October 24th, 2002

Alex had been back at work for the past four days. She was happy to get back into the swing of things even though it was still hard. It was easier knowing Jimmy was right there by her side. She knew he wouldn't let anything else happen to her. Alex ran up the steps of the station. Carlos gave her a look.

"You're too loud, Taylor." He said.

"You're too arrogant." Alex said grabbing Kim's hand and yanking her off the couch.

"Well, hello." Kim said getting her footing.

"I need to talk to you now." Alex said pulling her to the bathroom. Kim frowned deeply as Alex closed the door and locked it.

"What's so important you couldn't talk to me in front of the guys?" Kim asked. Alex had been acting weird ever since her attack, so Kim wasn't really surprised. Alex began to pace back and forth.

"I thought, it was just stress at first, then me not eating, but now I'm sure it's not coming." Alex said. Kim looked at her in confusion.

"What are you talking about, Alex?" Alex looked at her sadly.

"Um...My...My periods late." She said.

"Oh." It finally clicked into Kim's head, "Oh! Wow...Um...I'm sure it's just stress. I mean, You took the morning after pill at the hospital and I'm assuming you and Ty haven't had sex since then, so it's probably just stress." Alex bit her lip.

"I didn't." She said. Kim looked at her.

"You didn't what?" Alex leaned against the sink. Her stomach feeling upset.

"I-I didn't take the morning after pill." She whispered.

"Oh Alex." Kim looked at her friend with the most pitiful look on her face. "I'm sure you're not pregnant."

"I don't know what I'm more scared about." Alex whispered, letting a few tears slid down her face, "Whether I'm pregnant...or if the baby isn't Ty's." Alex closed her eyes. She took in a shuddering breath, "I'm so scared, Kim."

"I know, Alex. The wondering is the worse." She said, "Does Ty want a baby?" Alex nodded.

"We've talked about it, but we agreed to wait a year or so since I just got back on the squad." Alex shook her head with frustration.

"I completely understand." Kim said, "Joey didn't exactly come at the best time. You need to find out, Alex."

"I'm s-so scared." Alex whispered as she started to cry. Kim walked up to her friend and wrapped her arms around her.

"I know." Kim whispered, "I'll help you through this. I'm sure Ty will be there too."

"H-he will be." Alex whispered. Kim pulled away wiping the tears off of her cheek.

"Let's take our break right now and go get a test, okay?" Kim said softly. Alex closed her eyes tightly and nodded. She felt sick to her stomach. She never thought she'd be in this position. She should have taken the goddamn morning after pill.

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Kim gave the cashier twenty dollars. Alex stood back, too nervous to even buy the test. Kim was being such a good friend. Kim gave Alex a wink and led her out. She said they would stop back at her apartment to take the test so she could get more privacy.

"Thanks." Alex whispered walking with Kim.

"What if you are pregnant?" Kim asked. Alex sighed and shrugged.

"I don't know." She said, "Tell Ty and deal with it then. I'm just terrified I'm carrying a piece of my rapists inside of me."

"So, what if it was Ty's?" Kim asked taking her keys out from her pocket.

"I will be relieved." Alex admitted, "If I'm pregnant and it's Ty's, then that's the greatest gift. The baby would have been created out of love." Alex followed Kim in. "If it's not his…. I will just cross that road when I come to it."

"I understand." Kim showed Alex into her apartment and showed her to the bathroom, "All you need to do is pee on the stick and wait." Alex smiled softly.

"I know…Thanks." She took the box and walked into the bathroom. "Thank you for all of this."

"Hey, what are friends for?" Kim smiled getting some soda from the fridge. "How are you doing in there?"

"Peeing on a stick." Alex called out. Kim chuckled as she sat down at the kitchen table. She was extremely nervous for Alex. She couldn't imagine how Alex was feeling. She heard the toilet flush.

"Start the timer?" She asked.

"Start the timer." Alex sighed walking out. "Never thought I'd be doing this." She sat down next to Kim.

"People who take pregnancy tests never think they'd be doing this." She chuckled, "If you are…what about work?"
"I guess, I'd be transferred over to dispatch." Alex shrugged, "That wont be so bad, but you know me…. Sitting behind a desk is…. Ugh." Kim chuckled.

"Yeah. Dispatch completely suck." The women sat there for a minute in silence.

"I've never been this nervous before." Alex said.

"I know." Kim said softly, "It's best to get it over with though. It's best to know instead of wondering yourself sick."

"Oh I've already done that." She laughed. "I've never been this nausea before."

"Well, It's time." Kim looked at her, "When you're ready, go in there and find out." The colour drained from Alex's face. This was in. No joking about it now. In a few seconds she'd find out if she were a mother or not.

Alex shuffled into the bathroom. The pregnancy test lay on the sink. She breathed in slowly. She closed her eyes tightly and picked up the test. She could do this. She has battled three alarm fires. She has helped deliver babies in the back of the bus. She has saved numerous people's lives, but this was different. This was her life. Alex opened her eyes and stared at the answer. Tears welled in her eyes.

"Oh god." She burst into tears as she sat on the edge of the bathtub. The pregnancy test fell to the floor as she sobbed. Kim walked in with a worried look on her face.

"Alex?" She bit her lip Alex looked up at her friend with red eyes.

"I'm pregnant." She whispered. Kim sat down next to Alex and wrapped her arms around her. Alex cried softly. Now, she had to tell Ty she was pregnant and that she didn't know if it was his child or not. The thought terrified her. What if he left her? What if this baby was created out of something so horrible?

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