"Dude, I had the weirdest dream the nite we were in Bangor," Jeff
said as he and Matt walked into the hotel gym.
"Oh? About what?" Matt asked setting his gear on the bench in the locker room.
"It was like Casey kissed me. But it felt so real," Jeff explained. "I was sound asleep and I felt her lips on mine. I was afraid to open my eyes to find that it wasn't her."
"You're not starting with this whole tryin to get Case thing again are you?" Matt asked.
"No, I've totally given up on that. I'm now focusing on getting her back with Shane," Jeff said with a happy sigh.
"Is that what you want?" Matt asked.
"No, but that's what she wants." Jeff sat down at a weight machine with Matt standing next to him.
"Are you sure she even wants that?" Matt asked.
"Yeah, it's killin her that their not together. She's up stairs still asleep. She would normally be down here with us man," Jeff said.
"I don't know, Shane told me that he asked Case to get back with him and she turned him down," Matt said.
"Yeah, I know. But you can see it in her eyes that she still wants him. I'm just gonna make sure she realizes it," Jeff said as I skipped by him.
"Upset is she?" Matt laughed slapping his brother's shoulder playfully before walking over to a treadmill.
"And why are you in such a happy mood?" Trish asked as I walked into the women's locker room. I put my stuff down on the bench and smiled at her.
"I don't know. I guess my life is finally getting on the right track," I said.
"I don't get it," she said staring up at me.
"I kissed Jeff. Something I've wanted to do since I first met him," I laughed.
"You did what?!" Trish exclaimed.
"Yeah, he slept through it. But the point is, I did something I've been wanting to do with no fear! It was a great feeling. Sure the kiss had no emotion coming from his side. Hell, I don't know if I even gave off any emotions. But I did it cause I wanted to and there was no one to accuse me of cheating or anything," I said smiling brightly.
"What happened while you were in Maine? This is a different you," Trish said walking out with me.
"I guess realizing that I've been living in fear for a year about my mother coming to take me away did it. Ya know? I'm not gonna make people take care of me anymore. It's all on me now. What you see, is what you get and I'm not gonna change for nobody!" I exclaimed.
"Hey Case," Shane waved to me as he walked inside.
"HEY SHANE!" I exclaimed happily. He raised an eyebrow at me and shook his head.
"Hey, what's up with Case?" Shane asked Jeff.
"I wish I knew. She's kinda lost her mind. I think her passing out like she did messed her up," Jeff said seriously.
"She's been acting like this ever since we had that thing with her mom. It's massively bizarre!" Shane said. Jeff and Matt whipped there heads around and laughed at him. "What?!"
"Think about what you just said," Matt laughed.
"I don't get it," Shane said confused.
"Dude, you just said massively bizarre. Now think about who you would know that would say that same thing," Jeff said.
"Oh gees, Casey! I've been around her too long!" Shane laughed. He stopped laughing suddenly and shook his head slowly. "I miss her so much."
"We know man. Who knows, it's been 2 weeks, maybe she wants you back," Jeff said.
"I doubt it. She hasn't shown any sign of getting back together," Shane said.
"Maybe she's just tryin to hid it," Jeff replied.
"Are you gonna come out with us all tonite? It'll be me, Ames, Jeff, Case, and Trish," Matt said.
"I don't know. I'm not really into partying right now," Shane answered.
"Come on man. You might feel good if you get out for awhile," Jeff added.
"Alright, count me in!" Shane said with a smile.
"Casey, you're looking hot tonite!" Amy said with a laugh. I smiled at her as I finished my make-up.
"Thanks, you're not looking to bad either. But now that I'm single I'm ready to mingle with some hotties!" I exclaimed wildly.
"Case, are you sure you wanna go pickin up guys at a club?" Amy asked.
"Yeah, sure, why not?! I'm 19 years old, I should be able to be as wild as I want to be!" I said.
"I know, but still, it's rather dangerous," Amy said worriedly.
"Oh come on now Ames! Don't try and hold me down!" I said.
"I'm not. Sorry, do what you want," Amy said as she left the bathroom. I rolled my eyes at her and continued my make-up.
"Hey! Ya wanna dance?!" a guy yelled in my ear over the loud music in the club. I smiled at Jeff, Trish, and Shane and shook my head. He took my hand and led me onto the floor. "My name's Robbie! What's yours?!"
"Casey! It's nice to meet you!" I yelled back as we grinned to "Oops Oh my".
"Yeah wanna go to a diner down the road?!" he yelled.
"Sure! Let me go tell my friends!" I said as I left him to walk back to the table.
"You're done already?" Jeff asked.
"No, we're goin to a diner down the road," I replied.
"Are you sure that's a good idea?" he asked putting his hand on top of mine.
"Sure! Don't worry bout me! Don't wait up!" I said with a smile as I walked to meet him at the door.
"Ready?" he asked.
"Let's go," I said as I held his hand. We walked along the side of the building towards the parking lot. He suddenly stopped me as we got to the corner and pushed me against the wall. "HEY!" I had pinned against the wall and placed kisses all over my shoulders and neck. "Get the fuck off me!" I struggled as he put his whole weight on me.
"Come on baby! You're looking too hot to not want something like this to happen. You know you want it. You were asking for it!" he said in between kisses. He moved his hands up my shirt as I continued to struggle. He stopped and stared at me as I stared back with a look of furry on my face. He pulled his arm back and formed a fist with his hand. He brought it forward where his fist connected with my eye.
"Son of a bitch!" I screamed as I covered it. I began to breathe heavily as I looked at him.
"That's what you get for not cooperating with me!" he yelled as he forced his hands down my tight jeans. With all my strength I pushed him off me, turned him over, and applied my crossface on him. He some how moved out of the move and pined me to the ground where he got in my face. "Oh you like it rough, huh slut!?"
"I can't believe Casey would just leave like that," Shane said.
"I know, but it's her new all me attitude," Trish said as they walked all walked out of the club. I heard their voices coming towards us and struggled with the guy more.
"Oh shit, I forgot my jacket," Shane said as he ran back inside.
"I'll go with him," Trish said.
"I'll go get the car then," Jeff said as he took off for the parking lot.
"JEFF!!" I screamed.
"Shut up!" Robbie yelled as he slapped my face.
"Casey?!" Jeff yelled as he stopped in his tracks.
"JEFF!!" I screamed louder as tears began to stream down my face.
"I'm coming!!!" Jeff yelled to me as he took off towards my voice.
"Oh fuck! Bitch," Robbie said as he took off. Jeff came around the corner and saw me lying on the ground. He slid down to me and propped me up on his knee.
"Oh my God! Case, what happened?" he asked as he rubbed my bruised face gently.
"He tried.....and he hit me......and I'm so scared!" I cried. He pulled my head into his chest and ran his hand through my hair soothingly.
"Hey, Trish said you were.....getting the car. What happened?" Shane exclaimed as he put his hand on my knee.
"Shane," I cried. I moved towards him and wrapped my arms around him tightly. He sat down on the ground and cradled me in his arms. Jeff rubbed my back gently as I cried into Shane's chest.
"Shhh....I'm right here baby. I'm not goin anywhere's," Shane whispered as he kissed the top of my head.
"What the hell's goin on?!" Matt asked running around the corner towards us.
"That guy tried something with Case, she refused, she got hit, and he ran off," Jeff explained as best he could.
"Oh my God! Is she okay?" Amy asked as she and Trish stood next to Matt. Matt wrapped his arm around her tightly.
"Let's just get her out of here," Shane said picking me up off the ground. He carried me to the car and set me on his lap as I continued to cry.
"Maybe you should keep her with you tonite. She seems to be rather attached to you right now," Jeff said.
"Yeah, alright. I can do that," Shane said quietly as he continued to rub the back of my head.
"I can't believe someone would do something like that," Matt said. "It takes a real asshole to take advantage of a girl."
"Especially someone like Case," Jeff said.
"Son of a bitch. It's a good thing I didn't see any of this goin on. I would have kicked his ass," Shane said angrily.
"It's all my fault," I muttered over and over again.
"What's she sayin?" Trish asked.
"It sounds like she's sayin it's all her fault," Amy said.
"No, she must know that it's not, right?" Jeff asked.
"My fault," I said.
"No, she's blamin it on herself," Shane said. Shane pulled me away from his body and raised my chin with his hand gently. "Baby, it's not your fault. No way in this world is it your fault." He slowly and cautiously kissed my lips. I kissed him right back as I felt this electric charge move through my body. He put his hands on my face gently as we sat there in a state of bliss.
"Well, looks like they're back," Trish announced happily.
Shane and I broke apart as a smile broke through my tears. He kissed the top of my nose and lightly brushed his hand down my slowly bruising cheek. "I love you baby," he whispered.
"I love you too. I'm sorry I was such a hard headed bitch," I laughed.
"You weren't. You don't have the abilities to be," Shane replied. "I missed you so much."
"Me too," I said quietly as I placed my head back on his chest. I cried myself to sleep as we drove back to the hotel.
"Ya know, I'm glad we're back together, but I just wish it had happened on different terms," Shane whispered as he held me in the elevator.
"Just make sure she stops sayin that it's her fault," Matt said patting Shane's shoulder.
"I'm gonna try my damnedest," Shane replied. Shane carried me into his room and laid me on the bed. Jeff dropped off my stuff and Shane put me in a tank top and shorts. I opened my eyes slowly as Shane started to change.
"Why me?" I muttered tiredly.
"Why you what baby?" Shane asked rushing to my side.
"Why'd he pick me to do that to? There other girls in there dressed in worse than what I was dressed in. He told me I was askin for it because of what I was wearin. He call me a slut. He's right, isn't he?" I cried.
"No, of course not. Don't ever think you're a slut cause you're not. I don't love sluts and I love you with all my heart." He kissed me deeply as he leaned over me on the bed. I rubbed my hands up and down his bare back and winced in pain slightly as my cheek continued to bruise. He pulled away from me and looked down at my face. "Am I hurting you?"
"No, he's hurting me. You're making me better," I answered as I pulled him down onto me. "OW!" He pulled his head up and rolled off of me. "Okay, so maybe you're hurting me just a little bit."
"We'll do this another nite, when you're better. I don't wanna rush into anything," he whispered as he picked up my hand and placed his lips softly on it.
"Why are you so good to me? How is it possible that I deserve you?" I asked.
"You don't. You're honestly too good for me, but you seem to be able to love me anyways and I think you for that," he replied. "And tonite, I plan to just hold you. Hold you like I've never held you before. Because that's the best I can give you right now. Just being able to protect you is the best thing in the world to me."
"Thank you. Thank you for loving me," I smiled.
"Oh? About what?" Matt asked setting his gear on the bench in the locker room.
"It was like Casey kissed me. But it felt so real," Jeff explained. "I was sound asleep and I felt her lips on mine. I was afraid to open my eyes to find that it wasn't her."
"You're not starting with this whole tryin to get Case thing again are you?" Matt asked.
"No, I've totally given up on that. I'm now focusing on getting her back with Shane," Jeff said with a happy sigh.
"Is that what you want?" Matt asked.
"No, but that's what she wants." Jeff sat down at a weight machine with Matt standing next to him.
"Are you sure she even wants that?" Matt asked.
"Yeah, it's killin her that their not together. She's up stairs still asleep. She would normally be down here with us man," Jeff said.
"I don't know, Shane told me that he asked Case to get back with him and she turned him down," Matt said.
"Yeah, I know. But you can see it in her eyes that she still wants him. I'm just gonna make sure she realizes it," Jeff said as I skipped by him.
"Upset is she?" Matt laughed slapping his brother's shoulder playfully before walking over to a treadmill.
"And why are you in such a happy mood?" Trish asked as I walked into the women's locker room. I put my stuff down on the bench and smiled at her.
"I don't know. I guess my life is finally getting on the right track," I said.
"I don't get it," she said staring up at me.
"I kissed Jeff. Something I've wanted to do since I first met him," I laughed.
"You did what?!" Trish exclaimed.
"Yeah, he slept through it. But the point is, I did something I've been wanting to do with no fear! It was a great feeling. Sure the kiss had no emotion coming from his side. Hell, I don't know if I even gave off any emotions. But I did it cause I wanted to and there was no one to accuse me of cheating or anything," I said smiling brightly.
"What happened while you were in Maine? This is a different you," Trish said walking out with me.
"I guess realizing that I've been living in fear for a year about my mother coming to take me away did it. Ya know? I'm not gonna make people take care of me anymore. It's all on me now. What you see, is what you get and I'm not gonna change for nobody!" I exclaimed.
"Hey Case," Shane waved to me as he walked inside.
"HEY SHANE!" I exclaimed happily. He raised an eyebrow at me and shook his head.
"Hey, what's up with Case?" Shane asked Jeff.
"I wish I knew. She's kinda lost her mind. I think her passing out like she did messed her up," Jeff said seriously.
"She's been acting like this ever since we had that thing with her mom. It's massively bizarre!" Shane said. Jeff and Matt whipped there heads around and laughed at him. "What?!"
"Think about what you just said," Matt laughed.
"I don't get it," Shane said confused.
"Dude, you just said massively bizarre. Now think about who you would know that would say that same thing," Jeff said.
"Oh gees, Casey! I've been around her too long!" Shane laughed. He stopped laughing suddenly and shook his head slowly. "I miss her so much."
"We know man. Who knows, it's been 2 weeks, maybe she wants you back," Jeff said.
"I doubt it. She hasn't shown any sign of getting back together," Shane said.
"Maybe she's just tryin to hid it," Jeff replied.
"Are you gonna come out with us all tonite? It'll be me, Ames, Jeff, Case, and Trish," Matt said.
"I don't know. I'm not really into partying right now," Shane answered.
"Come on man. You might feel good if you get out for awhile," Jeff added.
"Alright, count me in!" Shane said with a smile.
"Casey, you're looking hot tonite!" Amy said with a laugh. I smiled at her as I finished my make-up.
"Thanks, you're not looking to bad either. But now that I'm single I'm ready to mingle with some hotties!" I exclaimed wildly.
"Case, are you sure you wanna go pickin up guys at a club?" Amy asked.
"Yeah, sure, why not?! I'm 19 years old, I should be able to be as wild as I want to be!" I said.
"I know, but still, it's rather dangerous," Amy said worriedly.
"Oh come on now Ames! Don't try and hold me down!" I said.
"I'm not. Sorry, do what you want," Amy said as she left the bathroom. I rolled my eyes at her and continued my make-up.
"Hey! Ya wanna dance?!" a guy yelled in my ear over the loud music in the club. I smiled at Jeff, Trish, and Shane and shook my head. He took my hand and led me onto the floor. "My name's Robbie! What's yours?!"
"Casey! It's nice to meet you!" I yelled back as we grinned to "Oops Oh my".
"Yeah wanna go to a diner down the road?!" he yelled.
"Sure! Let me go tell my friends!" I said as I left him to walk back to the table.
"You're done already?" Jeff asked.
"No, we're goin to a diner down the road," I replied.
"Are you sure that's a good idea?" he asked putting his hand on top of mine.
"Sure! Don't worry bout me! Don't wait up!" I said with a smile as I walked to meet him at the door.
"Ready?" he asked.
"Let's go," I said as I held his hand. We walked along the side of the building towards the parking lot. He suddenly stopped me as we got to the corner and pushed me against the wall. "HEY!" I had pinned against the wall and placed kisses all over my shoulders and neck. "Get the fuck off me!" I struggled as he put his whole weight on me.
"Come on baby! You're looking too hot to not want something like this to happen. You know you want it. You were asking for it!" he said in between kisses. He moved his hands up my shirt as I continued to struggle. He stopped and stared at me as I stared back with a look of furry on my face. He pulled his arm back and formed a fist with his hand. He brought it forward where his fist connected with my eye.
"Son of a bitch!" I screamed as I covered it. I began to breathe heavily as I looked at him.
"That's what you get for not cooperating with me!" he yelled as he forced his hands down my tight jeans. With all my strength I pushed him off me, turned him over, and applied my crossface on him. He some how moved out of the move and pined me to the ground where he got in my face. "Oh you like it rough, huh slut!?"
"I can't believe Casey would just leave like that," Shane said.
"I know, but it's her new all me attitude," Trish said as they walked all walked out of the club. I heard their voices coming towards us and struggled with the guy more.
"Oh shit, I forgot my jacket," Shane said as he ran back inside.
"I'll go with him," Trish said.
"I'll go get the car then," Jeff said as he took off for the parking lot.
"JEFF!!" I screamed.
"Shut up!" Robbie yelled as he slapped my face.
"Casey?!" Jeff yelled as he stopped in his tracks.
"JEFF!!" I screamed louder as tears began to stream down my face.
"I'm coming!!!" Jeff yelled to me as he took off towards my voice.
"Oh fuck! Bitch," Robbie said as he took off. Jeff came around the corner and saw me lying on the ground. He slid down to me and propped me up on his knee.
"Oh my God! Case, what happened?" he asked as he rubbed my bruised face gently.
"He tried.....and he hit me......and I'm so scared!" I cried. He pulled my head into his chest and ran his hand through my hair soothingly.
"Hey, Trish said you were.....getting the car. What happened?" Shane exclaimed as he put his hand on my knee.
"Shane," I cried. I moved towards him and wrapped my arms around him tightly. He sat down on the ground and cradled me in his arms. Jeff rubbed my back gently as I cried into Shane's chest.
"Shhh....I'm right here baby. I'm not goin anywhere's," Shane whispered as he kissed the top of my head.
"What the hell's goin on?!" Matt asked running around the corner towards us.
"That guy tried something with Case, she refused, she got hit, and he ran off," Jeff explained as best he could.
"Oh my God! Is she okay?" Amy asked as she and Trish stood next to Matt. Matt wrapped his arm around her tightly.
"Let's just get her out of here," Shane said picking me up off the ground. He carried me to the car and set me on his lap as I continued to cry.
"Maybe you should keep her with you tonite. She seems to be rather attached to you right now," Jeff said.
"Yeah, alright. I can do that," Shane said quietly as he continued to rub the back of my head.
"I can't believe someone would do something like that," Matt said. "It takes a real asshole to take advantage of a girl."
"Especially someone like Case," Jeff said.
"Son of a bitch. It's a good thing I didn't see any of this goin on. I would have kicked his ass," Shane said angrily.
"It's all my fault," I muttered over and over again.
"What's she sayin?" Trish asked.
"It sounds like she's sayin it's all her fault," Amy said.
"No, she must know that it's not, right?" Jeff asked.
"My fault," I said.
"No, she's blamin it on herself," Shane said. Shane pulled me away from his body and raised my chin with his hand gently. "Baby, it's not your fault. No way in this world is it your fault." He slowly and cautiously kissed my lips. I kissed him right back as I felt this electric charge move through my body. He put his hands on my face gently as we sat there in a state of bliss.
"Well, looks like they're back," Trish announced happily.
Shane and I broke apart as a smile broke through my tears. He kissed the top of my nose and lightly brushed his hand down my slowly bruising cheek. "I love you baby," he whispered.
"I love you too. I'm sorry I was such a hard headed bitch," I laughed.
"You weren't. You don't have the abilities to be," Shane replied. "I missed you so much."
"Me too," I said quietly as I placed my head back on his chest. I cried myself to sleep as we drove back to the hotel.
"Ya know, I'm glad we're back together, but I just wish it had happened on different terms," Shane whispered as he held me in the elevator.
"Just make sure she stops sayin that it's her fault," Matt said patting Shane's shoulder.
"I'm gonna try my damnedest," Shane replied. Shane carried me into his room and laid me on the bed. Jeff dropped off my stuff and Shane put me in a tank top and shorts. I opened my eyes slowly as Shane started to change.
"Why me?" I muttered tiredly.
"Why you what baby?" Shane asked rushing to my side.
"Why'd he pick me to do that to? There other girls in there dressed in worse than what I was dressed in. He told me I was askin for it because of what I was wearin. He call me a slut. He's right, isn't he?" I cried.
"No, of course not. Don't ever think you're a slut cause you're not. I don't love sluts and I love you with all my heart." He kissed me deeply as he leaned over me on the bed. I rubbed my hands up and down his bare back and winced in pain slightly as my cheek continued to bruise. He pulled away from me and looked down at my face. "Am I hurting you?"
"No, he's hurting me. You're making me better," I answered as I pulled him down onto me. "OW!" He pulled his head up and rolled off of me. "Okay, so maybe you're hurting me just a little bit."
"We'll do this another nite, when you're better. I don't wanna rush into anything," he whispered as he picked up my hand and placed his lips softly on it.
"Why are you so good to me? How is it possible that I deserve you?" I asked.
"You don't. You're honestly too good for me, but you seem to be able to love me anyways and I think you for that," he replied. "And tonite, I plan to just hold you. Hold you like I've never held you before. Because that's the best I can give you right now. Just being able to protect you is the best thing in the world to me."
"Thank you. Thank you for loving me," I smiled.