With a blank memory and cold legs, which he doesn't feel anymore, he sits in his wheelchair, in front of French windows, watching the snow slowly fall.
So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in a crimson love
So hard to breath
Walk with me, and maybe
Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I could feel the sun
Your every wish will be done
They tell me
Fallen apart has his life with no little answer to anything. A silent tear rolls down his cheek and he knows that he will never be the same man he was supposed to have been before.
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart
A hand appears on his shoulder and he looks up in the loving brown eyes of Sirius Black.
Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze
Guilty roads to an endless love
There's no control
Are you with me now
Your every wish will be done
They tell me
One memory, one little special memory, still in his mind and he holds it like a precious gift not wanting to let go of it. The memory, the memory of him and Sirius being lovers, mates and even having a small family.
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart
He smiled sadly up to the man and then looks back outside searching for answers somewhere deep in his mind. But he doesn't find them and the one tear is not alone anymore as now several tears find there way down his cheek.
There's nowhere to runI have no place to go
Surrender my heart' body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel the things you never show
You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
Sirius stands now before him, taking him into his arms comforting him. "You'll remember I promise you will." Sirius whispers, kissing him on the forehead and wiping the last tears away.
Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missing in my heart
But he knows he won't and shakes his head. He only knows that he loves this man, but there is no rest. Here is the end.
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Song: Show me the meaning of being lonely by the BackstreetBoys
Author's Note: Thank you for the reviews in "Calling Heaven"!! I hope you liked this also!! If not I am sorry.