A/N: Now time for a little explanation. Surprisingly to myself this chapter turned out longer than some of my previous chapters, but I'm cool with that. Thank you to all who reviewed the last chapter. I've got a few comments for you as well since I started replying to reviews in my a/ns, but i think it's fun to do that.

Mercury: Yes I agree Snape should cry too. I mean he's a human being after all (or at least I'd like to think so). The reason people alway make Harry to be the more vulnerable one I think is becuase he's younger and more carefree as with Severus who's older and usually more cold, so if someone's gotta be vulnerable people usually pick Harry. Though in my story now, I think they've both been vulnerable.

white owl: Actually no one else lives there. The house belongs to Severus, but I'm gonna go into that a little more next chapter.

blackunicorn: I tell ya I had no intentions of making that last chapter so sad. I was shocked that I nearly made myself cry. That's not too common of an occurrence.

0: For some reason a few people I know like the fic even though they're not a fan of the pairing. Like my best friend. The first time I told him I was writting a Harry/Snape fic, he scrunched his face and was all 'ew', but then I talked him into hearing some of it and he actually likes the fic. Still not a big fan of the pairing and some people may say that he just said he liked it cause he's my best friend, but he's not like that and is very truthful.... I know my chapters are short, but the deal is that usually I only have so much time to write or have the chapter planned out thoroughly in my head and it ends up coming out a lot shorter than I thought it would, though lately since I've started mainly typing my story instead of writting it on paper then typing it up the chapters seem to be getting longer. Oh well, who knows.

Randomness of the Moraco: Young Sev in most of the doujinshis i own is ultra bishi.

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To Love a Master
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Chapter 21
Turn the Page
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Harry managed to get Severus back to his house. He threw the invisibility cloak over the both of them as he mostly drug Severus along. He figured Severus didn't want the muggles to see him dragging him down the steet sobbing profusely. When they got back to the house Harry sat Severus down on the couch of the drawing room.

'I'll go get you a glass of water,' Harry said. He went to the kitchen to retrieve what he told Severus he would. When he came back. Severus had somewhat composed himself. He was sitting up straight pretending as though he hadn't shed a tear in years, but it was quite obvious from the redness in his eyes that he'd shed far too many today. Harry handed him the glass of water which he accepted and began drinking. 'Feeling any better.'

'Why did you follow me?'

Harry thought for a moment before answering. I'm not really sure why I did it, but I just knew something was up and I had to know, but how do I explain that to Sev?. 'I'm an idiotic overly curious Gryffindor, remember.'

'Hmph,' Severus replied. He stared into the glass of water silently.

'It's just that, Severus, I've told you so much about myself, and then theres things about me you already know. I always thought by telling you things that maybe it'd prompt you to tell me a few things. I mean, unlike me, not every wizard in the world knows your name and story.' Harry sat down on the couch beside Severus lying his head on the older man's shoulder. 'I thought by following you I might find out more about you. Find out how you became the man I love today.'

'You say you love me. I still don't see how anyone could love someone who's done such unlovely things as I have.'

'Maybe it would help if you told me about them,' Harry suggested. 'The things you've kept from people. Me of all people.'

Severus closed his eyes and breathed in deeply before opening his eyes again. He sat his glass of water down on a table beside the couch and stood up. He began walking toward the the stairs.

Harry hung his head and sighed.

Severus stopped at the foot of the stairs and looked back to Harry. 'Are you coming or not?'

Harry looked up at him, and then quickly stood and followed Severus as he walked up the stairs. They walked up to the third floor of the house where Severus entered the second door on his right from the top of the stairs. It was a bedroom. Sev's bedroom? In one corner there were stacks of books some which Harry recognized as a few books he'd had to have a copy of in the past 7 years. There were also some cualdrons a few old Slytherin flags like the ones waved at quidditch matches. The opposite wall was full of books about various things. Harry looked at the bed, placed in the middle of the wall you would face upon entering the room. Severus had taken off the jacket of his suit, kicked his shoes off and was lying down staring at the ceiling. Harry walked over to the bed and sat down on the corner of it to take off his shoes and then rolled over onto the bed next to Severus where he put his arms around the Severus' waist and his head on his chest listening to the other man's heart beat.

Hours passed as they stayed like this silently until Severus took one of the arms from behind his head and placed it around Harry's shoulders. 'Harry. I think...I think I'm ready to talk.'

'Go ahead,' Harry replied. I'm listening.

It was the summer after I graduated from Hogwarts....

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(flashback sequence)

Severus sat in a dull dark room in no particular place with a cauldron in front of him and a table full of ingredients (some legal some not). He waited like he had been told to do. The door to the room burst open and Severus quickly bowed his head, diverting his eyes to the ground.

'This,' an all too familiar voice hissed,'is what I need for you to make for me.'

Severus lifted his head just enough to see a book that listed the ingredients for a potion. Severus read through them. 'This is a very complicated poison.'

'With your skills you should have no trouble.'

'Oh, it's quite simple to brew just complicated as to tell what all effects on the drinker might be,' Severus explained. 'I can have it ready for you by tomorrow evening my lord.'

'Excellent.' This hissing voice ceased as it's owner exited the room.

Severus finally looked up and sighed. He always tensed up every time Voldemort was around and especially when he actually spoke to him. He then reviewed the ingredients for the potion the dark lord had asked for and started to work.

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The next evening there was a deatheater meeting and all were there in their black robes and masks. Voldemort had magically projected a large picture of a dinner party that was being hosted by a ministry official loyal to Voldemort. Voldemort had explained that all the witches and wizards that had been invited to the party were muggle lovers and that they were to get their just.

Severus looked at the image and looked around the table at the guests. At the meeting Severus had been standing up in front next to Voldemort and his main minions, Pettigrew and Malfoy.

After having said that the host had made drinks appear for everyone but himself on the table. Everyone began to drink from their glasses and the host merely sipped at his water.

'Mum. Dad,' he whispered.

The deatheater next to him looked over at him, obviously hearing his whispers.

All the guests at the party began caughing and clutching at thier chests in pain as they began to fall from their seats onto the floor or heads intio their dinner plates. After every single last one of the guests was dead, Voldemort made the image disappear. Many deatheaters were clapping and cheering.

'My dear followers. This was my plan to rid a few more of the muggle loving freaks for wizards, but I cannot take all the credit. This plan would never have been able to come about if not for the talents of one of your brothers. This would not have been possible without the brewing talents of Snape.' Voldemort walked up behind Severus placing his hands on his shoulders. 'Send your cheers to him.' The deatheaters began to cheer some more. Some of them chanting the name Snape. Voldemort leaned in towards where Severus ear would be under the hood of his robes and hissingly whispered, 'You've done well, my silent knife,'

That had been the total of the meething and Voldemort had left. Severus quickly found the closest bathroom, where he promptly puked into the toilet.

Someone walked in after him and spoke. 'Recognition a little too much for you Severus?'

Severus looked up to See Lucius Malfoy. 'Of course not. What I ate for dinner must have upset my stomach.'

'I'd beleive had your parents not been amongst those killed at that dinner party,' Lucius said.

'I killed my own parents,' Severus said.

'Last time I heard you talk of your parents you said you hated them and never wanted to see them again,' Lucius said.

'I was angry at them. I needed time away, but I didn't want them dead,' Severus explained. 'Now I'm the one that killed them.

'They were killed for our cause. In the end we will be triumphant, partially thanks to you. You've done your job and you, like myself, have been singled out from amongst our brethren. We call ourselves death eaters Severus. Death is included in our title.' With that Lucius left Severus to ponder more on his thoughts.

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'That's when I decided I needed to talk to someone. The only person I felt that would ever understand my situation was Dumbledore. That's when he made me the offer of being a spy. I accepted, feeling that if Iwere to die as a spy I would be redeemed somehow,' Severus explained. 'I'll understand if you wish not to have a murderer as your lover.'

'Severus,' Harry said. He propped himself up from his former position and put a hand on Severus cheek, looking him straight in the eyes. 'That was then. It's in the past. I love you here and now, and none of what was then matters to me. It explains a lot, but it does nothing to change the way I feel for you.'

Severus took the other hand from from behind his head and grabbed Harry's hand that was on his cheek and kissed the palm. 'You're too good for me. You know that?'

Harry shook his head. 'Never too good for you.' He leaned down and kissed Severus' lips. 'Just perfect for you.' He kissed him again and the kissing progressed to many more things that Harry and Severus both had much experience in.

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A/N: Explanation is grande isn't it? It took me a while longer to finish up this chapter than I thought it would. See I had things worked out in my brain and after grueling hours of typing and then re-typing and rewording I finally put my thoughts int words. Well please feel free to drop some reviews and let me know what you think I always get excited and more prompted to start on the next chapter the more reviews I get. Thank you all once again for actually taking time out of your day to read my story, you're just wicked cool people for doing so. Now in the meantime I'm going to go see if there are any new or updated Harry/Severus or Remus/Sirius stories up to read.