on the way out
by anthy dusky
*i once more return to my post as the evil goddess of shitty songfics to bring you this! jthm belongs to jhonen vasquez. i wish i belonged to jhonen vasquez. this song doesn't even belong to me-this came from that obscure rock band of happiness called RA...its' called "walking and thinking". i've listened to this cd waaay too many times over the past month..it's really eaten into my social life. please do not attempt to find any real substance in here. may the moose be with you.*
*backnote: nny just slit his wrists, in his basement. yep, this is the end for our beloved psycho. i sniffle.*
"from the air i see your lonilness/you carry on despite your fear/inside a box you keep your sanity/and it will never seem clear to me..."
i'm lying here on my back, in a pool of my own blood, watching the world go soft around me. i have to say, this is not the way i would have wanted my life to end. but these things happen, yes? a life of darkness ends with the finality of death. i doubt that i'll ever be buried, that i won't just lie here for eternity surrounded by my mistakes and all the trivial pains that add up to this.
"over the hills, the light, it flows/it shows the angels laughing/but where is the love that we're supposed to find?/lost in a maze of games so very dark and overwhelming/lost in these thoughts that seem to rule my mind..."
what the hell happened to me? i used to hope so much, back when hope was still possible, that one day there would be some breed of peace for me. but i realize now that i ruined that possibility long ago. i created my own hell, so i deserved everything i got. everything and more.
"a simple spell cast is broken through/the force of life decides to bend/you lay beyond the sacred stormy skies/and you will write the end, for me..."
a man blind from birth will have no concept of sight. this may be true for me as well, since a person who has never known love has no concept of it, no way to grasp or hold on to what may have been their saving grace. i wish she was here.....right now. i really don't want to die like this...alone...i want her to see how sorry i am and see that i really DID care...
"the door will close and i will be denied/a dagger thrust into my chest/you claim yourself to victory/but it is i who will rest in peace.."
goodbye, bunny..devi...everyone..know that i am sorry for everyone who never left my house alive...fading...dying...drowning in here..leaving the blue-for -the-BLACK-!
"over the hills the light it flows/it shows the angels laughing/but where is the love that we're supposed to find?/lost in a maze of games so very dark and overwhelming/lost in these thoughts that seem to rule my mind.."
..goodbye.
"my mind.."
a/n: holy pigshit batman.that was horrible. so very horrible. run while you can...there may be more.
by anthy dusky
*i once more return to my post as the evil goddess of shitty songfics to bring you this! jthm belongs to jhonen vasquez. i wish i belonged to jhonen vasquez. this song doesn't even belong to me-this came from that obscure rock band of happiness called RA...its' called "walking and thinking". i've listened to this cd waaay too many times over the past month..it's really eaten into my social life. please do not attempt to find any real substance in here. may the moose be with you.*
*backnote: nny just slit his wrists, in his basement. yep, this is the end for our beloved psycho. i sniffle.*
"from the air i see your lonilness/you carry on despite your fear/inside a box you keep your sanity/and it will never seem clear to me..."
i'm lying here on my back, in a pool of my own blood, watching the world go soft around me. i have to say, this is not the way i would have wanted my life to end. but these things happen, yes? a life of darkness ends with the finality of death. i doubt that i'll ever be buried, that i won't just lie here for eternity surrounded by my mistakes and all the trivial pains that add up to this.
"over the hills, the light, it flows/it shows the angels laughing/but where is the love that we're supposed to find?/lost in a maze of games so very dark and overwhelming/lost in these thoughts that seem to rule my mind..."
what the hell happened to me? i used to hope so much, back when hope was still possible, that one day there would be some breed of peace for me. but i realize now that i ruined that possibility long ago. i created my own hell, so i deserved everything i got. everything and more.
"a simple spell cast is broken through/the force of life decides to bend/you lay beyond the sacred stormy skies/and you will write the end, for me..."
a man blind from birth will have no concept of sight. this may be true for me as well, since a person who has never known love has no concept of it, no way to grasp or hold on to what may have been their saving grace. i wish she was here.....right now. i really don't want to die like this...alone...i want her to see how sorry i am and see that i really DID care...
"the door will close and i will be denied/a dagger thrust into my chest/you claim yourself to victory/but it is i who will rest in peace.."
goodbye, bunny..devi...everyone..know that i am sorry for everyone who never left my house alive...fading...dying...drowning in here..leaving the blue-for -the-BLACK-!
"over the hills the light it flows/it shows the angels laughing/but where is the love that we're supposed to find?/lost in a maze of games so very dark and overwhelming/lost in these thoughts that seem to rule my mind.."
..goodbye.
"my mind.."
a/n: holy pigshit batman.that was horrible. so very horrible. run while you can...there may be more.