Year of the Panther
Chapter 6: Gone
By Mongoose
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Warnings: Shounen ai, 1+2 (I'll notify ya'll of any others as they appear) .A.U.! Fairy
tale, PG13, I guess. Swear words of every imaginable kind, violence.
Disclaimer: I don't own the G-boyz. I'm not making money off this. Nuf said. Any
original characters are mine; don't use 'em without my permission!
C & C please! You can reach me at demonangel600@comcast.net
Notes: I was inspired by a movie I saw a long time ago…very sad...I don't know who it's
by. It's called "Fluke"
IMPORTANT note! POVs will change a lot and will be signaled by […..] also, this is
NOT a death fic. I know it looks like it but let me get the rest typed and you will see!
Now finally…the fic!
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[Heero]
When I got home, I went straight to the bedroom. I curled up is a fetal ball and just lay there. I didn't cried, didn't go around destroying household items. All I did was lay there. But this was bad. I had thought if I could just let out my emotions, I'd be alright, but now I discovered that it wasn't so easy. All I had now was a gaping hole where the hurt and loss should have been, and that scared me.
I tried to think of anything else to do, anything, other than just lay here, watching the hole inside my heart grow bigger and bigger and bigger…
Eventually I drifted into a dreamless sleep where all I saw were the backs of my eyelids, which I imagined to be that empty nothingness –the hole in my heart.
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The light of dawn flooded threw the window and pierced threw my eyelids to brutally force me awake. /damn it! I forgot to close the curtains. Duo will be so pissed/ wait….I was missing something…something terribly important…/Duo!....was gone/ It all came back to me in a rush. But I had no grief, only that hole where it should have been, and it was growing. I dragged my aching body out of bed as my previously tense muscles screamed in protest. I ignored their cries and got up anyway. Or I *tried* to get up. Unfortunately that was made very difficult by the *huge* black cat that was laying across my legs.
I once again reached for my non-existent gun, remembered it was gone, then wriggled and squirmed from underneath the heavy body.
No small wonder I hurt so much. The damned thing has cut off the circulation to my legs. I gave it a vicious kick that managed to shove it towards the foot of the bed. I continued to kick it until it rolled off the bed and hit the floor with a thump.
I mentally reviewed the last few minutes. There was a ca- no that was a panther- a black panther sitting…on my bed. It had somehow managed to get there in the night, without my knowing it. Wait! A panther…in northern Sank? That wasn't possible. Perhaps an escapee from a nearby zoo? According to my inspection of the area there were no zoos on this scarcely populated side of Sank. A traveling circus then? I doubted that. There were no big cities out here, but tiny towns with houses scattered all over the country side. They wouldn't get any business way out here. The biggest of the feline family inhabited Africa and Asia. Sank was in Europe. What the Hell was going on?
Was I losing my mind? Maybe. It was certainly conceivable. Duo had been one of the few things to keep me sane during the war…and now…he was gone. I decided that I was hallucinating. Best to ignore my hallucination then. I peered over the over the end of the bed at my "hallucination", just to make sure of what I saw to find my imagined panther still sleeping peacefully as if it hadn't just been kicked off my bed. I sighed. I was defiantly hallucinating.
/Duo!/ I still hadn't buried Duo…/oh Kami, I don't want to…/ But I knew I had to.
I moaned and slung my feet over the side of the bed, throwing the blankets off. I was still wearing my cloths from yesterday but I didn't care. I shoved some sandals on and headed out of the sliding glass doors of our…my bedroom. I went around to the side of the house where Duo's little garden was. There, sure enough, was a shovel.
Every nerve in my body pleaded with me, telling me not to touch the shovel, to never ever go back to that lakeside ever again. But I ignored it all, picked up the shovel and set off for the lake at a light jog.
When I got there though, Duo was gone. Where Duo had lain grew a thick patch of deadly nightshade flowers. Or I'd thought he'd lain there…
I'd brought something with me. It was a dried yellow flower. I'd intended to burry it with Duo. Not knowing what else to do, I laid the flower down amidst the deadly nightshade, turned around and left.
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-End of part 6
I typed this really fast so if you see some mistakes please email my at demonangel600@comcast.net
Chapter 6: Gone
By Mongoose
************************
Warnings: Shounen ai, 1+2 (I'll notify ya'll of any others as they appear) .A.U.! Fairy
tale, PG13, I guess. Swear words of every imaginable kind, violence.
Disclaimer: I don't own the G-boyz. I'm not making money off this. Nuf said. Any
original characters are mine; don't use 'em without my permission!
C & C please! You can reach me at demonangel600@comcast.net
Notes: I was inspired by a movie I saw a long time ago…very sad...I don't know who it's
by. It's called "Fluke"
IMPORTANT note! POVs will change a lot and will be signaled by […..] also, this is
NOT a death fic. I know it looks like it but let me get the rest typed and you will see!
Now finally…the fic!
************************
[Heero]
When I got home, I went straight to the bedroom. I curled up is a fetal ball and just lay there. I didn't cried, didn't go around destroying household items. All I did was lay there. But this was bad. I had thought if I could just let out my emotions, I'd be alright, but now I discovered that it wasn't so easy. All I had now was a gaping hole where the hurt and loss should have been, and that scared me.
I tried to think of anything else to do, anything, other than just lay here, watching the hole inside my heart grow bigger and bigger and bigger…
Eventually I drifted into a dreamless sleep where all I saw were the backs of my eyelids, which I imagined to be that empty nothingness –the hole in my heart.
_________________
The light of dawn flooded threw the window and pierced threw my eyelids to brutally force me awake. /damn it! I forgot to close the curtains. Duo will be so pissed/ wait….I was missing something…something terribly important…/Duo!....was gone/ It all came back to me in a rush. But I had no grief, only that hole where it should have been, and it was growing. I dragged my aching body out of bed as my previously tense muscles screamed in protest. I ignored their cries and got up anyway. Or I *tried* to get up. Unfortunately that was made very difficult by the *huge* black cat that was laying across my legs.
I once again reached for my non-existent gun, remembered it was gone, then wriggled and squirmed from underneath the heavy body.
No small wonder I hurt so much. The damned thing has cut off the circulation to my legs. I gave it a vicious kick that managed to shove it towards the foot of the bed. I continued to kick it until it rolled off the bed and hit the floor with a thump.
I mentally reviewed the last few minutes. There was a ca- no that was a panther- a black panther sitting…on my bed. It had somehow managed to get there in the night, without my knowing it. Wait! A panther…in northern Sank? That wasn't possible. Perhaps an escapee from a nearby zoo? According to my inspection of the area there were no zoos on this scarcely populated side of Sank. A traveling circus then? I doubted that. There were no big cities out here, but tiny towns with houses scattered all over the country side. They wouldn't get any business way out here. The biggest of the feline family inhabited Africa and Asia. Sank was in Europe. What the Hell was going on?
Was I losing my mind? Maybe. It was certainly conceivable. Duo had been one of the few things to keep me sane during the war…and now…he was gone. I decided that I was hallucinating. Best to ignore my hallucination then. I peered over the over the end of the bed at my "hallucination", just to make sure of what I saw to find my imagined panther still sleeping peacefully as if it hadn't just been kicked off my bed. I sighed. I was defiantly hallucinating.
/Duo!/ I still hadn't buried Duo…/oh Kami, I don't want to…/ But I knew I had to.
I moaned and slung my feet over the side of the bed, throwing the blankets off. I was still wearing my cloths from yesterday but I didn't care. I shoved some sandals on and headed out of the sliding glass doors of our…my bedroom. I went around to the side of the house where Duo's little garden was. There, sure enough, was a shovel.
Every nerve in my body pleaded with me, telling me not to touch the shovel, to never ever go back to that lakeside ever again. But I ignored it all, picked up the shovel and set off for the lake at a light jog.
When I got there though, Duo was gone. Where Duo had lain grew a thick patch of deadly nightshade flowers. Or I'd thought he'd lain there…
I'd brought something with me. It was a dried yellow flower. I'd intended to burry it with Duo. Not knowing what else to do, I laid the flower down amidst the deadly nightshade, turned around and left.
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-End of part 6
I typed this really fast so if you see some mistakes please email my at demonangel600@comcast.net