~Live the Darkness~
A/N: Oops, forgot the disclaimer last time.
Disclaimer: Gomen Nasai, I don't own, and if you sue, You'll get nothing.
DO YOU HEAR ME?! NOTHING! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
Gohan just stared. He couldn't breathe, and he fell to his knees, gasping for breath. He
couldn't believe it, she was gone, and, although he just simply wanted to cry or die, no
tears would come. At least, he didn't think he was crying, but he didn't notice the
burning sensation from the heat of his tears, nor did he notice the terrifying sobs that
rose from his throat. All he registered was that Videl was gone, and not coming back.
He didn't hear someone land softly on the grass next to him, and he didn't even hear them
calling his name out. His mind didn't register anything until a pair of hands picked him
up.
"Kid, snap out of it," a gruff voice said, as the owner of the voice gently shook him.
"Nani?" Gohan questioned, snapping out of his trance-like state. He looked around at his
surroundings as though they were new, and then suddenly began crying. He pulled desperately
away from his friend's arms. He suddenly really looked up at who it was for the first time
and suddenly seemed to realize that it was Piccolo. "P-Piccolo?" he said, not able to get
out more than one word at a time.
"Kid, I saw that the girl just left, and I came to make sure that you don't do anything
stupid, like when you tried to kill yourself after the Cell games. Understood?" Piccolo
stated.
Gohan stared at his friend with a look of anger and wonder. How could Piccolo think that he
understood? Piccolo had never felt this kind of love, and actually barely knew what love even
meant before he met Gohan. He didn't know what real love was like, not like this. He knew
what it was like to feel almost fatherly, but nothing else really. Gohan tried to think
of a way to make Piccolo understand. "You just don't get it," Gohan finally gasped. "you
couldn't understand, so don't try to! get away from me, I hate you! Damn it! I said get
away!" Gohan yelled. He struggled to break free from his friend's grip, and finally did.
When he had, he began running toward the treeline.
Piccolo stared after his student with a horrified look. What had he done? He felt a terrible
wrenching in his heart, and he pondered whether to chase after the boy or just leave him.
This dillema was to be solved quickly though, as Gohan stopped and turned around, walking
back toward his mentor with his head facing the ground.
"Sensei, I'm sorry that I said those things, it's just that you never understand what I
mean when I say I love her. I know you felt bad when I said that I hated you, I could even
feel your emotions. That isn't even a fraction of what I feel right now, so please, just
leave me to my own devices," Gohan said, his eyes pleading up at his stony mentor.
Piccolo stared when Gohan had finished speaking, but although he didn't know how it was
possible to love someone that much, he understood. He nodded his head once before turning
around and leaping into the air, not saying another word to his student.
Gohan sighed in relief as his friend left. What ever strength he just had left him, and he
tumbled down to his hands and knees, voicing his sorrow once more in unheard sobs. Eventually
his body couldn't handle the stress of so much crying without any oxygen, and he had to stop
crying in order to breathe. His chest contracted and his mouth hung open in a desperate
attempt to allow more air down into his lungs. He suddenly just fell forward and allowed his
body to collapse entirely as his mind swayed back and forth between consciousness and
unconsciousness.His mind was stuck on Videl's angry face as she ran away, and it didn't
seem to be going anywhere else anytime soon.
* * *
~The Son House~
"Goten, go find your brother. It's been almost six hours now, and your dinner is getting
cold," Chichi commanded.
Goten nodded to his Okasan and walked to the door, then leapt into the air and began following
his brother's discreet ki. He followed it to the field where they trained for flying, and
looked down to see his brother, seemingly unconscious, on the ground. He yelped and dove down
to Gohan's side, trying to figure out what had attacked his brother. "NIISAN!" he yelled,
shaking his brother's shoulder. When he didn't get a response, he sat down next to his brother
and started crying while shaking his brother from each side.
Gohan finally groaned in answer to his brother's sobs. He rolled over onto his side and looked
up at Goten, who was staring at him with wide, crystal eyes. "Ototo, don't cry, I was just very,
very, exhausted," Gohan said, his voice hoarse from crying. His eyes were swollen and red, much
like the rest of his face. He sat up and pulled Goten into his lap, rocking forward and back to
try and calm his startled ototo. Tears dripped from the depths of the ebony orbs and silent sobs
racked his body, but still he tried to hide it from Goten. "Goten," Gohan's voice became harsh
toward his younger brother. "Come, we're leaving," Gohan said.
Goten did as he was told, following his stern-faced niisan into the air toward their home. He
didn't ask why his brother was acting so different, he knew that if his brother didn't want to
tell, then he shouldn't pry.
Gohan was growling at himself, wondering what the hell he could do to end his pain. The
twisting in his stomach, the wrenching in his heart, he knew that he would die from pain
anyways, he just wanted to end it sooner. He began thinking of Videl again, and he nearly
threw up at the feeling that he could never have her again.
The pair landed outside of the tiny house where their mother stood outside waiting impatiently
for her sons's to return.
Gohan didn't wait for his mother to come forward and yell at him. Instead he pushed past his
okasan and opened up the door, stomping toward his room with an angry expression written into
his face.
Chichi blinked as Gohan pushed her out of his way and walked into the house, toward his room.
She suddenly felt very light-headed as she thought that her precious little boy was becoming
a delinquent. "G-goten, did something happen today that I should know about?" Chichi questioned.
Goten thought about it. What could have caused such an instant change in Gohan's behavior?
"Umm... Well, not really. Niisan did say that he was going to tell Videl about all his secrets,
but nothing else," Goten said, not understanding the consequences that Gohan's actions held.
"Nani!? Oh no, they've broken up, at least, I think they have," her face became even more
concerned if that's possible. "My poor baby, I have to go talk to him. Goten, your dinner is
on the table if you want it," Chichi said.
Goten began to drool and he ran into the house, although unlike Gohan, he did not push his
mother out of the way to get there.
Chichi sighed and began walking toward her eldest son's room. Actually, technically, him and
Goten shared a room, but in this case, it was considered Gohan's room. 'Oh, Goku, why couldn't
you be here now?' she thought. She knew why he was killed, it was that damn Cell, but that
still shouldn't have stopped him from coming home when they offered to wish him back. She
also knew why he hadn't come back even when they offered to use the dragonballs. But that
didn't mean she couldn't be upset that he had deserted his family. She took the first two
steps before she heard Gohan yell back down to her.
"Go, away! I don't want to talk to anyone right now. Just leave me alone!" Gohan's voice
bellowed down the stairs. It seemed hoarse and thick, as though he were crying and doing a
bad job hiding it.
Chichi pulled back from the stairs, not wanting to push him. She walked back into the kitchen
to see Goten only glance up from his food, then return his attention to eating. She collapsed
in a chair and ran her hand through the long raven-colored hair that fell from her head. She
had released it from it's severe bun for the night, and now it fell past her shoulders. She
rubbed her temples before deciding to head to bed and standing up, stretching. She walked over
to Goten, kissing him on the head. "'Night honey. Mommy's tired and is going to bed, and I
want you to head upstairs once you're done, it's long past your bedtime," Chichi stated.
Goten nodded and swallowed before kissing her cheek and watching her go upstairs, he didn't
want niisan yelling at her again. When he didn't hear anything for long enough, he turned
his attention back to his food again.
Gohan sat, with his head laying on the desk, and drawing on a piece of paper. He didn't
know why, but he had stopped crying, and then had set out to write Videl one final note.
He hoped to end his own life in the least-dignified, but quickest way possible. He heard
Goten walking up the stairs, and finally entering the room, but his ototo didn't say
anything, instead he slipped silently into bed. Gohan didn't say anything either, instead
he went back into thought, not really looking at what he was drawing on the paper. When
he finally thought that he knew what to write, he flipped the paper over and began his
final notice to the only one he had ever loved.
~Otherworld~
Goku stopped training as he was nearly positive he heard his wife, muttering about him
being gone. He suddenly began feeling rather sick as he realized it really was his wife,
and she really was cursing him for deserting his family. Goku looked up and thought
about something, even if he hadn't meant to hurt anyone by not being there, he missed
his family a lot, and he knew that sometimes Gohan needed a father, and not just his
mentor and sensei, either. He sighed as moral issues clashed with his emotions and he
began arguing inside his head again.
~The Son House~
Gohan folded the small white piece of paper neatly and tucked it into his belt. He
walked over to the window and opened it, stepping out into the warm night sky. He
began flying in the direction of Videl's house, and he began crying again. The emotion
overtook him, and he began to become sick with loneliness, crashing into the earth
below him and throwing up. He lay there for several more minutes, continuing to be sick
before he finally controlled himself enough to fly toward Videl's house once more.
Within only minutes, he was levitating outside her window. He heard screams below him
and realized that the guards had seen him floating outside Videl's window. He opened
her window which was unlocked, and flew into the eerily quiet room. The only sound was
Videl's ragged breathing. Gohan walked over to her bed quickly, hearing the security
running up the stairs toward her room, and laid the envelope next to her head on the
pillow. He kissed Videl for the first time, just quickly on the top of her head and in
one swift motion, he was gone.
Videl opened her eyes when she thought she heard screams. She groaned and rolled over
in the deep night, getting ready to fall asleep again. Whoever was yelling wouldn't
allow it, though, and she heard her bedroom door open and flashlights moved around it.
Videl bolted upright, shooting her head in different directions. She soon heard the
people's voices.
"Has the Miss been kidnapped sir?" came a gruff man's voice.
"I can't tell yet sir, hold on" came another voice.
Videl shrieked as a flashlight was pointed directly at her, and she fell back onto her
bed holding the covers up to her face. She glanced over and noticed the letter written
in the perfect cursive that she knew so well. Growling, she sat up again.
"GET OUT!"she yelled, pointing a finger out the door. "Leave me alone!" she screeched.
"But-but... Miss Videl, there was a break-in. Some flying person came in through your
window!" the man's voice said.
"I'm fine! If I was in trouble, you'd know! Now get out!" Videl bellowed. The officers
complied, and Videl was left alone once more. She picked up the letter, not sure if
she should read it. She passed the letter between her fingers a few times before
finally pulling the cord next to her, and turning on the small bed lamp. She looked at
the letter before slowly opening it, careful not to tear even the slightest piece of
paper. she pulled out the piece of paper and opened it, not glancing at the back.
It read:
~*~ Dear Videl, ~*~
~*~ Yeah, I know I'm the last person you want to hear from right now, but please,
I need to tell you some things.
(The next few words were smudged seemingly with tears, and she picked up where they
became legible again.)
~*~ ...when you left. What I had wanted to tell you was... that... well, I-I love
you. @--- There, I at least wrote it, even though I never found the courage to
tell you.
I know that I should have told you at least most of my secrets, especially the one
concerning your father. Gomen, I never meant to hurt you, I was trying to protect
my family from becoming famed like yours... Selfish I know. Gomen nasai.
I'm sure you still hate me right now, but you don't need to worry about me anymore.
I won't be in your way. Before high school, I didn't feel like I had a purpose to
live. My father died because of a stupid mistake I made at the Cell Games. I tried
to kill myself, and probably would again if I ever became depressed enough, but,
you don't care about that anyways. What I was trying to get across, is that for
the last year, or almost a year, you've been my purpose to live... The one thing I
lived for, and now I must thank you. After what I did to you, of course, you'd
probably rather watch me bleed than read this damn letter, so here:
(next to this there was a large wet stain. Videl assumed it was tears at first,
but, leaning closer, she realized with a start that it was red... Officializing
it as Gohan's blood.)
Gomen again, Videl... And again, I love you. ~*~
~*~ Love Always, Gohan ~*~
Videl felt tears burning lines into her cheeks. Gohan's blood was in this letter.
No, not just his blood, his heart was in this letter, and she had shoved him away
just because of his secrets. Now that she thought about it, she probably would have
tried to hide something like that also. She suddenly felt sick as she turned the
letter over, wondering how she could have possibly been so petty. This was quickly
forgotten as she read, or rather saw what was on the back side of the letter.
On the back was a picture. It nearly made Videl sick, the detail was incredible,
but it wasn't the kind of picture that should have had detail. Gohan was obviously
a talented artist, too bad the picture was so disturbing. The landscape of the
picture was deep night, around the same time of night as right now. The ground was
a treelined clearing, obviously in the middle of a thick forest. Starlight shown
through the leaves of the trees, and unfortunately for Videl,the landscaping was
so well-done, she almost felt as though she were there.
The actual subject of the drawing wasn't as delicate as the evening sky or
surroundings though. Lying next to one of the trees in the picture was a man.
Instantly Videl recognized this man as Gohan. Gohan was lying face up, with a
startled look on his face. His eyes were frozen, and even in the picture they
looked glossed over and dead. His lips were parted partially, as though he
had been saying something before he had passed on. There was no color, but
even without any color, the blood on his face was apparent. His eyelids were
swollen as well as the rest of his face. There seemed to be large swollen
veins running down his neck, and blood dribbled from his ears, nose, and mouth.
Most of his throat and face looked as though it had been burned from the inside,
and Videl became dizzy after staring at it.
Next to Gohan was a girl. The girl had her back turned and her hands up to her
face. She was running in another direction, the fact that the girl was crying
became apparent.
Videl studied the girl and realized with a start that the girl looked a lot
like her... in fact, it looked exactly like her! Videl's eyes widened as she
beheld the scene of death, drawn by the corpse himself. She flipped the letter
over and she read one line over again...
~I tried to kill myself, and probably would again if I ever became depressed
enough~
She flipped the letter over again to stare, wide-eyed at the drawing. It was
such a perfect picture, how could it be so terrible? How could she have done this
to him? A resolved look graced her features, and getting up, she pulled on her
boots and ran to the window. She didn't bother getting dressed, even though all
she was wearing was a sports bra and her black stretch capris. 'No, Gohan. I
was wrong to leave you, I need you. Please don't leave me!' she thought as she
leapt from the window and into the evening sky.
~Somewhere...~
Gohan swerved left to right, swaying from the pain. It wasn't a real physical
pain, like being punched, intsead, it was like a piece of him had died, and the
rest of him just wanted to go along with it. He was moving at a lesiurely pace,
but it was still rather fast. He became wrapped up in his own thoughts, and
didn't sense Videl's ki leaving her house. He didn't really care though... He
had nothing left to say to her now, anyways.
Videl followed Gohan's ki deep into the mountains. She knew that she was gaining
on him, as he was moving rather slowly. She was almost positive she saw a glow up
ahead, but it was so far in front of her, that she could have been hallucinating.
Gohan landed in a small clearing in the forest. He was sure that no one could
find him here for days. He just wanted it over, and was glad that his end was
near. In his head, he had actually gone over various ways to kill oneself, and
had come up with a particularly gruesome one that he was going to do. As sick
and depressing a subject as how to kill himself was, he knew that living life
without Videl would be so much worse. Gohan powered up until he was nearly a
super saiyan, and then began gathering energy into his hand. He brought his
hand up to his partially opened mouth and readied himself to throw the attack
down his own throat.
Videl finally saw him in the clearing and screamed, diving down into the
clearing to stop him. "Gohan, NO! please, STOP!" she screamed.
...Too late...
Gohan let the attack loose and it set out ravaging his body from the inside
out. He opened his mouth to scream, finally realizing how much it hurt, but
nothing came. The last thing he heard was a loud scream, and he finally
collapsed.
Life is changing
I can't go on with out you
Rearranging I will be strong
I'll stand by you
(You were fighting everyday)
(So hard to hide the pain)
(I know you never said goodbye)
(I had so much left to say)
One last song
Given to an angel's son
As soon as you were gone
As soon as you were gone
I have a new life now
She lives through you
What can I do
Feel so alone now
I pray for you
We still love you
I can't believe your gone
I can't believe
(No, I don't own 'Angel's Son' by Clint Lowery & Lajon Witherspoon with
music by Sevendust)
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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sooo! sorry it took
me so long to update. I made this chappy long to make up for it... *Gets down
on knees and begs* Please forgive me... *sniffles* I swear, updates will get
faster, don't desert me! Did I really kill Gohan? Would I really do that to
my Gohan-chan?
Oh, and please people, read my fic Gohan Defuses The Series. Personally,
I think it's the only good ficcy of mine...
PLEASE REVIEW!
~Videl~ ~Z~
A/N: Oops, forgot the disclaimer last time.
Disclaimer: Gomen Nasai, I don't own, and if you sue, You'll get nothing.
DO YOU HEAR ME?! NOTHING! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
Gohan just stared. He couldn't breathe, and he fell to his knees, gasping for breath. He
couldn't believe it, she was gone, and, although he just simply wanted to cry or die, no
tears would come. At least, he didn't think he was crying, but he didn't notice the
burning sensation from the heat of his tears, nor did he notice the terrifying sobs that
rose from his throat. All he registered was that Videl was gone, and not coming back.
He didn't hear someone land softly on the grass next to him, and he didn't even hear them
calling his name out. His mind didn't register anything until a pair of hands picked him
up.
"Kid, snap out of it," a gruff voice said, as the owner of the voice gently shook him.
"Nani?" Gohan questioned, snapping out of his trance-like state. He looked around at his
surroundings as though they were new, and then suddenly began crying. He pulled desperately
away from his friend's arms. He suddenly really looked up at who it was for the first time
and suddenly seemed to realize that it was Piccolo. "P-Piccolo?" he said, not able to get
out more than one word at a time.
"Kid, I saw that the girl just left, and I came to make sure that you don't do anything
stupid, like when you tried to kill yourself after the Cell games. Understood?" Piccolo
stated.
Gohan stared at his friend with a look of anger and wonder. How could Piccolo think that he
understood? Piccolo had never felt this kind of love, and actually barely knew what love even
meant before he met Gohan. He didn't know what real love was like, not like this. He knew
what it was like to feel almost fatherly, but nothing else really. Gohan tried to think
of a way to make Piccolo understand. "You just don't get it," Gohan finally gasped. "you
couldn't understand, so don't try to! get away from me, I hate you! Damn it! I said get
away!" Gohan yelled. He struggled to break free from his friend's grip, and finally did.
When he had, he began running toward the treeline.
Piccolo stared after his student with a horrified look. What had he done? He felt a terrible
wrenching in his heart, and he pondered whether to chase after the boy or just leave him.
This dillema was to be solved quickly though, as Gohan stopped and turned around, walking
back toward his mentor with his head facing the ground.
"Sensei, I'm sorry that I said those things, it's just that you never understand what I
mean when I say I love her. I know you felt bad when I said that I hated you, I could even
feel your emotions. That isn't even a fraction of what I feel right now, so please, just
leave me to my own devices," Gohan said, his eyes pleading up at his stony mentor.
Piccolo stared when Gohan had finished speaking, but although he didn't know how it was
possible to love someone that much, he understood. He nodded his head once before turning
around and leaping into the air, not saying another word to his student.
Gohan sighed in relief as his friend left. What ever strength he just had left him, and he
tumbled down to his hands and knees, voicing his sorrow once more in unheard sobs. Eventually
his body couldn't handle the stress of so much crying without any oxygen, and he had to stop
crying in order to breathe. His chest contracted and his mouth hung open in a desperate
attempt to allow more air down into his lungs. He suddenly just fell forward and allowed his
body to collapse entirely as his mind swayed back and forth between consciousness and
unconsciousness.His mind was stuck on Videl's angry face as she ran away, and it didn't
seem to be going anywhere else anytime soon.
* * *
~The Son House~
"Goten, go find your brother. It's been almost six hours now, and your dinner is getting
cold," Chichi commanded.
Goten nodded to his Okasan and walked to the door, then leapt into the air and began following
his brother's discreet ki. He followed it to the field where they trained for flying, and
looked down to see his brother, seemingly unconscious, on the ground. He yelped and dove down
to Gohan's side, trying to figure out what had attacked his brother. "NIISAN!" he yelled,
shaking his brother's shoulder. When he didn't get a response, he sat down next to his brother
and started crying while shaking his brother from each side.
Gohan finally groaned in answer to his brother's sobs. He rolled over onto his side and looked
up at Goten, who was staring at him with wide, crystal eyes. "Ototo, don't cry, I was just very,
very, exhausted," Gohan said, his voice hoarse from crying. His eyes were swollen and red, much
like the rest of his face. He sat up and pulled Goten into his lap, rocking forward and back to
try and calm his startled ototo. Tears dripped from the depths of the ebony orbs and silent sobs
racked his body, but still he tried to hide it from Goten. "Goten," Gohan's voice became harsh
toward his younger brother. "Come, we're leaving," Gohan said.
Goten did as he was told, following his stern-faced niisan into the air toward their home. He
didn't ask why his brother was acting so different, he knew that if his brother didn't want to
tell, then he shouldn't pry.
Gohan was growling at himself, wondering what the hell he could do to end his pain. The
twisting in his stomach, the wrenching in his heart, he knew that he would die from pain
anyways, he just wanted to end it sooner. He began thinking of Videl again, and he nearly
threw up at the feeling that he could never have her again.
The pair landed outside of the tiny house where their mother stood outside waiting impatiently
for her sons's to return.
Gohan didn't wait for his mother to come forward and yell at him. Instead he pushed past his
okasan and opened up the door, stomping toward his room with an angry expression written into
his face.
Chichi blinked as Gohan pushed her out of his way and walked into the house, toward his room.
She suddenly felt very light-headed as she thought that her precious little boy was becoming
a delinquent. "G-goten, did something happen today that I should know about?" Chichi questioned.
Goten thought about it. What could have caused such an instant change in Gohan's behavior?
"Umm... Well, not really. Niisan did say that he was going to tell Videl about all his secrets,
but nothing else," Goten said, not understanding the consequences that Gohan's actions held.
"Nani!? Oh no, they've broken up, at least, I think they have," her face became even more
concerned if that's possible. "My poor baby, I have to go talk to him. Goten, your dinner is
on the table if you want it," Chichi said.
Goten began to drool and he ran into the house, although unlike Gohan, he did not push his
mother out of the way to get there.
Chichi sighed and began walking toward her eldest son's room. Actually, technically, him and
Goten shared a room, but in this case, it was considered Gohan's room. 'Oh, Goku, why couldn't
you be here now?' she thought. She knew why he was killed, it was that damn Cell, but that
still shouldn't have stopped him from coming home when they offered to wish him back. She
also knew why he hadn't come back even when they offered to use the dragonballs. But that
didn't mean she couldn't be upset that he had deserted his family. She took the first two
steps before she heard Gohan yell back down to her.
"Go, away! I don't want to talk to anyone right now. Just leave me alone!" Gohan's voice
bellowed down the stairs. It seemed hoarse and thick, as though he were crying and doing a
bad job hiding it.
Chichi pulled back from the stairs, not wanting to push him. She walked back into the kitchen
to see Goten only glance up from his food, then return his attention to eating. She collapsed
in a chair and ran her hand through the long raven-colored hair that fell from her head. She
had released it from it's severe bun for the night, and now it fell past her shoulders. She
rubbed her temples before deciding to head to bed and standing up, stretching. She walked over
to Goten, kissing him on the head. "'Night honey. Mommy's tired and is going to bed, and I
want you to head upstairs once you're done, it's long past your bedtime," Chichi stated.
Goten nodded and swallowed before kissing her cheek and watching her go upstairs, he didn't
want niisan yelling at her again. When he didn't hear anything for long enough, he turned
his attention back to his food again.
Gohan sat, with his head laying on the desk, and drawing on a piece of paper. He didn't
know why, but he had stopped crying, and then had set out to write Videl one final note.
He hoped to end his own life in the least-dignified, but quickest way possible. He heard
Goten walking up the stairs, and finally entering the room, but his ototo didn't say
anything, instead he slipped silently into bed. Gohan didn't say anything either, instead
he went back into thought, not really looking at what he was drawing on the paper. When
he finally thought that he knew what to write, he flipped the paper over and began his
final notice to the only one he had ever loved.
~Otherworld~
Goku stopped training as he was nearly positive he heard his wife, muttering about him
being gone. He suddenly began feeling rather sick as he realized it really was his wife,
and she really was cursing him for deserting his family. Goku looked up and thought
about something, even if he hadn't meant to hurt anyone by not being there, he missed
his family a lot, and he knew that sometimes Gohan needed a father, and not just his
mentor and sensei, either. He sighed as moral issues clashed with his emotions and he
began arguing inside his head again.
~The Son House~
Gohan folded the small white piece of paper neatly and tucked it into his belt. He
walked over to the window and opened it, stepping out into the warm night sky. He
began flying in the direction of Videl's house, and he began crying again. The emotion
overtook him, and he began to become sick with loneliness, crashing into the earth
below him and throwing up. He lay there for several more minutes, continuing to be sick
before he finally controlled himself enough to fly toward Videl's house once more.
Within only minutes, he was levitating outside her window. He heard screams below him
and realized that the guards had seen him floating outside Videl's window. He opened
her window which was unlocked, and flew into the eerily quiet room. The only sound was
Videl's ragged breathing. Gohan walked over to her bed quickly, hearing the security
running up the stairs toward her room, and laid the envelope next to her head on the
pillow. He kissed Videl for the first time, just quickly on the top of her head and in
one swift motion, he was gone.
Videl opened her eyes when she thought she heard screams. She groaned and rolled over
in the deep night, getting ready to fall asleep again. Whoever was yelling wouldn't
allow it, though, and she heard her bedroom door open and flashlights moved around it.
Videl bolted upright, shooting her head in different directions. She soon heard the
people's voices.
"Has the Miss been kidnapped sir?" came a gruff man's voice.
"I can't tell yet sir, hold on" came another voice.
Videl shrieked as a flashlight was pointed directly at her, and she fell back onto her
bed holding the covers up to her face. She glanced over and noticed the letter written
in the perfect cursive that she knew so well. Growling, she sat up again.
"GET OUT!"she yelled, pointing a finger out the door. "Leave me alone!" she screeched.
"But-but... Miss Videl, there was a break-in. Some flying person came in through your
window!" the man's voice said.
"I'm fine! If I was in trouble, you'd know! Now get out!" Videl bellowed. The officers
complied, and Videl was left alone once more. She picked up the letter, not sure if
she should read it. She passed the letter between her fingers a few times before
finally pulling the cord next to her, and turning on the small bed lamp. She looked at
the letter before slowly opening it, careful not to tear even the slightest piece of
paper. she pulled out the piece of paper and opened it, not glancing at the back.
It read:
~*~ Dear Videl, ~*~
~*~ Yeah, I know I'm the last person you want to hear from right now, but please,
I need to tell you some things.
(The next few words were smudged seemingly with tears, and she picked up where they
became legible again.)
~*~ ...when you left. What I had wanted to tell you was... that... well, I-I love
you. @--- There, I at least wrote it, even though I never found the courage to
tell you.
I know that I should have told you at least most of my secrets, especially the one
concerning your father. Gomen, I never meant to hurt you, I was trying to protect
my family from becoming famed like yours... Selfish I know. Gomen nasai.
I'm sure you still hate me right now, but you don't need to worry about me anymore.
I won't be in your way. Before high school, I didn't feel like I had a purpose to
live. My father died because of a stupid mistake I made at the Cell Games. I tried
to kill myself, and probably would again if I ever became depressed enough, but,
you don't care about that anyways. What I was trying to get across, is that for
the last year, or almost a year, you've been my purpose to live... The one thing I
lived for, and now I must thank you. After what I did to you, of course, you'd
probably rather watch me bleed than read this damn letter, so here:
(next to this there was a large wet stain. Videl assumed it was tears at first,
but, leaning closer, she realized with a start that it was red... Officializing
it as Gohan's blood.)
Gomen again, Videl... And again, I love you. ~*~
~*~ Love Always, Gohan ~*~
Videl felt tears burning lines into her cheeks. Gohan's blood was in this letter.
No, not just his blood, his heart was in this letter, and she had shoved him away
just because of his secrets. Now that she thought about it, she probably would have
tried to hide something like that also. She suddenly felt sick as she turned the
letter over, wondering how she could have possibly been so petty. This was quickly
forgotten as she read, or rather saw what was on the back side of the letter.
On the back was a picture. It nearly made Videl sick, the detail was incredible,
but it wasn't the kind of picture that should have had detail. Gohan was obviously
a talented artist, too bad the picture was so disturbing. The landscape of the
picture was deep night, around the same time of night as right now. The ground was
a treelined clearing, obviously in the middle of a thick forest. Starlight shown
through the leaves of the trees, and unfortunately for Videl,the landscaping was
so well-done, she almost felt as though she were there.
The actual subject of the drawing wasn't as delicate as the evening sky or
surroundings though. Lying next to one of the trees in the picture was a man.
Instantly Videl recognized this man as Gohan. Gohan was lying face up, with a
startled look on his face. His eyes were frozen, and even in the picture they
looked glossed over and dead. His lips were parted partially, as though he
had been saying something before he had passed on. There was no color, but
even without any color, the blood on his face was apparent. His eyelids were
swollen as well as the rest of his face. There seemed to be large swollen
veins running down his neck, and blood dribbled from his ears, nose, and mouth.
Most of his throat and face looked as though it had been burned from the inside,
and Videl became dizzy after staring at it.
Next to Gohan was a girl. The girl had her back turned and her hands up to her
face. She was running in another direction, the fact that the girl was crying
became apparent.
Videl studied the girl and realized with a start that the girl looked a lot
like her... in fact, it looked exactly like her! Videl's eyes widened as she
beheld the scene of death, drawn by the corpse himself. She flipped the letter
over and she read one line over again...
~I tried to kill myself, and probably would again if I ever became depressed
enough~
She flipped the letter over again to stare, wide-eyed at the drawing. It was
such a perfect picture, how could it be so terrible? How could she have done this
to him? A resolved look graced her features, and getting up, she pulled on her
boots and ran to the window. She didn't bother getting dressed, even though all
she was wearing was a sports bra and her black stretch capris. 'No, Gohan. I
was wrong to leave you, I need you. Please don't leave me!' she thought as she
leapt from the window and into the evening sky.
~Somewhere...~
Gohan swerved left to right, swaying from the pain. It wasn't a real physical
pain, like being punched, intsead, it was like a piece of him had died, and the
rest of him just wanted to go along with it. He was moving at a lesiurely pace,
but it was still rather fast. He became wrapped up in his own thoughts, and
didn't sense Videl's ki leaving her house. He didn't really care though... He
had nothing left to say to her now, anyways.
Videl followed Gohan's ki deep into the mountains. She knew that she was gaining
on him, as he was moving rather slowly. She was almost positive she saw a glow up
ahead, but it was so far in front of her, that she could have been hallucinating.
Gohan landed in a small clearing in the forest. He was sure that no one could
find him here for days. He just wanted it over, and was glad that his end was
near. In his head, he had actually gone over various ways to kill oneself, and
had come up with a particularly gruesome one that he was going to do. As sick
and depressing a subject as how to kill himself was, he knew that living life
without Videl would be so much worse. Gohan powered up until he was nearly a
super saiyan, and then began gathering energy into his hand. He brought his
hand up to his partially opened mouth and readied himself to throw the attack
down his own throat.
Videl finally saw him in the clearing and screamed, diving down into the
clearing to stop him. "Gohan, NO! please, STOP!" she screamed.
...Too late...
Gohan let the attack loose and it set out ravaging his body from the inside
out. He opened his mouth to scream, finally realizing how much it hurt, but
nothing came. The last thing he heard was a loud scream, and he finally
collapsed.
Life is changing
I can't go on with out you
Rearranging I will be strong
I'll stand by you
(You were fighting everyday)
(So hard to hide the pain)
(I know you never said goodbye)
(I had so much left to say)
One last song
Given to an angel's son
As soon as you were gone
As soon as you were gone
I have a new life now
She lives through you
What can I do
Feel so alone now
I pray for you
We still love you
I can't believe your gone
I can't believe
(No, I don't own 'Angel's Son' by Clint Lowery & Lajon Witherspoon with
music by Sevendust)
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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sooo! sorry it took
me so long to update. I made this chappy long to make up for it... *Gets down
on knees and begs* Please forgive me... *sniffles* I swear, updates will get
faster, don't desert me! Did I really kill Gohan? Would I really do that to
my Gohan-chan?
Oh, and please people, read my fic Gohan Defuses The Series. Personally,
I think it's the only good ficcy of mine...
PLEASE REVIEW!
~Videl~ ~Z~