Harry's POV/Diary thingy:

Dear who ever.
I know it's really unlike me to write in you but I guess I just needed to get my thoughts out.
If you don't know yet, Draco Malfoy is dead; suicide.
And the strange part is that I miss him, I know I can't believe it either but he's gone and he's never coming back.
The stranges of it all is that he left a note for Hermione, Ron, Neville, Ginny and me.
I'll glue mine inn so that you can see what he wrote.

Harry Potter- you were always better then me at Quidditch and remember that day at the train I really did want to be your friend, guess it wouldn't be that easy with a father in the same league as the dark lord, hu?

Strange hu?
You know when I think about it I actually think he wasn't that bad of a person, well he was but not all that bad.
Damn I'm crying now, shit.
The strangest thing of all is that I'm angry right now, who the hell gave him the right to go and fucking hang himself his life might've been crap but still there were still people that would always have been there for him, right?
At least his mother I know she loved him I've seen the way she acts to him.
And there must have been someone else for him, there always is isn't there, isn't there that special one for everybody that cares for you?
I really can not deal with this right now, I'm suppose to hate this guy obviously that isn't going to work, all I will say is R.I.P. Malfoy.
But he way I wonder what he wrote to the others I haven't seen them since we went to Dumbledore's office and that's long time ago, guess I'll see them at lunch.

Harry

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Ron's POV/diary thingy:

Holy crap, Malfoy is dead.
Dead, gone as in never coming back and what pisses me off is that I'm not happy.
Screw him, who gave him the fucking right to go and hang himself right now I really want to punch the shit out of him but that's fucking impossible.
Where the hell is this guy when you need him?
When you don't want to see him he's always there and when you don't want to see him he won't go away.
Guess that will all change now won't it?
No more comments about our wealth, no nasty mudblood comments to Hermione, no more harassing Ginny nothing, so why the hell am I not happy?
This just doesn't make any sense and that's what's pissing me off.
Malfoy left me a note, well actually he wrote a little piece in his suicide not to me, Ginny, Harry, Hermione and Neville.
This is what mine said:


Ron Weasley- sorry for all the nasty comments I always sent your way, the only reason why I kept talking crap about you family was because you had everything I ever wanted, a family that cared, friends and happiness.

Can you believe it, because I sure as hell can't, or maybe I won't, his death would be so much easier if I could just hate him like I used to, obviously that is just impossible.
God damned him.
If I only had the chance I mean really if I only had the chance to bring him back and maybe give him a chance or maybe that would be impossible he was a hard person to cope with.
I'm to confused to deal with this right now I mean really how would you feel if your life long enemy had just commited suicide and had just addmited that he wanted everything you had, how the bloody hell would you feel.
I will only say one more thing:

R.I.P Malfoy..........

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Neville's POV/diary/letter thingy

Dear grandma.
Remember that guy Malfoy that I told you about, well guess what he's dead.
He committed suicide a few days ago if I remember correctly.
Do you want to know what's strange, even though he made my life hell (sorry gandma) I still can't seem to be happy that he's dead, quite the contrary as a matter of fact.
He hang himself in one of the cublicles in the boys bathroom on the second floor, I wonder if he'll start if he'll start ho hount it.
He wrote a suicide note that he left with his bodt and in that suicide not there was a short piece to Ron, Harry, Hermione and Ginny and me.
This is what he wrote for me:

Neville Longbottom- keep an eye on Trevor and if Crabbe or Goyle bother you just tell them you know what they do in bed, oh yeah they are gay if you're wondering.

It isn't all that grand but considereing that it's coming from a Malfoy I'm so surprised, can you believe it, Lucius Malfoys son almost saying sorry to me.....
Grandma I really don't know how to feel right now, I don't know if I should be happy that he's gone and try to enjoy every second without him bulling me or should I sulk away somewhere else where no one can see me?
Please help me with this......
You know all this thinking about deat makes me thinmk about mom and dad, are they okay?
I was wondering, if I came home for Christmas could I go and visit them?
I would really love to, I mean really, it'd mean a lot to me......

Lots of love from
Neville.