With You
(Part 3 Of Crawling)
Author's note- Thank you to Lady Lunara and Katzztar. I didn't like the ending of the last chapter much, either. But, this one is sure to be better! Promise! Oh, and I forgot, the last chapter was Britney Spears' song, "Lonely". Also, before I forget again, this isn't a Kouga/Kagome fic. And Kouga's not dead. I couldn't kill him!!
Disclaimer- I don't own Inuyasha or the song, "With you" by Linkin Park.
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I woke up in a dream today
To the cold of the static and put my cold feet on the floor
Forgot all about yesterday
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore
A little taste of hypocrisy
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake slow to react
Even though you're so close to me
You're still so distant
And I can't bring you back
Kagome awoke in the shrine, feeling an unusual feeling of nausea. She wondered where she was. Shouldn't she be in the Sengoku Jidai? Then she looked at the well, and saw the glowing pink arrow protruding from it. She remembered the night before.
~Flashback~
"Kagome, I love YOU," Inuyasha said.
"I don't believe you," Kagome said, and, in a swift move, pushed him into the well, and, finding a bow and arrow, shot the well so that it wouldn't work anymore.
~End of Flashback~
I'm not returning, She thought, and walked back to her home.
In the Sengoku Jidai, Inuyasha didn't have it so easily.
"What happened to Kagome-chan?" Shippou asked, sleepily.
"Gone..." Inuyasha muttered. He had tried five times to go through the well, but each time was in vain. She must've put a spell on the well, for he couldn't go through.
"Inuyasha, where is Kagome?" Miroku asked, after waking up. "She usually runs back here."
"She left," Inuyasha answered. Couldn't they leave him alone?! He needed to be alone right now.
He knew he deserved it. Kagome didn't need to be his Tama detector. Heh. Was she even that anymore? She was more like a... reason for living. If she wasn't there, he'd be in Hell with Kikyo by now.
It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
After three weeks away from the Sengoku Jidai, Kagome found herself daydreaming about Inuyasha and the others. She could hear him say, "Feh, wench. You don't need these stupid 'tests' of yours!" She smiled at the memory. Without thinking, she started to draw on her notebook paper.
"Hey, Kagome!" Yuka, a friend of her's, said, patting her shoulder. "Whatcha drawin'?" Kagome looked down at her paper, and saw a perfect drawing of Inuyasha. She gulped, and realized she wasn't quite over him as she originally thought.
"Nothing, Yuka. Just a design for a manga I want to draw," Kagome said. Ever since she entered the Sengoku Jidai, she had become better and better at lying to people.
"It's good! Whoever it is, he's cute!" Yuka said, looking at the paper. "But what're the things on his head?"
"His ears," Kagome answered, unconsciously. "He's a inu-hanyou."
"Ooh! It's really good!" Yuka added, and went back to the math assignment they had to do.
Inuyasha stood by the well, again. As he did for days on end now. He was so caught up in waiting for Kagome to return that he even forgot to eat. Shippou, Miroku, or Sango would have to bring him something to eat.
I'm sorry, Kagome... please... return... He thought.
Somehow, Kagome could hear Inuyasha's voice in her head. It asked her to return. It apologized, too. She shook her head. Her mind was playing pranks on her, now.
"Higurashi, do you want to go to the movies with me tonight?" Hojo asked, after their class was finished. Kagome bit her lip, and nodded.
"Sure, Hojo-kun. I'll see you later," Kagome said, and she walked home.
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, now I see, even when I close my eyes
I hit you and you hit me back
We fall to the floor the rest of the day stands still
Fine line between this and that
When things go wrong I pretend the past isn't real
I'm trapped in this memory
Kagome tried not to cringe on this date. Hojo was talking about some foreign disease that her grandpa had said she had contracted, and was telling her how to make sure she could get over it.
"Uh huh... really?... fascinating," Kagome said, faking enthusiasm. Hojo paid no heed to her. Suddenly, Kagome's heart clenched. It felt like she couldn't breathe anymore.
"Will you excuse me, Hojo-kun?" Kagome asked. He nodded, and she walked to the restroom.
"Get over it, Higurashi!" Kagome coached herself. "You're not going back to him! You were played for... for... a baka! He's not worth it!"
But a little voice in the back of her mind said, Oh, but I think he does...
"He's not! I hate him! I hate him! I hate him!" She said, slamming her fist against the sink.
Inuyasha was feeling despair on his side. He couldn't help but want to leap into the well, and hold Kagome until she admitted she loved him too.
But that would just make him weak. No. He'd wait for her.
Like waiting for her isn't, A voice in his mind said.
He bit his lip, and watched the well.
Souta was getting sick of this. He wanted to see Inuyasha-niichan, and he wasn't going to be stopped. Souta walked into the wellhouse, and saw the horrible arrow that was destroying his older sister inside. He, with a burst of strength and courage, pulled the arrow out.
"Inuyasha-niichan!" Souta yelled into the well, as he dropped in.
Inuyasha caught the light, "Inuyasha-niichan" from the well, and looked into it. Nothing. He sighed, as if he just imagined it.
"Inuyasha-niichan! Kagome needs you!" The voice came again. This time, it was stronger, and sounded like Kagome's brother's. Swallowing any pride he tried to show, he leapt in.
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake slow to react
So even though you're close to me
You're still so distant
And I can't bring you back
Kagome smiled, half-heartedly to Hojo, as she walked up to her house. Her heart was thumping even harder than usual. It hurt to move. She just wanted to lay in her bed, and welcome the fake world of sleep.
"Neechan!" Souta yelled. "Come here!" It sounded like he was in the wellhouse. She didn't want to go there. She would just end up crying, and... she would probably go crazy, because she wouldn't see Inuyasha anymore. She sighed, and walked in, her eyes tightly closed.
"What is it?" She asked.
"What is it?" Inuyasha stared at her. She looked thinner than she was, her face was paler, and her eyes looked rimmed, almost as if she had been crying.
"Open your eyes," Souta ordered.
"No, Souta. If you're not gonna tell me, I'm going inside. I'm tired," Kagome said.
"You're always tired! Open your eyes, Kagome!" Souta said. After much hesitation, Inuyasha saw that she wouldn't. He looked at her.
"Kagome, please open your eyes," Inuyasha whispered. She opened her eyes, in surprise. He noticed that even those, which held so much feelings, were blank, and just chips of blue ice.
"Go back, Inuyasha," She said.
"I won't," He said. This time, she wasn't going to push him back in the well.
It's true the way I feel
Was promised by your face
The sound of your voice
Painted on my memories
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you
He stepped up to her, and held her chin in his hand. She moved her face away. Even though this was what she had been wanting for the longest time, she didn't want him to have the upper hand.
"Go away, Inuyasha. I hate you," She said, in a calm voice. She looked up into his eyes, her eyes nearly mirroring Kikyo's.
"Kagome... I missed you... I waited everyday for you," He said, in a strained whisper.
"Go away, Inuyasha," She said. She tried to keep the cold facade on her face, but she couldn't she started to sob. "You belong to Kikyo... not me... go to her..." She fell onto her knees. Souta, seeing as how this wasn't a good time to be watching, left the shrine.
"You're who I belong to," He whispered, lowering himself to his knees, and trying to wipe the tears off her face.
"But... what about Kikyo?" She asked. "Don't you love her instead?"
"I did. I love you now," He said.
"Only because I'm a replacement," She said, angrily. "I'm alive, and that's it."
"No, I love you for you," Inuyasha said.
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, now I see, even when I close my eyes
With you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
With you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
Kagome looked into his eyes, and saw truth to his words. She smiled lightly. But, she couldn't shake the feeling something wasn't being said between the two.
"What happened to Kikyo?" She asked.
"She's still wandering," Inuyasha answered.
"What about Kouga?"
"I nearly sliced that wolf up," Inuyasha admitted. "I couldn't help but feel angry at him for kissing you."
"But I kissed him back," Kagome pointed out.
"Hai... I saw that..." He drifted off, his eyes filling with hurt.
"I'm sorry..." She whispered.
"You don't have to be, Kagome."
"But I do. I got carried away with this, and... I... I'm sorry," Kagome said, and, grabbing him around the neck, embraced him tightly. He held her.
"I love you, too, Inuyasha..." She whispered, before she fell asleep in his arms.
He smiled when he heard her whisper.
No, no matter how far we've come
I can't wait to see tomorrow
No, no matter how far we've come I
I can't wait to see tomorrow
The next day, the two decided to go back to the Sengoku Jidai. Not for shard hunting, but just to... relax. They needed it.
Kagome held his hand when they walked down the path to Kaede's village. Inuyasha looked at her, and grinned.
With you
You now I see, keeping everything inside
With you
You, now I see, even when I close my eyes
with you
You, now I see, keeping everything inside
with you
You, now I see, even when I close my eyes
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A/n- that should be the end of Crawling. If you didn't get the first chapter, and not understand why it was part of the story, I'll tell ya: Inuyasha didn't know who he'd choose- Kikyo or Kagome. The last part of that chapter, he realized he'd choose Kagome over Kikyo any day. But Kagome didn't know that. Hope you liked the story!
~Nikki-chan~
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