A/N: Okay, pissed off again. Once again I was screwed over by my disk and
can't remember what I put in the original chapter! So freakin frustrating!
It started out as a pretty good chapter too. And then it goes and tells
me there's a problem with it! UGH. So, now you don't get the good chapter
again and I'm really sorry about that!
"When did you get a tattoo?" Jessy walked into the locker room as I toweled my hair dry. I looked at her and smiled. Stacy walked by us with that bubbly smile of hers towards Andrew who was standing in the doorway. I waved at him and he nodded as he placed his arm around Stacy's waist.
"Awhile ago. Did you wanna see it?" I turned around and lifted up the back of my dark blue tank top. "I have my belly button pierced too. Did ya realize that?"
"When Ben told me about the tattoo I was a little shocked. I knew you always wanted one but I guess I never really thought you'd go through with it." She continued to examine it.
"Yeah, well, I absolutely love it!" I smiled.
"You've changed. Ya know? I mean, you're not the quiet and sometimes shy girl you used to be." I turned around to face her. "She always used wear baggy t-shirts and jeans with sneakers. Always had her hair in a ponytail. She always complained about dressing up. You're not that girl anymore. I don't even know who the real you is anymore."
"I know I've changed. A LOT! But this is me. And so was that. Yes, I'm more outgoing. Yes, I'm more adventurous. Yes, I'm not shy anymore. And yes, my clothes have changed drastically. The one thing that has stayed the same is how much you mean to me. Jess, you are my family. You always have been. My personality is still the same as it used to be. Just a little strong. This is me. You've always known that deep down. I'm just around people now that will accept that. That's why it's coming out like it is. Do you think I would have been accepted at Central looking like this? Hell no!" I looked at her and noticed her eyes begin to well up with tears. "And I swear I will kill you if you start crying cause then I'm gonna start crying and I just put some eyeliner on!"
"Sorry, I'm trying not to. Really!" she laughed as Kristen came dancing into the room.
"Are we goin to party or what?!" she announced as Ben, Jesse, Jeff, Shane, Matt, and Amy followed her in.
"Party?" Jess and I asked in unison.
"Yeah, let's go check out the nite life around here!" Kristen said excitedly.
"Alright. Make a quick trip to the hotel to change and stuff. Then we'll go round up some more people and get our groove on!" I laughed as Shane kissed my cheek. He hoisted one of my bags on his already full shoulder and we walked out of the locker room.
"You guys got a room someplace right?" Jeff asked as we loaded up Shane's rental car.
"Yeah, there's a hotel right around the corner from here. It's run down, but really cheap," Jesse said.
"OH SHIT! You are not going there. You'll be staying with us. We'll sneak you into our rooms," I said crossing my arms.
"It's not a big deal. The room was like 25 bucks," Ben said.
"No, you don't understand. One I ran away and came here, I went to that hotel. And it was the scariest thing I've ever done. It was so horrible there. Please just stay with us? It would make me feel a lot better about things," I said leaning against the car.
"Was it really that bad?" Ben asked.
"It was totally unsafe," Jeff answered.
"Alright then. We'll stay with you guys," Jesse said.
"GREAT!!!" I said as I got into the car. The others followed Shane, Jeff, Matt, Amy and I to the hotel. We showed them up to our rooms and we split up. Kristen, Amy, Jessy, and I got ready in mine and Shane's room. While Shane, Matt, Jeff, Ben, and Jesse got ready in Jeff's room. About a half hour later us girls were done and waiting on the guys.
"Case, wanna come with me to see if anyone wants to come with us?" Amy asked as she started out the door.
"Sure. You guys can play on my lap top while I'm gone if you want. It's pretty easy to use. Oh and go to my website extremecarolina.com. I think you'll find some very entertaining pictures on there!" I laughed as I followed Amy out the door.
"I really like your friends. Well, Kristen kinda gets on my nerves. She's just too peppy," Amy said as we walked down the hall.
"Yeah, I'm glad they drove down to spend sometime with me. I really miss them. Jessy and were like sisters growing up. She actually told me today that she thought I was changing and that she didn't know who the real me was," I laughed.
"Case, you have changed. Even in the amount of time that I've known you. And I couldn't imagine you being any other way!" She wrapped her arms around me in a hug before knocking on a hotel room door.
"Hey girls. What's up?" Jay asked opening the door wearing a pair of nice black jeans and a skin tight tan t-shirt. His hair was pulled back as best as possible and he smiled.
"Hey, we were wondering if you wanted to go out with us tonite," I said as he allowed us into the room he was sharing with Chris Irvine. "You too Chris."
"Well, to have you two girls by our side tonite would be our pleasure!" Chris smiled egotistically. "And of course you should be honored that we accepted."
"OH PUH-LEASE!" Amy and I said together.
"Besides, it's not just us. Shane, Jeff, Matt, the Jesses, Kristen, and Ben are coming too. We were just rounding up a bunch of people to come out with us," Amy added.
"Oh, I see. Now, I'm hurt," Chris said sitting on his bed sulking.
"Would a hug make you feel better?" I asked walking over to him.
"You know it would!" he replied with his arms stretched out to me.
"Hey, Jay, Chris wants a hug!" I joked.
"WHAT?!" they exclaimed as I began to laugh.
"Just kidding," I said as I gave Chris a big hug. He threw me down on the bed and kissed my forehead as he leaned over me. We laughed as he pulled me up.
"So? You guys in or what?" Amy asked crossing her arms.
"Yeah, sure why not?" Jay said.
"Just give us 10 minutes to get ready," Chris said digging through his bag for clothes to wear.
"Alright. Meet us in Casey and Shane's room," Amy said as we walked out the door and continued our search for party people.
"Is Sean O'Haire here?" I asked as we stood outside Adam and Kurt's room.
"Possibly. Why? Like him or something?" Amy joked as she knocked on the door.
"Well, he is a massive hottie," I laughed as Kurt opened the door.
"Thank you. I know I am. It must be the gold medals, right?" Kurt asked as we walked inside his room.
"Oh yes. The medals just make all the girls hot from within!" I laughed.
"I knew it!" Kurt laughed. "So, what brings you two here?"
"Isn't it obvious? They couldn't stay away from my awesomeness!" Adam said walking out of the bathroom.
"That's it. You got us all figured out. What am I going to tell Matt?!" Amy joked.
"Haha. Very funny," Adam said ruffling up Amy's hair.
"Hey now, not the hair. We're goin out tonite," I said.
"TOGETHER?!" Kurt and Adam exclaimed.
"What is it with guys?! Jesus," I said.
"Yes and no. Yes we're both goin out tonite, but with a few other people AND our boyfriends," Amy said.
"And we wanted to know if you two wanted to join us," I said.
"I would, but I'm expecting a call from Karen," Kurt said.
"I'll go out with you guys," Adam said throwing his leather jacket on.
"Great. Come on, we're goin to gather more people," Amy said as we waved to Kurt and walked out the door.
"So, who else are you guys getting to go?" Adam asked as he put his arms around our shoulders.
"John? Maybe Rey? Ummmm....Rob? Oh, we should ask Jamie and Nidia. And Stacy and Andrew. Plus Torrie and Peter," I said as we stopped in front of John's door.
"Case, you may want to leave for this one," Amy said bringing her hand up to knock on the door.
"Why?" I asked curiously.
"Because of who's rooming with John tonite," Adam said putting his arms protectively around me.
"Hello?" Randy asked opening the door. I scowled at him and turned away. "Can I help you two with something?"
"Ummm....there's three of us," Adam said.
"Oh? Who else is there?" Randy asked.
"Adam, don't bother. Just get John so we can be on our way," I said coldly.
"Is John around?" Amy asked.
"Yeah, we're all goin out tonite and wanted to know if he wanted to come with us," Adam added.
"No, sorry. He went out with Stacy and Andrew. I think they were meeting up with Dawn Marie and maybe Jamie and Nidia," Randy answered.
"Okay, thanks," Adam said as we walked away.
"You two really don't like each other do you?" Adam said pulling me close to him as we walked.
"Nope, hate each other. He's an ass," I said with a smile.
"Maybe we should just head back to the room. I mean, I'm sure the guys are done and your friends are probably getting bored and Chris and Jay will be waiting for us," Amy said as we turned around to go back to my room.
"I can't believe you put up those pictures from when you were up," Jess said as she closed the top down on the lap top.
"I had to. They just belonged on there. Don't ya just love the one with me and Ben?" I laughed.
"Which one? There was like two," Kristen said.
"The one where I have him in a head lock and he's lifting me up on his back," I smiled.
"Yeah, that was cute. I bet Shane wasn't too impressed though," Jessy said.
"Not at all!" I exclaimed.
"Not at all what?" Jeff asked walking into the bedroom.
"Nothing," I said shyly. I looked at Shane and smiled as he swept me up into his arms and kissed me passionately. "What was that for?"
"Just because, I don't know. I love you." He put me back on the floor and kissed me once again. "Wow, you look beautiful tonite."
"Thank you very much," I said as I turned around for him. I was wearing something totally uncharacteristic for me. I wore a silver mini skirt that Sara had gotten me for Christmas and my black halter top that had a ring that went around my neck. The top was semi short and showed off my belly button ring and tattoo. I changed my belly button ring to one that was a silver butterfly dangling down with two purple gemstones. I had on my black knee high boots and my hair was down and slightly curled, thanks to the help of Amy. I had glitter all over my body and my eyes had silver eye shadow on them.
"Where's the party at?!" Jay announced as he walked in.
"We're goin, we're goin," I said with a laugh as I took Shane's hand and we all walked down to the cars.
"How are we gonna do this? We need designated drivers," Matt said very responsibly.
"Matt, we have four people here who can't drink," I said.
"Oh yeah! Sometimes I forget that you can drink but your friends can't," Matt said as we got into the cars.
"What does he mean that you can drink?" Jessy asked.
"I have a fake id," I whispered with a smile.
"SNEAKY!" she laughed as she got into her new grand am with the others.
Shane, Jeff, Matt, Amy, and I led the way to one of the best clubs we could think of in Boston. Once there we paid the cover charge and us girls went right to the dance floor. All the guys except Ben and Jesse went off to the bar to get us girls that could drink, drinks. Ben and Jesse stayed to supervise us. Jessy eventually stopped and walked to her boyfriend and stood with him.
"Hey, I got you a beer," Shane said as he wrapped his arm around my waist from behind me. I felt him rub up close to me and I took the drink from him I took a sip as we began to grind to the music. I looked over at my friend Kristen, who seemed to be having a fun time dancing with Jeff. Adam had finally dragged Jessy on the dance floor. Chris had joined Shane and I, while Jay danced with Amy and Matt. It seemed that the only people not having a good time were the only two people that didn't like to dance in the first place. Jesse and Ben sat off to the side watching all our stuff.
"Shane, do you mind if I go ask Ben to dance? He seems so, I don't know, lonely?" I whispered as we danced close together.
"I suppose so. I'll keep Jesse company," Shane said as we walked over to them.
"Ben, ya wanna dance with me?" I asked reaching for his hand. He nodded and we walked onto the dance floor.
Ben wasn't a good dance like Shane. But he did have a good time making a fool of himself and making us all laugh. He was just one of those guys that was willing to lay it all out there and didn't care what anyone said about it. After a few songs we all decided to take a break and sit down. Jeff, Shane, Matt, Amy, and I were all working on our 3rd drink and I was feeling the affects of it heavily. I did a body shot with Shane and we all decided it would be a good idea to go out and get something to eat. So, the only place we thought of that was open at 3 in the morning was Denny's. Jesse drove Shane's car while Ben drove Adam's. Jessy followed us in her car to Denny's and we all gathered at a big table.
"This has been a blast!" I exclaimed as we ordered.
"Yeah it has. I'm glad ya'll could make it down here," Matt said.
"When do you guys have to be back? Actually when do any of us have to be leaving?" I asked with a laugh.
"Baby, we have to be in New Hampshire by 2 in the afternoon," Shane answered.
"And we're skipping our classes," Kristen said.
"Our flight lives for Utah at noon," Adam said as he slipped his hand on my knee. He smiled as me and squeezed it lightly.
"I wish this didn't have to end," I said sadly.
"We'll definitely have to do it again real soon," Ben said with a smile. I nodded happily, actually it was probably more of a drunken happiness, but what does it matter?!
We finished up our "breakfast" and went back to the hotel. There were people all over the place in mine and Shane's room. We had decided to stay up and order some ice cream and video games. We were all passed out by 6 in the morning.
BEEP BEEP BEEP
"Whatever the hell that thing is.....KILL IT!" I yelled as I tried to open my eyes. It was the toughest thing I ever tried to do. I was definitely hung over and not impressed about it.
"Sorry, that would be my watch," Jesse said switching it off. He stretched and began waking Jessy, Kristen, and Ben up. "We gotta get going. It's 9:30."
"Please tell me you did not just say that it's 9:30," Adam said.
"Yeah, man, he did," Jay answered.
"Oh fuck! I gotta get packing. I'll see you all later. Bye Case. I love you kid," Adam said kissing my cheek.
"If you really loved me, you wouldn't talk so loud!" I said covering my head with a pillow.
"Well, we might as well leave with everyone else," Jeff said as he stretched from his bed in the bathroom.
"Why'd you sleep in the bathroom bro?" Matt asked walking over to him.
"Seemed like the only spot not taken at the time," Jeff answered.
"How are you not so blah? You drank just as much as me," I said as I pulled myself up to my feet.
"I don't know. It must be the weight and the fact that I'm a guy or something," Jeff replied as he looked at me. He burst out laughing and almost fell on the floor in doing so. I raised an eyebrow and tilted my head to the side.
"And what is your issue?" I asked walking closer to him. I looked around at everyone and slowly each one began to laugh. "I'm getting a complex here!"
"Hun, go looking the mirror," Amy said through her laughter. I pushed Jeff out of the way and walked into the bathroom.
"Oh great! I look like raccoon girl!" I exclaimed as everyone laughed harder. I scowled and began washing my face off.
"No, keep it....it's a good look for you," Matt joked.
"I hate you," I said with a smile.
"Are we ready to go?" Ben asked as they all tried to compose themselves. Kristen, Jesse, and Jessy nodded. I sighed deeply as I walked out to say goodbye to them.
"I'll see you guys soon. I promise," I said waving goodbye to them. Jessy stayed back and took a deep breath.
"I hate this. I miss you so much. I really hate not being able to just turn around and see you there," Jessy said pulling me into a hug.
"I know. Me too. Hey, have you talked to Amy at all?" I asked.
"Not really. Why?"
"I was just wondering what she's up to. Maybe I'll IM her or call her. If you talk to her, let her know that I'm still around and asking about her," I laughed.
"Will do! Bye Case," she said walking out the door.
"You two were really close weren't you?" Jay asked.
"Oh yeah! Totally close. She's my sister. Seriously, growing up, her house was like another home for me!" I laughed as I walked into the bathroom to shower.
"Hey Case!" Jeff yelled over the running water of the shower.
"YEAH?!" I yelled back.
"Can I come in? To talk? There's no one here! They all left me!"
"Sure!" I heard the door creek open and watched him sit on the sink counter through the shower curtain.
"Do you think this angle that we're goin into is gonna change our friendship?" he asked with a sigh.
"No. Nothing could change our friendship. Why do you ask?"
"Well, it's just something different that we've never had to experience as friends," he said.
"Stop worrying. It'll give you gray hair!" I joked.
"You give me gray hair!" he laughed.
"I try!"
"What do you think of Karen?" he asked with an almost excited tone.
"Truthfully?" I asked.
"Yeah, of course!" he replied.
"Well, I don't know. She's ummm....well, I don't know. I'm a little unsure of her. There's just something that I don't like about her. I can't really explain it. Like she was all about what I liked and what I wanted. It's like she was trying to be like me to a point. But with certain things it was almost like I was being out casted by her for liking something she didn't," I said.
"So, you don't like her?" he asked hurtfully.
"Sorry Jeff. No, I don't. Not really. But I don't know her like you do. She could be the best girl ever," I said as I turned off the water. "Can you hand me a towel?"
I heard him giggle a little before sticking a small face cloth behind the curtain. I ripped out of his hands and threw it back at him. "HAHA!! Very funny. Ass!" I laughed as he put a regular sized towel behind the curtain. I wrapped it around my body and pulled the curtain over. I rung out my hair one last time and flipped it over my shoulder. I stepped out of the tub and stood in front of Jeff. His eyes were as wide as could be and his jaw seemed to hit the floor. I put my hands on my hips and gave him a half smile. "Is there a problem?"
"I....ummmm...errr....aaahhhhhh....what?" he said. I laughed as I rolled my eyes. I picked up my comb and walked out into the bedroom with him following me closely.
"Are you okay?" I asked as I sat on the bed combing out my hair.
"Ummmmm.....I uh....well....I...."
"Oooookkkkkaaaayyyyy," I said as I turned my boom box on. Trish had left her cd with Skid Row in the player and it started blaring from the speakers. I looked up at Jeff and smiled. He gave me an unsure smile as I stood up and began rockin out to "Youth Gone Wild". I grabbed his hands and made him start dancing with me. He finally got into it as we kept dancing closer and closer. The song changed to a Christina Aguilera song, "Can't Hold Us Down", and we continued to dance. It was getting to the point where we were dancing like couples would dance. It was weird, but it felt so right at the same time.
"Ummmm....are we interrupting something?" Amy asked as her and Matt walked in the room. Jeff and I immediately jumped away from each other as if one of us caught on fire.
"No, why would you think that?" I asked as Jeff hurried out the door. Matt followed him closely.
"Oh no reason except for the fact that I thought the two of you might be GETTING IT ON in here soon!" she laughed. I rolled my eyes as I grabbed some clothes out of my bag.
"Bro, what the hell do you think you were doin in there?!" Matt yelled as he spun his brother around.
"Matt, I can't do this anymore. I'm completely in love with her. I want her more than anything in this world. Ya know, I've always been able to get pretty much anything I've wanted in life...but I can't have her. And I'll never have her. I don't know how I'm gonna be able to do this new angle with her. Bro, I just can't do all that I'm supposed to do with her," Jeff said as he slid to the floor and leaned his head against the wall. Matt sat next to him and put his hand on Jeff's shoulder.
"I know Jeff. But you have to get over her. She's in love with Shane. You know in your heart that they'll be getting married. It's so obvious," Matt said.
"Then why do I feel this connection with her whenever we're together? And I know she feels it too. I can feel it off her!"
"I don't know maybe she does have some feelings for you. But her feelings for Shane over ride the ones she has for you. I'm sorry bro." Matt stood after patting his younger brother on the shoulder. Jeff sat there with his back resting on the wall and his head down, looking at the floor.
"But we even have a song. We are youth gone wild. She and Shane aint got nothing like that. We belong together! We share something that they don't. God! Why are you so cruel! You bring this angel into my life and then take her away! How can you do that?!" Jeff put his hands on the back of his head and thought about his life and how it would be without me.
"When did you get a tattoo?" Jessy walked into the locker room as I toweled my hair dry. I looked at her and smiled. Stacy walked by us with that bubbly smile of hers towards Andrew who was standing in the doorway. I waved at him and he nodded as he placed his arm around Stacy's waist.
"Awhile ago. Did you wanna see it?" I turned around and lifted up the back of my dark blue tank top. "I have my belly button pierced too. Did ya realize that?"
"When Ben told me about the tattoo I was a little shocked. I knew you always wanted one but I guess I never really thought you'd go through with it." She continued to examine it.
"Yeah, well, I absolutely love it!" I smiled.
"You've changed. Ya know? I mean, you're not the quiet and sometimes shy girl you used to be." I turned around to face her. "She always used wear baggy t-shirts and jeans with sneakers. Always had her hair in a ponytail. She always complained about dressing up. You're not that girl anymore. I don't even know who the real you is anymore."
"I know I've changed. A LOT! But this is me. And so was that. Yes, I'm more outgoing. Yes, I'm more adventurous. Yes, I'm not shy anymore. And yes, my clothes have changed drastically. The one thing that has stayed the same is how much you mean to me. Jess, you are my family. You always have been. My personality is still the same as it used to be. Just a little strong. This is me. You've always known that deep down. I'm just around people now that will accept that. That's why it's coming out like it is. Do you think I would have been accepted at Central looking like this? Hell no!" I looked at her and noticed her eyes begin to well up with tears. "And I swear I will kill you if you start crying cause then I'm gonna start crying and I just put some eyeliner on!"
"Sorry, I'm trying not to. Really!" she laughed as Kristen came dancing into the room.
"Are we goin to party or what?!" she announced as Ben, Jesse, Jeff, Shane, Matt, and Amy followed her in.
"Party?" Jess and I asked in unison.
"Yeah, let's go check out the nite life around here!" Kristen said excitedly.
"Alright. Make a quick trip to the hotel to change and stuff. Then we'll go round up some more people and get our groove on!" I laughed as Shane kissed my cheek. He hoisted one of my bags on his already full shoulder and we walked out of the locker room.
"You guys got a room someplace right?" Jeff asked as we loaded up Shane's rental car.
"Yeah, there's a hotel right around the corner from here. It's run down, but really cheap," Jesse said.
"OH SHIT! You are not going there. You'll be staying with us. We'll sneak you into our rooms," I said crossing my arms.
"It's not a big deal. The room was like 25 bucks," Ben said.
"No, you don't understand. One I ran away and came here, I went to that hotel. And it was the scariest thing I've ever done. It was so horrible there. Please just stay with us? It would make me feel a lot better about things," I said leaning against the car.
"Was it really that bad?" Ben asked.
"It was totally unsafe," Jeff answered.
"Alright then. We'll stay with you guys," Jesse said.
"GREAT!!!" I said as I got into the car. The others followed Shane, Jeff, Matt, Amy and I to the hotel. We showed them up to our rooms and we split up. Kristen, Amy, Jessy, and I got ready in mine and Shane's room. While Shane, Matt, Jeff, Ben, and Jesse got ready in Jeff's room. About a half hour later us girls were done and waiting on the guys.
"Case, wanna come with me to see if anyone wants to come with us?" Amy asked as she started out the door.
"Sure. You guys can play on my lap top while I'm gone if you want. It's pretty easy to use. Oh and go to my website extremecarolina.com. I think you'll find some very entertaining pictures on there!" I laughed as I followed Amy out the door.
"I really like your friends. Well, Kristen kinda gets on my nerves. She's just too peppy," Amy said as we walked down the hall.
"Yeah, I'm glad they drove down to spend sometime with me. I really miss them. Jessy and were like sisters growing up. She actually told me today that she thought I was changing and that she didn't know who the real me was," I laughed.
"Case, you have changed. Even in the amount of time that I've known you. And I couldn't imagine you being any other way!" She wrapped her arms around me in a hug before knocking on a hotel room door.
"Hey girls. What's up?" Jay asked opening the door wearing a pair of nice black jeans and a skin tight tan t-shirt. His hair was pulled back as best as possible and he smiled.
"Hey, we were wondering if you wanted to go out with us tonite," I said as he allowed us into the room he was sharing with Chris Irvine. "You too Chris."
"Well, to have you two girls by our side tonite would be our pleasure!" Chris smiled egotistically. "And of course you should be honored that we accepted."
"OH PUH-LEASE!" Amy and I said together.
"Besides, it's not just us. Shane, Jeff, Matt, the Jesses, Kristen, and Ben are coming too. We were just rounding up a bunch of people to come out with us," Amy added.
"Oh, I see. Now, I'm hurt," Chris said sitting on his bed sulking.
"Would a hug make you feel better?" I asked walking over to him.
"You know it would!" he replied with his arms stretched out to me.
"Hey, Jay, Chris wants a hug!" I joked.
"WHAT?!" they exclaimed as I began to laugh.
"Just kidding," I said as I gave Chris a big hug. He threw me down on the bed and kissed my forehead as he leaned over me. We laughed as he pulled me up.
"So? You guys in or what?" Amy asked crossing her arms.
"Yeah, sure why not?" Jay said.
"Just give us 10 minutes to get ready," Chris said digging through his bag for clothes to wear.
"Alright. Meet us in Casey and Shane's room," Amy said as we walked out the door and continued our search for party people.
"Is Sean O'Haire here?" I asked as we stood outside Adam and Kurt's room.
"Possibly. Why? Like him or something?" Amy joked as she knocked on the door.
"Well, he is a massive hottie," I laughed as Kurt opened the door.
"Thank you. I know I am. It must be the gold medals, right?" Kurt asked as we walked inside his room.
"Oh yes. The medals just make all the girls hot from within!" I laughed.
"I knew it!" Kurt laughed. "So, what brings you two here?"
"Isn't it obvious? They couldn't stay away from my awesomeness!" Adam said walking out of the bathroom.
"That's it. You got us all figured out. What am I going to tell Matt?!" Amy joked.
"Haha. Very funny," Adam said ruffling up Amy's hair.
"Hey now, not the hair. We're goin out tonite," I said.
"TOGETHER?!" Kurt and Adam exclaimed.
"What is it with guys?! Jesus," I said.
"Yes and no. Yes we're both goin out tonite, but with a few other people AND our boyfriends," Amy said.
"And we wanted to know if you two wanted to join us," I said.
"I would, but I'm expecting a call from Karen," Kurt said.
"I'll go out with you guys," Adam said throwing his leather jacket on.
"Great. Come on, we're goin to gather more people," Amy said as we waved to Kurt and walked out the door.
"So, who else are you guys getting to go?" Adam asked as he put his arms around our shoulders.
"John? Maybe Rey? Ummmm....Rob? Oh, we should ask Jamie and Nidia. And Stacy and Andrew. Plus Torrie and Peter," I said as we stopped in front of John's door.
"Case, you may want to leave for this one," Amy said bringing her hand up to knock on the door.
"Why?" I asked curiously.
"Because of who's rooming with John tonite," Adam said putting his arms protectively around me.
"Hello?" Randy asked opening the door. I scowled at him and turned away. "Can I help you two with something?"
"Ummm....there's three of us," Adam said.
"Oh? Who else is there?" Randy asked.
"Adam, don't bother. Just get John so we can be on our way," I said coldly.
"Is John around?" Amy asked.
"Yeah, we're all goin out tonite and wanted to know if he wanted to come with us," Adam added.
"No, sorry. He went out with Stacy and Andrew. I think they were meeting up with Dawn Marie and maybe Jamie and Nidia," Randy answered.
"Okay, thanks," Adam said as we walked away.
"You two really don't like each other do you?" Adam said pulling me close to him as we walked.
"Nope, hate each other. He's an ass," I said with a smile.
"Maybe we should just head back to the room. I mean, I'm sure the guys are done and your friends are probably getting bored and Chris and Jay will be waiting for us," Amy said as we turned around to go back to my room.
"I can't believe you put up those pictures from when you were up," Jess said as she closed the top down on the lap top.
"I had to. They just belonged on there. Don't ya just love the one with me and Ben?" I laughed.
"Which one? There was like two," Kristen said.
"The one where I have him in a head lock and he's lifting me up on his back," I smiled.
"Yeah, that was cute. I bet Shane wasn't too impressed though," Jessy said.
"Not at all!" I exclaimed.
"Not at all what?" Jeff asked walking into the bedroom.
"Nothing," I said shyly. I looked at Shane and smiled as he swept me up into his arms and kissed me passionately. "What was that for?"
"Just because, I don't know. I love you." He put me back on the floor and kissed me once again. "Wow, you look beautiful tonite."
"Thank you very much," I said as I turned around for him. I was wearing something totally uncharacteristic for me. I wore a silver mini skirt that Sara had gotten me for Christmas and my black halter top that had a ring that went around my neck. The top was semi short and showed off my belly button ring and tattoo. I changed my belly button ring to one that was a silver butterfly dangling down with two purple gemstones. I had on my black knee high boots and my hair was down and slightly curled, thanks to the help of Amy. I had glitter all over my body and my eyes had silver eye shadow on them.
"Where's the party at?!" Jay announced as he walked in.
"We're goin, we're goin," I said with a laugh as I took Shane's hand and we all walked down to the cars.
"How are we gonna do this? We need designated drivers," Matt said very responsibly.
"Matt, we have four people here who can't drink," I said.
"Oh yeah! Sometimes I forget that you can drink but your friends can't," Matt said as we got into the cars.
"What does he mean that you can drink?" Jessy asked.
"I have a fake id," I whispered with a smile.
"SNEAKY!" she laughed as she got into her new grand am with the others.
Shane, Jeff, Matt, Amy, and I led the way to one of the best clubs we could think of in Boston. Once there we paid the cover charge and us girls went right to the dance floor. All the guys except Ben and Jesse went off to the bar to get us girls that could drink, drinks. Ben and Jesse stayed to supervise us. Jessy eventually stopped and walked to her boyfriend and stood with him.
"Hey, I got you a beer," Shane said as he wrapped his arm around my waist from behind me. I felt him rub up close to me and I took the drink from him I took a sip as we began to grind to the music. I looked over at my friend Kristen, who seemed to be having a fun time dancing with Jeff. Adam had finally dragged Jessy on the dance floor. Chris had joined Shane and I, while Jay danced with Amy and Matt. It seemed that the only people not having a good time were the only two people that didn't like to dance in the first place. Jesse and Ben sat off to the side watching all our stuff.
"Shane, do you mind if I go ask Ben to dance? He seems so, I don't know, lonely?" I whispered as we danced close together.
"I suppose so. I'll keep Jesse company," Shane said as we walked over to them.
"Ben, ya wanna dance with me?" I asked reaching for his hand. He nodded and we walked onto the dance floor.
Ben wasn't a good dance like Shane. But he did have a good time making a fool of himself and making us all laugh. He was just one of those guys that was willing to lay it all out there and didn't care what anyone said about it. After a few songs we all decided to take a break and sit down. Jeff, Shane, Matt, Amy, and I were all working on our 3rd drink and I was feeling the affects of it heavily. I did a body shot with Shane and we all decided it would be a good idea to go out and get something to eat. So, the only place we thought of that was open at 3 in the morning was Denny's. Jesse drove Shane's car while Ben drove Adam's. Jessy followed us in her car to Denny's and we all gathered at a big table.
"This has been a blast!" I exclaimed as we ordered.
"Yeah it has. I'm glad ya'll could make it down here," Matt said.
"When do you guys have to be back? Actually when do any of us have to be leaving?" I asked with a laugh.
"Baby, we have to be in New Hampshire by 2 in the afternoon," Shane answered.
"And we're skipping our classes," Kristen said.
"Our flight lives for Utah at noon," Adam said as he slipped his hand on my knee. He smiled as me and squeezed it lightly.
"I wish this didn't have to end," I said sadly.
"We'll definitely have to do it again real soon," Ben said with a smile. I nodded happily, actually it was probably more of a drunken happiness, but what does it matter?!
We finished up our "breakfast" and went back to the hotel. There were people all over the place in mine and Shane's room. We had decided to stay up and order some ice cream and video games. We were all passed out by 6 in the morning.
BEEP BEEP BEEP
"Whatever the hell that thing is.....KILL IT!" I yelled as I tried to open my eyes. It was the toughest thing I ever tried to do. I was definitely hung over and not impressed about it.
"Sorry, that would be my watch," Jesse said switching it off. He stretched and began waking Jessy, Kristen, and Ben up. "We gotta get going. It's 9:30."
"Please tell me you did not just say that it's 9:30," Adam said.
"Yeah, man, he did," Jay answered.
"Oh fuck! I gotta get packing. I'll see you all later. Bye Case. I love you kid," Adam said kissing my cheek.
"If you really loved me, you wouldn't talk so loud!" I said covering my head with a pillow.
"Well, we might as well leave with everyone else," Jeff said as he stretched from his bed in the bathroom.
"Why'd you sleep in the bathroom bro?" Matt asked walking over to him.
"Seemed like the only spot not taken at the time," Jeff answered.
"How are you not so blah? You drank just as much as me," I said as I pulled myself up to my feet.
"I don't know. It must be the weight and the fact that I'm a guy or something," Jeff replied as he looked at me. He burst out laughing and almost fell on the floor in doing so. I raised an eyebrow and tilted my head to the side.
"And what is your issue?" I asked walking closer to him. I looked around at everyone and slowly each one began to laugh. "I'm getting a complex here!"
"Hun, go looking the mirror," Amy said through her laughter. I pushed Jeff out of the way and walked into the bathroom.
"Oh great! I look like raccoon girl!" I exclaimed as everyone laughed harder. I scowled and began washing my face off.
"No, keep it....it's a good look for you," Matt joked.
"I hate you," I said with a smile.
"Are we ready to go?" Ben asked as they all tried to compose themselves. Kristen, Jesse, and Jessy nodded. I sighed deeply as I walked out to say goodbye to them.
"I'll see you guys soon. I promise," I said waving goodbye to them. Jessy stayed back and took a deep breath.
"I hate this. I miss you so much. I really hate not being able to just turn around and see you there," Jessy said pulling me into a hug.
"I know. Me too. Hey, have you talked to Amy at all?" I asked.
"Not really. Why?"
"I was just wondering what she's up to. Maybe I'll IM her or call her. If you talk to her, let her know that I'm still around and asking about her," I laughed.
"Will do! Bye Case," she said walking out the door.
"You two were really close weren't you?" Jay asked.
"Oh yeah! Totally close. She's my sister. Seriously, growing up, her house was like another home for me!" I laughed as I walked into the bathroom to shower.
"Hey Case!" Jeff yelled over the running water of the shower.
"YEAH?!" I yelled back.
"Can I come in? To talk? There's no one here! They all left me!"
"Sure!" I heard the door creek open and watched him sit on the sink counter through the shower curtain.
"Do you think this angle that we're goin into is gonna change our friendship?" he asked with a sigh.
"No. Nothing could change our friendship. Why do you ask?"
"Well, it's just something different that we've never had to experience as friends," he said.
"Stop worrying. It'll give you gray hair!" I joked.
"You give me gray hair!" he laughed.
"I try!"
"What do you think of Karen?" he asked with an almost excited tone.
"Truthfully?" I asked.
"Yeah, of course!" he replied.
"Well, I don't know. She's ummm....well, I don't know. I'm a little unsure of her. There's just something that I don't like about her. I can't really explain it. Like she was all about what I liked and what I wanted. It's like she was trying to be like me to a point. But with certain things it was almost like I was being out casted by her for liking something she didn't," I said.
"So, you don't like her?" he asked hurtfully.
"Sorry Jeff. No, I don't. Not really. But I don't know her like you do. She could be the best girl ever," I said as I turned off the water. "Can you hand me a towel?"
I heard him giggle a little before sticking a small face cloth behind the curtain. I ripped out of his hands and threw it back at him. "HAHA!! Very funny. Ass!" I laughed as he put a regular sized towel behind the curtain. I wrapped it around my body and pulled the curtain over. I rung out my hair one last time and flipped it over my shoulder. I stepped out of the tub and stood in front of Jeff. His eyes were as wide as could be and his jaw seemed to hit the floor. I put my hands on my hips and gave him a half smile. "Is there a problem?"
"I....ummmm...errr....aaahhhhhh....what?" he said. I laughed as I rolled my eyes. I picked up my comb and walked out into the bedroom with him following me closely.
"Are you okay?" I asked as I sat on the bed combing out my hair.
"Ummmmm.....I uh....well....I...."
"Oooookkkkkaaaayyyyy," I said as I turned my boom box on. Trish had left her cd with Skid Row in the player and it started blaring from the speakers. I looked up at Jeff and smiled. He gave me an unsure smile as I stood up and began rockin out to "Youth Gone Wild". I grabbed his hands and made him start dancing with me. He finally got into it as we kept dancing closer and closer. The song changed to a Christina Aguilera song, "Can't Hold Us Down", and we continued to dance. It was getting to the point where we were dancing like couples would dance. It was weird, but it felt so right at the same time.
"Ummmm....are we interrupting something?" Amy asked as her and Matt walked in the room. Jeff and I immediately jumped away from each other as if one of us caught on fire.
"No, why would you think that?" I asked as Jeff hurried out the door. Matt followed him closely.
"Oh no reason except for the fact that I thought the two of you might be GETTING IT ON in here soon!" she laughed. I rolled my eyes as I grabbed some clothes out of my bag.
"Bro, what the hell do you think you were doin in there?!" Matt yelled as he spun his brother around.
"Matt, I can't do this anymore. I'm completely in love with her. I want her more than anything in this world. Ya know, I've always been able to get pretty much anything I've wanted in life...but I can't have her. And I'll never have her. I don't know how I'm gonna be able to do this new angle with her. Bro, I just can't do all that I'm supposed to do with her," Jeff said as he slid to the floor and leaned his head against the wall. Matt sat next to him and put his hand on Jeff's shoulder.
"I know Jeff. But you have to get over her. She's in love with Shane. You know in your heart that they'll be getting married. It's so obvious," Matt said.
"Then why do I feel this connection with her whenever we're together? And I know she feels it too. I can feel it off her!"
"I don't know maybe she does have some feelings for you. But her feelings for Shane over ride the ones she has for you. I'm sorry bro." Matt stood after patting his younger brother on the shoulder. Jeff sat there with his back resting on the wall and his head down, looking at the floor.
"But we even have a song. We are youth gone wild. She and Shane aint got nothing like that. We belong together! We share something that they don't. God! Why are you so cruel! You bring this angel into my life and then take her away! How can you do that?!" Jeff put his hands on the back of his head and thought about his life and how it would be without me.