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Avrie: you're definitely on a caffeine high! Lol I think so too. I've changed my mind, so I don't need it now..
Jujubee: frustrating story?( **sniff* no soup for you.lol jk
Martini addict: its coming!
Catamonga Pidgeons: Thank you so much!!! I'm starting Lily's Diary now! Its really good! I'll review when I finish!
Hayley Mills: Yeah, a lot of ppl have an owl coming that informs the student about their parents death, but to me that seems a little harsh. Oh well.
Beauty Full: I'm trying! There are a few things I have to do first. I think it will be 2 more sad chapters, alright. I'll make it one long one. Her parents just died, she can't be happy yet. And I have my ending planned, so it may take a little while. But I'll hurry it up.
Briar Rose: Isn't it totally Sirius? I love Sirius! He is so funny. They'll never get back together. I'm planning to have an angsty story that has 25 chapters. KIDDING!
Ruby: I'm working on it. I'm the author, and I want them to meet a certain way at a certain time. Certain things have to happen. Satisfied? I was tempted to give you a sign..
Anyway, like I was saying. I think this story is going to have 14-15 chapters total. I might to a sequel or a prequel, I don't know. But so here is the promised last sad chapter.
Innocent Deceptions Chapter 11
The motions of life aren't that hard to go through. Just walking around in a daze, writing a few words on a test, and sleeping. Food wasn't that important. Neither was talking. Gradually, friends lose interest and decide you have changed. Eventually, you're alone.
In the past two months, Lily had been home and had returned within two weeks. Her house was for sale and her sister was living with her boyfriend. Petunia had almost attacked her at the funeral. She had ranted about this all being her fault and if she hadn't been a freak it never would have happened. Lily sank into the deepest depression she had ever known. When Petty had raved and screamed, her aunt had stood by her side and murmured encouragement. But Lily knew better. She knew it was her fault. She was one of the only muggle-blooded students in Hogwart's. Voldemorte hated muggles. It was her fault. She deserved to be alone.
Lily was waiting for that. She wanted to be alone. All alone, where she couldn't get hurt and no one could hurt her. But Bella and Fletcher, as well as Apple Bones and Mary Stall, wouldn't let her be. Bella and Apple got her ready in the morning and made her eat meals. Fletcher took her to her classes and bugged her about her notes. Mary made her smile, when the last thing she wanted was to be sad. So with her friends keeping her alive and her parents death keeping her lost in despair, she was more alive than she wanted to be.
Mary sat her down in a chair in front of the fireplace and Bella, Fletcher, and Apple filed in. They circled around her and finally all sat down. Fletcher elbowed Bella and she began to speak.
"Lily, I don't know what you've been through. It has never happened to me before. Watching you go through it was one of the most horrible things I have ever witnessed. But this isn't how it is supposed to be. It has been almost two months, Lily. You've been to the funeral, but your goodbye was left behind."
Apple was crying now and she looked up at Lily and took off where Bella had stopped. "Lily, I know this is hard to accept. I know. My parents were killed in an attack in fourth year. They had done nothing wrong, Lily. Nothing. They had quiet jobs with the ministry. Then one day, boom. They were gone. I know how it is, Lily. And I know you can survive this. Yes, it will change you. Things will seem more important. You will tell people that you love them more often."
"There are people that love you, Lily. Four of us are here, but you know that there are countless others." Fletcher started now. "Lily, I knew your parents. They were unbeleiveable. Do you remember when my parents couldn't buy me a broom for the quidditch team? Your parents bought me a broom. They were so generous, a lot like you. They appreciated their friends and their family. I can't remember you leaving the house a single time without them telling you they loved you."
Mary sniffed and took her own turn. "I didn't know your parents, Lily. But to me they seemed like the kind of people who enjoyed life, who loved life, and who appreciated love. Love surrounds you, sweetie."
Tears fell down Lily's face. Her parents were everything her friends had said and more. Finally, she choked out through her sobs, "But its my fault they're dead! I killed them!"
Bella shook her head. "NO, Lily. You didn't kill them. If you did anything for them, you made their life better. You were a light for them."
Apple was crying now too. "Voldemorte killed them, Lily. Not you."
Lily cried now, but for once, since their death, she understood. She knew that she couldn't waste her life. It would be another victory for Voldemorte. He didn't deserve that victory. She would fight. "Thank you." She said softly. "I love you all." She reached down and gave them each a hug. "You've given me my life back." ~*~
The next day, Lily sat on her bed, her hands shaking as she pulled out a letter. A letter she had received from James, soon after the ball. She opened it and reread it once more.
-Lily, I heard about your parents and I wanted you to know that I am so sorry. If they were anything like you, then they had to be incredible people. I want to tell you so much, but I'm afraid the time isn't right. If you need someone, know that I'm always here. Despite everything, Lily, I still love you. I'd really like to see you. You could owl me, if you want to talk more. If you don't want to see me ever again, I understand. Good luck with everything, even if it is marriage. Love, James
Lily folded it carefully back up. What had James thought when she didn't owl him back? Back then, she hadn't considered herself worthy to be loved and thought that she would be insulting her parents memory by loving again. Her friends had proved those thoughts to be wrong. Now she had to decide how to approach James.
Apple, Bella, Fletcher, and Mary were the truest friends she had known. Smiling, she went down into the common room, where they all sat, throwing food at each other. Seeing her they stopped, but Lily picked up a handful of popcorn and hurled it at them. She grinned at them and they all grinned back. "So," She said, "What have I missed?"
Fletcher threw a cracker at Bella. "Bella is in love!"
She caught the cracker and threw it back. "Shut up! So are you!" Mary blushed at this and looked down, before shyly meeting Fletcher's eyes.
Lily gasped. "Fletcher? You and Mary? That is so sweet!" She leapt up to give them both hugs.
Then she looked suspiciously at Bella. "What's this about you?" She raised an eyebrow, a habit she had picked up from James.
Bella blushed. "Well, I.I am uh, kinda seeing Remus."
Lily's jaw dropped. "Remus? James' Remus?"
Bella nodded. "Yeah."
"OH MY GOD!" Lily smothered her friend in a hug. "That's incredible!"
Bella shoved her off, grinning. "Shut up. He and James are playing quidditch together now."
Lily looked at her in surprise. "James is playing quidditch? Are you serious?"
Apple laughed. "Yes, she's serious! He's only been the star chaser in almost every game since he joined the team."
Mary laughed. "Have you heard about Amos?"
Lily's smile fell, and she said, somewhat anxiously, "No. What about him?"
Fletcher snorted. "He's dating Kirsten again."
Lily laughed aloud. "They're perfect! She'll listen to him and he'll worship her every step! They'll love each other!"
"How about Apple?" She said finally as her laughs subsided.
Apple shrugged. "I'm just looking." She winked. "Window shopping, you know?"
"SO!" Bella stood up and dragged Lily out of her chair. "I think it's time to go celebration shopping!"
"Shopping?" Lily frowned. "Where? How? It isn't a Hogsmeade weekend."
Apple shook her head and sighed. "Ah. An innocent."
Bella grinned and pulled Lily out into the hall, the rest of their friends following.
~*~
They emerged from the tunnel in the basement of Zonko's. "Where," Lily gasped breathlessly, "Did you find that?"
Bella smiled impishly. "Remus told me about it."
As they snuck upstairs, Lily's mind was whirring. "Bella?" She asked cautiously. "When is Remus and James' next game?"
Bella laughed. "They play in Paris next Saturday." She shared a look with Lily and laughed. "Maybe we should go."
Fletcher smiled. "Of course we should." Bella smacked him lightly. "Oh hush."
Mary cleared her throat. "Anyway! Tonight isn't about James or Remus or quidditch. It's about Lily." She smiled at her friend. "So, Lily. Where do you want to go?"
Lily looked thoughtfully around the street. A smile lit her face. "I believe Friday is Kareoke night at the Three Broomsticks, right?"
Apple shuddered. "NO! Of course it isn't. That's a tool of the devil, Lily. THE DEVIL!"
Bella laughed. "Yes, actually."
~*~
"OH come on, Fletcher! I want to see you and Mary perform!" She turned to Mary. "Mary, you said this night was about me and what I want. I want to see you sing."
Mary groaned. "You're right, I suppose. So Fletcher," She asked looking down at the list of songs. "What shall it be?" Fletcher pointed and she rolled her eyes.
On stage, they each picked up a mike.
"War!" Fletcher bellowed with feeling.
"Huh." Mary said flatly.
"What is it good for?"
"Absolutely nothing." Mary yawned.
Lily laughed and applauded them after they were done. "Great job, Fletcher! I didn't know you could perform! Very enthusiastic, Mary."
After a late night and all of them performing at least once, they all snuck back into the school. The girls made their way to the dorm and Fletcher mumbled about everyone abandoning him. As they got ready for bed, Lily whispered to Bella about James. She handed her the letter and Bella grinned ecstatically. "It is all going to work out!" She whispered fiercely.
"I think I want to surprise him." Lily said, her eyes shining. "We should go to the game, and when you go to find Remus after it, I'll talk to James."
I'll talk to James..she thought, smiling unstoppably. I'm in love..She laughed.
Boy, I think I am in love with you, I been doing silly things when it comes to you
A few lines of the song she had performed caught in her mind. She looked down at the ring that was still on her finger. James, she thought as though trying to send it to him. I love you.
~*~
((Alright, not as long as I had planned! I guess I'm in a hurry to get to the happy part too. ;) Well, the only problem is-There might only be one more chapter! NOOOO! Lol I think I will have to start planning after that. I don't want to end this story! *Sniff* So is it getting happier??? Well, I'll update soon. I think I'll have the next chapter up by Monday atleast. I might have it up today! We'll see..
Avrie: you're definitely on a caffeine high! Lol I think so too. I've changed my mind, so I don't need it now..
Jujubee: frustrating story?( **sniff* no soup for you.lol jk
Martini addict: its coming!
Catamonga Pidgeons: Thank you so much!!! I'm starting Lily's Diary now! Its really good! I'll review when I finish!
Hayley Mills: Yeah, a lot of ppl have an owl coming that informs the student about their parents death, but to me that seems a little harsh. Oh well.
Beauty Full: I'm trying! There are a few things I have to do first. I think it will be 2 more sad chapters, alright. I'll make it one long one. Her parents just died, she can't be happy yet. And I have my ending planned, so it may take a little while. But I'll hurry it up.
Briar Rose: Isn't it totally Sirius? I love Sirius! He is so funny. They'll never get back together. I'm planning to have an angsty story that has 25 chapters. KIDDING!
Ruby: I'm working on it. I'm the author, and I want them to meet a certain way at a certain time. Certain things have to happen. Satisfied? I was tempted to give you a sign..
Anyway, like I was saying. I think this story is going to have 14-15 chapters total. I might to a sequel or a prequel, I don't know. But so here is the promised last sad chapter.
Innocent Deceptions Chapter 11
The motions of life aren't that hard to go through. Just walking around in a daze, writing a few words on a test, and sleeping. Food wasn't that important. Neither was talking. Gradually, friends lose interest and decide you have changed. Eventually, you're alone.
In the past two months, Lily had been home and had returned within two weeks. Her house was for sale and her sister was living with her boyfriend. Petunia had almost attacked her at the funeral. She had ranted about this all being her fault and if she hadn't been a freak it never would have happened. Lily sank into the deepest depression she had ever known. When Petty had raved and screamed, her aunt had stood by her side and murmured encouragement. But Lily knew better. She knew it was her fault. She was one of the only muggle-blooded students in Hogwart's. Voldemorte hated muggles. It was her fault. She deserved to be alone.
Lily was waiting for that. She wanted to be alone. All alone, where she couldn't get hurt and no one could hurt her. But Bella and Fletcher, as well as Apple Bones and Mary Stall, wouldn't let her be. Bella and Apple got her ready in the morning and made her eat meals. Fletcher took her to her classes and bugged her about her notes. Mary made her smile, when the last thing she wanted was to be sad. So with her friends keeping her alive and her parents death keeping her lost in despair, she was more alive than she wanted to be.
Mary sat her down in a chair in front of the fireplace and Bella, Fletcher, and Apple filed in. They circled around her and finally all sat down. Fletcher elbowed Bella and she began to speak.
"Lily, I don't know what you've been through. It has never happened to me before. Watching you go through it was one of the most horrible things I have ever witnessed. But this isn't how it is supposed to be. It has been almost two months, Lily. You've been to the funeral, but your goodbye was left behind."
Apple was crying now and she looked up at Lily and took off where Bella had stopped. "Lily, I know this is hard to accept. I know. My parents were killed in an attack in fourth year. They had done nothing wrong, Lily. Nothing. They had quiet jobs with the ministry. Then one day, boom. They were gone. I know how it is, Lily. And I know you can survive this. Yes, it will change you. Things will seem more important. You will tell people that you love them more often."
"There are people that love you, Lily. Four of us are here, but you know that there are countless others." Fletcher started now. "Lily, I knew your parents. They were unbeleiveable. Do you remember when my parents couldn't buy me a broom for the quidditch team? Your parents bought me a broom. They were so generous, a lot like you. They appreciated their friends and their family. I can't remember you leaving the house a single time without them telling you they loved you."
Mary sniffed and took her own turn. "I didn't know your parents, Lily. But to me they seemed like the kind of people who enjoyed life, who loved life, and who appreciated love. Love surrounds you, sweetie."
Tears fell down Lily's face. Her parents were everything her friends had said and more. Finally, she choked out through her sobs, "But its my fault they're dead! I killed them!"
Bella shook her head. "NO, Lily. You didn't kill them. If you did anything for them, you made their life better. You were a light for them."
Apple was crying now too. "Voldemorte killed them, Lily. Not you."
Lily cried now, but for once, since their death, she understood. She knew that she couldn't waste her life. It would be another victory for Voldemorte. He didn't deserve that victory. She would fight. "Thank you." She said softly. "I love you all." She reached down and gave them each a hug. "You've given me my life back." ~*~
The next day, Lily sat on her bed, her hands shaking as she pulled out a letter. A letter she had received from James, soon after the ball. She opened it and reread it once more.
-Lily, I heard about your parents and I wanted you to know that I am so sorry. If they were anything like you, then they had to be incredible people. I want to tell you so much, but I'm afraid the time isn't right. If you need someone, know that I'm always here. Despite everything, Lily, I still love you. I'd really like to see you. You could owl me, if you want to talk more. If you don't want to see me ever again, I understand. Good luck with everything, even if it is marriage. Love, James
Lily folded it carefully back up. What had James thought when she didn't owl him back? Back then, she hadn't considered herself worthy to be loved and thought that she would be insulting her parents memory by loving again. Her friends had proved those thoughts to be wrong. Now she had to decide how to approach James.
Apple, Bella, Fletcher, and Mary were the truest friends she had known. Smiling, she went down into the common room, where they all sat, throwing food at each other. Seeing her they stopped, but Lily picked up a handful of popcorn and hurled it at them. She grinned at them and they all grinned back. "So," She said, "What have I missed?"
Fletcher threw a cracker at Bella. "Bella is in love!"
She caught the cracker and threw it back. "Shut up! So are you!" Mary blushed at this and looked down, before shyly meeting Fletcher's eyes.
Lily gasped. "Fletcher? You and Mary? That is so sweet!" She leapt up to give them both hugs.
Then she looked suspiciously at Bella. "What's this about you?" She raised an eyebrow, a habit she had picked up from James.
Bella blushed. "Well, I.I am uh, kinda seeing Remus."
Lily's jaw dropped. "Remus? James' Remus?"
Bella nodded. "Yeah."
"OH MY GOD!" Lily smothered her friend in a hug. "That's incredible!"
Bella shoved her off, grinning. "Shut up. He and James are playing quidditch together now."
Lily looked at her in surprise. "James is playing quidditch? Are you serious?"
Apple laughed. "Yes, she's serious! He's only been the star chaser in almost every game since he joined the team."
Mary laughed. "Have you heard about Amos?"
Lily's smile fell, and she said, somewhat anxiously, "No. What about him?"
Fletcher snorted. "He's dating Kirsten again."
Lily laughed aloud. "They're perfect! She'll listen to him and he'll worship her every step! They'll love each other!"
"How about Apple?" She said finally as her laughs subsided.
Apple shrugged. "I'm just looking." She winked. "Window shopping, you know?"
"SO!" Bella stood up and dragged Lily out of her chair. "I think it's time to go celebration shopping!"
"Shopping?" Lily frowned. "Where? How? It isn't a Hogsmeade weekend."
Apple shook her head and sighed. "Ah. An innocent."
Bella grinned and pulled Lily out into the hall, the rest of their friends following.
~*~
They emerged from the tunnel in the basement of Zonko's. "Where," Lily gasped breathlessly, "Did you find that?"
Bella smiled impishly. "Remus told me about it."
As they snuck upstairs, Lily's mind was whirring. "Bella?" She asked cautiously. "When is Remus and James' next game?"
Bella laughed. "They play in Paris next Saturday." She shared a look with Lily and laughed. "Maybe we should go."
Fletcher smiled. "Of course we should." Bella smacked him lightly. "Oh hush."
Mary cleared her throat. "Anyway! Tonight isn't about James or Remus or quidditch. It's about Lily." She smiled at her friend. "So, Lily. Where do you want to go?"
Lily looked thoughtfully around the street. A smile lit her face. "I believe Friday is Kareoke night at the Three Broomsticks, right?"
Apple shuddered. "NO! Of course it isn't. That's a tool of the devil, Lily. THE DEVIL!"
Bella laughed. "Yes, actually."
~*~
"OH come on, Fletcher! I want to see you and Mary perform!" She turned to Mary. "Mary, you said this night was about me and what I want. I want to see you sing."
Mary groaned. "You're right, I suppose. So Fletcher," She asked looking down at the list of songs. "What shall it be?" Fletcher pointed and she rolled her eyes.
On stage, they each picked up a mike.
"War!" Fletcher bellowed with feeling.
"Huh." Mary said flatly.
"What is it good for?"
"Absolutely nothing." Mary yawned.
Lily laughed and applauded them after they were done. "Great job, Fletcher! I didn't know you could perform! Very enthusiastic, Mary."
After a late night and all of them performing at least once, they all snuck back into the school. The girls made their way to the dorm and Fletcher mumbled about everyone abandoning him. As they got ready for bed, Lily whispered to Bella about James. She handed her the letter and Bella grinned ecstatically. "It is all going to work out!" She whispered fiercely.
"I think I want to surprise him." Lily said, her eyes shining. "We should go to the game, and when you go to find Remus after it, I'll talk to James."
I'll talk to James..she thought, smiling unstoppably. I'm in love..She laughed.
Boy, I think I am in love with you, I been doing silly things when it comes to you
A few lines of the song she had performed caught in her mind. She looked down at the ring that was still on her finger. James, she thought as though trying to send it to him. I love you.
~*~
((Alright, not as long as I had planned! I guess I'm in a hurry to get to the happy part too. ;) Well, the only problem is-There might only be one more chapter! NOOOO! Lol I think I will have to start planning after that. I don't want to end this story! *Sniff* So is it getting happier??? Well, I'll update soon. I think I'll have the next chapter up by Monday atleast. I might have it up today! We'll see..