Title: Devastating Past

Author: Valerie

E-mail: funbreath@msn.com

Disclaimer: they don't belong to me

Summary: AU Angel is new at Sunnydale High. He meets Buffy and the gang. They think he's just a regular kid. Not likely.

Timeline: during season 2 of BTVS...sorta. Let's just say that Buffy and the gang are in their Junior year in Sunnydale High.

Spoilers: as far as alternate universe goes...almost nothing. References on demons from BTVS and Angel from time to time, but that's about it

Rating: R

Distribution: You can take it but ask me first please.

Feedback: That's a big big big yes!!!!! It's my first fic, so please?

********* 5.

Late on Sunday, or rather very early on Monday, Angel made his way home after a few hours of hunting. After leaving Buffy on her front porch, where he had done as Kristin advised and kept his mouth to himself, he couldn't get her out of his system the whole week-end. After he had accepted the offer from the Powers That Be to become a warrior for their cause, Angel had learnt that he could escape for a moment his problems by kicking some serious demon ass. It all started a year after his parents' death, when he started hanging in the streets. He discovered then that vampires and demons existed, and decided to fight them after a vampire killed his girlfriend. It was this day, when he found his first serious girlfriend covered in her blood laying dead in an alley, that he found his only purpose in life. After a few months, he met a demon called Whistler who told him the Powers That Be offered him to join their side, and gave him his new powers. Ever since, it never mattered to him that he was not exactly a normal human being, the only important thing was that he was finally able to make a difference. The Powers That Be made him part vampire, part human, so that he would have the capacity to fight the forces of darkness with ease. He can't stand to touch crosses and holy water, he gets this weird tingly feeling when he's under a bright sun, and he can morph into a demon face...so what?

Tonight though, as every minute since Friday night, he wouldn't think of anything else than Buffy Summers. No matter how hard he kicked, how many demons he found (and he was amazed by the number of demons he could find in such a little town), she wouldn't leave his thoughts. Not that he wanted her to, really. After a few hours of hunting, he had given up trying to change ideas and came back home. If he could call this home. He lived at the Evans, who reminded him of the Adams family. Bob and Joann were a couple in their forties, like the Parkers. However, it was simply impossible to even imagine referring of them as Angel's parents. Bob was a lawyer and Joann worked as a nurse at the Sunnydale general hospital. From Angel's point of view, they were two alcoholics who kept fucking all around the house. They had two devilish 8 and 10 year old boys, Mike and Carl, who took so much pleasure annoying Angel, kicking him and screaming all over the house, especially in his bedroom. Then there was Joey, short for Josephine, a 17 year old blond girl who went to some catholic private girl. The girl kept hitting shamelessly on Angel, who was not at all interested. He was however quite annoyed to find her on regular basis in his room, checking out his underwear.

The Parkers hadn't given him a key to the house, so he climbed up to his bedroom window, which he always left open. He entered his room, and his body tensed as soon as he looked at his bed. "You've gotta be fucking kidding me!" He exclaimed, not loud enough to awake the entire house, but close.

"What's wrong baby?" Joey asked seductively. Angel raised an eyebrow, not willing to state the obvious. He finds the daughter of his guardians in his bed having sex with some random guy, and she dares ask him what's wrong.

"Why can't you do that in YOUR bed?" he asked, sighing. He had no power in his house, no matter what was the problem it was always his fault, even if he wasn't even involved.

"Well, let's be serious for a second. My room is right next to mom and dad's. I wouldn't want to wake them up with the noise." She explained innocently.

"yeah right. You've done it before." He replied coolly. After all, it was not that much of a surprise to find her doing something like that. She had once entered his room while he was reading and started undressing right under Angel's nose, pretending she liked the mirror in his room better than hers and that she needed him to tell her if she had a bite mark on her butt from her last lover, alarmed that her date this night might notice it.

"I know, but...oh sorry, Angel, this is Paul. Paul this is Angel. Angel lives here, but he's not my brother." she shows with her hand the guy who was laying under her.

"H-H-Hi..." He stuttered, extremely ashamed.

"Hey, so nice to meet you." Angel replied, rolling his eyes.

"Anyway, as I was saying, Paul here is a very nice lover, and I was afraid I would scream a little louder than usual. So as you were not here, I figured I would borrow your room, which is far away from my parent's room."

"And right next to your brothers' bedroom." Angel reminded her.

"Yeah, well you can't please everyone." She sighed, but then a smile spread on her lips. "You wanna join us? There's room for one more, and I'm sure I could find a way to excuse myself. And Paul could help, too." She turned to her lover, who was confused, and smiled sweetly at him. Then she turned back to Angel, who stared at her, not showing any special interest. "He'll give you a nice blow job, his mouth is like a hoover. Oh! I'll give one to you, too, if you want." She licked her lips slowly. Angel sighed, and took off his t-shirt, then threw it carelessly on the floor. He noticed Paul was starting to freak from the fear, and turned red from embarrassment. He sighed, rolling his eyes again.

"Jeez! Relax man! I'm only changing clothes. I'm out of here!" He took off his pants, wearing only his boxers. Joey had seen him a lot of times with his boxers. She had even seen his bare ass, so he had no reason to feel underdressed, even as she stared hungrily at his butt, his tattoo and his naked chest. Angel quickly put on his leather pants and a burgundy shirt, shoved a stake in a bag, grabbed his leather jacket. "Try to have fun without me, and...please change the sheets!" he told them before climbing out of his bedroom.

Joey broke the silence a minute later. "All right, where were we?"

*****

The next Monday, Buffy, Xander, Cordelia, Oz and Willow entered the library to find two very grown-up persons making out.

"Ugh! Gross!" Xander exclaimed, as everyone else made a face.

"Please don't do that in front of our virgin eyes!" Buffy pleaded, covering her eyes quickly and trying to forget she ever saw that.

"Hum...yes...er...sorry about that." Giles mumbled, turning into a bright red. Jenny, on the contrary, seemed totally cool.

"So Buffy, how was patrol this week-end?" the teacher quickly changed the subject.

"If you meant: 'did you kill the demon we spent hours researching this week', then, it wasn't fructuous." The slayer answered, as she plopped down on a chair, along with the rest of the Scoobies.

"You didn't find him? I thought we had figured where he lived." Her watcher was clearly surprised...and kinda annoyed. They had spent the whole week working on that demon.

"Oh, I found him alright." She replied, shrugging.

"Buff, we're waiting for the rest of the story here!" Xander informed her.

"Well...there's something you forgot to tell me about that demon, guys. He's NOT the patient type."

"What do you mean?" Willow asked.

"He didn't wait for me to kill him. He was already dead when I came."

"Oh." Was all Giles could find to say.

"The big bad monster had his head about 5 meters away from his body." The slayer clarified.

"Suicide?" Suggested Willow. She was still dumb-founded and didn't really think of what she was saying.

"Somehow, I doubt it." Oz replied, placing a light kiss on her head.

"Well...maybe he had a bad day and was feeling very desperate." Cordelia continued while checking her nails.

"Oh yeah, good point Cordy!" Xander exclaimed sarcastically. "The big bad evil killing demon was in a bad mood, so he took a sword, cut off his head and threw it away."

"Definitely not suicide, guys! The demon didn't lose its head because of a sword, it was more like a pipe. I saw it covered with demon blood next to the body. He lived in a cave that has access to the sewers, so he probably had it from there." Buffy added.

"But...how can you decapitate a demon with...a pipe?" Jenny asked incredulously.

"Well...I could do it." The slayer told them. "But...I'm the slayer. I doubt a human being could be strong enough to do more than kick him in the neck."

"Maybe it was an other demon." Willow said.

"Why would a demon attack one of its own? No, I don't think so. I think however...that we have a new demon hunter in Sunnydale." Giles replied seriously.

"Ok...that's nice, right? One more good guy on our side. Couldn't hurt." Cordelia pointed out.

"Yes, but I'd like to know more about that person. Buffy, I want you to be careful when you patrol. Be sure it is an evil vampire or demon before you kill it. That person should be hanging at night in cemeteries, and we don't want him dead."

"Got it Giles. We're done?"

"We're done. You can go to class."

*****

After lunch, Buffy, Willow and Cordy were sitting on the grass next to a tree in front of the school and talking, when a dark haired girl came over.

"Hey Buffy!" Kristin greeted her friend.

"Hi Kristin, how are you?" Buffy replied, a big smile on her face.

"I'm good, you?"

"Enjoying the sun on a break from school, so I'm great!" She noticed then the looks her friends sent her, asking her to introduce them the new girl. "Guys, this is Kristin. Kristin, this is Willow and Cordelia, my best friends."

"I've heard about you two. It's nice to meet you." Kristin told them.

"You remember that dinner with her friends that mom made me go to? Well I met Kristin there...and it turned out to be a very fun evening. No art geek to bore Buffy to death!" she joked, exchanging a knowing smile with Kristin.

The three girls talked for a few minutes, and Kristin spotted her brother, leaning against the only wall of the school that was in the shadows. She understood his dislike of the sun, but it saddened her that he didn't come out more often during a sunny day. It's not like it would kill him. Just a little tingle of discomfort can't hurt! "Hey guys, I'll be back in a minute." She told her new friends before walking over her brooding brother.

"Hello!" she greeted him with a bright smile.

"Hi." He replied simply, not looking at her. She followed his gaze. Oh surprise, it led to Buffy, who was laughing with her friends.

"Why don't you go say hi?" she suggested after a moment.

"I can't." He shook his head slowly.

"Yeah you can. It won't kill you, it's just sun!" She disagreed.

"It won't kill me, but I'll be very uncomfortable and I'll act weirdly. I don't wanna make a fool out of myself in front of her and her friends."

"Come on, you'll sit under the shadow of the tree, it's fine! She likes sun, she won't be getting up before classes start again. Do you really want to stay here brooding until then?"

*****

"Buffy, your new friend has the hots for your honey. She's all over him." Cordelia informed the slayer. She turned around, to see Kristin arguing with Angel and trying to make him move from his position by taking his hand.

"You think there's something going on between them?" she asked her friends, hiding a grin.

"Well, they seem awfully close. We could have guessed a hottie like that would have a girlfriend already." Willow answered.

"You think they're dating? Oh my god, Willow, it's gross! Do you have a problem?" she asked her, making a face as she saw Kristin and Angel making their way to them.

"What? What did I..."

"Don't say anything. It's disturbing enough to imagine Kristin and Angel together, thank you very much!" Buffy smiled brightly as Angel and Kristin were approaching. Angel seemed bothered about something around him, but it stopped as soon as he stepped into the shadows. His disturbed features were replaced by a sexy half smile that was only for her.

"Willow, this is Angel. Angel, Willow. Cordelia, you already know him, right?" Kristin introduced them before sitting down next to Cordelia, careful to leave space between Buffy and her so that Angel could sit here. Which is what he did instantly. *Man, he really got it bad for her! I'm sure he doesn't even realize his feelings.*

"Yeah, he's a damn bad lab partner but it's nice to finally have someone as uninterested in chemistry as me to talk to." Cordelia told them, making Angel nod in agreement.

"Nice to meet you Angel." Willow told him nicely.

"Same here." He replied, smiling slightly.

"Are you okay? No offense, but you seem really tired." Cordelia asked him, noticing how beat he looked.

"I'm fine." He stated simply, not really wanting to explain that he stayed up all night yesterday, fighting demons and walking around the town with coffee to keep him awake because the daughter of his guardians was having sex in his bed.

"Angel?" Buffy murmured. He turned his head to him, and she gently stroked his right temple. "What's with the black eye?"

He shivered under her touch, drowning into her hazel eyes. "I had a rough night." He shrugged. He briefly wondered how she could have seen it, when Kristin and the other two had stayed oblivious. Somewhere in the middle of the night, he was sitting in a park and had dozed off a few minutes, only to be fully awakened by a powerful punch in his face by a vampire. His vampire healing powers had already softened the color of the blow, so it was just slightly gray now. It merely looked as if he was really tired, but not like the reminders of a black eye.

The arrival of Willow and Cordy's boyfriends made them change the subject, something Angel was grateful for. He didn't like the fact that their arrival had made Buffy stop touching him, though.

"Hello ladies. And the other one." Xander greeted them, sitting down next to Cordy with a welcome kiss.

"That's a nice way to welcome someone man." Oz commented after his kiss with Willow.

"yeah. So...new people?" Xander exclaimed with a goofy grin. He had only seen the guy one minute and Angel already disliked him. It looked like the feeling was mutual.

"Angel, Kristin, this is Xander and Oz. Guys, this is Kristin and Angel. We met last Friday night." Buffy explained quickly. "Kristin's a sophomore here, and we have classes with her brother."

"Brother? Oh! Oh ok." Willow suddenly understood what her best friend meant earlier. She smiled at her, silently asking for more details later.

"All right, you're the new boy every one keeps talking about, huh? How do you like all the attention?" Xander continued.

Angel stared at him coldly. "Makes me wanna shoot myself."

"Angel stop it!" Kristin hit him on the chest. She hated it when he talked like that, because she never knew if he was truthful or not after the three times he had tried to kill himself in the past.

There was a moment of silence, before Angel broke it with a groan. "Oh fuck no." he mumbled when he noticed the blond guy that was walking towards him.

"Hi Angel. Do you remember me? Paul." The guy announced himself, embarrassed under all of the curious looks he received from the other students. Angel glared at him for a moment, then sank on his back on the grass, putting his hands on his head.

"Why the fuck are YOU talking to ME?" he asked, his voice low.

"Hum...I saw you sitting here...and I wanted to apologize for last night. I am really sorry." He murmured, turning slowly red. Angel sat back again and stared at the guy in disbelief, ignoring everyone around him.

"Duh! Go away!" He snapped at him.

"No, you see, I really didn't mean to do that. She didn't tell me it was YOUR bed, and I didn't realize until when you showed up. What she said about us, I didn't really understand it, but I've thought about it now and I'm really embarrassed." He continued.

Angel laughed in annoyance. "Look boy, I'm over it, ok? If you hadn't showed up right now, I would already have forgotten the whole thing!"

"Angel, about this threesome thing, I hope you didn't think I would have done it. Not that I think you are not attractive, cause you are, but it's just that I was nervous." He started babbling all over again and didn't seem to be stopping.

"Shut the fuck up!" Angel yelled at him, trying to stop himself from slipping into his demon face from the anger.

"Do you think she was kidding about asking me to do a blow job to you? I mean I know she would have done it, but I didn't really realized what she asked." By now, Kristin had understood it was yet again something that happened with Joey and was laughing so hard she thought she would never be able to stop. Angel was controlling his annoyance, his whole body was tense from the self control he did to stop himself from ripping the guy's head off. The Scoobies were shocked at the scene.

"Where in hell did she find a moron like you?" Angel asked, shaking his head incredulously.

"Oh. Hum...we met at the supermarket. I was working there and she asked me if I wanted to see her again." He answered nervously.

"God, what a whore." He muttered to himself. Then he got up and stood right in front of Paul, glaring at him. "Look kiddo. You're gonna forget about what happened, ok? I'm used to it. The girl's a nympho, AND she'd do anything to get into my pants. Not that it's any of your business, but I am not gay. And I wouldn't have slept with the two of you for the world. She was fucking kidding, got it?"

Paul looked at him, scared like hell. "G-G-Got it." He stuttered.

"Good. Now get the fuck out of my sight." He ordered, a dangerous look in his eyes.

"I'm really sorry...I didn't know that" As he was about to keep going on, Angel grabbed him roughly by the t-shirt and pushed him away. He fell on his butt about 10 meters away from them and slowly got up and turned away. Angel glared at his laughing sister and sighed heavily.

"Can I crash at your place tonight?" He asked her while sitting back down. Kristin had tears rolling down her cheeks as she nodded, trying to control herself.

"This is just so great!" she murmured, sighing happily.

"Could my life get anymore screwed?" Angel asked no one in particular, burying his head in his hands.

"That was nice. I've learnt a lot today. So, you don't expect any blow job from us, right?" Xander asked Angel, willing to tease him to death. Buffy shot him a nasty look, clearly disapproving that he could joke about that. Angel didn't even bother responding, he got up and started walking away. Buffy stood up but didn't walk toward him.

"Angel wait, don't pay attention to Xander, he's always like that but he's not serious." She told him, making him turn around to face her.

"Don't bother being nice to me, I'm not worth it." He said coldly, shielding his emotions from her.

"Where are you going?" Kristin asked her brother.

"I gotta kill something." He grumbled as he walked away, his hands in his pockets. Buffy stared at him, feeling like crying.

"What just happened?" Willow asked Kristin.

"He's going through a hard time and he wants to be left alone. I can understand but I don't like it." She answered sighing.

"But...what was that all about? With this guy?" Cordy demanded.

"I don't know, he didn't tell me, but I'm pretty sure it's about Joey. She's a girl who lives at his place. She a real nymphomaniac and she's been looking to bed him ever since she saw him. She keeps looking through his underwear, trying to join him while he's in bed, taking pictures of him in boxers, walking on him in the shower...that kind of stuff." Kristin explained.

"She's not in Sunnydale high, is she?" Oz asked her.

"Nah, she goes to some catholic private girl school."

"But he never slept with her?" Buffy asked, feeling jealous of this Joey girl. She was close to him even if he didn't want her to. Kristin smiled at her, raising an eyebrow.

*Those two are so right for each other!* she told herself. "Nope. She's too crazy for his likings. I'll bet all you want that Angel caught her having sex in his bed last night with this guy."

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