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Author's note: Ok here's the next chapter, I'm kind of struggling with what should happen next so if you have any idea, please feel free to email at innocent_angel_child@hotmail.com . Or should I just leave it at that. This takes place about 2 weeks after she was released from hospital.
Ty watched as Alex worked
"You don't need to do that Ali" he said glancing at her "Me or Carlos could do it, your supposed to be taking it easy"
"Ty I'm fine" Alex replied "You guys are letting me live here, eat your food and I feel like I should be something" That and if I keep busy I won't think about Deryk, Alex thought and shivered at the thought of him. Stupid crutches she thought, as she almost fell, they always get in the way. Yet she knew she needed them, her knee wasn't bearing weight yet.
"Kim's coming at 10" she told Ty "we're going to the park, so I'll be out of your and Nieto's way"
"Your not in the way" Ty answered automatically "Why don't you eat something before you go?"
"No I'm not hungry" she answered
"You don't enough" he protested "food is important"
" Can we talk about this later" she asked abruptly "Kim's going to be here soon"
"No we can't" Ty answered "Your working yourself in the ground, not eating and you refuse to sleep, your not taking care of yourself and I want to know why"
"I said I don't want to talk about this right now" Alex said through gritted teeth.
"Alex please" he tried " You need to eat, sleep and let yourself heal"
"Kim's bringing lunch" she replied, I can't do this now, can't explain now. The doorbell rang and Alex went to answer it, escaping from his questions.
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Kim waited, impatiently, for Alex to open the door.
"Hey, you ready to go? " Kim asked when Alex opened the door. She studied in her friend, surprised at how slim she was and the dark circles under her eyes.
"Yep" Alex answered. Kim watched her friend with anxious eyes as they made their way to the elevator. Is she really ok? Kim wondered as they got in. Impulsively she reached out to steady her friend as the elevator lurched, causing Alex to lose her balance.
"You ok?" Kim asked when she saw Alex wince.
"Yeah fine" she answered, closing her eyes wearily. Kim watched, her worry growing with every minute. She's not she realized, something's just not right. When they got down, Kim heard Alex sigh and glanced at the stairs that led to the parking lot.
"I'll bring the car around" She said and started down the stairs, leaving Alex to wait. They should have an elevator going down Kim thought bitterly. It took her 5 minutes to bring the car around.
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Alex crutched over to the car, and with Kim's help got in the car, flashes of white hot pain going through her knee. I hate this, having to depend on people, I wish this stupid knee would hurry up and get better. Feeling slightly dizzy she leaned her head against the seat as Kim walked around to the other side of the car.
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Kim watched Alex rest her head on the seat, she's absolutely exhausted, maybe I should've waited to do this, I don't get it, is she not resting and taking it easy. When they got there and had parked, Kim led Alex over to a secluded spot, on the edge of the park. She watched as Alex lowered herself to the ground, then plopped down beside her.
"So how ya doing Alex?" Kim asked "And don't say your fine cause any one can see that your not" Alex looked at her surprised, that she had picked up on that.
"I don't really know Kim" she admitted " Some days I feel like I'm ok again, but a lot of the time I feel like curling up and dying right there and then, I don't know what's wrong with me" Her blue eyes were troubled and shining with unshed tears. Kim opened her mouth to speak, but stopped when Alex started to speak again.
" I couldn't stop him Kim, he hurt me so much, and that was just before " she shuddered but continued " I was so scared that he was going to kill me, but now I wish he had"
"Alex!" Kim exclaimed, shocked. Oh no, don't say that Alex " No don't talk like that, I, we'll get through this, together, I promise, I'll help you every step of the way, just please promise me that you won't try to kill yourself."
"Well its true" Alex said " I do wish that , Kim, I couldn't stop him, and when I close my eyes, or when I'm not busy, I feel him in me again, feel him beating me, I can't do this anymore, it'll haunt me forever."
"He raped you?" Kim asked " Oh Alex" Oh god, now what do I do, I don't know, how I can help her "Look Alex I can't undo what happened, but it'll get better, he's dead Alex, he can't hurt you, we'll find someone to help ok?" she pleaded, tears raining down her cheeks, I can't let her kill herself, she's my partner and one of my best friends , I can't let her do that.
"I can't, Kim, I just want to forget it all" she replied, not meeting Kim's eyes.
"Look at me, we'll go together, and you only have to say what you want, I meant it when I said I'll help you get through this, please Alex" Alex looked away, still refusing to meet Kim's eyes as she thought it over.
"Ok" Alex gulped and agreed "I'll try" She finally met Kim's eyes and Kim was shocked by the pain, confusion and fear in them. She wrapped her arms Alex, trying to comfort her. Alex buried her face in Kim's shoulder and let the tears fall. Kim rubbed her friend's shuddering back, I wish I could stop the memories from hurting her.
"Its gonna be ok Alex, you'll see"
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Ty stared off into space as Sully drove the car. Images of Alex flashed through his mind, the pain in her eyes, when she had said she didn't want to talk about why she wasn't taking care of herself. I shouldn't have pushed........
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Alex opened the door, to Ty's apartment, smiling at Kim.
"Want to come in, watch a movie or something?" she asked "Unless you have Joey that is"
"Sure, Jimmy's got Joey, full custody remember?" Kim asked bitterly.
"Right, sorry" Alex replied, Why did I ask about that, she mentally kicked herself, that was so stupid. "What movie do you want to watch?"
"Erin Brockavich" Kim answered instantly "That is the BEST movie" Alex laughed.
"I don't think Ty and Carlos have that one, so we'll have to rent"
"I'll run over to my place and get my copy" Kim said, standing up "Back in five"
" K" Alex called, as she headed into the kitchen to look for popcorn.
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Kim pulled up to her place, thinking wistfully of Joey. I wish he could be here with me. She walked up the steps, not really paying attention to where she was going.
"Kim" Jimmy was standing there, with Joey in his arms. She stared at him, startled, What's he doing here?
"What are you doing here" she asked, confused, and she looked at Joey. He was crying and clinging to Jimmy.
"He, um" Jimmy started to talk, but Kim just held her arms out to Joey, taking him from Jimmy.
"Mommy, I fell and it really hurt, and, and" Joey burst into fresh sobs.
"What happened Jimmy" Kim demanded.
"That's what I was going to tell you, he fell of the playground at school"
"Fell? Jimmy? What are you talking about?" Kim rocked Joey back and forth "It's ok baby, its ok"
"His teacher said he was playing on the monkey bars and his hands slipped" Kim was focused on Joey, by now, murmuring to him softly.
"I wanna stay with you " he whimpered, with his face buried in her shoulder. Kim looked at Jimmy.
"Just tonight, please?" she pleaded with him "I'll drop him at school in the morning and you can pick him up"
"Ok" Jimmy reluctantly agreed as Kim disappeared into the house, she came back out a few minutes later, carrying the movie"
"Where are you going?" Jimmy demanded
"Over to Alex's" Kim replied "We're going to watch a movie" She carried Joey out to the car, and drove off.
"See you tomorrow" she called.
"Hey Alex" Kim called "Look who I found"
"Joey?" Alex looked at them as they came in from her spot on the table "Come here bud, I got some popcorn"
"Popcorn?" Joey asked, smiling, as Kim laughed and set him on the ground. Pretty soon they were all curled up on the couch watching the movie.
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Ty came in yawning, that shift seemed like it was never going to end, he opened the door and walked in. He smiled, for the first time that day, when he saw Kim, and Alex asleep on the couch, with Joey sandwiched in between them. Careful not to disturb Joey or Kim, he shook Alex, who glanced at him sleepily.
"Hey" she said softly, and started to reach for crutches. Ty shook his head at her, and lifted her up, she sighed and wrapped her arms around him.
"Thank you" she murmured, tiredly, as he carried her to bed.
"No problem" he answered, pulling the covers back and lying her down on the bed. Then he went into the other room and woke Kim up. She quietly gathered Joey up and left, saying a quiet good-bye. Ty watched them leave, and walked back into the bedroom. He lay down beside Alex, and cuddled her close, she wrapped her arms, around him and rested her head against his chest, only half awake. They fell asleep holding each other.
Author's note: Ok here's the next chapter, I'm kind of struggling with what should happen next so if you have any idea, please feel free to email at innocent_angel_child@hotmail.com . Or should I just leave it at that. This takes place about 2 weeks after she was released from hospital.
Ty watched as Alex worked
"You don't need to do that Ali" he said glancing at her "Me or Carlos could do it, your supposed to be taking it easy"
"Ty I'm fine" Alex replied "You guys are letting me live here, eat your food and I feel like I should be something" That and if I keep busy I won't think about Deryk, Alex thought and shivered at the thought of him. Stupid crutches she thought, as she almost fell, they always get in the way. Yet she knew she needed them, her knee wasn't bearing weight yet.
"Kim's coming at 10" she told Ty "we're going to the park, so I'll be out of your and Nieto's way"
"Your not in the way" Ty answered automatically "Why don't you eat something before you go?"
"No I'm not hungry" she answered
"You don't enough" he protested "food is important"
" Can we talk about this later" she asked abruptly "Kim's going to be here soon"
"No we can't" Ty answered "Your working yourself in the ground, not eating and you refuse to sleep, your not taking care of yourself and I want to know why"
"I said I don't want to talk about this right now" Alex said through gritted teeth.
"Alex please" he tried " You need to eat, sleep and let yourself heal"
"Kim's bringing lunch" she replied, I can't do this now, can't explain now. The doorbell rang and Alex went to answer it, escaping from his questions.
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Kim waited, impatiently, for Alex to open the door.
"Hey, you ready to go? " Kim asked when Alex opened the door. She studied in her friend, surprised at how slim she was and the dark circles under her eyes.
"Yep" Alex answered. Kim watched her friend with anxious eyes as they made their way to the elevator. Is she really ok? Kim wondered as they got in. Impulsively she reached out to steady her friend as the elevator lurched, causing Alex to lose her balance.
"You ok?" Kim asked when she saw Alex wince.
"Yeah fine" she answered, closing her eyes wearily. Kim watched, her worry growing with every minute. She's not she realized, something's just not right. When they got down, Kim heard Alex sigh and glanced at the stairs that led to the parking lot.
"I'll bring the car around" She said and started down the stairs, leaving Alex to wait. They should have an elevator going down Kim thought bitterly. It took her 5 minutes to bring the car around.
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Alex crutched over to the car, and with Kim's help got in the car, flashes of white hot pain going through her knee. I hate this, having to depend on people, I wish this stupid knee would hurry up and get better. Feeling slightly dizzy she leaned her head against the seat as Kim walked around to the other side of the car.
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Kim watched Alex rest her head on the seat, she's absolutely exhausted, maybe I should've waited to do this, I don't get it, is she not resting and taking it easy. When they got there and had parked, Kim led Alex over to a secluded spot, on the edge of the park. She watched as Alex lowered herself to the ground, then plopped down beside her.
"So how ya doing Alex?" Kim asked "And don't say your fine cause any one can see that your not" Alex looked at her surprised, that she had picked up on that.
"I don't really know Kim" she admitted " Some days I feel like I'm ok again, but a lot of the time I feel like curling up and dying right there and then, I don't know what's wrong with me" Her blue eyes were troubled and shining with unshed tears. Kim opened her mouth to speak, but stopped when Alex started to speak again.
" I couldn't stop him Kim, he hurt me so much, and that was just before " she shuddered but continued " I was so scared that he was going to kill me, but now I wish he had"
"Alex!" Kim exclaimed, shocked. Oh no, don't say that Alex " No don't talk like that, I, we'll get through this, together, I promise, I'll help you every step of the way, just please promise me that you won't try to kill yourself."
"Well its true" Alex said " I do wish that , Kim, I couldn't stop him, and when I close my eyes, or when I'm not busy, I feel him in me again, feel him beating me, I can't do this anymore, it'll haunt me forever."
"He raped you?" Kim asked " Oh Alex" Oh god, now what do I do, I don't know, how I can help her "Look Alex I can't undo what happened, but it'll get better, he's dead Alex, he can't hurt you, we'll find someone to help ok?" she pleaded, tears raining down her cheeks, I can't let her kill herself, she's my partner and one of my best friends , I can't let her do that.
"I can't, Kim, I just want to forget it all" she replied, not meeting Kim's eyes.
"Look at me, we'll go together, and you only have to say what you want, I meant it when I said I'll help you get through this, please Alex" Alex looked away, still refusing to meet Kim's eyes as she thought it over.
"Ok" Alex gulped and agreed "I'll try" She finally met Kim's eyes and Kim was shocked by the pain, confusion and fear in them. She wrapped her arms Alex, trying to comfort her. Alex buried her face in Kim's shoulder and let the tears fall. Kim rubbed her friend's shuddering back, I wish I could stop the memories from hurting her.
"Its gonna be ok Alex, you'll see"
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Ty stared off into space as Sully drove the car. Images of Alex flashed through his mind, the pain in her eyes, when she had said she didn't want to talk about why she wasn't taking care of herself. I shouldn't have pushed........
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Alex opened the door, to Ty's apartment, smiling at Kim.
"Want to come in, watch a movie or something?" she asked "Unless you have Joey that is"
"Sure, Jimmy's got Joey, full custody remember?" Kim asked bitterly.
"Right, sorry" Alex replied, Why did I ask about that, she mentally kicked herself, that was so stupid. "What movie do you want to watch?"
"Erin Brockavich" Kim answered instantly "That is the BEST movie" Alex laughed.
"I don't think Ty and Carlos have that one, so we'll have to rent"
"I'll run over to my place and get my copy" Kim said, standing up "Back in five"
" K" Alex called, as she headed into the kitchen to look for popcorn.
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Kim pulled up to her place, thinking wistfully of Joey. I wish he could be here with me. She walked up the steps, not really paying attention to where she was going.
"Kim" Jimmy was standing there, with Joey in his arms. She stared at him, startled, What's he doing here?
"What are you doing here" she asked, confused, and she looked at Joey. He was crying and clinging to Jimmy.
"He, um" Jimmy started to talk, but Kim just held her arms out to Joey, taking him from Jimmy.
"Mommy, I fell and it really hurt, and, and" Joey burst into fresh sobs.
"What happened Jimmy" Kim demanded.
"That's what I was going to tell you, he fell of the playground at school"
"Fell? Jimmy? What are you talking about?" Kim rocked Joey back and forth "It's ok baby, its ok"
"His teacher said he was playing on the monkey bars and his hands slipped" Kim was focused on Joey, by now, murmuring to him softly.
"I wanna stay with you " he whimpered, with his face buried in her shoulder. Kim looked at Jimmy.
"Just tonight, please?" she pleaded with him "I'll drop him at school in the morning and you can pick him up"
"Ok" Jimmy reluctantly agreed as Kim disappeared into the house, she came back out a few minutes later, carrying the movie"
"Where are you going?" Jimmy demanded
"Over to Alex's" Kim replied "We're going to watch a movie" She carried Joey out to the car, and drove off.
"See you tomorrow" she called.
"Hey Alex" Kim called "Look who I found"
"Joey?" Alex looked at them as they came in from her spot on the table "Come here bud, I got some popcorn"
"Popcorn?" Joey asked, smiling, as Kim laughed and set him on the ground. Pretty soon they were all curled up on the couch watching the movie.
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Ty came in yawning, that shift seemed like it was never going to end, he opened the door and walked in. He smiled, for the first time that day, when he saw Kim, and Alex asleep on the couch, with Joey sandwiched in between them. Careful not to disturb Joey or Kim, he shook Alex, who glanced at him sleepily.
"Hey" she said softly, and started to reach for crutches. Ty shook his head at her, and lifted her up, she sighed and wrapped her arms around him.
"Thank you" she murmured, tiredly, as he carried her to bed.
"No problem" he answered, pulling the covers back and lying her down on the bed. Then he went into the other room and woke Kim up. She quietly gathered Joey up and left, saying a quiet good-bye. Ty watched them leave, and walked back into the bedroom. He lay down beside Alex, and cuddled her close, she wrapped her arms, around him and rested her head against his chest, only half awake. They fell asleep holding each other.