned down, with one Jounouchi Katsuya sitting on his hips and his wrists were underneath Jou's feet. "What the hell is wrong with you?! I can't believe you would chose a coward's way out of this fucking problem! What would Mokuba think if he had seen you! How would I have broken it to him if you had actually killed yourself?! How am I supposed to show you how much I fucking love you if you're dead!!?!!"
"Jou, I-"
"I thought I told you to shut up." Jou snapped. He pulled out the pack of cigarettes that Yami gave him and started smoking again. Seto felt awful. How could he explain to Jou why he had to kill himself? Not that he thought for a instant that Jou would actually let him...
"Jou, I-"
"Again, shut up!" By this point, he was already smoking his third cigarette.
Finally finishing his smoke, Jou looked at Seto, pinned beneath him. "Now listen."
"Jou, I-" Seto began fourth time, but again Jou cut him off. His blond puppy could be so subborn sometimes!
"Listining does not mean talking my lovely, stubborn dragon. That is something I will have to teach you. Now I have absolutely no idea why you thought that dying would fix a problem like this one."
"That's what-"
"Listen Seto, not talk. Now I don't know why you thought this, and quite frankly, I don't care. The fact of the matter is that I will not allow you to do this... *ever.* Get used to it. You're stuck with me because I love you. Plain and simple." Jou stopped for a moment, realization overcoming him. That was the first time he'd ever told the blue-eyed dragon that he sat upon. Seto obviously caught it as well, for in the next moment, Jou found himself on the sidewalk.
"Now listen here you hard-headed pup..." Seto sat next to Jou on the pavement, pulling said pup into his lap... And almost cried as he saw the mark he left on his Jou's porcelain flesh. "Oh, Set will eat my soul for sure for what I've done to you! What can I do to repent for this?" Seto tentively touched the bruise.
"Come home with me, and never, *never* think about trying to kill yourself again." Jou stood up and held out his hand in offering. "Come on dragon- love, it's wet and cold out here, even when I'm wearingthis blanket you claim is a coat," He smiled. "It's alright. Yami and Yugi won't beat me for bringing you home with me. Plus it's closer."
Seto took Jou's hand and stood. On impluse, he pulled Jou into a fierce embrace. "I love you so much pup. More then you will ever know."
Pulling away, Jou winked at him. "I know. But we can try to show each other that later. Right now though, lets just get warm!"
Owari.
OMG! I finished it yes!
Disclaimer: I don't own and if you think I do then you're a fucking idiot.
Warnings: Attempted suicide and language... You guys are awesome, you know? Anyhow, last chapter and I think I'm gonna write a sequel... More neat stuff like a little more violence and magic and other strange stuff... Tell me what you think please.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Two Weeks After "Chest Cold" ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Seto waved farewell to the last of his guests, which happened to be Yami and Yugi. The party was in Yugi's honor, Seto and Jou's gift to him on his birthday.
Yugi was twenty-three today.
Sighing, Seto shut the door and headed upstairs, where his Jou was waiting to talk to him.
About halfway through the gala celebration, his lover had found him and asked to speak with him after the party. He seemed depressed, but the brunette couldn't figure out why.
Sighing yet again, Seto opened the door to his bedroom and found the object of his thoughts at his work desk. "Hello lovely. What did you want to talk to me about?"
The answer Jou gave him was clearly too blunt for his liking.
"Why have you been ignoring Mokuba and me lately?" No anger was in his voice, just sadness.
"What?" The blond stood and walked over to Seto, eyes down cast.
"At least tell me if it's someone else. Of course I'd kill myself cuz I wouldn't be able to handle it but-"
He never did finish his sentence because the next instant, his head snapped to the left as Seto slapped him.
Without a second thought Jou ran from the house.
!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!
After the twenty minute sprint through the raining streets of Domino, Jou pulled his keys out and fumbled to open the door. Finally getting it open, he stepped inside.
Once he made sure it was locked, he sank to the floor and let go an anguished sob.
!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!
The slamming of the back door instantly startled the Spirit of the Sennen Puzzle awake.
Grunting at the nuisance, he threw on a robe and went downstairs to investigate. Finding Jou, who was currently crying his eyes out, was definitely not what he expected to find.
Deciding to intervene on his friend's histarics, Yami gathered the young man up and walked into the living room, gentlely placing Jou in his green recliner.
"Jou? Jou what's wrong?" Yami's voice was calm and soothing, but he gasped at the ugly bruise when Jou lifted his face to look at the Pharaoh. Before Jou could answer however, Yami held up his hand.
"Let me get some ice for your cheek first."
As Yami wrapped ice into a dish towel, he woke his violet-eyed lover. //Yugi-love, wake up! Jou's here and he's not looking so good.//
/Alright... Let me get some clothes on.../
//Why? You look better naked!//
/Later love./
When Yugi stumbled downstairs a couple minutes later, the sight of Jou sent Yugi into distress. Yami was kneeling in front of the blond, one hand holding the ice-filled dish towel against Jou's bruised cheek and Yami's other hand was firmly set against the other cheek, to keep Jou from flinching away. All the while, tears were still spilling from chocolate eyes.
"Gods Jou! What happened?" Yugi ran the rest of the way down and sat beside Yami on the floor.
"He... hit m-me..." His voice was hoarce and broken from crying.
"Who did?"
"Seto..." Jou hissed when Yami applied too much pressure to the hideous mark.
"Sorry Jou." Yami pulled away the cloth and Yugi snatched it from him.
"Love, let me do this. You're too heavy-handed for such delicate work. Would you go get more ice though?" Yami nodded and returned to the kitchen as Yugi took his place in front of his heart-broken friend.
On his way back to the living room, crimson eyes caught sight of a pristine white enevlope on the floor. He picked it up and continued on to his destination.
Sitting down, he slipped the letter into Jou's lap. "I think it's for you." Jou tore it open and his breath caught. This is what the letter said:
[ "4 AM" By: Seto Kaiba
I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years,
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it, know that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to god I figure out
What's wrong
I walked around my room
Not thinking
Just sinkning in this box
I blame myself for being too much
like somebody else
I never thought I would just
Bend this way
Then a phone call made me realize
I'm wrong
If I don't make it, know that
I've loved you all along
Just like sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to god I figure out
What's wrong]
Sometime while he was reading, he had started crying again.
"Jou?" He met the worried stares of his two best friends.
"Yami, do you have a smoke handy, cuz I really need one." The Pharaoh nodded and left, going upstairs.
"I didn't know you two smoked."
"I haven't in five years..." Jou grinned slightly at Yugi. "I really need one now though."
Yami came back down, holding two packs of Marlboro's in his hand. Jou took the pack that was proffered to him and proceeded to smoke until he calmed down, which was about half the pack.
"What time is it?" the blond asked suddenly.
"3:30 am... Why?" Yugi responded.
"I've got to find Seto!"
Running up to his room, Jou threw open his closet, looking for the warmest coat he could find.
"Why the rush all of a sudden? It's not like Seto's going to do anything." Yami asked from the door.
"That's where you're wrong buddy. Did you read the letter?" When Yami shook his head, Jou continued. "He's gonna do something stupid. That letter was a song you see. He only writes letters like that when he feels strongly about he wants to say but can't say it to your face. What he wants you to know is right there... The title of the song itself will tell you something. Whatever he's gonna do he's gonna do at four am..."
"Do you even know where he is?"
"I have a good idea. When we get in fights, he always storms out to think. When I go look for him, he would always be sitting on the bridge railing, over looking the creek, close to here..." Finally finding a good enough coat, he pulled it on, noting with irony that it was Seto's favorite trenchcoat.
"You want Yugi and I to go with you? You would get there faster if I drove you..." Jou cut him off.
"No... I've already ruined your evening and I'll be damned if I make myself more trouble by not letting you guys sleep because of me. Besides," Jou looked at the young man. "I know how to take care of myself.
Yami snorted. "Yeah, I'll bet."
"Hey! I resent that! If you didn't have Shadow powers, then I could kick your butt in a street fight anyday!" Jou grinned. "Thanks Yami. You and Yugi are the greatest friends I ever got."
Yugi popped his head into the room. "Then thank us by moving your scrawny ass and getting that stubborn dragon of yours to come to his senses!"
Jou mocked saluted him. "Yes sir, Shorty."
"I'll get you for that!" Yugi shouted as Jou ran by.
"Bye Captain Shorty! Bye Yami!" This time Yugi couldn't get in his retort; Jou was already gone.
!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!
He had been sitting here for damn near three hours.
'Why did I hit him? I swore I would never hit a loved one. I can't believe I would never even consider it, much less do it.' He didn't know what had possessed him to do something so heinous. He remembered that one time, long ago, when he had told his brother that if he ever hit him that he would die... Kill himself rather than living with the memory of such a shameful display of anger.
Checking his watch again, he sighed in relief. 'Four o'clock. I need to get this over with... I'm going to miss you, my honey-puppy...'
Seto climbed up onto the concrete railing of the bridge and looked down at the river that would be his grave.
Fate, however, had other ideas.
Jou's iron grip wrapped around his waist from behind, and heaved the CEO to the pavement of the sidewalk.
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!?!" Jou shouted, more from fear of what his damned idiotic lover had almost done.
"Jou-" Seto moved to stand but Jou would have none of it.
"SHUT UP!" In a flash, Seto found himself pinned down, with one Jounouchi Katsuya sitting on his hips and his wrists were underneath Jou's feet. "What the hell is wrong with you?! I can't believe you would chose a coward's way out of this fucking problem! What would Mokuba think if he had seen you! How would I have broken it to him if you had actually killed yourself?! How am I supposed to show you how much I fucking love you if you're dead!!?!!"
"Jou, I-"
"I thought I told you to shut up." Jou snapped. He pulled out the pack of cigarettes that Yami gave him and started smoking again. Seto felt awful. How could he explain to Jou why he had to kill himself? Not that he thought for a instant that Jou would actually let him...
"Jou, I-"
"Again, shut up!" By this point, he was already smoking his third cigarette.
Finally finishing his smoke, Jou looked at Seto, pinned beneath him. "Now listen."
"Jou, I-" Seto began fourth time, but again Jou cut him off. His blond puppy could be so subborn sometimes!
"Listining does not mean talking my lovely, stubborn dragon. That is something I will have to teach you. Now I have absolutely no idea why you thought that dying would fix a problem like this one."
"That's what-"
"Listen Seto, not talk. Now I don't know why you thought this, and quite frankly, I don't care. The fact of the matter is that I will not allow you to do this... *ever.* Get used to it. You're stuck with me because I love you. Plain and simple." Jou stopped for a moment, realization overcoming him. That was the first time he'd ever told the blue-eyed dragon that he sat upon. Seto obviously caught it as well, for in the next moment, Jou found himself on the sidewalk.
"Now listen here you hard-headed pup..." Seto sat next to Jou on the pavement, pulling said pup into his lap... And almost cried as he saw the mark he left on his Jou's porcelain flesh. "Oh, Set will eat my soul for sure for what I've done to you! What can I do to repent for this?" Seto tentively touched the bruise.
"Come home with me, and never, *never* think about trying to kill yourself again." Jou stood up and held out his hand in offering. "Come on dragon- love, it's wet and cold out here, even when I'm wearingthis blanket you claim is a coat," He smiled. "It's alright. Yami and Yugi won't beat me for bringing you home with me. Plus it's closer."
Seto took Jou's hand and stood. On impluse, he pulled Jou into a fierce embrace. "I love you so much pup. More then you will ever know."
Pulling away, Jou winked at him. "I know. But we can try to show each other that later. Right now though, lets just get warm!"
Owari.
OMG! I finished it yes!