Title: Devastating Past
Author: Valerie
E-mail: funbreath@msn.com
Disclaimer: they don't belong to me
Summary: AU Angel is new at Sunnydale High. He meets Buffy and the gang. They think he's just a regular kid. Not likely.
Timeline: during season 2 of BTVS...sorta. Let's just say that Buffy and the gang are in their Junior year in Sunnydale High.
Spoilers: as far as alternate universe goes...almost nothing. References on demons from BTVS and Angel from time to time, but that's about it
Rating: R
Distribution: You can take it but ask me first please.
Feedback: That's a big big big yes!!!!! It's my first fic, so please?
AN: the song is "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls
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7.
"Busted." Kristin whispered in Buffy's ear as the gang was walking to the movie theater.
"What?" the slayer asked, confused.
"Enjoying playing footsie with my brother, aren't ya?" she clarified, smirking. Buffy looked quickly around, and when she saw that her friends and Angel were far enough not to hear them, she turned towards the brunette.
"You saw us?" Buffy was embarrassed, mostly because she didn't know what Kristin thought about what was going on between Angel and her.
"You guys were very discreet, I gotta give you points for that one. But I know my brother, and that look he had when we left the table? Way too innocent to fool me. And I kinda saw you fixing your pants." She explained, grinning from ear to ear.
"Okay..." Buffy murmured, unsure of what to say.
"Aaww come on, tell me how you feel about him, I'm dying to know here."
Buffy smiled, realizing that Kristin was her ally, not her enemy. "He's so sweet. I like him a lot." She admitted.
"Well, you would make a sweet couple. I'm with you if you ever need help." Kristin told her when they arrived at the theater. They paid for the tickets and bought popcorn, then they went to their seats. Kristin made sure that Cordelia and Xander were together, then she sat on a seat two rows behind them, next to Willow and Oz, leaving Buffy and Angel next to each other behind Cordelia and Xander.
Ten minutes after the movie started, Cordelia and Xander were engaged in a heated make-out session. Oz was watching the movie, not really interested but having nothing better to do anyway. Kristin and Willow were half watching the movie, half spying on Buffy and Angel. The two girls had shared a look and understood that they had the same intentions, which were to get Buffy and Angel together. Willow knew all about Buffy's feelings for the older dark-haired boy, while Kristin was the only person Angel shared those types of feelings with. They would succeed, they had no doubt about it.
Buffy found herself not really interested in the movie, but she watched it anyway, to get her mind as far as possible from Angel. She had the urge to kiss him madly right now, but she knew it wouldn't be a good idea. It was hard to concentrate on the movie though, because Angel's hand was now resting on her right knee. He stayed still there a long time, a very long time, then he started making feather-like movements on her knee with his thumb. Buffy breathed deeply to keep her emotions under control. She never would have thought that an act so simple could seem so erotic. After a moment, Buffy reached out and rested her hand on his. He turned his hand so that their palms were facing and intertwined their fingers. He kept his gaze on the movie, aware that Buffy was looking at him, he didn't want to see any kind of rejection in her beautiful eyes. Angel was seriously lacking self-confidence when Buffy was the matter. Then, she squeezed his hand softly, and he felt his lips curving into a small smile. Their legs brushed, and Buffy tangled her foot around his.
"Aaaww, they're so cute!" Willow whispered to Kristin, so softly that only she could hear it. Kristin smiled, seeing her brother and new friend's hands firmly clasped together.
They both stopped moving for a while, enjoying the feel of the other's skin against their own. Buffy tried to concentrate on the movie again, but she had trouble focusing with Angel so close to her. Then, he pulled his hand away slowly.
*Hey! Don't!!!* Her mind was screaming at the loss. However, she did nothing to show it, which troubled a little Angel.
*Man, she doesn't seem too upset that I let her hand go. Damn! Oh well, let's see how she reacts now...* He brushed his hand against her arm, and put his arm around her shoulders, in a possessive but gentle grip.
*OH MY!!* For all she cared, she could have screamed her surprise out loud. *He's got his arm around my shoulders...oh boy that's even better. Or is it? My hand suddenly feels so empty...* she pouted inwardly. *ooh, THAT's better.* She couldn't hold the smile when he took her hand in his other free hand, stroking lightly her skin there. She leaned on his shoulder, sighing happily when he tightened his embrace.
*She smells so good. God I wanna kiss her so badly* He thought, watching absently the screen.
*Mmm. That feels the best. I could stay forever in his arms, just like this. Well, maybe it would add a little something if he was shirtless. I guess it'd be nice...to touch his skin...kiss his chest...*
*Yeah, kisses would be great, but it'd be even better if she didn't have that shirt on. And those pants! Why can't she wear a skirt? It's easier to touch with a skirt...well ok, I wouldn't be able to see her cute ass if she wasn't wearing those tight pants...* Angel rationalized.
*Are leather pants harder to take off than regular pants?* Buffy wondered, frowning slightly. *Cause boy does his butt look good with those leather pants, but I guess it's a tricky business to get them out of the way.* Suddenly, Buffy realized what she was thinking about and blushed furiously. *Oh god, I've known the guy for a week and I'm already thinking about taking off his pants!*
Angel however, was still deeply thinking about what Buffy wears that makes her look this hot and sexy, without blushing at all. Well, he was indeed a man, and one with a pretty big and long sexual experience with that. Anyway, he was still engrossed in his dreams when he felt someone shaking him from behind.
"Angel! Movie's over!" Kristin told him, smiling and raising an eyebrow at his brother, who was still holding Buffy against him.
"Right. Let's go." He murmured, disappointed. With a sigh, Buffy pulled away. They both stood up and got out of the theater with their friends.
*****
They arrived at the Bronze not long after they left the movies.
"My ladies, would you care for a dance?" Xander asked the girls, bowing in mock politeness.
"Why surely kind sir!" Cordelia replied taking his arm.
"Buff? Will? Kristin?" Xander insisted.
"Comin'!" Buffy exclaimed, always ready to dance with her friends.
"Er...we're gonna go over there." Willow informed them, meaning her and Kristin. They took off giggling, excited about their new friendship through matchmaking. Angel eyed them suspiciously, as they made their way to the other side of the club. He didn't like when Kristin got that excited. Not a good sign, it was always because she was planning something he wouldn't appreciate.
"Angel?" He looked at Buffy from where he was sitting on the couch. She looked at him with a shy smile. "Do you wanna dance?"
"Oh. Er...no, thanks. I-I don't dance." He replied, sighing.
"You okay?" She worried.
"Yeah, I'm good. Go ahead, I'll stay here." He told her, smiling half- heartedly. He didn't mind dancing usually, but he swore a few weeks ago that he would only do it if he couldn't help it, only slow dances, and only if it was the only way he could get the girl. Right now, it was not really a slow dance, and he didn't need that to kiss Buffy. He just needed courage and the good moment...and THAT he can't have with a dance.
"Well, your loss is my incredible gain!" Xander exclaimed happily. "Come on ladies." He took each girl by the arm and led them to the dance floor.
"Should we worry?" Oz asked to make conversation, referring to his girlfriend and Angel's sister who were talking seriously.
Angel glanced at the two girls. "Yep."
"Oh."
"You don't dance?" Angel replied.
"Only with Willow." Oz answered, shrugging.
"Ok."
"You?"
"Nope."
"k." Soon they were both silent, looking around. It was not an awkward moment, they just didn't have anything to tell each other, and mono- syllabic guy number one doesn't usually start a big conversation with mono- syllabic guy number two.
Angel was watching Buffy dancing, but the fact that three guys were around her didn't help making him focus on her. He let himself think, which he knew wasn't a good idea. He thought about a few years ago, when he was still in New York. He used to go clubbing almost every night, with Spike and his girlfriend Faith, and Steven. While Spike and Faith were busy dancing (well mating would be a more appropriate term), Angel would look around for a girl, find one for Steven too, as his best friend was too much of a good boy to do it himself and also, Steven was still a virgin, making Angel try even harder to find him a girl with whom he would finally do it. After a few hours Spike, Faith, Steven and Angel...and most of the time Angel's new conquest, too, would go home or walk around for a moment.
Then when Angel and Kristin were sent to Los Angeles, Steven decided to live with his big sister who had just transferred to UCLA a month before. Angel and Steven started to go out again, even more now that Steven wasn't a virgin any more. Now it was Angel's turn to be teased because he was going from one-night stands to one-night stands, whereas Steven never slept with a girl he hadn't dated for a few weeks and when he finally found one, they would do it all the time.
Angel looked around the Bronze, sighing. He used to do everything with Steven. He hadn't been clubbing again after what happened, and it was starting to get depressing tonight. If he had stayed in LA, he would have gone out again a long time ago, because Gunn and the others, who were very often with the two of them, would have dragged him, threatened him to have fun like old times. He chuckled bitterly. *Oh yeah, I can see Xander and Oz threatening me to kick my butt if I didn't join them. God it's boring!*
"Angel, Oz, sorry to interrupt your highly interesting conversation." Cordelia smiled, as she, Buffy and Xander came back. Willow and Kristin followed quickly.
"Silence saves oxygen." Oz stated, welcoming his girlfriend on his lap.
"Yeah, you're the best!" the red-head murmured before leaning for a kiss.
"So, we're hanging out tomorrow? I'm sure we can do something interesting." Xander suggested.
"Yeah." "Sure." Some of them replied, the others nodded.
"Angel, you'll be there?" Willow asked the older boy.
"Actually I gotta do something. Kris, do you think Frank would mind if I borrow some of his tools?" Angel asked his sister.
"Ugh." Kristin groaned, rolling her eyes. "You're not gonna try to fix that stupid motorbike again, aren't ya?"
"I am. And it's not stupid." He replied.
"Sure. But I don't see why you don't get rid of it, there's always something in need to be fixed in that thing!" She complained.
"Well, that THING is pretty damn expensive, and I hate walking."
"I don't like it, it's impossible to ride."
"Then, let me remind you that YOU're the one who asked me to buy it. Also, you don't KNOW how to ride it." He told her with a mock smile.
"Whatever" She muttered under her breath, crossing her arms against her chest in defeat.
//And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest thing to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now\\
Hearing the beginning of that song, Angel cast his eyes on the floor, trying not to think about what he had been thinking ever since he entered the club. Buffy and Kristin looked at each other then at Angel.
"Oh! I love that song! Come on guys!" Cordelia exclaimed, dragging Xander back to the dance floor and wrapping her arms around his neck while he put he hands on her waist and they started dancing and kissing for times to times. Willow and Oz followed soon after.
//And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight\\
"Angel? You're okay?" Buffy asked softly.
"I'm fine." He replied absently, staring nowhere in particular, deep in thoughts.
//And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am\\
"Angel please say something." Kristin demanded as she sat next to him and took his hand into her own.
"I'm fine Kristie don't worry. I can't help thinking about...it, that's all." He told her quietly.
"Do you wanna go home with me?" His sister suggested.
//And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am//
"Nah, stay here, you're having fun. I'll hit the cem..." He stopped when he remembered Buffy was there too. "Streets. Go back t-to the house." He couldn't call it home. "I'll see you tomorrow."
Angel stood up and turned towards Buffy. "It was great seeing you today."
"Yeah, it was." She agreed with a smile. "See you on Monday."
"I can't wait." He replied, his voice deep and sexy, which made her knees weak.
"Night Sis." He said, turning back towards his sister. He reached in the back pocket of his pants and threw something on the lap of his sister. "Try not to need it. It's just in case." He added with a smirk as he was leaving.
"funny." Kristin rolled her eyes at the condom her brother had just given her. "Oh well, we never know." She put it in the pocket of her jacket and stood up, looking at Buffy, who was giving her weird looks. "I'm gonna dance. Feel free to join." She smiled and walked towards a crowded area of the club, leaving Buffy behind.
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Author: Valerie
E-mail: funbreath@msn.com
Disclaimer: they don't belong to me
Summary: AU Angel is new at Sunnydale High. He meets Buffy and the gang. They think he's just a regular kid. Not likely.
Timeline: during season 2 of BTVS...sorta. Let's just say that Buffy and the gang are in their Junior year in Sunnydale High.
Spoilers: as far as alternate universe goes...almost nothing. References on demons from BTVS and Angel from time to time, but that's about it
Rating: R
Distribution: You can take it but ask me first please.
Feedback: That's a big big big yes!!!!! It's my first fic, so please?
AN: the song is "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls
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7.
"Busted." Kristin whispered in Buffy's ear as the gang was walking to the movie theater.
"What?" the slayer asked, confused.
"Enjoying playing footsie with my brother, aren't ya?" she clarified, smirking. Buffy looked quickly around, and when she saw that her friends and Angel were far enough not to hear them, she turned towards the brunette.
"You saw us?" Buffy was embarrassed, mostly because she didn't know what Kristin thought about what was going on between Angel and her.
"You guys were very discreet, I gotta give you points for that one. But I know my brother, and that look he had when we left the table? Way too innocent to fool me. And I kinda saw you fixing your pants." She explained, grinning from ear to ear.
"Okay..." Buffy murmured, unsure of what to say.
"Aaww come on, tell me how you feel about him, I'm dying to know here."
Buffy smiled, realizing that Kristin was her ally, not her enemy. "He's so sweet. I like him a lot." She admitted.
"Well, you would make a sweet couple. I'm with you if you ever need help." Kristin told her when they arrived at the theater. They paid for the tickets and bought popcorn, then they went to their seats. Kristin made sure that Cordelia and Xander were together, then she sat on a seat two rows behind them, next to Willow and Oz, leaving Buffy and Angel next to each other behind Cordelia and Xander.
Ten minutes after the movie started, Cordelia and Xander were engaged in a heated make-out session. Oz was watching the movie, not really interested but having nothing better to do anyway. Kristin and Willow were half watching the movie, half spying on Buffy and Angel. The two girls had shared a look and understood that they had the same intentions, which were to get Buffy and Angel together. Willow knew all about Buffy's feelings for the older dark-haired boy, while Kristin was the only person Angel shared those types of feelings with. They would succeed, they had no doubt about it.
Buffy found herself not really interested in the movie, but she watched it anyway, to get her mind as far as possible from Angel. She had the urge to kiss him madly right now, but she knew it wouldn't be a good idea. It was hard to concentrate on the movie though, because Angel's hand was now resting on her right knee. He stayed still there a long time, a very long time, then he started making feather-like movements on her knee with his thumb. Buffy breathed deeply to keep her emotions under control. She never would have thought that an act so simple could seem so erotic. After a moment, Buffy reached out and rested her hand on his. He turned his hand so that their palms were facing and intertwined their fingers. He kept his gaze on the movie, aware that Buffy was looking at him, he didn't want to see any kind of rejection in her beautiful eyes. Angel was seriously lacking self-confidence when Buffy was the matter. Then, she squeezed his hand softly, and he felt his lips curving into a small smile. Their legs brushed, and Buffy tangled her foot around his.
"Aaaww, they're so cute!" Willow whispered to Kristin, so softly that only she could hear it. Kristin smiled, seeing her brother and new friend's hands firmly clasped together.
They both stopped moving for a while, enjoying the feel of the other's skin against their own. Buffy tried to concentrate on the movie again, but she had trouble focusing with Angel so close to her. Then, he pulled his hand away slowly.
*Hey! Don't!!!* Her mind was screaming at the loss. However, she did nothing to show it, which troubled a little Angel.
*Man, she doesn't seem too upset that I let her hand go. Damn! Oh well, let's see how she reacts now...* He brushed his hand against her arm, and put his arm around her shoulders, in a possessive but gentle grip.
*OH MY!!* For all she cared, she could have screamed her surprise out loud. *He's got his arm around my shoulders...oh boy that's even better. Or is it? My hand suddenly feels so empty...* she pouted inwardly. *ooh, THAT's better.* She couldn't hold the smile when he took her hand in his other free hand, stroking lightly her skin there. She leaned on his shoulder, sighing happily when he tightened his embrace.
*She smells so good. God I wanna kiss her so badly* He thought, watching absently the screen.
*Mmm. That feels the best. I could stay forever in his arms, just like this. Well, maybe it would add a little something if he was shirtless. I guess it'd be nice...to touch his skin...kiss his chest...*
*Yeah, kisses would be great, but it'd be even better if she didn't have that shirt on. And those pants! Why can't she wear a skirt? It's easier to touch with a skirt...well ok, I wouldn't be able to see her cute ass if she wasn't wearing those tight pants...* Angel rationalized.
*Are leather pants harder to take off than regular pants?* Buffy wondered, frowning slightly. *Cause boy does his butt look good with those leather pants, but I guess it's a tricky business to get them out of the way.* Suddenly, Buffy realized what she was thinking about and blushed furiously. *Oh god, I've known the guy for a week and I'm already thinking about taking off his pants!*
Angel however, was still deeply thinking about what Buffy wears that makes her look this hot and sexy, without blushing at all. Well, he was indeed a man, and one with a pretty big and long sexual experience with that. Anyway, he was still engrossed in his dreams when he felt someone shaking him from behind.
"Angel! Movie's over!" Kristin told him, smiling and raising an eyebrow at his brother, who was still holding Buffy against him.
"Right. Let's go." He murmured, disappointed. With a sigh, Buffy pulled away. They both stood up and got out of the theater with their friends.
*****
They arrived at the Bronze not long after they left the movies.
"My ladies, would you care for a dance?" Xander asked the girls, bowing in mock politeness.
"Why surely kind sir!" Cordelia replied taking his arm.
"Buff? Will? Kristin?" Xander insisted.
"Comin'!" Buffy exclaimed, always ready to dance with her friends.
"Er...we're gonna go over there." Willow informed them, meaning her and Kristin. They took off giggling, excited about their new friendship through matchmaking. Angel eyed them suspiciously, as they made their way to the other side of the club. He didn't like when Kristin got that excited. Not a good sign, it was always because she was planning something he wouldn't appreciate.
"Angel?" He looked at Buffy from where he was sitting on the couch. She looked at him with a shy smile. "Do you wanna dance?"
"Oh. Er...no, thanks. I-I don't dance." He replied, sighing.
"You okay?" She worried.
"Yeah, I'm good. Go ahead, I'll stay here." He told her, smiling half- heartedly. He didn't mind dancing usually, but he swore a few weeks ago that he would only do it if he couldn't help it, only slow dances, and only if it was the only way he could get the girl. Right now, it was not really a slow dance, and he didn't need that to kiss Buffy. He just needed courage and the good moment...and THAT he can't have with a dance.
"Well, your loss is my incredible gain!" Xander exclaimed happily. "Come on ladies." He took each girl by the arm and led them to the dance floor.
"Should we worry?" Oz asked to make conversation, referring to his girlfriend and Angel's sister who were talking seriously.
Angel glanced at the two girls. "Yep."
"Oh."
"You don't dance?" Angel replied.
"Only with Willow." Oz answered, shrugging.
"Ok."
"You?"
"Nope."
"k." Soon they were both silent, looking around. It was not an awkward moment, they just didn't have anything to tell each other, and mono- syllabic guy number one doesn't usually start a big conversation with mono- syllabic guy number two.
Angel was watching Buffy dancing, but the fact that three guys were around her didn't help making him focus on her. He let himself think, which he knew wasn't a good idea. He thought about a few years ago, when he was still in New York. He used to go clubbing almost every night, with Spike and his girlfriend Faith, and Steven. While Spike and Faith were busy dancing (well mating would be a more appropriate term), Angel would look around for a girl, find one for Steven too, as his best friend was too much of a good boy to do it himself and also, Steven was still a virgin, making Angel try even harder to find him a girl with whom he would finally do it. After a few hours Spike, Faith, Steven and Angel...and most of the time Angel's new conquest, too, would go home or walk around for a moment.
Then when Angel and Kristin were sent to Los Angeles, Steven decided to live with his big sister who had just transferred to UCLA a month before. Angel and Steven started to go out again, even more now that Steven wasn't a virgin any more. Now it was Angel's turn to be teased because he was going from one-night stands to one-night stands, whereas Steven never slept with a girl he hadn't dated for a few weeks and when he finally found one, they would do it all the time.
Angel looked around the Bronze, sighing. He used to do everything with Steven. He hadn't been clubbing again after what happened, and it was starting to get depressing tonight. If he had stayed in LA, he would have gone out again a long time ago, because Gunn and the others, who were very often with the two of them, would have dragged him, threatened him to have fun like old times. He chuckled bitterly. *Oh yeah, I can see Xander and Oz threatening me to kick my butt if I didn't join them. God it's boring!*
"Angel, Oz, sorry to interrupt your highly interesting conversation." Cordelia smiled, as she, Buffy and Xander came back. Willow and Kristin followed quickly.
"Silence saves oxygen." Oz stated, welcoming his girlfriend on his lap.
"Yeah, you're the best!" the red-head murmured before leaning for a kiss.
"So, we're hanging out tomorrow? I'm sure we can do something interesting." Xander suggested.
"Yeah." "Sure." Some of them replied, the others nodded.
"Angel, you'll be there?" Willow asked the older boy.
"Actually I gotta do something. Kris, do you think Frank would mind if I borrow some of his tools?" Angel asked his sister.
"Ugh." Kristin groaned, rolling her eyes. "You're not gonna try to fix that stupid motorbike again, aren't ya?"
"I am. And it's not stupid." He replied.
"Sure. But I don't see why you don't get rid of it, there's always something in need to be fixed in that thing!" She complained.
"Well, that THING is pretty damn expensive, and I hate walking."
"I don't like it, it's impossible to ride."
"Then, let me remind you that YOU're the one who asked me to buy it. Also, you don't KNOW how to ride it." He told her with a mock smile.
"Whatever" She muttered under her breath, crossing her arms against her chest in defeat.
//And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest thing to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now\\
Hearing the beginning of that song, Angel cast his eyes on the floor, trying not to think about what he had been thinking ever since he entered the club. Buffy and Kristin looked at each other then at Angel.
"Oh! I love that song! Come on guys!" Cordelia exclaimed, dragging Xander back to the dance floor and wrapping her arms around his neck while he put he hands on her waist and they started dancing and kissing for times to times. Willow and Oz followed soon after.
//And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight\\
"Angel? You're okay?" Buffy asked softly.
"I'm fine." He replied absently, staring nowhere in particular, deep in thoughts.
//And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am\\
"Angel please say something." Kristin demanded as she sat next to him and took his hand into her own.
"I'm fine Kristie don't worry. I can't help thinking about...it, that's all." He told her quietly.
"Do you wanna go home with me?" His sister suggested.
//And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am//
"Nah, stay here, you're having fun. I'll hit the cem..." He stopped when he remembered Buffy was there too. "Streets. Go back t-to the house." He couldn't call it home. "I'll see you tomorrow."
Angel stood up and turned towards Buffy. "It was great seeing you today."
"Yeah, it was." She agreed with a smile. "See you on Monday."
"I can't wait." He replied, his voice deep and sexy, which made her knees weak.
"Night Sis." He said, turning back towards his sister. He reached in the back pocket of his pants and threw something on the lap of his sister. "Try not to need it. It's just in case." He added with a smirk as he was leaving.
"funny." Kristin rolled her eyes at the condom her brother had just given her. "Oh well, we never know." She put it in the pocket of her jacket and stood up, looking at Buffy, who was giving her weird looks. "I'm gonna dance. Feel free to join." She smiled and walked towards a crowded area of the club, leaving Buffy behind.
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