Title: Bent
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em. Never will.
Summary: Abby makes a life-changing decision for all the wrong reasons.
A/N: Sorry to leave ya hangin' there at the end of chapter one, but cliffhangers are kind of my thing. Anywho.I hope you enjoy this chapter. Please read and review.
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"Connie, is Abby here yet?" Kerry asked, storming out of the lounge. "She's seven minutes late for her shift and we're out three nurses today."
"She came is about a half-hour ago, but she said she was going up to OB." Connie told her.
"Why'd she go up to OB?" Susan asked as she was looking through a patient's chart.
"Don't know. She didn't say. Just said that she'd be back before her shift started."
"Well somebody go up there and find her, and tell her that if she doesn't get her butt down here right now that she's fired!"
The two of them watched Kerry hobble away. Connie turned to Susan and grinned, "Can you say Menopause?"
Susan laughed and put her chart down. "I'll go up to OB and find Abby. Maybe she's checking up on a patient."
As she headed toward the elevator she tried to remember if they had had any OB cases in the ER lately. She couldn't remember. Suddenly a thought entered Susan's head. Oh my God. She thought. Nah.couldn't be. Could it? Could Abby be pregnant?
When she reached OB Susan went over to the admit desk and said that she was looking for Abby Lockhart.
The receptionist typed something into the computer and then turned back to Susan. "I'm afraid I can't help you."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, Ms. Lockhart had an appointment for this afternoon, but once she got here she told us that she was going to have to cancel."
"Oh.well, thanks anyway."
Susan waited for the woman to turn away before she took a glance at the computer. Abortion? Oh my God. Susan headed for the elevator. She knew that she had to find Abby.
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I chickened out. Abby thought to herself as she laid on her couch. She had gotten all the way to the exam room before freaking out. All of the memories just came flooding back. Memories of the last time. Memories of the pain, the guilt, the disgust, that she had felt. No, she had told herself, this is too big to decide on my own. I'll wait until John gets home. Than we'll go from there.
Abby placed a hand on her stomach. Part of her wanted this so bad. Part of her couldn't wait to tell John. In her mind she imagined telling him and then smiling at the look of pleasant surprise on his face. Then he would wrap her in his arms, kiss her, and tell her how much he love her. That's how it was supposed to happen. That's how she wanted it to happen.
But the 'glass is half empty' part of Abby kept playing out a different scenario in her head. One where she was left alone and scared. Where he whole world came crashing down around her.
Her thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door. Abby opened it and was surprised to see Susan standing there with a look of shock and disappointment on her face. And Abby knew that she knew. She invited her in and the two of them sat at the kitchen table in silence. It seemed like an eternity before somebody finally said something.
"Why?" Susan asked her. Not able to make eye-contact.
Why? It was just one word. Just one simple question. So why didn't Abby have a good answer for it? She thought for a minute before answering.
"I don't know." She replied, looking down at the table. They sat in silence for a few more minutes before Abby finally looked up at Susan. "I don't deserve him."
At this, Susan looked up to meet Abby's gaze.
"I don't. And he doesn't deserve all of this. He doesn't deserve to be with someone who is miserable all the time. He doesn't deserve my dysfunctional family. He doesn't deserve any of it."
Susan just starred at her silently.
"I still can't understand why in the hell he's with me in the first place. Why would he want to put up with all of this? Why?"
Susan paused before answering. "Because he loves you."
Abby looked away, trying not to cry. She wanted to ask how a guy like Carter could fall in love with someone like her, but Susan kept talking.
"He's always loved you. I could see it when I first came back from Chicago. Abby, the guy's crazy about you. And you want to know why he sticks by you when you're going through a hard time. Honey, it's called love. Love isn't just about being with each other for all of the good times. It's also about sticking by each other for all of the bad. He's not standing by you out of pity or sympathy. He's standing by you because he loves you. And I don't think you have to worry about him going anywhere. Ever."
Abby wiped the tears away from her eyes and looked over at Susan. She was right. She knew she was right. John loved her. Not just during the good times, but in the bad as well. She smiled at Susan.
"Abby you have nothing to worry about. And nothing to be sad about. I mean, sure, everybody has things in their lives that make them miserable. But you have so much in your life now that's going right. They found your brother's plane, you said that you and your mother got along fine when she came, you have a job, and apartment, food, and to top it all off, an amazing guy who loves you and who is going to be thrilled to find out that you're pregnant."
Abby's smile grew wider. "Thanks Susan. I needed somebody to knock some sense into me."
"All I did was tell you what you already knew."
The two of them sat there for a couple more hours talking about the baby, whether Abby wanted a boy or a girl, baby names. Susan asked when the baby was due.
"I don't know. I haven't had a sonogram yet."
"Well why don't go to the hospital right now and I can do one."
Abby thought for a second. She knew that she should wait for John to be home when they did the first sonogram, but she didn't think she could wait.
"Let's go."
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Carter collapsed onto one of the empty beds at the hospital. What a day it had been. He was sure that he had treated at least a hundred patients that day. They had to clear out all of the building earlier that day because of a bomb scare, which turned out to be nothing. Then, some guy came in wielding a gun and threatening to kill everyone, but he was immediately taken down. Carter laid down and sighed heavily. It's like I never left County.
Just then a man who worked at the hospital came running in yelling for everyone to get out of the building.
Before Carter could even comprehend what was happening, he heard a loud whistling sound that was getting louder and louder, followed by a deafening sound, blinding light, and then.silence.
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"Okay.you are about 5 weeks along." Susan said.
Abby say smiling on the gurney starring at the sonogram. Everything was perfect.
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A/N: evil laugh Don't you just hate it when that happens? Anyway.please review. And, uh.don't hate me.
Disclaimer: Don't own 'em. Never will.
Summary: Abby makes a life-changing decision for all the wrong reasons.
A/N: Sorry to leave ya hangin' there at the end of chapter one, but cliffhangers are kind of my thing. Anywho.I hope you enjoy this chapter. Please read and review.
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"Connie, is Abby here yet?" Kerry asked, storming out of the lounge. "She's seven minutes late for her shift and we're out three nurses today."
"She came is about a half-hour ago, but she said she was going up to OB." Connie told her.
"Why'd she go up to OB?" Susan asked as she was looking through a patient's chart.
"Don't know. She didn't say. Just said that she'd be back before her shift started."
"Well somebody go up there and find her, and tell her that if she doesn't get her butt down here right now that she's fired!"
The two of them watched Kerry hobble away. Connie turned to Susan and grinned, "Can you say Menopause?"
Susan laughed and put her chart down. "I'll go up to OB and find Abby. Maybe she's checking up on a patient."
As she headed toward the elevator she tried to remember if they had had any OB cases in the ER lately. She couldn't remember. Suddenly a thought entered Susan's head. Oh my God. She thought. Nah.couldn't be. Could it? Could Abby be pregnant?
When she reached OB Susan went over to the admit desk and said that she was looking for Abby Lockhart.
The receptionist typed something into the computer and then turned back to Susan. "I'm afraid I can't help you."
"What do you mean?"
"Well, Ms. Lockhart had an appointment for this afternoon, but once she got here she told us that she was going to have to cancel."
"Oh.well, thanks anyway."
Susan waited for the woman to turn away before she took a glance at the computer. Abortion? Oh my God. Susan headed for the elevator. She knew that she had to find Abby.
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I chickened out. Abby thought to herself as she laid on her couch. She had gotten all the way to the exam room before freaking out. All of the memories just came flooding back. Memories of the last time. Memories of the pain, the guilt, the disgust, that she had felt. No, she had told herself, this is too big to decide on my own. I'll wait until John gets home. Than we'll go from there.
Abby placed a hand on her stomach. Part of her wanted this so bad. Part of her couldn't wait to tell John. In her mind she imagined telling him and then smiling at the look of pleasant surprise on his face. Then he would wrap her in his arms, kiss her, and tell her how much he love her. That's how it was supposed to happen. That's how she wanted it to happen.
But the 'glass is half empty' part of Abby kept playing out a different scenario in her head. One where she was left alone and scared. Where he whole world came crashing down around her.
Her thoughts were interrupted by a knock at the door. Abby opened it and was surprised to see Susan standing there with a look of shock and disappointment on her face. And Abby knew that she knew. She invited her in and the two of them sat at the kitchen table in silence. It seemed like an eternity before somebody finally said something.
"Why?" Susan asked her. Not able to make eye-contact.
Why? It was just one word. Just one simple question. So why didn't Abby have a good answer for it? She thought for a minute before answering.
"I don't know." She replied, looking down at the table. They sat in silence for a few more minutes before Abby finally looked up at Susan. "I don't deserve him."
At this, Susan looked up to meet Abby's gaze.
"I don't. And he doesn't deserve all of this. He doesn't deserve to be with someone who is miserable all the time. He doesn't deserve my dysfunctional family. He doesn't deserve any of it."
Susan just starred at her silently.
"I still can't understand why in the hell he's with me in the first place. Why would he want to put up with all of this? Why?"
Susan paused before answering. "Because he loves you."
Abby looked away, trying not to cry. She wanted to ask how a guy like Carter could fall in love with someone like her, but Susan kept talking.
"He's always loved you. I could see it when I first came back from Chicago. Abby, the guy's crazy about you. And you want to know why he sticks by you when you're going through a hard time. Honey, it's called love. Love isn't just about being with each other for all of the good times. It's also about sticking by each other for all of the bad. He's not standing by you out of pity or sympathy. He's standing by you because he loves you. And I don't think you have to worry about him going anywhere. Ever."
Abby wiped the tears away from her eyes and looked over at Susan. She was right. She knew she was right. John loved her. Not just during the good times, but in the bad as well. She smiled at Susan.
"Abby you have nothing to worry about. And nothing to be sad about. I mean, sure, everybody has things in their lives that make them miserable. But you have so much in your life now that's going right. They found your brother's plane, you said that you and your mother got along fine when she came, you have a job, and apartment, food, and to top it all off, an amazing guy who loves you and who is going to be thrilled to find out that you're pregnant."
Abby's smile grew wider. "Thanks Susan. I needed somebody to knock some sense into me."
"All I did was tell you what you already knew."
The two of them sat there for a couple more hours talking about the baby, whether Abby wanted a boy or a girl, baby names. Susan asked when the baby was due.
"I don't know. I haven't had a sonogram yet."
"Well why don't go to the hospital right now and I can do one."
Abby thought for a second. She knew that she should wait for John to be home when they did the first sonogram, but she didn't think she could wait.
"Let's go."
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Carter collapsed onto one of the empty beds at the hospital. What a day it had been. He was sure that he had treated at least a hundred patients that day. They had to clear out all of the building earlier that day because of a bomb scare, which turned out to be nothing. Then, some guy came in wielding a gun and threatening to kill everyone, but he was immediately taken down. Carter laid down and sighed heavily. It's like I never left County.
Just then a man who worked at the hospital came running in yelling for everyone to get out of the building.
Before Carter could even comprehend what was happening, he heard a loud whistling sound that was getting louder and louder, followed by a deafening sound, blinding light, and then.silence.
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"Okay.you are about 5 weeks along." Susan said.
Abby say smiling on the gurney starring at the sonogram. Everything was perfect.
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A/N: evil laugh Don't you just hate it when that happens? Anyway.please review. And, uh.don't hate me.