Author's notes: This is the a suicide note that Mimi, writes shortly before committing suicide. This is not meant to be a one chapter fic, but I won't put up anymore if I don't get reviews. I have another chapter written already and I would hate to see it get dumped. So, please read and review. Obviously feedback is wanted.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters in this story, but I would love to borrow Brady for a little while. ;)
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I had thought that I could handle the depression on my own. I handled everything else by myself, so this wasn't going to be any different, or so I had thought. The years of being a loser had taken there toll. I was the laughing stock of the group, of the entire town.
The depression was subtle at first. I felt a little down, but I figured that I would be back to myself in a few days. Then it got worse and I started to have problems just getting up in the morning. Everyone was too busy to notice and I was glad for it; I didn't need to give anyone anything else to make fun of me for.
Then I started cutting. It started with a few little nicks just to test how much it would hurt; the depression had left me feeling kind of numb so I welcomed the change. I started to cover up more to hide the marks. Thankfully, it was getting colder so nobody thought that this was suspicious.
I know that I won't be missed so I've decided to end it. I've waited till I was alone, and I'm about to take the final step. There is no coming back from this and I'm glad that it's finally over. I decided that I should write a goodbye to all of the people closest to me.
Chloe: I just wanted to say I'm sorry one last time. I know that you've said that what I did was in the past and all was forgiven, but I still think that it was incredibly wrong. You had come to town and it felt like you had taken my friends from me. I know now that it was my fault; I shouldn't have blamed you because it wasn't your fault that I was so stupid. Instead of fighting with you, I should have tried getting to know you. If everyone thought you were so great, it would have made sense to find out why. All in all, you were a great friend, and I appreciate the second chance that you gave me. Again, I'm sorry for all of the grief that I caused you. Bye.
Brady: Hey there cutie. I'm going to miss you. You were like the big brother that I never had. I always felt loved when you were around. I guess it's safe to tell you now that I always had a huge crush on you. Well I guess it's too late for that. I'll see ya in hell. ;)
Phillip: Hey Phil. Just know that you were always a great friend, and I love you. It means a lot to me that you were my friend. P.S. I'm rooting for you and Chloe; you are soul mates and will be happy someday. Together.
Shawn: It was great knowing you. I cherished all of the time that we spent together. I always knew that you would be there for me, and you were. I'm always going to remember you and everything that you did for me.
Bo and Hope: Hey guys. It's safe to say that you were some of the most important people in my life. You were like a second set of parents; although having two sets of parents might have bothered most teens, not me. I'm glad that I had so many people to look out for me. You two are amazing, and I can't wait until I see you two, just don't make it too soon.
John and Marlena: You were more than my best friend's parents, you treated me like your daughter, and I need you to know that it didn't go unappreciated. I couldn't have asked for two greater people than you to have been in my life and I'll value the love that you showed me forever. I really love you guys.
Belle: I'm sorry to put you last, but I thought that your note should be more special than any of the others. You were my best friend for as long as I can remember. I know that I wasn't quite as good of a friend to you though. This might sound self-pitying, but I never felt that I was good enough to be your friend. Everyone adored you and with good reason. You've always been perfect and I guess I've always felt a little intimidated. I didn't say this to make you feel guilty, though I know you will anyway, I just wanted to tell you how I felt. Despite my insecurities, you have been the best friend that anyone could wish for. It meant so much to me that you could be friends with someone like me. Out of everyone, you are the one who I'm going to miss the most. I'm glad that I had the chance to be friends with you and I love you. I'm just sorry that I never got the opportunity to tell you how much you meant to me. Bye.
To all of you: This is just one final goodbye. One last bow to the crowd. I'm going to miss every one of you. I love you and none of you know how important you were to me. Goodbye…
With all of this written Mimi let the many pills slip down her throat one by one. As the last disappeared, she fell. It was almost over, and when it was, she would be glad; she would finally be at peace.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters in this story, but I would love to borrow Brady for a little while. ;)
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I had thought that I could handle the depression on my own. I handled everything else by myself, so this wasn't going to be any different, or so I had thought. The years of being a loser had taken there toll. I was the laughing stock of the group, of the entire town.
The depression was subtle at first. I felt a little down, but I figured that I would be back to myself in a few days. Then it got worse and I started to have problems just getting up in the morning. Everyone was too busy to notice and I was glad for it; I didn't need to give anyone anything else to make fun of me for.
Then I started cutting. It started with a few little nicks just to test how much it would hurt; the depression had left me feeling kind of numb so I welcomed the change. I started to cover up more to hide the marks. Thankfully, it was getting colder so nobody thought that this was suspicious.
I know that I won't be missed so I've decided to end it. I've waited till I was alone, and I'm about to take the final step. There is no coming back from this and I'm glad that it's finally over. I decided that I should write a goodbye to all of the people closest to me.
Chloe: I just wanted to say I'm sorry one last time. I know that you've said that what I did was in the past and all was forgiven, but I still think that it was incredibly wrong. You had come to town and it felt like you had taken my friends from me. I know now that it was my fault; I shouldn't have blamed you because it wasn't your fault that I was so stupid. Instead of fighting with you, I should have tried getting to know you. If everyone thought you were so great, it would have made sense to find out why. All in all, you were a great friend, and I appreciate the second chance that you gave me. Again, I'm sorry for all of the grief that I caused you. Bye.
Brady: Hey there cutie. I'm going to miss you. You were like the big brother that I never had. I always felt loved when you were around. I guess it's safe to tell you now that I always had a huge crush on you. Well I guess it's too late for that. I'll see ya in hell. ;)
Phillip: Hey Phil. Just know that you were always a great friend, and I love you. It means a lot to me that you were my friend. P.S. I'm rooting for you and Chloe; you are soul mates and will be happy someday. Together.
Shawn: It was great knowing you. I cherished all of the time that we spent together. I always knew that you would be there for me, and you were. I'm always going to remember you and everything that you did for me.
Bo and Hope: Hey guys. It's safe to say that you were some of the most important people in my life. You were like a second set of parents; although having two sets of parents might have bothered most teens, not me. I'm glad that I had so many people to look out for me. You two are amazing, and I can't wait until I see you two, just don't make it too soon.
John and Marlena: You were more than my best friend's parents, you treated me like your daughter, and I need you to know that it didn't go unappreciated. I couldn't have asked for two greater people than you to have been in my life and I'll value the love that you showed me forever. I really love you guys.
Belle: I'm sorry to put you last, but I thought that your note should be more special than any of the others. You were my best friend for as long as I can remember. I know that I wasn't quite as good of a friend to you though. This might sound self-pitying, but I never felt that I was good enough to be your friend. Everyone adored you and with good reason. You've always been perfect and I guess I've always felt a little intimidated. I didn't say this to make you feel guilty, though I know you will anyway, I just wanted to tell you how I felt. Despite my insecurities, you have been the best friend that anyone could wish for. It meant so much to me that you could be friends with someone like me. Out of everyone, you are the one who I'm going to miss the most. I'm glad that I had the chance to be friends with you and I love you. I'm just sorry that I never got the opportunity to tell you how much you meant to me. Bye.
To all of you: This is just one final goodbye. One last bow to the crowd. I'm going to miss every one of you. I love you and none of you know how important you were to me. Goodbye…
With all of this written Mimi let the many pills slip down her throat one by one. As the last disappeared, she fell. It was almost over, and when it was, she would be glad; she would finally be at peace.