Chapter 18

Lily lay awake on her bed way into the night. She missed James. She wished she hadn't broke up with him. It had been six months since their break up. It was the end of the school year. Tomorrow they were going onto the Hogwarts express back to London. They hadn't had a proper conversation since their break up. James had made friends again with Peter. Sirius and Remus drifted away from her as they hardly spoke because of the awkwardness between Lily and James. James had a lot of girlfriends through the past six months. Lily had felt a pang of jealousy from each one he introduced to the others. True Lily had had a fair few of boyfriends as well but none of them meant anything to her. James was the only one she wanted. He was the only thing Lily desired.

It had been awkward at the Halloween ball which was a week after their break-up. Lily and James both had to find new dates. None of them were successful. Everyone had already grabbed a date and because of the late notice of their asking no-one was free. So Lily went single with Liz who was in a mood because Remus couldn't go with her. He had to go and visit his sick grandmother. Everyone asked questions when they broke up, wanting to know why they had broken up. They were the schools most known couple. Of course why they broke up was going to be the hottest gossip around, although a lot of rumours were made up about this. The most extravagant being that James slept with Professor Mcgonagall behind Lily's back. Only Remus, Peter, Sirius, James, Liz, Katie and Lily knew what really had happened. Lily had no idea how James felt. she didn't know if he wanted her back. If he wanted to be friends or even if he wanted to see her again in his whole entire life. Lily died to know the answers to these questions but she guessed that she never would.

Lily rolled onto her back and sighed. "Lily are you awake?" she heard a voice whisper.

"Remus is that you?" she whispered back

"yeah come into our dorm, Sirius and me want to talk to you."

"ok" said Lily a confused expression on her face.

It was dark so Remus walked over to her bed and took her arm to help her over to the door. Remus and Lily had not spoken properly for a long time. Him and Sirius wanting to talk to Lily made her excited. She clutched Remus's arm as he guided her down the stairs and then up the stairs to their dormitory.

"Sit here." he whispered pushing her down onto the foot of his bed.

He walked past her and she heard him waking up Sirius. "she's here." she heard him mutter quietly.

She felt two hands grab her gently around the waist and pull her backwards onto the bed. Lily then heard the curtains around the bed being shut. She felt the bed dip as the boys sat down onto the mattress.

"ok you can put the light on now." said Sirius. there was silence. "ok you can put the light on now Remus." he repeated.

"The bloody torch won't work." Remus said annoyed.

"you did press the on button didn't you." whispered Sirius. Lily could tell he was smiling.

"Oh that's what that's for. I thought you had to press that when you wanted to turn it off." said Remus sarcastically.

"Ha ha very funny." whispered Sirius.

"Are you sure it's got battery's in?" I asked.

"I don't know"

"Well shake it and see because if battery's are in it. If they are then it will rattle."

"ok then." more silence.

"I don't think it's got batteries in."

"Well, well done Sherlock." smirked Sirius. Lily giggled.

"Shut it Black, now is there another torch down their somewhere?"

Lily heard some fumbling as Sirius bent down the side of the bed looking for another torch. "Here." he said passing the torch over the bed.

Lily heard a click and a bright light shone across the bed revealing everyone.

"Nice hair Lily." black commented while trying to hold back a fit of giggles. Lily scowled while trying to flatten down her 'bed hair'.

"look I'm very tired so why did you bring me here?" she enquired.

"because we missed our Lily." Remus said while smiling, and as if on cue both he and Sirius jumped on her enveloping her in a hug. Lily laughed to herself. She couldn't deny it. She missed them too really. She put her arms round them and hugged them tighter.

"Now I know that what happened between you and James has made things really awkward but we don't want to just stop being friends with you." said Sirius quietly.

"yeah we want to see you in the holidays and everything." continued Remus.

"But won't James be mad if you see me?" Lily questioned

"Oh I think it will be exactly the opposite." Sirius laughed.

Lily sat up and punched him in the arm. "And what is that supposed to mean?"

Sirius caught Remus's eye and they both started sniggering. "What?" Lily asked getting slightly annoyed at missing out on the joke.

"nothing, nothing." Sirius gasped trying to end his laughing fit.

"Well will one of you please take me back to my dormitory." Lily said with a frown.

"It would be my pleasure." Remus said curtly, offering Lily his arm. Sirius gave her a kiss on her cheek. "see you tomorrow Lils." he whispered as she walked out the room.

Sirius lay back on his bed and sighed thinking about what just happened.

"Jamesie." Sirius whispered to himself. "you are mad for not trying to get back with her. She is one in a million."

He closed his eyes and fell asleep just before James whispered back. "I know Sirius, I know."

(A/N next chapter will be up when I get enough reviews from people saying they want it. oh and thank you for all the reviews so far. All my reviewers are ickle stars )