Disclaimer. I don't own any characters, I just play wit them. :)
A.N. Okay so this starts off a couple months after the season finale, Spike had his soul restored & has been turned into what he used to be (human), gets run over, loses his memory & so on.
I actually started writing this like over a month ago & just got to it today.
Hope you all like it, please review. If I get some feedback I'll continue writing, & I'll try to get the next chapter up soon. tanKs.
Ch 1. Frustration
I can feel them looking at me.
But they're problably not. Why would they? They must have better things to do that to stare at me. I'm just a broken-down, lonely shell of a ...
thing.
Yeah, thing, I guess... what can I call myself? Just something, hot & sweaty from wearing this leather jacket, which for some reason can't seem to take off... I've gotten thinner, my hair a mess with the roots all grown out. I'm a wreck goin' nowhere.
Well maybe somewhere. I have managed to get myself back in California. Maybe I can even pull it together to go back to Sunnydale. It's not too far... maybe? Ugh. Doubtful, very doubtful...
I always made fun of Angel, but now it's like... I can give him so much credit for at least attempting to continue some sort of "normal" life, while dealing with his remorse. But me, I'm so pitiful, I can't even manage to pick myself off the streets; I look like a bum. It's just all the memories of all the people I've harmed, the lives I've ruined or ended, they all just plague my mind, leaving me restless, despondent and alone. And her…
The one person I ever truly loved, and even then when she lowered herself to be with me I still hurt her. Now what do I've got? Nothing… cept' for this damn soul. Oh and a bottle of vodka, which I will be drinking down quite rapidly. *Belch*
Hours later, after consuming the whole bottle, Spike is left lying unconscious on the side of a street. Slowly the sunrise begins to arrive. Rays of daylight glow down on his grubby face, and nothing happens. No burning, no fire, no self-destruction, nothing. Simply the warm feeling of the sunbeam.
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Meanwhile…
"I'm going out on a date tonight." says Dawn.
"What?", exclaims Buffy.
"Yeah. Um… he's picking me at in a few minutes."
"Wait a minute, before I let you go off with some teenage horndog…"
"He's not a horndog." Dawn says defensively.
"…I'm gonna need some info."
Dawn sighs, "Alright."
"Where are you going?", asks Buffy.
"Gia Caruso's party. She's been planning for weeks; it's gonna be huge & EVERYONE will be there."
"Okay, now your date? What's his name?"
"Sunny."
"His name is Sunny?"
"Yeah, I think his mom was a hippie."
"How old is he?"
"He's 18."
"And your 16? I don't like that…"
"Come on, it's only two years. Angel was like over 200 years older than you."
"Point taken. Alright where did you meet him?" says Buffy, continuing the interrogation.
"In my chem. class."
"A senior taking a sophomore course?"
"Well… he's not actually a senior. He's sorta flunked a few years…"
"So what do we have? An older, dumb, girly named horndog. Why are you going out with him again?"
"You can't judge him on only that. He happens to be very, very, very cute." says Dawn, coyly.
"We'll see when I meet him."
An hour later…
"I cannot believe he stood me up. This is the worst thing that could've happened."
"Sorry, Dawny. Maybe something came up?." says Buffy, sympathetically.
"No, there's no way he would miss this party. He probably went with someone else."
"You know, you could still make it. I could drop you off?"
"I can't show my face there by myself. I'm just gonna go to my room & try to think of a good excuse to tell people of why I wasn't there." says Dawn frustrated, and she goes upstairs.
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Hmm. It's almost dark again, I must've slept through most of the day, Spike thinks to himself as he picks himself up, feeling groggy. Getting up too quickly, he's overwhelmed with headrush and body ache, the effects of his hangover. Slowly, he begins walking down the middle of the road. He kicks a rock.
It skittles a few feet away. As he turns to see where it went, he sees a light coming toward him. It's blurry. He ears get filled with the sound of a deafening truck honk, then… BAM!!!