Chapter 20

Lily stumbled and fell over when she reached Hogsmeade. She crawled out of the fireplace and Sirius came crashing down a few seconds after her. He stumbled a little but soon steadied himself and didn't fall over. He looked down at Lily on the floor and started laughing.

"aww are you ok?" he asked giving her a hand up. Once Lily was up she punched him in the arm.

"It was not funny it hurt." she complained while rubbing the dust off her. Sirius stopped laughing and slipped an arm around her waist.

"where are we?" Lily questioned.

"were in a pub called The Hogs Head. It's where the concert will be tomorrow night."

"So who else is going to be at the concert?"

"well me, you and Remus."

"yeah I know that stupid, I mean do you know who else is going besides us?"

"Well I met Katie and Liz in Diagon alley a couple of days ago and they said they were going."

"oh cool, so who else."

"welllllll..."

"welllllll......what?"

"James is going." Sirius said watching me waiting for my reaction. Lily sighed.

"Well I suppose we will have to make up sometime. I mean I can't ignore him for the rest of my life."

"that's the spirit. so lets go meet Remus then we can find you a dress."

"ok." Lily said cheering up slightly.

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"Lils are you alright?" Remus said quietly into her ear as she hugged him tightly.

"yeah why?" Lily asked looking up.

"nothing your just squeezing me really tightly and I can't breathe."

"oh sorry." she said embarrassed and let go of him quickly.

"So what time are we meeting Prongsie?" Sirius asked.

"Prongsie?" Lily questioned.

"yeah just a mate of ours."

"oh ok then."

"Well I told him to meet us at flourish and botts in Diagon alley at around 2."

"Ok then we should get going." Sirius took Lily's arm and Remus took the other.

"Come on." they muttered dragging her through the crowd of people and into Diagon alley. Finally they arrived at Flourish and Botts and Lily was tired and wanting to sit down. they found a table and Lily sat down kicked her shoes off and then put them up on the seat next to her.

"Do you want an ice cream while we wait Lils?" Sirius asked kindly.

"Sure I'll have a chocolate sundae."

"cool come on Remus lets go get Lily's ice cream." They both got up and left Lily sitting on her own at the table. Lily looked around trying to see if she recognised anyone from school. She didn't see anyone she knew. Just then around the corner she saw someone she knew from school. She saw James.

she watched James eyes search around for someone. Then his eyes met hers. They both stared for a second but then Lily pulled her eyes away and broke the contact. She looked to the floor quickly. Many thoughts were rushing through her mind. Should she invite him over? should she ignore him? should she wave? should she smile?

"tra laaaaaaaa." she heard Sirius's voice call as he produced her sundae. "This is your masterpiece of an ice-cream." he continued placing it down in front of her.

"cheers Sirius." she said picking up her long spoon. She turned again to look at James. He was staring intently at her. Remus followed Lily's gaze to James.

"Ah Prongsie!" he called. James head snapped up to see who called him.

"Come over." Remus said to him.

"Prongsie is James?" Lily muttered at Remus her eyes narrowing. Remus smirked and rubbed her leg under the table.

"sorry but it had to be done." he said quietly back. James made his way over to the table. He gave Lily a nod. "James." she said quickly acknowledging him then looking away.

"Lily." He replied, before sitting down.

"sooooo." said Sirius trying to break the silence. lily watched James intently. He sat at the table and looked down at his hands.

"This is nice." said Remus trying desperately to break the awkwardness between the pair.

"look I'm going to go buy my dress ok you two? come and find me when he isn't here." she said nodding in the direction of James. Her chair scraped as she stood up. James watched her turn and leave.

"Oh for fucks sake." said Sirius as Lily left. "you two need to make up I can't stand much more of this,"

James stood up and started to run after Lily. "Lily!" he called out. She stopped, amazed to see James actually call out her name. she turned on her heel.

"what potter?"

"Are you alright?"

"Yeah, and anyway why would you care?"

"no-one said I did." relied James. "Oh god why am I being so horrible to her." he thought. Lily turned and started to walk off again.

"Lily Evans wait right there." Lily turned again to face him.

" who gave you the right to boss me around?" she asked glaring at him. James took Lily's hand and held it. Lily tried to pull away but he held it tight.

"We need to talk." he told her

"no we don't"

" yeah we do and I'm not going to leave you alone till you agree,"

"why do you want to talk now potter? why not six months ago."

"If you remember correctly you were the one who broke up with me."

"yeah and do you remember why I broke up with you." Lily said. James winced as he remembered.

"I'm sorry Lily. I was mad jealous of Sirius. I mean you get along so well with him and I just took it badly. I just didn't want to loose you."

"Well you have."

"Lily I want you back," Lily's mind flashed back to the letter she had received on Wednesday night saying nothing but 'I want you back'

"So you sent me that owl."

"Yeah I did."

"why didn't you put a name?"

"I thought that you would be able to figure out who sent it."

"James this is the most you've ever said to me since our break up. I thought you hated me. It never even crossed my mind that you could of sent that letter."

"so what do you say Lils. Will you take me back."

Lily's mind was spinning. She had too much information to take on board at once.

"I..I don't know." James leaned in to kiss her but she pushed him away quickly.

"James, Look I can't decide right now I need time on my own to think. this is all too confusing." She turned and began to walk quickly down Diagon alley away from James. James watched her walk off for a while and then turned and made his way back to Remus and Sirius who were sitting happily eating Lily's ice cream.

"how'd it go prongs?" asked Remus cautiously

"not good." he replied glumly

"Why what happened." Sirius said his mouth full of chocolate ice cream.

"I think I scared her off. I don't know if I will ever get my Lily back now."

" I hate to bring you down man." said Remus quietly "but she's not your Lily anymore."