SUMAIRU! (Smile!)
By: Sakura2649
Chapter 7: I love you.
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(Not Kagome's POV.)
I turned to the corner and found a tree. I looked around and found him, sitting in the tree with distant eyes.
"Inuyasha!" I called. He jerked down his head and glanced at me before he found the leaf he's holding more interesting than me.
"What do you want, Sango?" he asked me as I inched towards the tree.
"Kagome asked me." He growled. "She asked me if you could come to the hospital."
"What for?" That's it. Something snapped in me as my anger burst.
"Damn it, Inuyasha! Don't be so difficult! Kagome's dying and all you're doing is sitting around as if nothing's happening?" I yelled back.
"Why would I care for a puny little girl?" He retorted. Didn't I have this conversation with Kagome?
"Don't hide your feelings Inuyasha.I'm too tired for this." I said and he looked at me dangerously. Ooh, Pride sparks, huh?
"Who said I'm hiding my feelings?"
"Me. You're just making it hard for you and Kagome, you know." I replied.
"I don't want to go."
"Because you don't want to get attached? Gosh, you and Kagome think the same." I smiled despite of our fight, rubbing my temple. I looked up just in time to see Inuyasha flinched, almost loosing balance and fall. He ignored me nonetheless.
"Don't let your chances go, jerk. One day, she's here. Next day, she wasn't. Don't let your opportunity flew away the window. You might regret more." With that, I left him in his thoughts. I could see him debating with himself. I smiled triumphantly as I predicted him to come to the hospital.
"Mission accomplished." I stated and to my surprise, someone answered me from my behind.
"What's your mission, by the way?" I stiffened as I turned around and sighed in relief when it's Miroku.
"What are you doing sneaking up behind me?" I asked suspiciously
"Shouldn't I be asking you what you are doing talking with Inuyasha? And don't change topics. What's your mission?" Miroku raised his eyebrow. Dang it, I can't change the topic.
"Ooh, are you jealous?" I pointed a finger to him, snickering.
"Of course I-hey! I thought I told you not to change the topic!" He said.
"You didn't think I would obey you, did you?" I asked, again, innocently.
"Yeah, but still, what's that mission of yours?"
I averted my eyes and found other things more interesting then his face. "I can't tell you. It's very confidential."
"I can't find it very confidential. You're screaming at the top of your lungs a while ago." He crossed his arms in front of his chest. I couldn't help but blush at the comment. I did screamed on top of my lungs because that jerk wouldn't listen to a whisper, I reasoned to myself.
"Well, it's still none of your business." I started to walk away, hoping that he wouldn't interrupt anymore. Kagome needs me in the hospital.
"It's about Kagome, isn't it?" I stopped.
"So?" I said, stubbornly.
"Then you have to tell. Yes, she's only been here for a few days but she's my friend.a dying friend. I wanted to help her. There's no need to be shy and tell me."
"I'm not shy!" I said indignantly, turning back. I raised one eyebrow when I saw him smiling.
"Then stop being indignant about it. It's not your fault or anybody else's that Kagome's in that state. Maybe God just have some other plans about her." Okay, that hit me like a stone to my face. My eyes stung with tears as I put my hands to cover my face. Miroku pulled me in an embrace, which surprised me greatly. Usually, his cursed hand goes only in one part of my body.
"I don't want God decide what to do with my friend. She's very young to die. I wouldn't want her to die!" I cried out as Miroku rocked me.
"WE don't want her to die." He corrected.
"I know."
"Then, what did Kagome asked you to do?"
"Convince Inuyasha to come to the hospital. She's very lonely. She specifically wanted to see Inuyasha. She loves him and she couldn't afford not to tell him what she feels." Miroku nodded his head as I lifted my head to see him.
"You wouldn't tell anyone?" I asked.
"Of course. That's a promise I can keep. Besides, I don't know why she doesn't want to tell anyone when it obvious."
I chuckled. "Surely, you didn't think Kagome is sensitive enough to know this things, did you? I mean, I really have to tell her first that she's in love before she told herself that she's in love. but to her reluctance, mind you." I looked down.
"What do you mean?"
"She doesn't want to fall in love. She doesn't want to be attached."
"Well, yeah, but I prefer to have someone I love when I die. I don't want to die regretting I never tell her my feelings." I could feel his eyes on me. I blushed a little and sighed.
"That's what she's about to do-eep!" I jumped out of his grip when his hand wandered downwards. When will I ever learn? Pervert is always a pervert, that's the lesson for today.
I dented his shins as he hopped in pain. I glared at him before I huffed out of the building. But before I left, I saw Inuyasha climbing down the tree. I smiled again. Good for you, Kagome.
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(Kagome's POV)
Despite my half-consciousness, I could still hear the door creaking open and close. Footsteps could be heard and that someone slumped down the chair beside my bed. I could know that this wasn't a nurse since I never heard of a nurse sitting beside the patient.
Plus, he touched my hand, holding it to his. I guessed his name. I continued pretending to be asleep. I like him holding my hand. My hand is cold so at least he put warmth at it.
"I know you're upset with me now because I'm avoiding you this past few days. I. I don't like being with you, ever since I knew you're going to die. It will hurt me greatly to see you dying and there will be nothing I could do. I don't know if I could love you anymore." I tried hard not to squeeze his hand when I heard the last statement.
"Kagome, don't die, don't. leave me. I love you. If you die, I'll be devastated." That's it. That's the reason I don't want to love. I'll be regretting my death and I'll put my beloved into sadness. Instead of giving happiness in love, I'll be giving him sadness because he loved a dying woman.
A tear, reluctantly, fell down on my cheeks and I squeezed his hand. His reaction was to stand up, together with my hand, with shocked eyes. I could see that he was about to cry if I hadn't interrupted.
"You're awake." He tried hard to make it soft despite of his shock.
"The whole time." I stated, opening my eyes to look at him. He went back to my side and brushed the lock of hair away from my eyes.
"You should be sleeping."
"And you confessed to a sleeping girl if I hadn't pretended it." I added, smiling to him.
"I'm sorry the way I acted to you this last few days. I'm just. pressured by the news." He said apologetically.
"I know that feeling." "You do?"
"Of course." I looked at him strangely before I realized that he was just being sarcastic. I chuckled then patted the side of my bed to gesture him to sit down beside me. He obediently sat in my bed and held my hand. From that moment, I actually wished he would hold my hand forever. It just felt.so right.
"Is there anything I can do for you?" he asked, averting his eyes from me.
"Yes." I replied.
"What's that?"
"Two things: One, please don't avert your eyes from me. I always get that look from my family and I don't want you to mimic them for me. Besides, I ran away from because of those haunted looks they gave me and when averted their eyes from me. Please, don't let me group you to them." I said pleadingly and he hesitantly stared at me.
"I'm sorry.You mean you actually ran away because of that?" He asked
"I really did not run away. I just want to feel freedom. I just want to be away for sometime to enjoy my stay in this world. When I have come here in this inn, I learned how to make friends. In my school I never had friends. They treated me like a friend but they don't know that I'm sick. But when I'd come here, I don't know.I'm happy I stumbled here. I've met Sango, Miroku, Ruriko-san and you." I stopped before looking up to him. I could melt in his eyes when he stared at me like that not to mention that they're the loving eyes gazing at me.
"Inuyasha, my second wish is question, answer me truthfully.."
He nodded, "I will."
"Do you really mean that word? Do you love me?"
"I do. and I really meant it. Even if you don't love me back, I'll forever love you. I know you even if it's just for the last three weeks. You've been a bitch, lovable person, sad person. You've been sad all the time and I don't like that. I'm happy when you changed for the better.that's why I love you." He said before he leaned down and kissed me. It was the most wonderful thing I've felt. His kiss was sweet with a bit desperation.
He pulled back and smiled at me. I smiled back and before I can hold back,
"Give me kiss again." I asked and he chuckled.
"What's the magic word?" "Please." I guessed, smiling and he laughed and leaned down to kiss me again. I swear I became lost in the world with him.
But now I don't want to die.
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"I've found a cure." I heard the doctor said. Now there's a spark of hope! I opened one eye and saw my mother's back at me and the doctor was at her side.
"You do?" My mom said.
"Yes, in fact, I've discovered that the leukemia cells are still there though it wouldn't cause too much trouble as of now. It's acute leukemia. Since it is chronic myelogenous leukemia, I could suggest you bone marrow transplantation. It is quite effective for young people." The doctor suggested and I could hear my mom cry out of joy.
"That's wonderful, doctor. How much could it cost me? I would pay dearly for my daughter to live."
"It's expensive. It borders to two hundred to four hundred thousand dollars (That's just some make-up money.Don't trust the money's worth, okay?!)." As much as mother felt, we knew we have no such money. But oh well, first, I die because there's no cure. Now I'll die because there's a cure and it costs almost trillion bucks in yen!
For one reason or another, I felt nausea through me as I passed out to the dream world.
I somehow wonder, with all this cure stuff, if I will wake up and find myself in heaven.or hell.
To be continued..
GOMEN NASAI!!!! I'm sorry for the late update!!!! I know I slack a bit.I mean a lot. after I update the last sumairu chapters in a flash!!! I never meant to be THIS late!!!! I just.didn't notice the time!!!! I had so many stories to update and each has complicate part to continue!!! As in, when I can't remember the next line to put here, I'll go to the other story to continue a part of it!!!!
I'm having a very serious writer's block right now!!!!! I wish it go away,,but oh well..
Anyway, Thanks for your reviews!!!! I'm sorry if I annoyed certain people for this late update and thanks for those who are touched in their hearts!!! I know, even if you don't have sickness, you could feel the emptiness Kagome always feel!!!!!
Just don't forget to review my story and maybe I could write faster!!!!!
Push the button "GO" down there to review!!!!!
~sakura2649
By: Sakura2649
Chapter 7: I love you.
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(Not Kagome's POV.)
I turned to the corner and found a tree. I looked around and found him, sitting in the tree with distant eyes.
"Inuyasha!" I called. He jerked down his head and glanced at me before he found the leaf he's holding more interesting than me.
"What do you want, Sango?" he asked me as I inched towards the tree.
"Kagome asked me." He growled. "She asked me if you could come to the hospital."
"What for?" That's it. Something snapped in me as my anger burst.
"Damn it, Inuyasha! Don't be so difficult! Kagome's dying and all you're doing is sitting around as if nothing's happening?" I yelled back.
"Why would I care for a puny little girl?" He retorted. Didn't I have this conversation with Kagome?
"Don't hide your feelings Inuyasha.I'm too tired for this." I said and he looked at me dangerously. Ooh, Pride sparks, huh?
"Who said I'm hiding my feelings?"
"Me. You're just making it hard for you and Kagome, you know." I replied.
"I don't want to go."
"Because you don't want to get attached? Gosh, you and Kagome think the same." I smiled despite of our fight, rubbing my temple. I looked up just in time to see Inuyasha flinched, almost loosing balance and fall. He ignored me nonetheless.
"Don't let your chances go, jerk. One day, she's here. Next day, she wasn't. Don't let your opportunity flew away the window. You might regret more." With that, I left him in his thoughts. I could see him debating with himself. I smiled triumphantly as I predicted him to come to the hospital.
"Mission accomplished." I stated and to my surprise, someone answered me from my behind.
"What's your mission, by the way?" I stiffened as I turned around and sighed in relief when it's Miroku.
"What are you doing sneaking up behind me?" I asked suspiciously
"Shouldn't I be asking you what you are doing talking with Inuyasha? And don't change topics. What's your mission?" Miroku raised his eyebrow. Dang it, I can't change the topic.
"Ooh, are you jealous?" I pointed a finger to him, snickering.
"Of course I-hey! I thought I told you not to change the topic!" He said.
"You didn't think I would obey you, did you?" I asked, again, innocently.
"Yeah, but still, what's that mission of yours?"
I averted my eyes and found other things more interesting then his face. "I can't tell you. It's very confidential."
"I can't find it very confidential. You're screaming at the top of your lungs a while ago." He crossed his arms in front of his chest. I couldn't help but blush at the comment. I did screamed on top of my lungs because that jerk wouldn't listen to a whisper, I reasoned to myself.
"Well, it's still none of your business." I started to walk away, hoping that he wouldn't interrupt anymore. Kagome needs me in the hospital.
"It's about Kagome, isn't it?" I stopped.
"So?" I said, stubbornly.
"Then you have to tell. Yes, she's only been here for a few days but she's my friend.a dying friend. I wanted to help her. There's no need to be shy and tell me."
"I'm not shy!" I said indignantly, turning back. I raised one eyebrow when I saw him smiling.
"Then stop being indignant about it. It's not your fault or anybody else's that Kagome's in that state. Maybe God just have some other plans about her." Okay, that hit me like a stone to my face. My eyes stung with tears as I put my hands to cover my face. Miroku pulled me in an embrace, which surprised me greatly. Usually, his cursed hand goes only in one part of my body.
"I don't want God decide what to do with my friend. She's very young to die. I wouldn't want her to die!" I cried out as Miroku rocked me.
"WE don't want her to die." He corrected.
"I know."
"Then, what did Kagome asked you to do?"
"Convince Inuyasha to come to the hospital. She's very lonely. She specifically wanted to see Inuyasha. She loves him and she couldn't afford not to tell him what she feels." Miroku nodded his head as I lifted my head to see him.
"You wouldn't tell anyone?" I asked.
"Of course. That's a promise I can keep. Besides, I don't know why she doesn't want to tell anyone when it obvious."
I chuckled. "Surely, you didn't think Kagome is sensitive enough to know this things, did you? I mean, I really have to tell her first that she's in love before she told herself that she's in love. but to her reluctance, mind you." I looked down.
"What do you mean?"
"She doesn't want to fall in love. She doesn't want to be attached."
"Well, yeah, but I prefer to have someone I love when I die. I don't want to die regretting I never tell her my feelings." I could feel his eyes on me. I blushed a little and sighed.
"That's what she's about to do-eep!" I jumped out of his grip when his hand wandered downwards. When will I ever learn? Pervert is always a pervert, that's the lesson for today.
I dented his shins as he hopped in pain. I glared at him before I huffed out of the building. But before I left, I saw Inuyasha climbing down the tree. I smiled again. Good for you, Kagome.
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(Kagome's POV)
Despite my half-consciousness, I could still hear the door creaking open and close. Footsteps could be heard and that someone slumped down the chair beside my bed. I could know that this wasn't a nurse since I never heard of a nurse sitting beside the patient.
Plus, he touched my hand, holding it to his. I guessed his name. I continued pretending to be asleep. I like him holding my hand. My hand is cold so at least he put warmth at it.
"I know you're upset with me now because I'm avoiding you this past few days. I. I don't like being with you, ever since I knew you're going to die. It will hurt me greatly to see you dying and there will be nothing I could do. I don't know if I could love you anymore." I tried hard not to squeeze his hand when I heard the last statement.
"Kagome, don't die, don't. leave me. I love you. If you die, I'll be devastated." That's it. That's the reason I don't want to love. I'll be regretting my death and I'll put my beloved into sadness. Instead of giving happiness in love, I'll be giving him sadness because he loved a dying woman.
A tear, reluctantly, fell down on my cheeks and I squeezed his hand. His reaction was to stand up, together with my hand, with shocked eyes. I could see that he was about to cry if I hadn't interrupted.
"You're awake." He tried hard to make it soft despite of his shock.
"The whole time." I stated, opening my eyes to look at him. He went back to my side and brushed the lock of hair away from my eyes.
"You should be sleeping."
"And you confessed to a sleeping girl if I hadn't pretended it." I added, smiling to him.
"I'm sorry the way I acted to you this last few days. I'm just. pressured by the news." He said apologetically.
"I know that feeling." "You do?"
"Of course." I looked at him strangely before I realized that he was just being sarcastic. I chuckled then patted the side of my bed to gesture him to sit down beside me. He obediently sat in my bed and held my hand. From that moment, I actually wished he would hold my hand forever. It just felt.so right.
"Is there anything I can do for you?" he asked, averting his eyes from me.
"Yes." I replied.
"What's that?"
"Two things: One, please don't avert your eyes from me. I always get that look from my family and I don't want you to mimic them for me. Besides, I ran away from because of those haunted looks they gave me and when averted their eyes from me. Please, don't let me group you to them." I said pleadingly and he hesitantly stared at me.
"I'm sorry.You mean you actually ran away because of that?" He asked
"I really did not run away. I just want to feel freedom. I just want to be away for sometime to enjoy my stay in this world. When I have come here in this inn, I learned how to make friends. In my school I never had friends. They treated me like a friend but they don't know that I'm sick. But when I'd come here, I don't know.I'm happy I stumbled here. I've met Sango, Miroku, Ruriko-san and you." I stopped before looking up to him. I could melt in his eyes when he stared at me like that not to mention that they're the loving eyes gazing at me.
"Inuyasha, my second wish is question, answer me truthfully.."
He nodded, "I will."
"Do you really mean that word? Do you love me?"
"I do. and I really meant it. Even if you don't love me back, I'll forever love you. I know you even if it's just for the last three weeks. You've been a bitch, lovable person, sad person. You've been sad all the time and I don't like that. I'm happy when you changed for the better.that's why I love you." He said before he leaned down and kissed me. It was the most wonderful thing I've felt. His kiss was sweet with a bit desperation.
He pulled back and smiled at me. I smiled back and before I can hold back,
"Give me kiss again." I asked and he chuckled.
"What's the magic word?" "Please." I guessed, smiling and he laughed and leaned down to kiss me again. I swear I became lost in the world with him.
But now I don't want to die.
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"I've found a cure." I heard the doctor said. Now there's a spark of hope! I opened one eye and saw my mother's back at me and the doctor was at her side.
"You do?" My mom said.
"Yes, in fact, I've discovered that the leukemia cells are still there though it wouldn't cause too much trouble as of now. It's acute leukemia. Since it is chronic myelogenous leukemia, I could suggest you bone marrow transplantation. It is quite effective for young people." The doctor suggested and I could hear my mom cry out of joy.
"That's wonderful, doctor. How much could it cost me? I would pay dearly for my daughter to live."
"It's expensive. It borders to two hundred to four hundred thousand dollars (That's just some make-up money.Don't trust the money's worth, okay?!)." As much as mother felt, we knew we have no such money. But oh well, first, I die because there's no cure. Now I'll die because there's a cure and it costs almost trillion bucks in yen!
For one reason or another, I felt nausea through me as I passed out to the dream world.
I somehow wonder, with all this cure stuff, if I will wake up and find myself in heaven.or hell.
To be continued..
GOMEN NASAI!!!! I'm sorry for the late update!!!! I know I slack a bit.I mean a lot. after I update the last sumairu chapters in a flash!!! I never meant to be THIS late!!!! I just.didn't notice the time!!!! I had so many stories to update and each has complicate part to continue!!! As in, when I can't remember the next line to put here, I'll go to the other story to continue a part of it!!!!
I'm having a very serious writer's block right now!!!!! I wish it go away,,but oh well..
Anyway, Thanks for your reviews!!!! I'm sorry if I annoyed certain people for this late update and thanks for those who are touched in their hearts!!! I know, even if you don't have sickness, you could feel the emptiness Kagome always feel!!!!!
Just don't forget to review my story and maybe I could write faster!!!!!
Push the button "GO" down there to review!!!!!
~sakura2649