I do not own Gundam Wing or its characters. They belong to their appropriate owners.
It contains yaoi, lemons (rape scenes), blood, violence, strong language
and more, may be a bit AU. Duo's POV (at least most the time).
Mission
by solange channonix
Part XI
Trowa was standing on the corridor, with his back
resting against the wall opposite to the door I had just closed behind
me, leaving drugged Duo alone in there. I looked up and eyed him, scowling.
He was furious, in his own, silent way. He had every law to be, I had raped
his lover. He didn't seem to know much more, details of the event had to
be his imagination and according to its image of me he was probably wondering
if I hadn't tried anything with Duo right now. My eyes moved down his bdoy,
searching for weapons. Two guns without holsters, just put in the pockets
of his pants and a knife, it seemed. I wondered if his little friend from
the circus had taught him throwing knifes and if he really planned on making
it sink into my throat. He knew well enough that neither I was an easy
prey, nor the Preventers were going to leave him in peace if he would have
killed me. If he was going to try to get me despite that I really shouldn't
have been coming here. Duo already, or rather finally, had someone to love
him and protect him. Not that I had come hoping I could have been that
person for him... I just... When we had first gotten to know that Wufei
had raped Duo and suicided on ex - Gundam pilots reunion, someone else
had been chosen to investigate in the matter, but I had ignored the orders,
something I was doing only when it came to Duo, it seemed, and had broken
into Wufei's office and then his appartement, both secured to preserve
everything for the sake of the investigation. I had found there what I
had been excepting and at the same time fearing to find. Countless photos
of Duo, from the war or their reunions at Quatre's, strands of his hair,
and a lot of drawings, all presenting him either crying or dying bloody
death. And I hadn't noticed that at all... After my mentors had gotten
to know I had been so interested in the whole matter of Wufei's death they
had ordered me to continue with the investigation, so I had, getting a
deposition from Quatre and then coming for Trowa and Duo, finally finding
them here, after we had gotten an information about Duo's attempt on suicide.
The problem with finding them at all had been that I couldn't have been
sure they had been together at all and the circus itself had been constantly
moving in unpredictable directions.
Duo had tried to suicide... Why ? This was a question I had wanted
to ask him having him on truth's serum but I had understood I couldn't.
I couldn't let him know at all I had been here, alive.
Absently, I reached to the holster to check if the gun was there, all
ready to use, just in case, then headed into my temporary office when I
had all my things, took them from there, all put nicely in a bag and came
back out few minutes later only to find Trowa standing in front of the
door again. My heart began beating faster, but I didn't let it to be obvious,
keeping my breathing from becoming frantic. We eyed each other like hunting
wild beasts before I went out of the building and headed to my car. I left
my belongings inside, by the time Trowa had come and approached, stopping
about hundred steps from me. Perfect distance to shoot at... I took my
Preventer's badge off and left it on the passanger's seat. This wasn't
a matter of duty... Then I slammed the car's door shut and stood straight
opposite Trowa. I shouldn't have come here in the first place, but now,
when I was already here, I had no other choice but to face him and trust
my reflexes... In such circumstances, I shouldn't have gotten shut by any
ordinary man, a Gundam pilot had to have inhuman reflexes. The point was,
we were both Gundam pilots. I could still count on my luck. I smirked.
For a long time, I hadn't faced that kind of advantage... and someone who
has gotten used to be pushed to his limits and to pass them every day,
craves for advantage ever after.
He was faster...
The thought came with the agonizing pain radiating from my left shoulder. I looked down my arm, only then registering the sound from a second earlier - click of the safety, shot, my own hiss and sound of the shattering glass. The gun had been pointed straight in my heart, but I had moved off the way, so that the bullet had come through my left shoulder and into the car's door's window, shattering the glass, stained in my blood. I had tried to get him in the head, but I had missed, too, the bullet not even brushing him.
He took the gun up for another shot, but before firing threw it out
of his hand, or rather, it was thrown out. We both turned to see Quatre,
his fair hair glowing in the sunlight, his blue eyes hollow and wearing
a pained expression which made something in my heart sting. He shouted
something I didn't register through the sound of blood pumping in my veins
filling my ears, and rushed to my side, his eyes widening in horror as
he looked at my arm, ready to wrap his arms around me. I shoved him away,
got into the car and started the engine, blocking the door before he began
to try to open them, screaming that I couldn't drive in my conditions.
I didn't pay attention to him, driving away before Trowa got to shot the
car's tyres through. I had to come away from there, back to my new life
I had started after the war, life that was way easier just because Duo
wasn't part of it anymore...
Trowa's POV:
After Heero's car disappeared in the distance, followed by Quatre's compassionate eyes, he rushed to my side instead, looking me over for injuries and taking the gun away from me. His eyes were sparkling, he was angry at us for fighting with each other. What could he know about it to judge me ?
" Tell me, Trowa, what's going on here ?! Why are you all hurting each other so much ? Something is so much not right here..."
" How can you know that ?" I growled at him, before I managed to restrain myself. Like if I didn't know that being dry for him was killing him inside.
" I don't know, I feel." He whispered, staring up at me with half-saddened, half-frightened expression.
What was he doing here anyway ? If not him, I would have had my revenge on Heero already...
" We need to talk, Trowa." He said, grabbing my hand in his, smaller and way more delicate. " All of us, since Heero left, at least the two of us and Duo."
" He's on truth serum. We can't talk with him now." I opposed, at the same time letting him drag me back into the builiding.
" He may not be himself, but he won't lie, that's for sure. And that's what we need, sincerity." He said softly, stopping in the hallway since he didn't know where Duo's room was.
I wasn't all that sure if I really should let him see Duo right now, lying there, weak and miserable, tied down to the bed. Quatre was most likely going to break down into tears and I hated nothing more than looking into his deep blue eyes, clear and innocent, filled with tears. I would have given life for saving him one minute of suffering he was surely put under feeling our emotions. We were all messed up and we were experiencing things that shouldn't be felt by someone so sensitive as him.
He let me go and followed me upstairs to Duo's room and inside it, his eyes widening indeed when he noticed Duo was tied down to the bed and pale as white sheets surrounding him. His violet eyes shot open when he heard us coming in, angelic smile lightening his face up but fading immediately.
" Heero ?" He whispered.
" He left." I said cooly.
Quatre casted a glance up at me hearing the coldness in my voice. I should have told him first what that bastard had done to Duo, then he wouldn't have been trying to defend him.
" Left ? Why ? I saw him in my dream, you know, Tro... But he didn't even kiss me..." Duo whined sadly.
" He won't ever again."
Violet eyes blinked.
" I want my Heero back."
Quatre rushed to Duo's side and began to work on untieing him from the bed, looking at him at the same time.
" You were together with Heero ?"
For the first time ever I felt ready to smack Quatre up his blonde head for being so stupid. He knew nothing about what Duo was talking about, what had he meant under the term `kissing`.
" No..." Duo litterally wailed.
By the time Quatre had freed both his arms and Duo sat up unsteadily and threw his arms around him.
" It's so good you're here, Q-man..." He mumbled in his shoulder, Quatre returning the hug.
" Heero won't hurt you ever again." I said softly.
" I know that." Said Duo with complete sureness sounding in his voice and reflecting in his immense eyes, looking up at me over Quatre's shoulder.
" They told him to... He wouldn't have done it from his own will... like Wufei... It wasn't their fault... and I love him... he wouldn't have done it again to someone who loves him so much, would he ? I told him I loved him today, when he was in my dream..." He blabbered.
Quatre rubbed his head to soothe him a bit. I could not understand him.
" Heero was your boyfriend before ?" Asked Quatre again.
" No. They've destroyed everything. But I want him to be. Quatre, does he love me back ?"
" Did he tell you so ?"
" No... Not really..."
" You aren't unimportant for him."
" Quatre, we need to talk." I snapped him.
" Of course. Later."
" Not later. Now." I said grabbing his arm and pulling him away from Duo, whimpering at the loss of contact, and out of the room.
There was hurt in his eyes when he looked up at me.
" Why ?" He asked softly.
" You don't know what he's talking about."
" I know. He loves him. He tried to suicide because he got to know Heero was dead."
" No." I shook my head. " Heero raped him during the war, maybe more than once."
Quatre's eyes widened, but after a while he shook his head.
" That doesn't change anything. He loves him."
" You know nothing about it, how can you know what he feels ? You were never through this yourself, so you can't know, but I can tell that no one, no one is capable of loving his rapist." I told, before setting off down the corridor.
It seemed no one beside me was really understanding Duo...
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