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In a few minutes, we arrived walking through the front door and seeing my friend put a pot full of something on the dining room table.
"Hi Shadow! Hi grandpa!"
"Hello Maria!" said the professor as he sat down in his seat.
"Hi Maria!"
"Well, here it is!" Maria said cheerfully as she lifted the lid of the pot. In it was some spaghetti and meatballs.
Dr. Gerald took a sniff. "Wow, it smells wonderful Maria, dear!"
"Why thank you, grandpa!"
Everybody including myself took some of it and transferred it onto our plates. For some reason, my thoughts drifted to Sonic.
Why am I saying 'for some reason?' I mean, of course my thoughts drift to Sonic. They have been for the past week. Oh, I miss him so much... just thinking of him makes my heart leap. I love him so much; I want to be with him. But I can't. I guess it's destiny that we're not meant to be together... I don't think he returns my feelings anyway. But I'll always love him. So very much.
Maria noticed me poking the spaghetti with my fork. I had just taken two bites. It was wonderful, yes, but every time I take a bite, Sonic comes into mind. [A/N: Spaghetti reminds Shadow of Sonic. ^_^;]
"Shadow?" asked my closest friend.
"Yes?"
"Are you all right? You don't seem to be eating... do you like spaghetti and meatballs?"
"Oh yes, I love it, it's not the food...."
Dr. Gerald also looked up. "Are you sure?"
"Well- I mean, yes. I'm sure."
"We're always here for you, Shadow. You know that."
"Yes Doctor, yes I do..."
I've finally started eating again. Mmm, Maria's a good cook. Soon, I started chowing down on it, eating like a complete pig. Maria giggled and the Doctor just smiled.
In an hour, we finished eating. Maria took the plates and put them into the sink while Dr. Gerald went into the kitchen to wash them. I feel kinda guilty about not doing anything. I told Maria that. "It's okay," she said, "we've missed you a lot, Shadow. It's all right if you don't wash the dishes." I smiled faintly and nodded at her. Then, I sat down on the couch and stared at the ceiling.
Again, Sonic came into my thoughts. It's like I can't stop thinking about him. There's more to my feelings than what I'm saying now. I feel that I need to tell someone. Maybe I should tell Maria. But what if she doesn't understand?
Just then, the blonde-haired beauty came strolling into the room. She sat on what was left of the space on the couch I was laying on. "Wanna talk about something?"
She completely read my mind. Maybe she's psychic.
"... As a matter of fact, yes. I do. Can we go to the lake?"
There was this pretty little lake near our house where we usually went to talk, play, and things like that. Maria nodded and shouted to the kitchen, "Grandpa, Shadow and I are going out for a while!"
The Doctor's voice was barely heard. "Okay! Sure!"
Maria smiled and grabbed my hand. We were at the lake in minutes. Then we sat down on the edge of it. I was sitting cross-legged. Maria had one leg curled under the other one and was letting the other leg dangle into the water.
I stared into the water. So... blue. So very blue. Almost like the ocean. But... not. Almost like Sonic. But... not. I frowned.
Maria noticed my expression in the water and faced me. "Shadow, there's something bugging you. I know it."
"Well... yeah."
"Would you like to talk about it?"
"... Not really."
"All right. I won't force it out of you. Let's just stare at the nice blue lake and enjoy the clear blue sky."
That totally broke me. Blue... too much memories of Sonic. Blue... that had always been my favorite color. It was weird.
"Maria..." I murmured. She turned to me. "Maria..." I murmured again. Memories of me falling from ARK flashed through my mind.
My first encounter with Sonic flashed through my mind.
My final battle against Sonic went through my mind.
... And.... my last sight of Sonic flashed through my mind.
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His face wrinkled in agony, Sonic screamed Shadow's name once more, hoping that by some chance, Shadow would come back to him. But nothing happened. Just Shadow falling through the atmosphere.
Tears poured down his face. Again, he tried entering the atmosphere. But this time, both legs and his left arm ended up bleeding.
The golden hedgehog watched in pain as his friend and rival plummeted towards the Earth's surface.
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Sonic... Sonic, you cried for me. You tried to rescue me. I wanted to die, Sonic. You knew that. But you tried rescuing me anyway... I wanted to die... oh no. A sudden realization hit me.
It was my fault.
It's my fault!!!
I ::wanted:: to die!!! It's my fault that I'm never going to see my one true love again!! It's my fault!! My fault!! Head lowered, I pounded my fist on the ground. My eyes could barely be seen. Maria jumped at my actions. She put a gentle hand on my shoulder.
"Shadow? Please... I hate to see you like this. You've been hurt. And you're crying..."
I am? I slowly touched the tear stains on my cheek and stared at the lake for a while.
Blue. Sonic.
I looked away from the water and stared at the green grass.
Green. Sonic's eyes.
His wonderful emerald green eyes. I'd give up everything to stare into those eyes. Those eyes which I have been yearning for so long...
I had burst out sobbing and was now crying in Maria's arms. Almost everything reminds me of him. Maria patted me on the back.
"Shh, shh, it's okay... I'm here, cry as much as you need to."
I tried to stop, really I did, but it didn't work. After a few minutes, I was able to speak clearly now.
"Maria... I need to tell you..." I paused.
"... Yes?"
"I... I... I love him, Maria. So very much. I've been aching for him these past days. I miss him. I want to see him again."
"... Him?"
I let go of Maria and looked away. "You must think I'm disgusting. For liking someone who's the same gender as I am... well... well..." I began crying again. I looked into the water and stared at my reflection. I look so much like him.
Sonic, please! I need you!
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I woke up in a bedroom lying on a comfortable bed. "Where am I?" I murmured out loud. I looked around. No one else was there. Where am I?! Am I by myself? I don't want to be alone!! I don't! Sonic, help me!! Please! I need you! I love you!
I collapsed on the bed again, but not unconscious. I was wide-awake. What's happening to me?! Again, I sat up and clutched my head. Suddenly, I started shaking violently. "I need you, Sonic. I love you. It's my fault... my fault..." Then I started shaking my head like mad.
A blonde haired girl with beautiful blue eyes walked into the room. She saw what was happening, dropped her tray of whatever was on it, and rushed to my side.
"Sonic... I love you Sonic..." I whispered while shaking violently. Maria stared at me. Then she called the Doctor. Dr. Gerald ran in and asked what was wrong.
"Something's happening, grandpa! Something's happening to Shadow!!"
I suddenly felt dizzy, and then fell unconscious onto the bed again.
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"Please be all right Shadow..." I heard an angelic voice murmur. I opened my eyes slowly and saw a face staring into mine. The blue-eyed girl hugged me. "Oh Shadow!!" I heard her say, "I was so worried!!"
I asked the most obvious question right then. "What... what happened to me?"
"I don't really know..." Just then, Dr. Gerald came walking into the room.
"Shadow! You're awake!"
"Please tell me what happened..."
Dr. Gerald pulled up a chair. "All right. Well, I don't know what happened when you kids were at the lake..." he glanced at Maria.
She started speaking. "Well, we were... talking... and then Shadow looked into the water. He stared at his reflection. I didn't really know what was going on so I just kept quiet. Shadow was leaning over. He looked faint and tired and... his eyes showed loneliness." She paused there and glanced at me.
"... and suddenly, he fell right into the water. I jumped in right after him since I knew he couldn't swim. But for some reason, it took a while to find him, some kind of current was carrying him somewhere. Anyway, I finally found him, swam to the surface, and ran here."
"Ah, so that's why both of you were soaking wet." the Doctor said.
I noticed that Maria was still wet. I felt my fur. So was I.
I remember. I remember everything. I was crying. Crying for Sonic...
"I'll leave you two to talk, all right?" Dr. Gerald said. He stood up and exited the room.
Maria stared at me for a while before speaking. "Shadow?" I kept quiet. I stared at the sheets that were covering me. Just then, silent tears trickled down my face. I closed my eyes and gripped the sheets hard.
A light sniffing was heard beside me. I looked over and saw that Maria was crying too. She wiped her eyes with her arm and sniffed.
"S-Shadow..." she stuttered, "It hurts me so much... it hurts so much to see you in pain. Please Shadow... what can I do to make you heal? Do you want to talk to God? He can arrange for you to be alive again! Please! I don't want you to hurt anymore..."
What she said totally caught my attention. "God?" I asked, "We can talk to ::GOD::?"
"Yes, Shadow. He talks to everyone. It's not like we're not allowed to see him..."
There was an awkward silence. Then I remembered our time at the lake. I didn't tell her.
"Maria, there was something I needed to tell you when we were at the lake... I... I love..." I wasn't able to speak anymore. Even more tears slid down my face. It's like I never stop crying when I think about him. Thinking about him makes me feel pain, and when I feel pain, Maria feels pain, and when Maria and I feel pain, Dr. Gerald also feels pain. I can't... I...
"Shadow, Shadow, it's okay..." Maria murmured again. I was in her arms, crying my eyes out. "I know what you were going to say," she said, "I know you love Sonic."
"So very much..." I said in her ear. "I'd give up anything to see him again." Maria's eyes widened for a second. "I need to see him again. Oh Maria, I love him so much!! But I don't think he loves me back! He probably forgot about me already! I bet he's rejoicing with his friends that they rescued ARK! I bet he and his friends don't even care for me!!"
Suddenly, Maria let go of me and just held me by the shoulders, staring into my reddened eyes. I continued with what I was saying. "They don't care!! Sonic doesn't care! Sonic doesn't love me!"
She slapped me.
"Shadow!" she yelled, "Don't say that! How can you say that, Shadow?! They've been crying their eyes out for you! You don't know half of it, Shadow!! You don't know! They love you so much!! Especially Sonic!!" she immediately covered her mouth with both hands.
My eyes widened. "No. No. You're lying. Sonic doesn't love me. He doesn't." I got up. Maria got up too. I headed for the door but she caught my hand.
"Where are you going?"
I tried to get away from her grasp, but she held tightly. I was angered. I pushed her away. She let go of me... and fell to the floor on her side.
Realizing what I had done, I just stared at her on the floor. She was hurt. I could see it in her eyes. "Shadow, I'm just trying to help..."
Then I skated out of the house.
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I thought this was a strange chapter... but hey! ^_^ Mini-cliffhanger! Please R&R!
-Avina
Disclaimer: I do not own Sonic or anything related to it.
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In a few minutes, we arrived walking through the front door and seeing my friend put a pot full of something on the dining room table.
"Hi Shadow! Hi grandpa!"
"Hello Maria!" said the professor as he sat down in his seat.
"Hi Maria!"
"Well, here it is!" Maria said cheerfully as she lifted the lid of the pot. In it was some spaghetti and meatballs.
Dr. Gerald took a sniff. "Wow, it smells wonderful Maria, dear!"
"Why thank you, grandpa!"
Everybody including myself took some of it and transferred it onto our plates. For some reason, my thoughts drifted to Sonic.
Why am I saying 'for some reason?' I mean, of course my thoughts drift to Sonic. They have been for the past week. Oh, I miss him so much... just thinking of him makes my heart leap. I love him so much; I want to be with him. But I can't. I guess it's destiny that we're not meant to be together... I don't think he returns my feelings anyway. But I'll always love him. So very much.
Maria noticed me poking the spaghetti with my fork. I had just taken two bites. It was wonderful, yes, but every time I take a bite, Sonic comes into mind. [A/N: Spaghetti reminds Shadow of Sonic. ^_^;]
"Shadow?" asked my closest friend.
"Yes?"
"Are you all right? You don't seem to be eating... do you like spaghetti and meatballs?"
"Oh yes, I love it, it's not the food...."
Dr. Gerald also looked up. "Are you sure?"
"Well- I mean, yes. I'm sure."
"We're always here for you, Shadow. You know that."
"Yes Doctor, yes I do..."
I've finally started eating again. Mmm, Maria's a good cook. Soon, I started chowing down on it, eating like a complete pig. Maria giggled and the Doctor just smiled.
In an hour, we finished eating. Maria took the plates and put them into the sink while Dr. Gerald went into the kitchen to wash them. I feel kinda guilty about not doing anything. I told Maria that. "It's okay," she said, "we've missed you a lot, Shadow. It's all right if you don't wash the dishes." I smiled faintly and nodded at her. Then, I sat down on the couch and stared at the ceiling.
Again, Sonic came into my thoughts. It's like I can't stop thinking about him. There's more to my feelings than what I'm saying now. I feel that I need to tell someone. Maybe I should tell Maria. But what if she doesn't understand?
Just then, the blonde-haired beauty came strolling into the room. She sat on what was left of the space on the couch I was laying on. "Wanna talk about something?"
She completely read my mind. Maybe she's psychic.
"... As a matter of fact, yes. I do. Can we go to the lake?"
There was this pretty little lake near our house where we usually went to talk, play, and things like that. Maria nodded and shouted to the kitchen, "Grandpa, Shadow and I are going out for a while!"
The Doctor's voice was barely heard. "Okay! Sure!"
Maria smiled and grabbed my hand. We were at the lake in minutes. Then we sat down on the edge of it. I was sitting cross-legged. Maria had one leg curled under the other one and was letting the other leg dangle into the water.
I stared into the water. So... blue. So very blue. Almost like the ocean. But... not. Almost like Sonic. But... not. I frowned.
Maria noticed my expression in the water and faced me. "Shadow, there's something bugging you. I know it."
"Well... yeah."
"Would you like to talk about it?"
"... Not really."
"All right. I won't force it out of you. Let's just stare at the nice blue lake and enjoy the clear blue sky."
That totally broke me. Blue... too much memories of Sonic. Blue... that had always been my favorite color. It was weird.
"Maria..." I murmured. She turned to me. "Maria..." I murmured again. Memories of me falling from ARK flashed through my mind.
My first encounter with Sonic flashed through my mind.
My final battle against Sonic went through my mind.
... And.... my last sight of Sonic flashed through my mind.
-
His face wrinkled in agony, Sonic screamed Shadow's name once more, hoping that by some chance, Shadow would come back to him. But nothing happened. Just Shadow falling through the atmosphere.
Tears poured down his face. Again, he tried entering the atmosphere. But this time, both legs and his left arm ended up bleeding.
The golden hedgehog watched in pain as his friend and rival plummeted towards the Earth's surface.
-
Sonic... Sonic, you cried for me. You tried to rescue me. I wanted to die, Sonic. You knew that. But you tried rescuing me anyway... I wanted to die... oh no. A sudden realization hit me.
It was my fault.
It's my fault!!!
I ::wanted:: to die!!! It's my fault that I'm never going to see my one true love again!! It's my fault!! My fault!! Head lowered, I pounded my fist on the ground. My eyes could barely be seen. Maria jumped at my actions. She put a gentle hand on my shoulder.
"Shadow? Please... I hate to see you like this. You've been hurt. And you're crying..."
I am? I slowly touched the tear stains on my cheek and stared at the lake for a while.
Blue. Sonic.
I looked away from the water and stared at the green grass.
Green. Sonic's eyes.
His wonderful emerald green eyes. I'd give up everything to stare into those eyes. Those eyes which I have been yearning for so long...
I had burst out sobbing and was now crying in Maria's arms. Almost everything reminds me of him. Maria patted me on the back.
"Shh, shh, it's okay... I'm here, cry as much as you need to."
I tried to stop, really I did, but it didn't work. After a few minutes, I was able to speak clearly now.
"Maria... I need to tell you..." I paused.
"... Yes?"
"I... I... I love him, Maria. So very much. I've been aching for him these past days. I miss him. I want to see him again."
"... Him?"
I let go of Maria and looked away. "You must think I'm disgusting. For liking someone who's the same gender as I am... well... well..." I began crying again. I looked into the water and stared at my reflection. I look so much like him.
Sonic, please! I need you!
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I woke up in a bedroom lying on a comfortable bed. "Where am I?" I murmured out loud. I looked around. No one else was there. Where am I?! Am I by myself? I don't want to be alone!! I don't! Sonic, help me!! Please! I need you! I love you!
I collapsed on the bed again, but not unconscious. I was wide-awake. What's happening to me?! Again, I sat up and clutched my head. Suddenly, I started shaking violently. "I need you, Sonic. I love you. It's my fault... my fault..." Then I started shaking my head like mad.
A blonde haired girl with beautiful blue eyes walked into the room. She saw what was happening, dropped her tray of whatever was on it, and rushed to my side.
"Sonic... I love you Sonic..." I whispered while shaking violently. Maria stared at me. Then she called the Doctor. Dr. Gerald ran in and asked what was wrong.
"Something's happening, grandpa! Something's happening to Shadow!!"
I suddenly felt dizzy, and then fell unconscious onto the bed again.
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"Please be all right Shadow..." I heard an angelic voice murmur. I opened my eyes slowly and saw a face staring into mine. The blue-eyed girl hugged me. "Oh Shadow!!" I heard her say, "I was so worried!!"
I asked the most obvious question right then. "What... what happened to me?"
"I don't really know..." Just then, Dr. Gerald came walking into the room.
"Shadow! You're awake!"
"Please tell me what happened..."
Dr. Gerald pulled up a chair. "All right. Well, I don't know what happened when you kids were at the lake..." he glanced at Maria.
She started speaking. "Well, we were... talking... and then Shadow looked into the water. He stared at his reflection. I didn't really know what was going on so I just kept quiet. Shadow was leaning over. He looked faint and tired and... his eyes showed loneliness." She paused there and glanced at me.
"... and suddenly, he fell right into the water. I jumped in right after him since I knew he couldn't swim. But for some reason, it took a while to find him, some kind of current was carrying him somewhere. Anyway, I finally found him, swam to the surface, and ran here."
"Ah, so that's why both of you were soaking wet." the Doctor said.
I noticed that Maria was still wet. I felt my fur. So was I.
I remember. I remember everything. I was crying. Crying for Sonic...
"I'll leave you two to talk, all right?" Dr. Gerald said. He stood up and exited the room.
Maria stared at me for a while before speaking. "Shadow?" I kept quiet. I stared at the sheets that were covering me. Just then, silent tears trickled down my face. I closed my eyes and gripped the sheets hard.
A light sniffing was heard beside me. I looked over and saw that Maria was crying too. She wiped her eyes with her arm and sniffed.
"S-Shadow..." she stuttered, "It hurts me so much... it hurts so much to see you in pain. Please Shadow... what can I do to make you heal? Do you want to talk to God? He can arrange for you to be alive again! Please! I don't want you to hurt anymore..."
What she said totally caught my attention. "God?" I asked, "We can talk to ::GOD::?"
"Yes, Shadow. He talks to everyone. It's not like we're not allowed to see him..."
There was an awkward silence. Then I remembered our time at the lake. I didn't tell her.
"Maria, there was something I needed to tell you when we were at the lake... I... I love..." I wasn't able to speak anymore. Even more tears slid down my face. It's like I never stop crying when I think about him. Thinking about him makes me feel pain, and when I feel pain, Maria feels pain, and when Maria and I feel pain, Dr. Gerald also feels pain. I can't... I...
"Shadow, Shadow, it's okay..." Maria murmured again. I was in her arms, crying my eyes out. "I know what you were going to say," she said, "I know you love Sonic."
"So very much..." I said in her ear. "I'd give up anything to see him again." Maria's eyes widened for a second. "I need to see him again. Oh Maria, I love him so much!! But I don't think he loves me back! He probably forgot about me already! I bet he's rejoicing with his friends that they rescued ARK! I bet he and his friends don't even care for me!!"
Suddenly, Maria let go of me and just held me by the shoulders, staring into my reddened eyes. I continued with what I was saying. "They don't care!! Sonic doesn't care! Sonic doesn't love me!"
She slapped me.
"Shadow!" she yelled, "Don't say that! How can you say that, Shadow?! They've been crying their eyes out for you! You don't know half of it, Shadow!! You don't know! They love you so much!! Especially Sonic!!" she immediately covered her mouth with both hands.
My eyes widened. "No. No. You're lying. Sonic doesn't love me. He doesn't." I got up. Maria got up too. I headed for the door but she caught my hand.
"Where are you going?"
I tried to get away from her grasp, but she held tightly. I was angered. I pushed her away. She let go of me... and fell to the floor on her side.
Realizing what I had done, I just stared at her on the floor. She was hurt. I could see it in her eyes. "Shadow, I'm just trying to help..."
Then I skated out of the house.
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I thought this was a strange chapter... but hey! ^_^ Mini-cliffhanger! Please R&R!
-Avina